Maggie walked in and smiled as she saw Charlie hugging Ruth tightly as she sobbed on his shoulder. "How was today," Maggie whispered as she cuddled her tightly, "hey the first session is always hard." Ruth nodded slowly as she looked at her. "This isn't my fault is it?" Ruth asked as she stood up as she looked at them, "This is my families fault, they made me like this." Ruth walked up and down and looked out the window and saw Rachel walking around by the ambulances as Jay hid behind one as they played hide and seek. She smiled as she saw them and turned to look at them both. "Thank you both so much," Ruth whispered as she smiled at them.
"Come on then Rachy," Jay said as he panted breathlessly, "you have worn me out." Rachel laughed as she jumped into his arms and cuddled him tightly and then suddenly burst into tears on his shoulder. "Hey whats the matter?" Jay asked as he stroked her hair. "I want my mummy and Ruth," Rachel said as she sobbed. "Hey I'll take you up to see Ruth now OK?" Jay said as he kissed her lovingly on the head. "I wish you were my daddy," Rachel said mufffled as she had her face on his shoulder.
Charlie left to start his shift and Maggie sat next to Ruth and gave her the shoe box that Toby had given her earlier. "What's this?" Ruth asked as she looked at her. "They said you should have somethings from home here, some memories," Maggie said as she looked at her gently, "if this is too painful for you, we can stop." Ruth nodded as she opened the lid and smiled slightly as she found her plastic Drs stethoscope. She picked it up and sighed. "Toby bought this for me," Ruth said as she didn't notice Andrew sit down in the corner writing notes, "it was my sixth birthday, it was a set, it was a big plastic Dr, with this and plastic pots and all sorts, I loved it, then Dad smashed it, threw it against the wall." She shuddered as she closed her eyes.
"Look Daddy,"Ruth said as she showed him the plastic doctor set, "Toby bought it for me look, I 'm going to be a doctor." He looked at her angrily. "I AM TRYING TO WATCH THE TELLY," he shouted at her, "CAN'T YOU KEEP YOUR NOISE DOWN." Ruth's lip wobbled as she looked at him. "Its my birthday," she sniffed as she wiped her eyes slowly. "I know it was the worst day of my life when you were born," he said as he threw the bottle of beer at the wall, "so shut your trap." He picked up the plastic Dr and threw it at the wall and it smashed into thousands of pieces and then punched Ruth in the stomach.
Jay looked at Rachel as they stood at the vending machine. "What chocolate bar you want?" Jay asked as he picked up his Decker. "Whispa and one for Ruth please," Rachel said as she did her biggest smile at him. "You are such a good and brave girl you know," Jay said as he cuddled her. "Am I?" Rachel asked as she ran up the stairs, "come on Jay, I know you want to see Ruth," Rachel said winking at him. Jay laughed as he ran after her.
"He broke it, he punched me," Ruth said as tears rolled her face, "except for this, i treasured it, I used to try and hear Toby's chest." Maggie smiled at her as he hugged her tightly. Ruth picked up her Barbie which had no hair and she sobbed loudly as she hugged it. "Jonathon cut its hair off," Ruth whispered as she looked down, "I shouldn't be upset it happened years ago." Maggie rubbed her shoulder. "What happened to your Barbie?" Maggie asked gently.
"Shhh," Jay said as he stood outside and saw Ruth and Maggie deep in conversation with tears rolling down Ruth's face, but he could tell she wasn't angry like this morning, she was calm, she had her eyes shut the whole time just reliving it. "Why is Auntie crying?" Rachel asked as Jay poked his head near the door so he could hear. "You know I said she was ill?" Jay asked as he bent down towards Rachel, "well she is talking about why she is ill." Rachel nodded sadly. "Are you being nosy?" Rachel asked as she smiled at him. Jay laughed at her and nodded.
"I was playing with Barbie and Ken, you know the shaving Ken," Ruth said as she picked up the Ken from the box and looked at Maggie her piercing blue eyes staring at her, "I asked Jonathon to find me the razer and he wouldn't he was high on something, I got high just smelling him, I kept going on and on about him finding the razor and then he got up and he came back with a razor and cut my arm with it and wiped the blood with the hair of the Barbie, he cut her hair to hide the blood from Toby." Ruth looked down and lifted her top up to show Maggie the scar on her side.
"That hurt," Ruth said as she looked at Jonathon with tears in her eyes, "I'm bleeding." Jonathon looked at her as he threw her plastic scethescope at her. "You want to be a doctor so fix it," Jonathon sneered at her, "stop your sniffing and get me my beer." Ruth stood up and wiped her eyes and ran into the kitchen and wiped her wound with a grotty tea towl.
Maggie hugged her tightly. "He had no right to do that to you," Maggie said as she looked at her seriously, "that was not your fault." Ruth nodded as she wiped her eyes with her sleeve and sighed. "It felt good Maggie, it realised my pain and my sorrow," Ruth said as she looked at her tears brimming her eyes. "I've been self harming for about 5 years," Ruth admitted suddenly as she looked at her, "it helps me cope." Maggie nodded as she looked at her. "Now you don't have to do that, you have us to support you, no one is going to hurt you here and at mine OK?" Maggie said as she stroked her hair as Ruth smiled as she took out her Coca-Cola Christmas truck.
"Holidays are coming, Holidays are coming," Ruth whispered as she smiled wildly at Maggie, "always coca-cola." Maggie chuckled as she looked at the truck. "This was the last Christmas present mum got me," Ruth said smiling at Maggie, "I treasure it for life." Maggie smiled at her as Ruth put the truck by the side of her bed. "When Christmas's were happy," she whispered as she looked at her, "before I ruined it."
"I think you have had enough for today," Maggie whispered as she hugged her tightly. Ruth nodded at her and smiled at her. "Thank you so much," Ruth whispered as she looked at her. Maggie kissed her head. "I am so proud of you," Maggie whispered as she smiled at her, "now lets get you some dinner." Ruth nodded as she saw Jay standing there waving a wispa bar at her. she laughed at him as she waved at him to come in. "Ruth," Rachel said as she ran in happily, "I've missed you." Ruth kissed her and hugged her. "I've missed you too," Ruth said as she cuddled her.
Jonathon walked through the ED and saw Toby from the corner of his eye and he smiled at him. "Alright Brother," Jonathon said as he smirked at him high, "wheres my daughter?"