co-written by RatedrKjErIcHo.

Mike stood in the church where they'd been married a few days later looking at Nikki's casket. He'd decided on the blue dress. The one she'd worn the day they met. That had been the best day of his life until the day she'd agreed to be his wife. He felt someone come up beside him and turned to see Adam and John standing there.

"I'm not sure I can do this." Mike said quietly to them.

They each placed a hand on one of his shoulders. "We know how hard this will be for you but we are here for you." John said to him.

"John's right. We will help through this."

"Thanks guys." He sighed and looked at her casket again. He placed his hand on it and tried to hold in his tears. "I love you so much."

John looked up and saw people coming. "People are here Mike."

"Thanks." Mike wiped his tears and took his seat.

Melody walked in with Jamie and Randy and was met by John in the aisle. He took her hand and they sat down beside Mike. He knew she was going to have a rough time as was Jamie. Both still blamed themselves for what happened and both had been so upset the last few days.

Randy and Jamie sat by Adam on one side of Mike and Melody and John sat down on the other side of him. John looked over at Jamie as the light glittered off the ring on her hand. He smiled. His little sister was getting married. The smile faded from his face when he looked over at Mike. It was ironic in a way. Jamie and Randy were happy and on the brink of starting their lives together and Mike was having to say goodbye to the woman he loved and pick up the pieces of his life.

"Welcome." The preacher said as he took the podium. "We are here today to say goodbye to Nicole Mizanin. A young woman who was taken before her time. She was a loving wife to Michael Mizanin and a great friend to all. Now, I understand we have some friends who would like to speak about Nicole."

Adam walked up to the podium. "I've known Nikki since she was just a kid it seems. She'd come and visit when we were on the road. She had a way of making friends with everyone. And everyone was family to her. The happiest day of her life was the day she met Mike. They started in with this weird banter between them and you could just tell where it was headed. She would light up whenever he came into the room." He wiped a tear from his eye. "I will always remember how full of life Nikki was. We will miss you girl." He stepped down as Melody stepped up next.

"I remember the first time Nikki and I met. She was visiting and I had just started dating my husband and I was a little nervous about traveling with him. Nikki was in catering and she saw me alone and she came and sat down with me. It wasn't long before we were best friends. She helped me so much. She was one of the best people I had ever met. She always went above for her friends. I know I will never find a friend like her again." Melody did her best to hold in her tears. "I love you Nikki and I will always miss you." Melody stepped down and went back to her seat.

"Now, a song." Everyone listened as 'Over You' by Miranda Lambert played in the chapel.

Mike leaned forward with his head in his hands and Adam put a hand on his back. They got up a few seconds later and headed outside.

"This isn't right. This isn't the way this was supposed to go! It's not fair Adam! It's Not Fucking Fair. How am I supposed to just let her go? How am I supposed to bury her and go on when she's taking my heart with her?"

Adam stood there and let Mike rant. "I wish I had the answers for you, man. I do. All I can do is tell you that you will be okay. You just have to take things one day at a time. Remember how much Nikki loved you."

"I don't know how I can be okay. My life is nothing without her."

Adam sighed. "Mike, this isn't something you will ever really get over. Just take things one day at a time. That's all you can do. C'mon man. We need to get to the cemetery." Adam said.

Mike nodded and followed his emotions still raging inside him. This couldn't be real he told himself. It was a nightmare. He'd wake up and be lying in bed with Nikki, her belly still safely holding their son and the last few weeks would all be some disastrous mess. But he looked over at Jamie's face and knew that wasn't true. Her battle scars were on the outside and proof to him that Chris, the mad man he had been, had given them all wounds that would take time to heal.

They arrived the cemetery and took their seats as the pawn bearers brought the casket and placed on the platform. Jamie and Melody both held Mike's hands as the preacher started.

"May the lord watch over everyone as we lay Nicole Mizanin to rest. Please watch over her husband and family and friends as they deal with this and try to move on. And may we all meet again in the kingdom of heaven. Amen."

Mike let out an involuntary sob as they lowered the casket into the ground. He looked over at Jamie as she squeezed his hand and leaned over giving her a small hug. Somehow, this whole monstrous ordeal had brought them closer. The preacher motioned for Mike to come forward to be the first to throw the dirt. He got up slowly and walked over to the pile of dirt. He picked up a small handful and walked to his wife's grave. He tossed the dirt as the tears fell. Soon everyone else followed and did the same. They walked back to their cars as Mike stood there looking at his wife's grave.

John helped Melody into the car and looked back to see Mike. He sighed and walked over to him with Randy and Adam close behind.

"Mike, it's time to go." John said softly to him.

"Just...just let me sit here for a while in the quiet. Please?" He said his voice barely above a whisper. Adam looked at the other two men and nodded for them to go. That he'd stay with Mike and bring him back safely.

Randy and John headed back to Jamie and Melody. They hoped Mike would be okay. They drove back to John and Melody's where everyone was. They explained that Mike would be along shortly. Mike sat there for a minute, his eyes closed and sighed. He lifted his face up, letting the sunlight hit him. "She always loved the sunshine. She told me once that she was a solar creature. That the sunlight made her stronger."

"I remember. She was a lot like the sun herself." Adam said. "She could always bring light to a room. She was like a sister to me." Adam said. Mike nodded.

"She always said that sometimes, she felt like you were more her brother than he was." Mike said sniffing. "I'm happy for Randy and Jamie. She's been through so much and she deserves a good guy."

"You'll find love again. When you're ready for it." Mike shook his head.

"I don't know if that's true. But thanks for trying to make me feel better." Mike said. "We better get to John's house. Wouldn't want to keep everyone waiting." Adam nodded and they got up and walked to the car.

Jamie stood in the kitchen and looked back from arranging the food when the door opened. She turned back to what she was doing when she saw it was John.

"How are you feeling?" he asked as he walked up next to her.

"Not in a lot of pain. Doc says that everything should be feeling better in a day or two. The morning sickness sucks though." John laughed a little.

"Try crackers and ginger ale."

"Thanks. I will." Jamie said.

"Listen, I uh…..wanted to apologize for being such an ass."

"Because you were."

"Yes, I was. But you have to understand, you're my baby sister. And you've been so much already. I just wanted to protect you from getting hurt."

"I understand that. And I appreciate that. But John, I'm not fragile. I won't break. All the shit Chris put me through, it's made me stronger. And Randy is a great guy. He loves me. And he's not going to hurt me. I know what I'm doing." John nodded. Jamie hugged him. "I love you big brother."

"I love you too little sister." He hugged her back and headed into the living room where Melody was.

Jamie had to smile. She and John had managed to repair their relationship. She just hated that it was because of something like this. Now they all had to move on but could they?

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