Heart of a Child
By the Mighty Lu Bu
I don't own Xena, Didn't ya know that
(this entire chapter is Callisto POV)
I saw her standing before me. Clad in leather and her signature breast plate. She was so good. The warrior princess stood before me. She said "I'm here to put an end to this Callisto." I replied "Oh xena," I laughed. "You don't really want to end me, I make your life to fun." I screamed the way I always liked.
I charged at her, she deflected my blow. Oh I love her, she is so good. We crossed swords two more times, I blew her a kiss. She seemed emotionless. I stabbed at her as she sidestepped it, deflecting it grabbing my sword hand trying to dislocate my shoulder. I flipped my body to avoid the damage. I managed to get loose from her grip.
She ran at me, jumped into the air kicking me in the face, continuing the flip backwards and then landed on the ground in front of me facing me. I liked that move and copied it for myself. She swung at me I deflected it and sweep kicked her sending her to the ground. I pierced her heart. As she bled out I took the blood and rubbed on my face. I looked up and screamed with joy.
I awoke from my daydream. It bothered me, it's been happening more and more lately. I did not want that part of me anymore. Gabrielle, Lila Ephiny, Janelle and myself were all heading the Amazon village. I liked Amazons. Great warriors. Ephiny and Gabrielle were in deep conversation, I thought I'd have a little fun with them. I progress quietly behind at a speed most people could not manage quietly. Getting close I tapped Gabrielle on the shoulder. She looked back and saw nothing. She looked back in front of her. "Boo."
Gabrielle looked severely angry. She said "Callisto! Stop playing games!" I pouted and said "Girl's gotta have some fun." Gabrielle replied "Your not a child." She seemed to lose it. "You're a murdering…" Ephiny stopped her. I walked away, guess she is still mad at me. "She can't talk to you like that" I heard a voice. "Snap her neck." It was just a random thought, I put it away.
I got close to her. There was something I liked about her. She seemed warm and loving. Like a mother, though she had no child. She could have if it wasn't for me. That bothered me. So I got close to her. To be in her warmth.
She seemed to notice and then moved away from me. "She rejects you, rip her insides out. It will look cool." I shushed the voice. I backed away to give her more space. Then I listen to them talk.
Gabrielle said "Your right, she is like a child. She seems almost oblivious to everything, seems to hit her in bits and pieces but that's it. Its not much different than before but she is not trying to kill us. What are we going to do with her?" Ephiny answered "If this is how she is to be forever I don't know. I could see there would be a problem at the Amazon village if she stayed. Problem is she is immortal. So not only would she be essentially be a child with dangerous combat abilities. But one that would remain that way forever. I don't know what to do with her?"
Gabrielle added, "I don't want her around." I stormed up. I was angry, "You want to get rid of me?! I'm changed! I don't want to hurt you! I just want to be loved!" I sat down, tears rolling from my eyes. I saw the looks on their faces were bewildered. Then she reached down, I saw a look of repulsion at first and then I saw a light come to her face. She said "Listen, don't cry." She sat down beside me. "Look, its just that you can't die. I.. if… you don't want to leave us we won't make you." I reached over and embraced her. Putting my head in her lap.
What Callisto could not see was the stunned look, which said I don't want to do this. Callisto acting like that to her completely freaked her out.
She put her hand on my head. I had someone, and the voices went away. Still, I felt urges. Urges to hurt her. I didn't want to do it though because I loved her.
Sometime later we continued back. I was now walking with her. She seemed to resist at first but I got her to hold my hand. Those urges, I can't stand those urges. They were getting stronger. But I resisted them. With Gabrielle I would be happy.
I tried to get her to play with me but she wouldn't do it. I didn't understand it. Why wouldn't she play with me. "Kill her, Kill them both." Again, its happening more. I can't stand it. My head. But it went away.
Later on we were together looking at the night sky. We talked. We finally talked. "I miss her. My mother." I said. Gabrielle asked "What was it you liked most about her." I replied, "She used to sing me to sleep. Those songs she sung, I loved them. When she died I used to try to sing them to myself. But it hurt so much. I cried myself to sleep every night. When I think about it, I guess I can think about why you would be mad me, huh." Gabrielle replied "Its hard losing someone you love." I saw the pain in her face. I told her "I'm so sorry. I wished I never did it. Gabrielle, I need to tell you something, maybe you can help me."
Gabrielle looked at me intently. "Lately I've been getting these urges. Bad thoughts. They seem to be getting worse. I fight them I do, but they continue. What should I do?" She had a worried look on her face. Very worried. She said "You've got to fight them, you've seen the pain you cause, fight them." "You should see the pain I could cause you." The voice said.
I ignored, I hugged her goodnight and went to sleep. Funny I don't remember sleeping much since I became an immortal.
The next day, I was with them, I was less happy. I didn't want to hurt them or do anything bad, but it seemed dimmer. Like it was less. I felt less.
I saw Iolaus walk up to her. They talked awhile, then I saw him kiss her. In a fury I ran up to him and shoved him down on the ground. "She is mine!" He seemed hurt. I hoped he was ok. The voice was happy.