AN: i felt the whole song was needed for this chapter.

Goodbye My lover

"Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow."

Will

"ahhhh" squealed Rae slipping on the mud once again whilst trying to keep Lou up right as well.

I must say this is one of the funniest things I have ever seen; Rae, Lou and Scarlet all holding on to each other on the uneven muddy ground. Then Lou fell covering her rear with mud pulling Scar down with her and covering her in mud while Rae stared down at giggling her head off.

I chuckled whilst Emmett stood pointing at them laughing at the top of his lungs. Oscar was over in an instant helping Lou back on to her feet. While Griffin twitched arguing internally whether or not to help Scar whilst I rolled my eyes – would he just get on with it already.

We were walking to the trenches – or slipping to the trenches in the girls cases. I had to laugh at them in their brightly coloured wellys Rae's green and blue with multi coloured pokadots all over the place, Lou's bright pink, and Scarlet's purple.

Rae hobbled over to me a grin wide on her face then she slipped into my arms.

"oopsie" she said gripping to my arms as she steadied herself.

I put my hands on either side of her delicate face and noticed she felt very strange. Her face was hard and cold – like a vampires then she grinned and her teeth were noticeably sharper.

"Rae do you feel cold?" I asked stroking her cheek.

"Nope in fact you don't even feel cold" she said brightly.

Just as she said that a loud scream came from Lou and Scar as they fell into a trench. Suddenly Rae was angry.

"I knew it, I knew it, if I left them alone for one second they'd be down there" yelled waving her arms in the air.

Then she stomped over to the trench where already giving orders to Oscar and Griffin (not that they needed them) to help them out the trench.

"I turn my back for a second and you decide to fall down a trench" she puffed out frustrated at them as they were pulled out the trench.

"Sorry Mommy" said Lou.

I don't know why but Lou often called Rae her Mum I guess it was because Rae seemed to be naturally maternal towards people especially people who she felt needed more love than they were already give.

Rae sighed "Are you two alright?"

They both nodded then Rae smiled and burst out laughing "that was hilarious"

She was radiant even she had mud on her face (how did that get there?) her soul beamed brightly as she laughed with her friend.

I was turning her into a monster. Just like she could make us more human she made herself more like a vampire. I couldn't do that to her. Every time I touched her or kissed her I was making her less of the person she was. I loved her for being that person I couldn't change that. I could destroy something so beautiful.

I knew that she could live without me she was stronger than she though and although I had made a promise never to leave her but I also promised myself that I'd never turn her into this. I need her to live as she was now beautiful, passionate, humorous, loving and so human.

I would do it tonight I would leave and I'd take my family with me to anywhere. Back to the forks wherever as long as none of us touched her again everything would be fine.

I couldn't watch her die in my arms and become what I am. She had never said that she loved me anyway it was just a teenage crush. Sure she would be sad for a while but she's strong and she'll recover.

I knew that this would break me. Afterwards I would a shell but for her I would do anything. I was aware of three pairs of eyes on me, Alice's, Edward's and Jasper's they could all feel this.

The day went way to fast and I tried my hardest not to touch her but just before she went to sleep I kissed her for the last time. Gentle but I poured all my love into it and when it ended she looked like she was going to faint.

"goodnight" I whispered in her ear when really I was saying goodbye.

We left that night telling Bella that we were returning so she would create a fuss. I wrote a note to Rae and placed it next to her IPod where I knew she'd find it.

I felt my heart tear itself to pieces as we left and for the first time in a century I cried.