It had been a week since he forgave me, I couldn't come to terms that he had come to terms with the fact I had slept with his brother. We had talked everything through and I felt satisfied with our relationship. Our relationship has moved onto the physical side . Sure the sex was good, but there wasn't that passion. The first time we 'did it', I had passion, all the feelings of hurt anger resurfaced. The hate of Edward killing my Jacob and indirectly killing Charlie, I found myself with all that passion, Edward thought I was really into it, when infact I was just having a "mood swing". The second time I just felt Empty. I am now grieving my dads death and Jacobs death, I spent six months distancing myself from Edward, but not really grieving. The truth is, in that six months, I blamed Edward, I blamed him for killing Jacob, I blamed him for the LA Push gang killing Charlie. But most of all I blamed myself, for ever coming to forks.

Over the past week, everyone (CULLENS) just acted like nothing had ever happened, but I couldn't I couldn't really look at Rosalie in the eyes, I felt uncomfortable around Emmet and I had been confiding in Jasper. I tried to keep it to myself, but Jasper having the emotions of a super hormonal teenager, he knew. I felt awkward around him, because I didn't want the family to think that I was now after Jasper. I can just imagine their thoughts:

Alice:She WON'T get my husband too!!

Jasper: I love my wife ALICE...REMEMBER

Rosalie: She's had Edward and Emmet, 2 down one to go.

Emmet: Ah shit!!! Lost AGAIN!! I hate these wanna be car racing games... hey is Jasper cheating on Alice? GAME OVER!!!! Oh no not again, I'm gonna bin this bloody game!! &"££&

Carlisle: Maybe it was a mistake letting Bella into this family?

Esme: I've always thought of her as a daughter, why would she do this to our family?

Edward: I love her so much I hope I'm enough for her, I hope she doesn't cheat.

Me: NO!!!! YOU HAVE IT ALL WRONG!! PLEASE DONT THINK THAT!

That is what they will think and I don't want them to!

I was sat in Edward's, correction, our room looking out of the window. Esme had asked me to move all the garden furniture for the BBQ later, BBQ except without the food, I stood looking out of the window over looking the back yard and moved each chair and table with one flick of my finger. My telekinesis power really came in handy as it took really no energy from me to move things or people, or permanently lodge an end table up anyone's ass.

After I had finished, I heard Edward come in he wrapped his arms round my waist and whispered in my ear "Are you ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine" I pushed his hands away, I just needed time to think, I didn't need him in my face.

He looked hurt "Bella, if you need to talk, I'm here.

"I'm fine really, go on and help downstairs I'll be down in a min"

"Ok" He reluctantly pulled away.

I love Edward, I know I do, its just at the moment I'm so unhappy.

Anyway I better get ready for the party.