Hello everyone! For Christmas I'm updating all of my in-progress stories and, most likely, adding a Christmas Twilight fiction as well. Hope you enjoy. Merry Christmas!

I don't own Twilight.

Update #4:

EPOV

I was losing her. I watched Bella slip deeper and deeper inside herself. I felt like I was slowly losing parts of my soul. How could fate be so cruel as to give me my Bella back just to steal her away again?

"Bella?" I asked. It was another quiet, empty day. Bella was sitting at the piano, staring at the keys. She didn't move. She wasn't even breathing. "Bella, my love? Please, please talk to me." She still sat motionless.

I walked over to the piano bench and sat next to her. Her skin was even paler than the usual vampire pale. The diet of stale blood that I had been feeding to her was not enough. Bella was literally wasting away before my eyes.

BPOV

Talk to him. My subconscious ordered me. No! I argued back I couldn't face the world. It felt like everyone I cared about was slowly leaving me. Edward's not about to leave you again. You said that you believe it. I had no response. I did believe it, but then, I would never have believed that Jacob would end up dying for me either. It would not have crossed my mind that Charlie might die anytime soon.

You're pushing him away! The old Bella screamed at me. My heart was shattering. If I kept this up, I would lose him, but I was drowning. I couldn't claw my way to the surface. Every time I tried, memories surfaced that pushed me back down into the shadows.

"Please, my love. I'm not going to leave you. I need you to talk to me." He was begging. It seemed as if he could read my mind, but I knew he could not. I heard him as if from a great distance. The old Bella cried for him, hating me. I felt bad for her, for him. This perfect creature deserved much better than me.

EPOV

"Bella." I whispered. I felt her moving away from me. It was akin to when James had bitten her. I could literally feel her disappearing from in front of me, but this time, I didn't know how to stop it. I didn't know how to pull her back to me.

"Edward?" Alice said from behind me.

"What is it, Alice?" My voice sounded very weary.

"Edward, you have to do something." I could easily see the future in her mind, and none of her visions showed a change in Bella's behavior.

"I don't know what to do, Alice."

"I'm sorry, Edward." Her eyes were filled with invisible, unshedable tears. She turned and walked gracefully away. Jasper met her at the door and pulled her into his arms. They were giving us privacy, not that it would help.

Alice and Jasper stopped after a few steps. Alice turned and her voice carried softly to where I sat. "This isn't as bad as when you left her. If you can bring her back from that…"

"How is this not as bad?"

"Edward, when you left…Bella wasn't even fighting the shadows. Can't you see it? She's fighting for you, not strongly, but a little. Sometimes I can see it more clearly than others. You can get her back." She turned away before I could speak, and they ran out of sight.

I turned back to my love. She hadn't moved at all. She looked like a statue, the perfect rendition of grief and guilt. Had it really been worse? 50 years of worse depression than this? How was she still able to be Bella after that? My own regret came back, but I had to fight it away. Bella was the most important thing.

I was filled with a new determination. "Bella?" She didn't move, but I hadn't expected that. I was watching her eyes. I saw the smallest flicker. I wouldn't have noticed it if I hadn't known her so well. "My love, come back to me." I used my most velvety voice, trying to dazzle her back to me. I thought I saw a stronger flicker, but I could not be sure.

I hit the piano lightly in frustration. It happened then. Bella seemed closer. It wasn't exactly knowledge of that fact that hit me, it was just a feeling. I knew what to do. I had to play for her.

BPOV

"My love, come back to me." His velvet voice whispered. I'm trying. I thought. This time the arguing voice was fainter. I felt closer to the old Bella. I could see her, a slightly more solid than shadow figure in the darkness. The old Bella was crying for him, for my inability to find him.

A few notes jarred the darkness, stirring the shadows. The dark, pain filled memories were scattered by the much stronger thoughts of him, of my lullaby. There were vague human memories filled with blooming passion, wonder, and love, and there were new memories. I started to move forward towards the other Bella.

Then, the memories merged with reality. I could hear the lullaby playing, and I could hear his voice, calling me back to him. The other Bella looked up, hope in her eyes.

"Bella, I love you. You can do this." I hope so. The other Bella was no more. There was just me. I was the other Bella. Love for Edward blocked out the emotions that had drowned me. I let the notes that I so loved lift me out of the shadows.

When I had almost touched the surface, the music stopped. He sighed in frustration and sorrow, and with a hint of fear. I heard him curse, not something that Edward would usually do. He took his hands off the keys. I could see him now, though from an angle, as if I was not in my body.

I no longer needed the music. My eyes did not leave his body, and as I came back to myself I watched him. His head was bowed in defeat. Was Edward really going to give up? That was unacceptable. He seemed to think so too. He turned to me, cupping my face in his hands. He kissed my forehead.

"Bella…" I needed to hear my lullaby again. There was that last bridge to be crossed. As if he knew, he began to play. I stirred, and began to play with him. He gasped.

"Bella!"

"Edward." I whispered, but his lips were already descending to mine. I kissed him with everything in me.

"You came back to me." He whispered, some time later.

"I will always come back to you." I said. "It just took me a little while to wake up."

"I thought vampires couldn't sleep." He joked. There was such relief in his face that it overflowed to fill me. I smiled. He grinned my favorite crooked smile. He was dazzling.

"I love you." I said. I loved him more than I had ever thought possible. There was barely room for anything else inside of me. The guilt and grief were still there, but this was so much stronger.

"I love you." He said and kissed me again and again. "Let's just put this all behind us." I nodded my agreement. It was time to move on with him, with Edward.

We both turned back to the ivory and black keys. Our fingers danced over them playing the intertwined melodies that we had each written for the other. It was a perfect moment. It felt like waking up to a new day. I had my family, my love. I had to hope and believe that we would be able to face the future together.

That might actually be the end. I don't know what else to write. I mean I could write about Bree and Davin, but that sort of feels like I would just be trying to extend it past its end. I totally didn't expect this to be the last chapter though so….Review! Tell me if you want me to try to write more or what.