A/N: Happy New Year. I hope you enjoy.
Disclaimer: I do not own Attack On Titan.
My hands were trembling, my head was dizzy. I was walking slowly, preventing my body from giving in. I was able to reach the bedroom I shared with Levi. Opening the door, I found him sitting on the bed, reading a book. His head lifted at the sound of my footsteps and he frowned when he saw me.
-What happened to you? –He questioned, standing up from the bed and helping me lay down.
-I have no fucking idea. –I joked, letting out a humourless laugh. I didn't want to worry him.
-You look like shit. –He mentioned, inspecting me for any wounds. He took hold of my wrist and lifted my arm.
-I know. –I answered, trying to free my arm.
-What happened to you? –He repeated, his voice dangerously low.
-I don't know. –I claimed. I didn't know what had caused the sudden pain in my body. It terrified me.
Levi sighed and rubbed his temples. He stood up, and looked for something in a nearby drawer. He came back and kneeled in front of me, taking my hand and wrapping my wrist carefully. I watched his every move. After he finished, he placed the bandages back in the drawer and sat down next to me.
-If someone dared to hurt you, I'm going to shove my foot up their asses. –He stated. I laughed at his words and kissed his cheek.
-Then, you'd have to beat me up. –I answered, staring at the bandages.
-Did you hurt yourself? –He asked, frowning. I could see that he tensed up. He was gripping the sheets.
-No. My body did this. –I signalled to the scar. Although, it was already covered by the bandages, he understood immediately and sighed.
-It causes you pain, Merethe. I don't like it. –He said, laying down and pulling me closer to him.
-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to worry you. –I apologized. I knew he probably felt miserable, not being able to do anything about my pain.
-I hate seeing you in pain. This is the first time in years I've seen you this bad. –Levi trailed off, his gaze focused on my wrist. I knew what he meant by that. The first time I had controlled a titan, I had bled. A lot. As if my body had accepted the rush of power but quickly rejected it.
-I'm sorry. –I repeated, not knowing what else to tell him.
-Don't. It's not your fault. You can't control it. –He stopped me. Burying his face in the crook of my neck, he held me close. I wanted to stay like that forever.
Meadow jumped into the bed and placed herself between Levi and me. She kept on pushing me to the side so that she could have Levi all to herself. Damn cat. I separated my body from Levi's and allowed her to cuddle up with him. I huffed in annoyance.
-Don't tell me you are jealous of the cat. –Levi said, raising an eyebrow questioningly and smirking.
-I'm not. –I replied, looking away. I was jealous of the cat, but my pride didn't allow me to admit it. I crossed my arms and looked at anything but him.
Levi chuckled. I could hear the cat purring in the background. I didn't expect Levi to place the cat aside and hug me. The satisfaction of hearing Meadow hiss in the back made me smirk. My smirk was quickly replaced by a gasp when I felt Levi's fingers tickling me. I erupted in laughter.
-L-Levi, stop…-I managed to say between laughter. I couldn't breathe. I was kicking the air in a pathetic attempt to stop him. I could hear him laughing along with me. It was barely audible, but my ears picked it up. I lifted my head and looked at him. His eyes were closed and a huge smile was spread across his face.
Suddenly, my eyes filled with tears. I didn't know the reason why. After three long years, I had never heard his laugh, not even once. It filled me with joy. His tickling ceased to bother me and I was no longer laughing, but crying. I wasn't sad, I was overwhelmed with happiness. Levi heard my sobbing and stopped. He looked at me, the smile on his face fading and instead, replaced with a worried expression.
-Did I hurt you? –He asked, taking his hands off me, as if he had just broken the most fragile object in the world. I sat up and he imitated my actions. I wiped the tears from my face and embraced him. His arms, hesitantly, wrapped themselves around me.
-No. –I answered, burying my face in the crook of his neck, as he had previously done. One by one, tears slid off my cheeks and landed on his shirt.
-Merethe, what's wrong? –He asked, grabbing me by the shoulders and looking into my eyes. He couldn't seem to read me.
-Nothing's wrong. Everything is alright. –I stated, pulling him closer. That was when I knew it. That the only way to feel truly alive is giving someone the power to destroy us. I had given him my life. My heart. Him, and him alone, had the power to throw it all away and destroy what I was.
I kissed him and smiled. He had a perplexed look on his face. Tears stopped flowing from my eyes. I caressed his cheek and kissed the tip of his nose. He smiled. There it was, that smile I loved so much but rarely saw. He played with a misplaced strand of my hair and tucked it behind my ear. He leaned in so that our foreheads were touching.
-There's something I have to give you. –He whispered, taking my hands.
-What is it? –I asked curiously.
-I'll give it to you tomorrow. –He answered, giving me a quick peck on the lips.
I giggled and scooted closer to him. He lifted me and sat me on his lap, so that I was straddling his lips. Our noses were touching, our lips were so close. I couldn't believe how much I saw, when he looked back at me. For the first time, I understood what love was.
He closed his eyes and chuckled. I leaned in to his ear and whispered.
-What's so funny? –I asked, letting out a little laugh.
-Nothing. I'm…happy. –He said, placing his hand on my neck and pushing me closer into his body.
-Why? –I questioned.
-I found love where it wasn't supposed to be. –He answered. I frowned and lifted my head.
-What do you mean? –I demanded. Perhaps I had misunderstood his words.
-I never expected to fall in love with a comrade. I always thought I would die before meeting someone. –He answered, his eyes looking down.
-Well, life has strange ways of bringing people together, right? –I replied, rubbing the temple of his jaw with my finger.
-Indeed. –He said, before kissing me. I smiled into the kiss and separated our lips. He stared at me.
I had never told him. I had never gathered enough courage to tell him. His eyes, told me everything, somehow without words.
-I love you, Levi. –I confessed. Finally saying those words to him, made it feel extremely real.
His eyes widened at my words and it took him a moment to register them. For a moment, his expression was sad, but it changed to happiness. He smiled and kissed me.
-I love you too, Merethe. –He replied, embracing me.
Everything was alright.
"If you live to be a hundred, I want to live a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you." -A. A. Milne
A/N: To The Moon reference, people. I hope you enjoyed. I look forward to seeing you on 2016.