A/N: I am SO sorry for the delay in updating all of my stories, but life and severe writer's block has made it almost impossible to get anything written, although my set goal is to get the next chapter for all of my NCIS fics chapters out by this Friday, one down, two to go. Hopefully this chapter will be good and get me out of it, at least for a little while anyways! Thanks again, Enjoy^.^
Disclaimer: Don't own, wish I did.
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A comfortable silence engulfed them as they enjoyed just being able to relax. It wasn't until hours later that they went back to the plantation. They were still in good spirits as they went to their respective rooms, Jenny exceedingly so. She had had one of the best days she had in a very long time and couldn't wipe the smile from her face; little did she know everything was going to take a turn for the worse.
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"I had a ton of fun today, what are we doing tomorrow?" Jenny asked her voice filled with excitement. Gibbs laughed at the amount of excitement causing Jenny to look at him with a brow raised.
"What's so funny?" She asked looking at him.
"Just how excited you are, DiNozzo mentioned going to Bush Gardens tomorrow if you want to do that…"
"Yes! Roller coasters are almost as fun as water rides; of course, what did Ziva say to the idea?"
"She agreed with DiNozzo…"
"Then it's settled, Bush Gardens, here we come…" She heard Gibbs snicker and interrupted before he could comment. "Don't say anything if you want to sleep in the bed tonight…!" She threatened and walked away towards the bedroom.
Gibbs just stood shocked at how Jenny was acting. The director façade was finally breaking down, and he was getting to see the woman he originally fell in love with, and it was harder to stay away than he could have imagined.
"Jethro, I just remembered…" Jenny said shouting from the bedroom as she gathered her things for a shower.
"Yeah?" He asked hoping she wasn't going to pick the subject from the first ride back up again.
"You still have to tell me what you overheard, and don't try to lie, you may know my tell very well, but I know yours as well, I know you Jethro Gibbs." She finished as she walked back into the living room holding pajamas, as well as other articles of clothing that were almost completely covered by the others, but not quite all the way.
'Don't even look Jethro!' He scolded himself as he forced his eyes to meet hers.
"It was nothing Jen, I overheard something Ziva was saying about Ara when she was in Israeli, and Kelly came to mind when you asked if the kids were excited, nothing major…" He pulled the card, he felt terrible about it, but would rather deal with some of the pain then have her suffer any more, she already had a traumatic few months.
He watched as her face went from happy and curious to sad and sympathetic.
"I shouldn't have pushed, but if it's any consolation I know how you feel…" 'Shit, shit, shit!!!' Jenny couldn't believe she let that slip, hopefully he wouldn't ask her anything about it and just take her condolences…one look however told her that he made somewhat of a connection, or at least was suspicious of something.
"Jen…? How do you know how I feel…?" He asked, pushing her slightly, but allowing her to back out if she didn't want to tell him anything.
'SHIT!' She thought as soon as he asked.
"I just meant, when I was in Cairo with Ziva the second time I had to watch our captors murder children in front of us and be able to do nothing about it, they may not have been my children, but it was still terrible…" Well, it was half true, she really did have to watch that, but she felt her eye twitching nonetheless.
"Eye." Was all he said.
"I need to take a shower, what are we doing for dinner?" She said changing the subject as she started to fiddle with the clothing she was holding.
"Ziti sound good?" Gibbs asked allowing her to change the subject; he would only push her slightly.
"Ziti sounds good." She said making sure she had all of her clothes as she started walking towards the bathroom.
"Why won't you say anything Jen?" He said to himself when he heard the shower turn on.
An hour in a half later, Jenny and Gibbs were both showered and had just finished eating and were cleaning up when their phone rang.
Gibbs and Jenny looked at one another before walking over to the hotels phone and picking it up.
"Hello?" Jenny asked looking at Gibbs whos was looking straight back trying to gauge her reaction.
"Mommy?" Ara's voice asked and Jenny let out a relieved smile.
"No Ara, its Jenny sweetheart, is Abby there?" She asked as Gibbs turned back to the kitchen area to finish cleaning off the counter.
"Hi Jenny!" Ara said excitedly, before giving the phone to Abby.
"Hi director, sorry, Ara wanted to talk to Ziva, but I didn't want to give her your undercover cell numbers, just in case you were near Mira, so I gave her the hotel room I found, but I didn't have Tony and Ziva's, so I had her call this one, and I'm sorry director, please don't be mad, she just really missed Ziva and wanted to make sure everyone was okay and all, not that I didn't because I did, I do, but she was asking and she has those eyes…." Abby was speaking a million miles a minute and Jenny had to bit her cheek from laughing.
"Abby, Abs slow down, it's fine, both Jethro and I are awake, besides I was missing you and Ara…"
"Oh thank goodness, I was really worried that you or Gibbs…wait, Jethro? Jenny, you vixen!" Abby said teasingly. Abby would always tease Jen when she called Gibbs Jethro, it always seemed to make Jenny blush slightly, of coarse, Abby always made sure Jenny wasn't pissed.
"Abby, you know it's not like that." Jenny said feeling the heat rise to her face at getting caught again, it wasn't anything to get embarrassed about, but when everyone else calls him Gibbs except for his ex-wives and Girlfriends, she kinda stands out. Technically no one, but Ziva were a hundred percent positive that her and Gibbs used to be lovers. Sure they suspected it, but couldn't prove it
"Not like what Jenny?" Abby played innocent, but Jenny could hear her snickering as well as…Ara laughing?! Now she just couldn't keep the laugh in, even though the situation was incredibly awkward, especially since Jethro was now sitting across from her watching the conversation take place. Jenny's eyes kept going back and forth from Gibbs to her hand that was playing with the cord of the phone.
"You know what Abby!" Jenny said feeling more heat rise to her face when Gibbs gave her the observing look. She turned uncomfortably so he couldn't see her face as well as she continued talking.
"Do you want me to give Ara Ziva's hotel number?" She asked changing the subject at which Abby laughed even louder, but Ara's excited 'yes please' was clear.
She quickly gave the number and said her goodbyes to both Abby and Ara before hanging up and going to sit on the couch with Gibbs.
"So, what are we watching?" Jenny asked pulling her feet up and angling them to the side of her.
"What do you want to watch Jen?" He asked back still trying to figure out why she was blushing so much a few seconds ago, he knew it couldn't deal with Mark, he knew they were having a disagreement right now, besides, her phone was still off, which meant she still didn't want to talk to him.
"Give it to me!" She said and Gibbs almost couphed on his coffee as his head whipped around to look at her with shock.
"What?!" Jenny said uncomfortable with the way he was starring at her.
"What did you just say?" He asked not trusting his ears.
"…Give it to me…" She said not realizing what he was getting at until she realized he must not have been listening to what she had asked for right before that statement. Her face went bright red as she corrected herself.
"The remote, give it to me." She corrected as Gibbs face went back to normal and he passed her the note with a small grin still on his face as he saw how embarrassed she got when she realized what her statement suggested.
The rest if the night they spent watching 'The Tao of Steve', before heading off to bed.
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Ziva had just gotten off the phone with Ara when Tony went to sit next to her on the couch.
"Alright Miss David, it's time for your movie history showing. Are you ready for this?!" Tony asked trying to build suspense as he flipped on the T.V an navigated to the channel 'The Tao of Steve' was playing.
"What's it about Tony?" Ziva said using him to lean on while watching the opening credits.
"Well Zeevaah, it's about this underachieving, overweight kindergarten teacher that finds a woman who forces him to reexamine his Zen-like ways of seduction…" Tony said adjusting both himself and Ziva so he had his head on the armrest of the couch and his arm around Ziva's body, while Ziva's head was resting on next to his shoulder on his chest.
"Sounds interesting, is his ability to pick up women as good as yours Tony?" Ziva asked meaning to tease him.
"I pried myself to think so, but every man has to change his method once he finds someone he really likes." Tony said look at her as she turned to look at his face.
"Oh, and have you?" She asked curiously, not getting her hopes up.
"Just once…"
"Jeanne?" Ziva asked looking back at the movie not wanting to see his face when he clarified it.
"I don't really count Jeanne, because I was undercover at the time, I had to play that role, I cared about her, but not as much as I cared for this other girl." Tony said grinning as Ziva asked who it was.
"Jealous Zeevaah?!" He teased.
"You wish Tony, I am just curious to know who this woman is that has gotten you so slipped off guard." She replied back, keeping her voice neutral as she 'watched' the movie.
"Hmm, well, she's a real pretty one, almost my height, a bit shorter, real strong too, but she doesn't look like those women body builders. She's fast too, she doesn't talk too much about herself because she grew up getting told not to. The thing I really like about her, besides the fact that she's funny, smart, strong, fast, beautiful, nice and yet intimidating, are her eyes, they are extremely expressive, even if she thinks there not…" He was saying, trying to get her to make the connection, and by the way she was tensed slightly he knew she had.
"And her name?" Ziva asked wanting to confirm her thoughts.
"What was her name…Lucy…?" He asked and felt her form slump slightly. "Wait, that's not it…Sarah, yeah, that was her name. He said and he felt Ziva start to pull away, he held her tighter as he continued. "I love her middle name…oh you wanted the first name?! He said as she looked at him. "Ziva's her first name, pretty name isn't it?" Tony asked smiling as she stared at him.
"Me?" She asked, and when he nodded she leaned in and kissed him softly at first, but it grew more urgent as it went on.
"Maybe we can watch the movie tomorrow night." Ziva suggested as she straddled Tony's lap and kissed him again.
"Fine with me." Tony said as he returned the kiss.
There clothes didn't stay on long in their desire to feel one another.
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Gibbs woke up to Jenny crying in her sleep and was about to try and wake her when he heard his name.
"No, no, no! God Jethro I'm sorry! No! Oh god I'm so sorry, NOOOOO!" Jenny suddenly shouted and sat up crying. Her hands went straight to her torso, and when she felt nothing there her tears only increased in intensity.
Gibbs couldn't believe what was happening, he had barely ever seen Jenny cry, and he had never before seen her cry this hard, but more than that, she had two nightmares, in two nights having something to do with him, and both of them caused her to react like he had barely ever seen her react before. He quickly sat up and hugged her from behind, knowing she needed comfort right now, because it must have been terrible if it was making her react like this.
"I'm so sorry Jethro!" Jenny said as she turned slightly so she could cling to him better, but she still gripped her stomach with the other hand. Gibbs rocked her back and forth for he didn't know how long.
When her tears finally started to subside, he asked her if she wanted to talk about it, but instead of answering him, she jumped out of bed, grabbed her nightgown shawl and ran out of the room yelling she had to talk with Ziva right now and DiNozzo was going to be over in a second.
Gibbs knew now wasn't the time to push her so he let her go and talk to Ziva, by her actions he thought it might have something to do with her miscarriage, but she kept saying his name, so he knew it couldn't be that, but what he wasn't sure.
A few minutes later Tony was announcing himself."
"In here." Gibbs said back, too tired to get out of bed to talk with Tony, he knew Jenny wouldn't say anything to him, that's why he was over here.
"Is the director alright? She looked as if someone just died, and I mean it…"
"DiNozzo!" Gibbs warned him glaring.
"I've just never seen her in such a wreck." He said being careful at what he was saying.
"She had another nightmare about something." Gibbs said knowing the younger agent wasn't trying to gossip, but was genuinely worried about her.
"Did she say anything like last night?" He pushed a bit more.
Gibbs debated for a minute before deciding to be honest with him. "My name, 'sorry', and 'no' a lot, not much else." He said getting gout of bed and fixing it a bit in case Jenny came back tonight, which he didn't think she was going to, he could see Tony's pillow and blanket on the couch, still he needed to keep his hands busy to keep him from going over and making sure Jen was alright.
"Boss, you do know that Jenny doesn't care for Mark right?" Tony said quietly scarred of how his boss was going to react.
"DiNozzo, I am not having this conversation with you right now." Gibbs said as he pulled harder on the sheet.
"Gibbs, she really doesn't. She talks to Ziva, and Ziva told me. Aparently she's setiling for Mark, she deniys it, but everyone knows that she's in love with you, why can't you see it…?!" Tony said raising his voice forgetinig he was talking to his boss, but fed up with this whole mess that was going on between his boss and his boss' boss.
"DINOZZO! " He shouted turning sharply to him and giving him his glare used on criminals.
"She does, and if you don't do anything about it, she's going to follow through with this ridiculous wedding, then she'll be Mark's, she'll be miserable and so will you, even if you don't want to admit it…"
"I said I'm NOT HAVING THIS CONVERSATION, NOW LEAVE!" He said walking towards the door and shutting it in Tony's face.
Gibbs knew Tony wasn't trying to piss him off, he was only trying to let Gibbs have the happy ending, but Tony didn't know anything about Jen or him.
Jenny moved on in Paris, she found Mark, and no matter what Tony says, she is happy with him, otherwise she wouldn't be getting married, Jenny doesn't settle, she's too damn stubborn for that.
Tony was pissed with his boss, not only was he making himself feel terrible, but Jenny as well. They both had it in their minds that the other has moved on, and they both refuse to allow the other to see that they haven't. He also knew, that if he said anything more tonight that it would only get worse for all parties involve, including Ziva and himself, No, now he would let Gibbs think about what he said, and se what that leads to.
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Jenny couldn't believe she had the dream again, but this time it was so much worse, not only did she have to relive loosing her child and the pain that came with it. In this dream Gibbs found out, and he was devastated, he couldn't even look at her after she lost their baby.
Having to relive loosing her unborn child was bad enough, but having Gibbs hate her and be so furious with her that he accused her of killing their baby and be unable to even be in the same room as her was more than she could handle.
She knew she was taking a risk when she told Gibbs she was sorry, but she had to, even if he didn't really know what she was sorry about, she had to releave some of the guilt and pain that came with the dream.
She couldn't stay in the same room as Gibbs, not after that nightmare, she needed to get away and talk to the one that knew about her past, she needed to talk to Ziva, that was why she was currently kicking Tony out of their room and sending him over to hers and Gibbs'.
Once Tony was gone Ziva guided Jenny over to the couch and sat down with her.
As soon as Jenny had came in and Ziva saw the state she was in she quicklyput her nightgown robe over her gown and ran over to her thinking something terrible had happened to Gibbs.
After hearing her tell Tony to go over and spend the night with Gibbs tonight some of the fear dissipated. Tony and her shared a look, but Tony quickly grabbed his pillow and blankets.
He gave her a quick kiss and grabbed the key card to get into Gibbs room, as well as taking one for his and Ziva's room.
"Jenny? Are you alright?" Ziva asked rubbing circles on her friends back.
"I had the dream again, but it was so much worse Ziva, Gibbs blamed me for killing her, he couldn't even look at me Ziva, I killed our little girl!" Jenny said as more tears started to escape, but she quickly wiped them away.
"Jenny, you did not kill her! Some one else did, you were trying to protect her Jenny!" Ziva tried to reason with her.
"If I had never left Paris, then she would be alive right now." Jenny said standing up and pacing back and forth.
"You did what you though you had to Jenny." Ziva said standing up with her.
"Yeah, well I thought wrong!" Jenny shouted back and fisted her hands.
Ziva thought for a second before going into her closet and grabbing two pairs of flip flops. She placed one pair in front of Jenny and told her to put them on, as she put on her own pair.
Jenny had been in such a rush to get over here, that she had forgotten to put shoes on.
"Where are we going?" Jenny asked as Ziva led her out of the unit.
"For some fresh air, we are going to walk around the place, besides did you not say you wanted to have a look around at some point?" She answered and Jenny smiled.
"Thank you Ziva, I think that's just what I need right about now."
Ziva just smiled back. They walked for about fifteen minutes before Ziva started talking.
"You know mom; you may want to talk to dad about this…" Ziva started to say and Jenny's head snapped up.
"Levana, you promised!" She said frightened Ziva was going to say something.
"I know mom, but you really should say something…"
"He'll hate me forever Le, didn't I tell you this already, besides, after seeing what would happen, I can't!
"He would never hate you mom! He loves you…" Ziva tried to continue, but Jenny just shook her head.
"No, he doesn't, besides, I'm with him now, I love him!" Jenny said stressing the word him, making sure Ziva knew she was referring to Mark. They knew they still had to be careful, they were outside, Mira could be anywhere, but at the same time, they weren't giving it too much thought.
"Mom! He does love you, more than you know, everyone else can see it, why can you not?! Ziva said turning towards Jenny and stopping her.
"I AM NOT HAVING THIS CONVERSATION!" Jenny said and as soon as she finished she could see Ziva about to say something, but her facial expression suddenly switched to that of pain and her grip on Jenny tightened.
"Levana…?" Jenny questioned frightened.
"M…o…m…" Ziva got out before she dropped to the ground shuddering in pain before going still.
Jenny looked up as she heard laughter and froze when she saw the source of the laughter; her hand quickly went to her hip only to realize she didn't have her holster or her sig on her.
"Hello Alexandra, so nice to actually meet you, although, I've been watching you so there's not really anything to talk about, say good bye." She said grinning wickedly, before Jenny felt an enormous amount of pain emanate from her upped chest to the rest of her body.
"You…won't…get…away…with this…" Jenny said before she fell painfully to the cement sidewalk, she felt her body start to convulse as she listened to her attacker.
"Funny, that's what they all say, but you know what, I always seem to get away…." That was the last thing Jenny heard before darkness surrounded her.
A/N: DUNDUNDUN! Sorry for the cliffhanger. Good, bad? Please don't kill me…*ducks and hides from the mob* I hope you liked it, Tiva is officially together, hooray! I hope you like the next chapter, thanks again^.^