Chapter 26.... Hope you all like it! Sorry for updating so late.
-Chocolate414
Chapter 26
It's been three weeks, four days, and three hours. Three weeks since Serena Vander Woodsen had seen Blair Waldorf, four Days since she'd heard her voice, and three hours since she'd had her last drink. Serena was a mess. A complete and total mess and she could blame no one but herself.
Ever since that horrible Sunday when Blair had seen her with Dan Humphrey, things seemed to go downhill from there. There was a major gossip girl blast that showed Serena messing with Humphrey and everyone at school would sneer at her or barely look at her whenever she walked into a room. Hazel, Isabelle, and Penelope were disgusted that she would go back to "Brooklyn trash", there words not hers, over Blair Waldorf. They barely spoke to her anymore and at the first opportunity, ran back to Blair to be there new queen. Blair took the title but, she didn't rule the way she used too. She seemed to care less about the riff raff at school and let her subjects do as much as they pleased, within a certain limit of course. Serena had been trying to get a hold of Blair so she could speak to her but the brunette wouldn't even look her way anymore. She would just give her a glare and abruptly turn around.
What surprised Serena the most was the fact that Blair was the nicest out of anyone at school. Of course she wasn't speaking to her, but everyone else would say horrible things to her without a second thought, Blair would try her best not to be within ten feet of her. It was funny because the person who had the right to judge and ridicule Serena the most was the kindest one of all and that seemed to make Serena feel guiltier.
School was never a big priority for Serena so she took everyone's words with stride. What hurt her more deeply than anything else was hearing that Blair Waldorf had gone to Vanessa Abrams and that they were an official a couple. She knew she didn't have a right to be jealous or angry but she couldn't help but be a little pissed that Blair was able to go back to someone else without a second thought. They'd been together for three weeks now and every time Serena saw a picture of them on gossip girl she felt her heart break.
Serena was sitting in her room with a bottle of Vodka in her hands and a cigarette in the other. She was looking at her bed which was a messy with the sheets hanging over the sides touching the floor. Her mind kept replaying that Sunday morning and how happy they were together. Waking up in each others arms and falling asleep in them too.
"How the fuck did I mess this up?" She yelled at herself. She put out the cigarette and stared at it. She couldn't remember when she started smoking. It probably happened a couple of days after the big incident. She threw the cigarette bud out the window and lied back on the bed. She was laying on the right side of the bed and couldn't bring herself to lie on the left side. "Blair's side of the bed." She reached over and placed her hand on the cold pillow and started to cry. She missed Blair. Hell, she didn't just miss Blair, she needed her and she didn't know how long she could make it like this. She hadn't let anyone else touch her since the incident with Dan.
She could honestly say that they didn't have sex. But they would have if Blair hadn't caught them in time. What made it worse was the fact that Serena never wanted Dan in the first place, she just wanted to get back at Blair. Every time Dan would kiss her or touch her, she would make believe that it was Blair on top of her instead of Dan. She curled herself into a little ball on the bed and pulled the sheets over her body. She couldn't stop herself from crying and she couldn't stop looking at the other side of the bed. She wished that day had never happened and she was sure that Blair would never forgive her. She turned off the lights and tried to make herself fall into a restless sleep. She knew what she needed if she ever wanted to feel anything remotely close to happiness. She needed Blair and she knew that was impossible.
Eric Vander Woodsen was standing outside of Serena's room and listening to his sister crying. He knew that something had happened between Blair and Serena but he didn't know how bad it had gotten. The past three weeks, he'd seen his sister begin to revert back into her old self and Eric was beginning to worry. He knew the gossip girl blasts about Blair and Vanessa were getting too Serena but he never thought it would come down to this. Serena would go to school, come back, and stay in her room all day. She would barely speak to anyone, and Eric was sure that she was drinking heavily. Her eyes seemed to have lost that glow and her body seemed to get thinner. Serena seemed depressed all the time but whenever he'd ask if everything was okay. Serena would give him a light smile saying that she was fine. Which was clearly a lie. He didn't know what to do. He was worried about his sister physically and mentally and was pretty sure that if Serena didn't get herself out of this little rut she would probably pass out and be put in the hospital or worse.
Chuck walked out of his room and stared at Eric for a moment. He seemed as if he was going to say something but thought better of it and walked swiftly out the door. Eric could have sworn he saw guilt in his step-brother's eyes.
Eric knocked on his sister's door and waited to hear his sister speak. He knocked again when he didn't get an answer and finally heard Serena speak.
"Who is it?"
"It's Eric, I just… I just wanted to know if you were okay!"
"I'm fine Eric."
"Jonathan and I were going to get some food. Did you want anything?"
"No, I'm good." Eric didn't believe that for a second. He couldn't remember the last time Serena ate and decided to get something for his sister anyways. He walked to his room, picked up his wallet and told Jonathan he was on his way. On his way to the elevator he heard Serena begin to sob again and winced. He had to do something and quick.
Across town in the Waldorf penthouse. Blair Waldorf was sleeping comfortably, or as comfortable as possible, with her girlfriend lying next to her. Vanessa was curled into her neck with her hand on Blair's stomach, she was snoring lightly and Blair thought Vanessa looked cute. They'd decided to rest for a little bit before they went to the movies tonight and found themselves here. Blair loved to cuddle with Vanessa, she found it to be one of the most enjoyable parts of there relationship. Vanessa shifted and wrapped her arm around her waist and brought her leg to cover Blair's. Blair shivered at the familiarity of it. Serena would do the exact same thing when they would lie together in bed. She would wake her by giving her kisses and when Blair's eyes opened she was always greeted with the blonde's beautiful smile. It was times like these when Blair couldn't get the blonde out of her head and she would feel her heart break every time she thought about the other girl.
"I have to stop thinking about Serena. I'm with Vanessa now and she doesn't deserve this." Blair would make sure that she was attentive to Vanessa at all times. She may not feel all of the emotions she felt for Serena but she sure as hell knew that the brunette would never hurt her. She would do whatever she had to do to make sure Vanessa would never feel the pain she felt only three weeks ago. She turned over and wrapped her arms around the other girl.
She was not going to fuck this up.
Dan Humphrey was sitting in his room by himself. He was on his computer looking at the gossip girl website. He'd seen the many updates on Vanessa and Blair and felt his stomach drop. He still remembered the angry punches that Blair threw his way three weeks ago. The wounds were now healed but his pride would be forever lost. The following Monday, it got out that Blair beat him up and he'd been ridiculed from every single guy and girl from that day forward. He was pretty sure that every day that he went to school, he was in hell. He looked himself in the mirror and closed his eyes. On top of embarrassed, he felt guilty, if there was anyone who probably felt worse than him, it had to be Serena. He'd seen his ex-girlfriend at school and she did not look good.
Her usual colorful and vibrant smile was replaced with a cold and depressed look. Every time he saw her she seemed sad and close to tears. The fact that Blair was now with Vanessa was breaking her heart and Dan knew that he was too blame. He remembered exactly what Blair said when she threw him off of Serena.
"Get the fuck off my girlfriend" she screamed. He knew from the anger and sadness etched on Blair's face that the brunette was hurt by what she saw and apparently Serena and Blair were finally together until he came along. Dan didn't know what to do. No one at school talked to him aside from his teachers and Jenny and every time he tried to speak to Blair, she fixed him with a glare that would even scare the most ruthless killers.
He had no one to blame but himself, and hormones, and "Wait a minute" Chuck Bass. Dan stood from his bed and felt as if a light bulb had finally lit within his brain.
"Of Course" He said out loud.
Chuck was the person who told him that Serena still had feelings for him, it was Chuck's plan for him to meet at Serena's house, and it was Chuck who was smirking at him as he ran out of Serena's room.
"That FUCKING BASTARD" He yelled. Chuck had played him. He played him and Serena and he knew why. He wanted Blair for himself. Dan Humphrey was beyond pissed, he picked up his phone and started to dial Serena's number. He heard it ring and then he heard the answering machine.
Hey, Serena here. Sorry I missed your call. Please leave me your name and number and I'll be sure to call you back. Thanks. Beep.
"Hey Serena, it's Dan, I really need to speak to you. It's about Blair, and Vanessa, and Chuck. There is something that you need to know. Call me please, it's an emergency." He hung up the phone and plopped back on the bed. He didn't know what he would do if this mess between Serena and Blair never got fixed. He was sure that he would feel guilt over this for the rest of his life if he didn't do something. He picked up his computer and started to scan through the most recent Blair and Vanessa updates. " If Blair and Serena get back together, Vanessa is going to be heartbroken." He said out loud. He didn't know what to do anymore.
His best friend was the happiest that he'd ever seen her. Blair made her glow and Dan was sure that he'd never seen Vanessa smile like that when she was dating Nate Archibald. He rested his head on top of his pillow and started to think. He had to do this correctly or he might make the situation worse. On one hand his ex-girlfriend is in love with Blair and until he came along, they were together. On the other hand his best friend is now in a relationship with Blair and if they were to break up, he was sure Vanessa would be heartbroken.
"Who would have ever thought that the most common women in my life would fall for Blair Waldorf." He said. He had a long week ahead of him if he wanted to fix this mess and he was sure that Chuck Bass was going to do anything in his power to stop him. "I'll just have to get to that BASSTARD first." Dan began to formulate his own plan.
Blair and Vanessa were walking out of the movie theater. It was close to 8 o'clock at night and they were walking hand in hand down the side walk. Vanessa was giggling something in Blair's ear and the brunette couldn't help the blush that creeped up her neck. They were walking back to Blair's home when they accidently bumped into Eric and Jonathan. Apparently they weren't paying attention to where they were going.
Eric and Jonathan looked like they'd just came from a restaurant, they were carrying to-go trays in there bags. Eric's eyebrows shot up when he noticed who he bumped into.
"Hi Eric." Blair seemed nervous. She hadn't spoken to Eric in a long time. She looked at Eric's golden locks and started to feel that flutter in the pit of her stomach. Serena had the same blonde hair.
"Hey Blair." Eric could tell that they were caught in an awkward situation. "How have you been?"
"I've been good." Blair seemed to pause after that. She suddenly remembered that she was standing next to Vanessa and quickly introduced her. "This is my girlfriend Vanessa." Blair gave a small smile. She didn't know how Eric would take seeing her with someone other than Serena. Eric and Vanessa waved at one another and Eric introduced his other half.
"This is Jonathan." It seemed to be an awkward pause at that moment and Eric began to feel nervous. Vanessa wanted to get out of this situation quick.
"Babe I'm gonna get us a cab you talk to Eric for a little bit." Vanessa kissed Blair's cheek and walked away from the group to get a cab. Jonathan seemed to notice what Vanessa was doing and thought that it was a good idea.
"Eric I'm go get us one to." Jonathan waved at Blair again and walked away. Leaving Blair and Eric alone on the side walk. They stood there for a minute looking at each other but not saying a word until Eric finally spoke up.
"She misses you, you know." Blair's eyebrows shot up at how blunt Eric was being. "I've never her seen her like this Blair, she barely eats, she's drinking a lot, she barely speaks, and she always seems as if she's on the verge of crying." Eric wanted Blair to know that Serena was miserable without her.
"Well that's just too bad. She shouldn't have done what she did." Blair gave Eric an angry look but on the inside her insides felt as if they were being mushed together. She desperately wanted to see Serena but, she couldn't let her concern show. Eric saw that Blair was keeping her emotions in check.
"I don't know exactly what happened between the two of you but I do know this. Serena is miserable. She cries everyday and she never leaves her room. Quite frankly I'm scared that one day I'll come home and she'll be lifeless on the floor. Whatever she did, she's sorry Blair. She hasn't gone on dates with anyone else and I know it's because she's still in love with you." Eric saw that change in Blair's face from anger to concern to sadness. Blair missed Serena too. It was written all over her face. "What are you doing with this other girl, your clearly still in love with Serena?"
"Because this other girl doesn't hurt me, she loves me, and she's never done anything close to what Serena did." Blair closed her eyes as an image of Serena and Dan in bed together came into her mind. Eric knew that Blair was pushing Serena farther and farther away and if he wanted his sister back to the way she used to be he would have to get Blair to understand that she belonged with Serena.
"You don't love Vanessa, you love Serena. No matter how hard you try, this girl is never going to mean as much to you as Serena does." Eric took this moment to leave. He wanted his words to settle in Blair's mind. He walked to Jonathan, who'd finally gotten a taxi and moved to sit inside but not before he gave Blair another glance.
Blair walked back to Vanessa and gave her a kiss on the cheek. She tried her best to smile but Eric's words kept ringing in her head. They hopped in the taxi and went back to Blair's place. Vanessa continued to smile while Blair felt her heart drop to her stomach. She'd tried her best to get over Serena but Eric was right, she could try as hard as she could but she would never love Vanessa as much as she loved Serena. She stared out the window and watched all the happy couples holding hands.
"How did this get so messed up?" She thought to herself.
She felt Vanessa lay her head on her shoulder. She turned around and gave her girlfriend a smile. She may not love Vanessa as much as she loved Serena but, she would damn well try. It's Thursday night and the only thing Blair wants to do is sleep. She's sure tomorrow will be another day filled with drama and gossip but for now, all she wants to do is go to sleep with a guilt free conscience.
It's Friday morning and Serena Vander Woodsen wakes to the loud sound of her alarm clock. Her head is throbbing. Despite going to bed around 6 pm the blonde's entire body still felt tired. It was 7 am and she could tell that this was going to be a horrible day. The only thing she wanted to do was go back to sleep. She heard a knock at her door.
"Serena…. Serena, we have to be at school in an hour I was just checking and making sure that you were up." It was Eric.
"I'm up Eric, I'll be out in thirty minutes." Serena walked to her bathroom and prepared herself for the upcoming day.
It's eight o'clock and Serena and Eric are walking up the steps of Constance Billiard and Juliard. Serena could already hear the murmurs of a few students when she walked through the school doors. Although most of the school forgot about her problem with Blair, there were still a few students that would snicker when she walked by. She said good bye to Eric and started to walk to her math class. She shuddered when she remembered that Blair would be in her first period class. She was sure that being around the brunette, but not being able to speak to her was going to be another struggle. She was about to walk in the door when she felt someone yank her to the side. It was Dan Humphrey.
"Dan what the hell." Serena wasn't in the mood for this. She hadn't spoken to Dan since the incident and although this issue wasn't technically his fault she couldn't help but feel that if Dan hadn't shown up that day, she and Blair would be together right now.
"I need to speak to you. I called you last night but you didn't pick up the phone." Dan looked Serena over and noticed the bags under her eyes. She seemed sad and that just made Dan feel more and more guilty. He felt a wave of determination go through him. "It's an emergency Serena, it has to deal with Blair, and Chuck, and Vanessa, and me." Serena's eyes shot up at the mention of all those names. She looked at Dan and noticed that he seemed really anxious, like he needed to get something off of his chest.
"Fine, let's go talk somewhere. I'm not looking forward to class anyway." They both left the school campus to talk and to make sure that they weren't seen talking on campus.
They went to a small diner around the corner from the school and made sure that they were secluded from any open windows. They sat down and that's when they finally began to speak.
"So what do you need to talk about?" Serena wanted to know what could possibly be so important.
"It's about the day Blair caught you and I together." Dan saw Serena flinch at the memory. For a moment he thought that he shouldn't tell her but remembered that it was the right thing to do. "If I tell you, would you promise not to be angry?" Serena looked at Dan with wide eyes and nodded her head. She saw Dan take a deep breath and then begin to tell everything that happened.
"The day you and Blair became official, I saw the both of you on gossip girl holding hands. I was heartbroken, still had feelings for you and I didn't know what to do. For the past month and a half, I'd been moping around like a sick puppy." Serena felt a shade of pain go through her. She never thought about Dan throughout her time with Blair. She urged him to continue. "A few days beforehand Chuck stopped me in the hall way and told me that you still had feelings for me." Serena's eyes seemed to widen at the statement. "He said that you were still in love with me but you were torn between me and Blair. At first I didn't believe it, but my heart wouldn't let me think otherwise so I began to think of a plan to win you back. Chuck told me that Blair was going to choose Vanessa and that would give me a big chance to win you over. But the next thing he said was that I had to move fast or you might sweep Blair off of her feet." Dan looked at Serena and could tell that she was starting to piece things together. "When I saw you two together on gossip girl, I knew that I had to act fast so I… I.."
"You what?" Serena wanted to know what Dan did. She was finally beginning to understand why everything became so horrible so fast.
"I called Chuck and we made a plan to keep the two of you apart long enough for me to win you back." Serena's jaw dropped but she stayed silent. She could tell Dan wasn't finished talking. "The plan changed when I suddenly got a call from Chuck saying that Blair was going on a date with Vanessa and that I should show up at your home at 7:15 with flowers and my heart on my sleeve. He said that would be the perfect opportunity for me to have you." Serena's face turned from shock, to being hurt, to being pissed the hell off. She looked at Dan and thought she could strangle him right there. Dan could see the anger in her eyes and rushed to speak again. "I didn't know that the two of you were together, Chuck never told me and I didn't know that Blair was going to tell Vanessa that she was in love with you. Chuck made it seem as if Blair wanted Vanessa and that you and I still had a shot together. I had no idea that he was trying to get Blair for himself." He watched Serena's anger start to lighten but not completely.
"Are you telling me that the Chuck planned for Blair to find me and you together in order to break us up?" Dan took another deep breath.
"That's exactly what I saying." He felt as if a weight was lifted off his shoulders now that Serena knew. He saw Serena looking at the table in what seemed like a trance. He was surprised when she finally spoke.
"I forgive you Dan. I know Chuck tricked you and I'm sorry he brought you into this mess." Dan was surprised at the words but nodded his head.
"What are you going to do about Chuck?" Serena's eyes seemed to turn red and she gave Dan a sneer.
"I'm going to get Chuck for this, but the first thing I need to do is get Blair back." Serena's eyes suddenly had a far away look and Dan felt a bit jealous at the fact that she was thinking about Blair.
"You know she's with Vanessa now."
"I know." Serena did know and she was trying to forget it.
"Blair loves you, you know. I can see it in her eyes. Vanessa's my best friend and I love her like a sister but, Blair doesn't care about her the same way she cares about you." Dan remembered all too well the way Blair kicked his ass three weeks ago and shuddered at the memory.
"I… I don't think so Dan. She hates me." Serena's eyes began to tear up and Dan felt his heart begin to break.
"You'll win her back, I'll talk to Vanessa. She may not like it but she'll understand. IN TIME."
"Thank you Dan." Serena began to wipe her tears.
"So what are we going to do about getting you and Blair back together?" Serena was surprised at the statement.
"I don't know." Serena began to think.
"Hazel's party is tonight. I'm sure Blair and Vanessa are going to be there, along with the rest of the Upper East Side." Serena smiled, her first smile in a long time.
"We'll both go to the party. I'll speak to Blair and you'll speak with Vanessa."
"Sounds like a plan to me but what about Chuck?" Serena suddenly had a frown.
"I'll deal with Chuck."
They both skipped school for the rest of the day. Serena seemed to have more hope than she ever had before. They both parted ways at 3pm to get ready for the party. If it was anything like the last one, then it was sure to be filled with drama.
Chuck Bass was sitting in his room. He'd just come home from school and was smoking a joint while sitting on his bed. His eyes were low and he had a frown on his face. He was not happy.
Three weeks, almost four. It had been three fucking weeks since he'd split Blair and Serena apart, three weeks since Blair made Vanessa his girlfriend, and three weeks since he'd been able to have sex with anyone. He had the same issue at the beginning of the school year and was sure what remedy he needed. He needed Blair. But Blair was with someone else. He was pissed. He'd thought of every possible think he could but he just couldn't seem to break Blair and Vanessa apart. Blair was determined not to have another failing relationship and Chuck was out of his mind and pissed at his current situation. He came to the conclusion that he had no other choice but to let Vanessa and Blair's relationship take its course. It was a decision that he made, that he did not like. He brought the joint to his lips and inhaled.
Serena was more pitiful than ever and he couldn't stop the guilt that ran through his heart every time he saw her. He wasn't used to guilt. He was Chuck fucking Bass, he didn't feel guilty. He lied back on his pillow. What if he was? He was sure that he was going to hell but he'd take the ride as long as he got Blair in the end. He was in love with her and wished he hadn't been such a fool this summer.
Serena was in her room looking at all of her dresses. She'd just arrived from the salon earlier and came back to the penthouse and rushed into her bed room. It was now 7pm and Hazel's party started at 10. She was so busy rushing around her room that she didn't notice her little brother standing by the door.
"I haven't seen you this way in weeks. I'm guessing it has something to do with Blair." Serena turned around and smiled. Eric smirked back, he hadn't seen Serena give a true smile in almost a month.
"I'm going to win Blair back. I love her and I just can't live without her. I learned a few things today and I'm hoping that once I tell Blair, she'll at least speak to me." Serena was running on hope but at least now she had hope. Before she had nothing.
"I'm glad. I saw Blair with Vanessa yesterday." Serena stopped moving when she heard this. "They seemed like a real couple when Jonathan and I spotted them together." Serena seemed to look sad. Eric walked to Serena and grabbed her hand. "Hey, the way Blair looks at Vanessa is nothing like the way she looked.." He saw Serena tear up and shook her until she looked him in the eye. "…. still looks at you. She loves you and you love her. The two of you belong together." Serena began to smile. "Now go win her back." Eric began to walk out of the room and close the door but not before he heard a small thank you come from Serena's lips.
"It's eleven o'clock and Blair is sipping a martini in one hand and holding hands with Vanessa in the other. She's bored out of her mind and on top of that, she can't stop thinking about Serena. She gives Vanessa a kiss on the cheek and watches Vanessa's smile begin to grow. It warms her heart but not as much as the smile Serena used to give her. She downs her drink and orders another. He doesn't want to think about Serena but she can't seem to help it. The words Eric spoke to her yesterday, keep going over and over in her mind.
She spots Chuck in the corner making out with one of the dancers and gives him a smirk. He smirks back and continues his make out session. She sees Nate talking to some blonde bimbo and can't help but wonder what she ever saw in him in the first place. They make eye contact and Blair glares at him. Nate nervously turns the other way and brings the blonde with him. Vanessa crawls unto her lap and begins to give her kisses. Blair downs the rest of her drink and then wraps her arms around the other girl's waste. She starts kissing Vanessa's neck when she spots a head of blonde hair that could only belong to one person. Serena.
It's dark and the music is loud but everyone seems to suddenly notice when Serena is in the middle of the dance floor and who she's standing next to. Dan Humphrey. Serena and Dan decided to come together but when the spotlight is suddenly on the both of them, they begin to feel that it wasn't the best idea. Blair can see Serena from a mile away and stops kissing Vanessa. Vanessa notices Blair's change in mood and turns around to see what all the commotion is about. She frowns when she sees that it's Serena.
Serena looks absolutely gorgeous. She's wearing a black dress that accentuates all of her curves, her make up is impeccable, and her long hair is flowing with curls. Her blue eyes are looking only at Blair and Blair begins to feel sweat dripping down her back because of Serena's intense gaze. She can feel her body begin to grow aroused and she suddenly remembers that Vanessa is sitting on her lap.
Serena looks at Blair and Vanessa feel pangs of jealousy. She walks toward Blair but is stopped by Penelope, Isabelle, and Hazel and they do not look happy.
"What are the two of you doing here? I didn't invite either of you." Hazel looks pissed and Serena rolls her eyes.
"We came to drink, we didn't come for drama." Serena tries to walk past them but she finds another person in front of them.
"You forget that this is my party and that whatever I say goes. I say that it's time for the both of you to leave. " Serena is starting to get nervous. She hasn't spoken to Blair yet and she's worried that she may not get to because of Hazel. Someone cuts into the conversation that she recognizes.
"Hazel, leave them alone. It's been almost four weeks. That's old news." Blair is standing by Hazel with Vanessa's hand entwined with hers. She saw the commotion and thought that it would be best if she stopped this before it got out of control.
"Fine." Hazel and the rest of the crowd went back to what they were doing before. Leaving Dan, Serena, Blair, and Vanessa looking at one another.
"Thank You." Serena said. Blair gives her a look that says "I don't care" then notices that she's standing with Dan. She eyes him up and down and then gives him a glare. Dan seems to notice and begins to back away.
"Honey I'm going to get another drink. You want something?" Vanessa says. Serena watches the exchange.
"Yeah baby, get me another martini." Vanessa gives Blair a kiss on the cheek, eyes Serena, and then walks away. Serena is left pissed off that Blair called Vanessa "baby". She remembered when Blair would only call her that.
"What are you doing here Serena?"
"I need to talk to you. You won't come within five feet of me, so I came here." Blair wouldn't look her in the eyes.
"Fine whatever." Blair begins to walk away but Serena catches her by the arm.
"Blair there's something that you need to know. Can we talk?" Blair yanks her arm back and glares at Serena.
"Don't you ever fucking touch me again. I may have agreed to be civil with you but that doesn't make us friends. Therefore, you have no right to touch me." Serena looks like she's just been kicked in the chest. Vanessa comes back with there drinks and Blair pulls her girlfriend to the couch. Away from Serena.
Serena is left standing alone until Dan comes back. "Did you guys get to talk?"
"No, she won't even look at me."
"Well we'll just have to use a better plan. I'll distract Vanessa and when you see Blair get up to go somewhere, follow her. It might be your only chance."
"All right." Serena didn't particularly like the plan but, she had no other choices.
It's three hours later when Blair and Vanessa finally break apart. Blair seems to be drunk and Vanessa is close to falling asleep on the couch. The party is taking place in a hotel. Hazel rented the entire fourth floor so there are open rooms everywhere. Serena spots Blair walking to a room down the hall and follows her while Dan sits next to Vanessa. The darker girl falls asleep on his chest and Dan is comforted by the fact that he won't have to distract his best friend while her girlfriend is followed by her ex.
Blair walks into her room and goes straight to the bathroom and closes the door. She doesn't hear
Serena walk into the room and lock the door behind her. When Blair opens the bathroom door she's surprised to find Serena sitting on the side of the bed eying her nervously. Blair seems to have sobered up and feels her body begin to grow aroused. She needs to get out of that room. She ignored Serena and walked toward the door. Serena ran and grabbed Blair's hand.
"Damn it Blair. Would you at least let me talk to you?"
"You don't deserve that right. Now let go of me." Blair was nervous being this close to Serena.
"Just let me speak to you for a little while, I know I don't deserve it but…"
"But nothing, leave me the fuck alone." Blair pulled her hand back and began to march toward the door when she felt her body suddenly being turned around and she was suddenly shoved on the wall. Serena body was keeping her from moving and the blonde was holding both her hands so she couldn't move.
"Fuck Blair, just let me speak." Serena could feel her body hum because she was touching her. She wanted nothing more than to kiss the brunette's lips but kept herself in check.
"Get off of me." Blair used all her strength and body to get the blonde off of her and Serena found her self pushed back. " YOU DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME!"
"I made a mistake Blair but I wasn't the only one that was apart of us breaking up. Chuck and Dan planned this Blair. Chuck tricked us all." Blair stood there stunned by what Serena said but chose not to believe it. Chuck was a lot of things but, she wouldn't believe he planned the worst night of her life. She couldn't believe it. "Chuck told me that you were on a date with Vanessa and that you were cheating on me, the same day him and Dan made a plan for Dan to be at my house as soon as I came back from seeing you with Vanessa, he knew I would be heartbroken over you and that I wouldn't be thinking clearly, and as soon as he got a picture of what he needed he sent it straight to you." Serena saw Blair shudder at the words. A look of sadness, then pity, then anger crossed the other woman's features.
"I don't fucking believe you. Either way, I'm with Vanessa now, and what we had doesn't matter anymore." Serena was hurt but she wouldn't stop trying.
"You don't believe that."
"Yes I do. Vanessa is perfect, I'd be stupid to let her go." Blair eyed Serena.
"She may be perfect but, you don't love her." Serena saw Blair's eyes widen. "You love me and I love you. We belong to one another."
"No I belong with Vanessa. I suggest you leave this room. Hazel gave me and my GIRLFRIEND this room for tonight. I'm planning on making Vanessa very happy tonight." Blair smirked when she saw Serena's face and decided to rub more salt on the wound. "She's so much better than you ever were in bed. I don't believe anyone makes love to me the way she does." She saw the hurt then anger cross Serena's features and she smiled evilly. Serena was pissed. She didn't want to think of Vanessa and Blair together but she couldn't get the image out of her head. She saw Blair begin to walk out the door but stopped her by throwing her on the door. She grasped Blair's hips and shielded Blair's body with her own. Blair was surprised with the change in events and was even more surprised when she felt Serena's soft lips press against hers.
"You don't belong with her, you belong with me." Serena said in between kisses. Blair tried to fight Serena but her body seemed to melt under the onslaught. She missed this.
Serena could feel Blair begin to grab her neck and she couldn't stop herself from bringing her hands down to grab Blair's ass. She finally left Blair's lips to travel down her neck and felt her center begin to throb as she pressed her body fully into Blair's. Blair's body seemed to have a mind of its own. She found herself being pulled toward the bed, her dress was being pulled off, and she couldn't stop her hands from undoing Serena's zipper. Serena was now kissing her cleavage and was trying to quickly rid Blair of her clothing so she could kiss her breasts. Blair pulled Serena's zipper down and pulled Serena's dress off of her.
They couldn't seem to keep there hands off of one another. They were both now clad in only there underwear and Serena found herself pushed against the wall. Blair pulled Serena's panties down and undid the blonde's bra. For a moment she stopped and looked at Serena standing naked and felt her mouth begin to water. "God she's beautiful." She thought to herself. Serena undid Blair's bra and pulled down Blair's panties. They were both completely naked and when there bodies touched it felt like a lightening bolt went through them.
Serena still had her back against the wall and felt Blair kissing her neck when she felt Blair thrust three fingers into her. Instantly Serena could feel she was reaching her peak. Blair moved her arm with knowing thrusts. She knew exactly how to please Serena. She heard Serena begin to moan and felt guilt flood her conscience. This wasn't her girlfriend but she needed this. They both needed this. She wouldn't make love to Serena, she would just fuck her. She would try to fuck her like this didn't mean anything when in the back of her mind she knew this meant everything. When she felt Serena climax she couldn't bring herself to pull away and when she looked into Serena's eyes she didn't know if she'd ever be able to pull away.
Serena assaulted her lips again and led them toward the bed. They collapsed on the mattress and just feeling her body on top of Blair aroused the blonde again. Blair's hands were on her hips silently begging for her to release her. Serena began to kiss down the other girl's chest, down her belly, and finally in between her legs. She kissed the inside of Blair's thighs until she heard Blair plea.
"Please Serena. I need you."
She hooked both of Blair legs over her shoulders and began to taste Blair. She stroked the brunette with her tongue lovingly and began with gentle kisses. Soon she couldn't contain herself and began to feast on the other girl kissing and sucking and licking and biting until she felt Blair was close. She sucked Blair's clit in her mouth and began to suck harder and harder. Blair's hands were now in her hair and the brunette was now reduced to moans.
"Serena Please."
Serena sucked harder and with a final thrust of her tongue inside of Blair, she felt the other girl convulse and shaken. She kissed Blair's body up to her lips and Blair could taste herself. The blonde lied between her legs and began to thrust her groin unto Blair's. Blair found herself aroused again and began to match Serena. Serena couldn't believe how soft Blair's body was. She could feel how wet they both were and began to raise her self up. Blair moaned in protest but Serena quieted her with another kiss. She spread Blair legs again and began to lock her legs with Blair's. She pressed both of there centers together and used Blair's leg for leverage.
Blair didn't know what Serena was doing so it was an unexpected and powerful feeling when she felt Serena's clit began to slide against hers. Serena was riding her and Blair found her hands on Serena's waist urging her to continue. Serena began to ride Blair slowly, allowing Blair to get acquainted with the feeling but began to go faster when she felt Blair pick up her pace.
Blair could barely speak and was already about to cum. She wanted this to last but she couldn't stop her hips from moving against Serena.
"Serena…. Baby Please.. Slow down. I'm about to cum. Baby Slow down." When Serena heard Blair call her "baby" she felt her hips begin move faster and her body began to ride Blair even faster.
"Blair, I love you." Serena came screaming Blair's name. She could feel that Blair was close. She kept her tempo and when she felt Blair shudder, she knew the brunette was their.
Serena collapsed on top of Blair. They were both struggling to breath. Neither had felt this kind of pull when they made love to anyone else. Blair began to snuggle against Serena and fell asleep. Serena kissed Blair on the lips and fell into the best slumber she'd had in weeks.
It's 7 in the morning when Blair wakes up to find her body snuggled with Serena's. She looks around the bedroom and notices that the sun is out. Serena's arms and legs are tangled with her body and Blair begins to look for the best way to get out of bed. She slowly eases her body from Serena's and gets out of bed. Her mind keeps flashing to Vanessa and she feels ashamed of herself. She cheated on her girlfriend and now she feels guilty for what she's done. She goes to the bathroom to wash up. She comes back out and begins to pick up her clothes off the floor. She slides her underwear back on and begins to pull her dress down when she turns around and sees Serena sitting up in bed watching. Blair's afraid to speak so she doesn't. She reaches for her phone and looks back up at Serena.
"What's wrong Blair?" Serena wants Blair back in bed. She wants to kiss her and hold her and make love to her all over again. She's found happiness again and she doesn't want to give it up. She watches Blair look at the door and then look back at her. Blair still doesn't speak. Serena starts to feel anxious because Blair is so far away. "Blair come here." Blair looks like she's about to cry and Serena feel's tears run down her face. She needs Blair back in bed with her. "Blair baby please come here." She misses Blair's skin against hers, the intimacy they shared, she needs Blair. She sees Blair looking at her phone and then it dawns on her. "Your girlfriend." Blair's eyes shoot up and look at her. Serena doesn't think she can take Blair leaving after they made love, AGAIN.
"I'm sorry Serena. Last night was a mistake." It's the only words Blair says and the brunette runs out the door. Serena is sitting on the bed covered with cold sheets that still smell like Blair. She feels herself begin to sob.
Blair runs down the hallway and into the main hall where she sees her girlfriend sleeping with her head lying on Dan Humphrey's shoulder. She still has tears in her eyes but when she sees this sight in front of her, they dry up and a feeling of rage comes over her. Dan Humphrey seems to sense her anger because it's at that moment he wakes up to see Blair's glare. He looks to his side and notices the reason for her glare and gently moves away from Vanessa. He lifts his hands as a sign of surrender.
"Whoa…Whoa… We fell asleep Blair. THAT IS ALL!"
"Yeah, I'm sure she fell asleep but you were probably hoping for something else." She gently taps Vanessa's arm. "Vanessa, honey wake up." Vanessa wakes with a yawn and smiles.
"Blair I'm sorry for what happened before. I didn't mean to cause you harm." Dan doesn't state the fact about Blair and Serena dating. He doesn't want to start suspicions with Vanessa but, he does give Blair a look that signifies exactly what he's talking about.
"Whatever Daniel. We're leaving." Blair pulls Vanessa to her and they walk out of the hotel and into the limo. Dan starts to search for Serena. He remembers the room Blair went to last night and thinks of stopping by that room first. He walks down the hall and turns to the last room on the right. He clenches his fist to knock and stops when he hears someone crying.
"Serena, are you in there?" It suddenly gets quiet and then someone speaks.
"Yeah, I'm here. I'll be out in a minute." Dan hears her sniffle and decides to give her some time to herself. Five minutes later he sees the door open and Serena steps into the hall quietly. Her hair was in a ponytail and she looked like she had been crying.
"Let's go Dan." Serena walks to the elevator. They step inside and she can feel Dan's eyes staring at her back.
"Are you okay Serena?" Dan is worried. Serena is acting too quiet. The vibrant and lively blonde shouldn't be this quiet.
"I'm fine." Serena makes sure not to look at him.
"Are you sure?" They're out of the hotel and walking down the sidewalk. Dan grabs Serena's arm and turns her around. She's got tears flowing down her cheeks.
"I'm fine Dan." She jerks her arm away and continues down the side walk.
"You're not okay. What happened with Blair?" Serena gets a taxi and orders the driver to take her home. Dan jumps inside just before the car begins to move.
"Nothing." Serena is still crying but she wipes the tears away and looks out the window. They pull up to her penthouse and Dan is still following her when she walks in.
"You can tell me. I'm worried Serena." They're on the elevator and Serena turns to look at him and see's how worried he really is.
"We had sex Dan. I told her I loved her. I told her what Chuck did, that what happened three weeks ago was a mistake, and she wouldn't listen to me. I woke up this morning watching her put on her clothes." Serena's tears begin anew. "She told me it was a mistake Dan." Serena's begins to sob again on Dan's shoulder. "I miss her Dan. I miss her so much. I wish she would listen to me. I love her so much and I know she misses me but, she still pissed and I don't think this thing between us can get fixed." She starts to walk to her room. "You should go home Dan. Thanks for your help but, it's going to take a miracle for Blair and I to get back together." She walks in her room and closes the door leaving Dan standing in the living room.
Blair was in the shower a few blocks down the street trying to wash the smell of Serena off her skin. Her mind kept replaying the events of the night before and she couldn't stop the feelings of guilt. She'd done everything she could to stay away from Serena but the moment the blonde's lips touched hers she couldn't stop herself. Her body automatically melted with Serena's and when there naked skin touched she felt like she was finally home. She'd dropped Vanessa off at her apartment thirty minutes ago and all the while they were holding hands in the limo, she couldn't stop thinking that Serena's fingers were just a bit longer than Vanessa's, that her girlfriend's skin was a lot darker than Serena's, and that she wished that Vanessa's hair was golden instead of black.
"Damn it" she yelled at herself. She was still in love with Serena. She smacked her hand against the shower wall and started to cry. "Damn it, why did she have to come back?" She didn't need this right now.
It's fifteen minutes later, when Blair steps out of the shower, the brunette notices somebody is sitting in her room. It's Chuck Bass.
"Blair, we need to talk." Blair eye's him suspiciously. "Damn right we need to talk.'' She thought to herself.
"What are you doing here Chuck, I'm not even dressed yet."
"I needed to talk to you." Chuck's eyes begin to roam over Blair's body. He feels his crotch begin to bulge. He's aroused and surprised. He hadn't been this aroused in weeks.
"About what?"
"I've been trying to go over this so many times in my head but, every scenario seems to turn out horribly." He sees Blair eye him curiously and begins to think maybe telling her his feelings again isn't such a great idea. He'd been content on letting her tryst with Vanessa run its course but, seeing her with someone else broke his heart everyday and he had to tell the brunette his true feelings. "I miss you Blair, I miss us, the way things were before this summer started. I know we agreed to be friends but I can't take it, I tried but it doesn't work. I'm still in love with you." He sees Blair's eyebrows shoot up and then he sees another look. Almost like a light bulb went off and she's finally piecing something together.
"Chuck you know that I'm with Vanessa." She sees his eyes cast downward. "I don't have those feelings for you anymore. I'm sorry." Chuck's eyes furrow.
"Why not, at the beginning of the year you wanted me to say those words. Well now I'm saying them. I love you Blair and I was an idiot to ever let you go." He really wants her back.
"I'm sorry Chuck. I don't have those feelings for you anymore and I'm with Vanessa." She makes herself believe this is the only reason. Chuck doesn't buy it.
"Bull shit." Blair's eyes open in shock.
"What?"
"I said bull shit. Vanessa isn't the reason you don't want me. Serena is." Chuck is pissed and he knows he has no right to be. Blair sees something and a question comes to her mind that she has to ask.
"Did you plot me and Serena's break up?" She sees Chuck's eyes widen for a moment before they go back to there normal size and she knows the truth. Chuck may be able to put a mask on for the rest of the world but not for Blair Waldorf. Her lips turn into a sneer. "Did you make a plan with HUMPHREY to break us up?" Chuck doesn't answer. He sees how angry Blair is getting. "Damn it, answer me Charles Bass."
"Yes, I fucking did it. Serena's nothing more than a slut that doesn't deserve you. You were too fucking wrapped up in Serena land to pay attention to me so I fixed the situation my own way." The words come out before he has a chance to stop them. He looks up and doesn't expect the hard slap that touches his face. He looks at Blair with sad eyes and she looks back at him with anger. He knows he deserves it.
"I trusted you. I trusted you Chuck. Get the hell out of my house." Chuck thinks the iciness in Blair words sting more than the slap and quickly walks out of Blair's room. Blair slams the door and starts crying on the bed.
"When the hell did this get so fucked up?" She said.
Serena is lying on her bed and looking out of her window. She's still has on the same dress from the night before and hasn't taken a shower. She still smells Blair on her skin and can't bring herself to the bathroom for a bath. She's cuddled on the bed when she hears a knock at the door. She opens it and is more than surprised to see Blair standing there with tear stains on her cheeks.
"I spoke to Chuck. He told me what he did." Serena's eyebrows shoot forward. She can't believe Blair is standing here. "I threw him out of my house. The bastard." Serena only nods. "Can I come in?" Serena steps back giving Blair a silent invitation.
"What are you doing here Blair?" Serena silently hopes it's because Blair wants her back.
"I… I… I don't know." Serena looks at her curiously and closes the door. "I don't know okay." They're standing close. Once again they feel that magnetic pull bringing them together. Blair steps back. "I can't get you out of my head." Serena feels like her heart is starting to get pulled back together.
"I miss you. When you left this morning, I thought I wouldn't see you again." Blair looks in Serena's eyes and sees the truth. She feels shame run through her at the blonde's words. "I've been horrible without you, I feel like I can hardly breathe. I can't eat or sleep. I feel like I'm half my self without you Blair. I need you." Blair feels like Serena spoke her mind and is more than surprised at the submission.
"Serena I…." She's cut off.
"I love you Blair."Serena grabs Blair's hands and kisses each knuckle. She pulls her body closer and stares in the brunette's eyes. "I'm nothing without you. These last three weeks prove it." Blair begins to cry. She wants to put everything behind them and take Serena back. Serena sees it in her eyes.
"I can't…." Blair pulls her hand away and steps to the window. Serena is standing there looking at her.
"Then tell me why you came here. Tell me why last night happened. Why after all our bullshit we're still standing her, right now, together?"
"I can't." Blair couldn't. She didn't know why they kept coming back to one another.
"You love me." Blair shoots a look at Serena. "And I love you too." Serena is standing next to her again.
"We…." She's cut off by Serena's lips meeting hers. She doesn't bother to fight it and gives in bringing her hands to Serena's neck. Serena's lips taste like vanilla and her body feels so good. Serena doesn't stop kissing her and they only pull away from each other to breathe. "What are we doing Serena?"
"What we should have done the moment you came here. You're the only one I want." Serena's eyes are gazing at her. They kiss again passionately and there clothes begin to shed. Serena brings Blair to the bed on top of her and then Blair stops. Blair can see Serena needs her. She knows if she lets this happen she won't have any excuse. Last night was an accident but, tonight she would have no excuse for. She wouldn't be able to blame it on the alcohol or the fact Serena followed her. This time she showed up at Serena's door. Blair begins to pull away much to Serena's dismay.
"I can't do this Serena." Blair sees anger in Serena and she begins to put on her clothes.
"So that's it? I tell you all of that and we're done. You tell me you can't stop thinking about me and you leave. You're going to go back to fucking Vanessa." Serena feels her heart begin to break again, Blair couldn't keep doing this to her.
"You're the one that was in bed with Dan." Blair says it because she still can't get the image out of her mind.
"Chuck manipulated us. You know this."Blair does but she's still doesn't looks at Serena.
"Whatever, I have to go." Blair is nervous. She's standing half naked in front of an almost fully naked Serena. She won't look at the other girls' face because she knows she's breaking Serena's heart. Serena is pissed. She runs up to Blair and kisses her with a force they both have never felt before.
"You're not going to leave me. You're not leaving me. Not this time." She says this as her lips travel down Blair's neck. Blair is pushing and fighting Serena but still can't get the blonde off of her. "Stop fighting me, stop fighting this." Serena undoes Blair's bra and starts sucking on her breast. Its Blair's undoing and Serena divests the rest of there clothing and brings them back to the bed. Blair begins to protest again but is silenced with another angry kiss. "Stop it Blair, just stop fighting me." Blair keeps pushing but stops when Serena pulls her lips away and looks down at her. Serena has tears in her eyes and has seemed to have lost all the fight in her. "Please Blair, just for tonight. Just one more night. I need you. Please." Serena is pleading with her and Blair stops fighting and lets the other girl kiss her.
"Serena, I don't know what to say." Serena's body is completely on top of Blair's. There skin is touching again and Serena feels like she's finally whole again.
"Make love to me Blair." And Blair does.
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