Hello guys, sorry not updating school, life and a slutty muse got in the way ^^; but, to make up for it... Upadate x2 COMBO! ^^
Being rudely woken up and thrown out after only four hours of sleep wasn't exactly how you wanted to start the day. The added awkward silence between you and Karkat was just making things worse. The small teen refused to look at you as he walked you back to your house.
"Karkat look"
"Don't"
"But.."
"Just don't!" Karkat growled his voice cracking slightly. "I know alright. I fucking know."
"I'm sorry..."
"Don't... look lets..." He paused, straightened his shoulders before he spoke again. "Lets just end this while we're still friends." You peer your short now ex-boyfriend. In the short time you had gotten to know the tiny teen known as Karkat Vantas you learned that when he's quiet he's hurting and when he doesn't try to look you in the face while speaking he doesn't really know what he wants to say.
"Karkat...I didn't mean to do it. Really. Yes I've liked Gamzee for a very long time but, I've come to really like you too... it's just..."
"Look you don't have to coddle me like some fuckin' baby alright? You're not my moirail and I'm not stupid. I know you weren't that into me. I just..." Karkat stilled and looked down again but, not before you saw his candy red eyes water. "I'm just sick of everyone fucking running out on me!" He screamed, eyes screwed shut as he shook.
"You, Dad, Terezi, even Gamzee..! Every single fucking one of you ran out on me... Am i really that messed up!?" The albino shouted, although much quieter this time, voice dying down as he thought about what he really wanted to say. "Am I... Am I really that unloveable...? That much of a freak. A mutant! That even some idiot like you couldn't handle being with me?"
"Karkat..." You said softly, hugging the smaller teen to you. You couldn't believe it. All this time you spent admiring him, wishing to be him, only to find out he was just as lonely and insecure as you were, it felt like a kick in the chest. Looking down at the messy black hair that was white towards the top and bright red eyes, it was like looking in some really messed up mirror.
"Hey...hey." You tipped his head up to yours. "Look, I'm sure they all had a good reason for leaving you..."
"Yeah...except Gamzee. Fucking freak made me leave..."
"Have you ever asked him about it?"
"No..."
"Maybe you should...He misses you." You half lied, anyone could see how Gamzee looked at Karkat or the glares he sent at anyone who even looked at him wrong but, the clown had never really admitted to missing him.
"Whatever...Look, it's late or... early. Lets just get home we have school later and Nep's party." You nodded and started the long walk to Karkat's before heading down the street towards your own home. So much has happened lately it was hard to believe that school was about to start up again.