DISCLAIMER: I really really wish I owned this lovely universe where there is Jacob Black and magic and love and wolves!
A.N. This is a looong chapter. And it has Edward's POV! Hope you'll like it.
Chapter 26
It's perfect when we touch
The signs are shining bright
We just can't get enough
This much we know
Oh, it's so right
Time has come, it's
Now, forever after
Now, sharing our laughter
For better or worse
Until we die
Now, forever after
Now, sharing our laughter
Until the end of time
There's magic in our eyes
Which no one else can see
A flame that will not die
Shedding it's glow
We're wiser now by far
Our hearts are bound so tight
We know what we must do
Where we must go - Kingdom Comes (Just the perfect song!)
Edward's POV
"I think Carlisle would be proud. This was his and Esme's last wish." I said as my family, Jake and Seth, Eleazar and Carmen and Charlie together brought a piece of land to start a charitable hospital. This was Carlisle and Esme. Always working for the greater good, always helping. And this is how it should've been done, by vampires, wolves and humans together. If it wasn't for Carlisle and his treaty with Ephraim Black all those years ago, if it wasn't for him and his compassion none of us would've stood here right now. He was the best father I could've hoped for. I could sense how there was not a single bad thought against him and Esme in any one's mind. How everyone really respected him. Jake felt really bad losing Esme. He had lost his mother when he was so young. To lose a mother figure once again was painful for him. It was painful for all of us.
Especially Ness. She still blamed herself for it. She tried to hide her thoughts from even me. Jake had talked her through. I knew it was a matter of time before those two got happily married forever. About two weeks ago they were two best friends with feelings for each other. And today they were in love with a promise never to let go. I want Renesmee to be happy. And Jacob makes her happy. But I'm not ready yet to see my little daughter go away. She is only seventeen and has been living for only six years. Bella is having even more trouble letting her go. But I know she would hate herself to see our daughter unhappy. So she too is gonna do what is best for her.
Everyone head back home. Carmen and Eleazar have decided to move to France to make a new start, to forget everyone they lost. They lost everyone except each other. Charlie hugged Bella and Ness and went. Sue decided to stay back to check on his daughter. She was so worried about her. And she missed Harry really badly now. He could always handle Leah. She was his little princess. It was also creating stress between her and Charlie's life. But Charlie gave her all the time and space she wanted until she felt alright. Until he knew her daughter would be alright. It was really difficult for her to explain Emily's parents her and Sam's deaths. And then with the new born being in such a critical state and Leah not healing properly, not eating or drinking since the past three days has taken a toll on her. Seth drove her to our place.
"Will we ever be the same without them?" Bella asked.
And Alice nodded. She had seen the future. And it was peaceful. She couldn't really see far because our future was so wrapped around Renesmee and the wolves. But she did see a big family still together.
We walked at human pace. No one was in a hurry. Rosalie had brought Yasmin and Drake along. And even though little Yasmin didn't know Carlisle or Esme, she still felt bad for Rose and cried. She had developed and attachment for Rose. And Emmett was the coolest father anyone could ever hope for. I knew it was only a matter of days before she and Emmett asked the kids if they could be their parents.
And Alice and Jasper had grown attached to Lucy and the twins. On the other hand Nate had grown attached to Jake. He was like an older brother to him. He didn't like the fact that the kids were going away from him, but he let them knowing they were happy with the change. He hated taking orders from anyone, but he is trying hard to become a vegetarian like us.
"It's almost time." I said as we neared home.
The change was almost over. Their bodies were now shaking only a little. Thoughts were finally becoming clear. Senses were returning slowly.
Suddenly we all raced home to see what was gonna happen. I touched Andrea and her temperature was nearing mine. On the other hand Embry's temperature was just as high as fire.
"Give them an hour more." I said.
Alice, Rosalie, Jasper and Emmett took the kids for hunting. We didn't want them too near when Andrea turned. We didn't want Ness close either. But she didn't move an inch no matter what. Embry was a friend and she wanted to be there for him. In her mind this was the least she could do for all her mistakes.
"Lets check on Leah and the baby Edward." Jake said.
I nodded. None of us could understand what was happening with Leah. I'm quite sure she is not a wolf anymore. But I didn't really wanna tell anyone. Her body didn't heal quick, her diet was barely anything, her temperature was almost human like, her senses were almost human like. But she was so broken and so destroyed on the inside, I didn't know what to say or what to do. I never knew losing an imprint would be that hard. I had always heard tales about imprints and their love, but witnessing one first hand was...something. Her thoughts were so filled with grief and pain. No tears ran down her cheeks but on the inside the tears never stopped. And she didn't even know the guy. Only when I handed the baby in her hands did some life come into her. She knew that she had to feed the baby every two hours. She knew she had to clean him every now and then and massage him and rock him to sleep. But whenever he was out of her arms, she became a ghost again. The baby was doing well. I removed him off the ventilator yesterday, when it could finally breath on its own.
And the look when the tiny one was finally in Leah's arms was hopeful. That little one could make her life at least worth living. She wanted to be the best mother to him. She was the happiest in these three days when the first time he had opened his eyes and yawned in her arms.
"Leah?" Nessie said as we entered the emergency room that was now Leah and the baby's.
She looked up at her and looked back down at the sleeping baby in her arms.
"Dad needs to check on him Leah. To make sure he is alright. You want him to be good, right? Please hand him over Leah." she said. Leah only reacted if Jake or Nessie spoke. Sometimes Seth and Sue.
She reluctantly handed the baby over to Ness. She somehow had grown distrustful of us. Of all vampires. She hated everyone of us. But not hybrids. She didn't mind them. But she still let him be treated by me, because his health came before anything.
And the baby was doing good. The heartbeat was normal, temperature was normal. He still didn't drink milk properly, but a lot of kids do that so it wasn't really a serious problem.
"He is really better Leah. You are doing a good job." I told her. But she only took him out of my arms as fast as she could and sat in the far corner with him. Sue went behind her and just sat besides her, saying nothing. She too was in terrible pain. But I asked Seth to take her back. Andrea was almost through the change. And they left soon with Sue crying.
Only Bella, Ness, Jake and me remained.
How easy it was for Aro to do this. Use hybrids to block Alice's vision. Then create a diversion by sending guards after the Denali's. He knew very well we would send Ness with Jake somewhere safe. Like La Push. And he knew that when they head back he could ambush them. It was such an easy plan. So easily he ripped my family apart.
"We have to tell them, don't we?" she asked from her mind, taking her sheild down, breaking my chain of thoughts. My Bella was so sad and confused about everything. She missed Carlisle and Esme. With all the deaths and sufferings in the war she blamed herself. Just like Ness. Like mother, like daughter.
I nodded a little.
There was some truth I had discovered in Aro's mind during the battle. And it affected Jacob and Nessie. It affected their present and future. We didn't want to tell them, but we had to. We couldn't deny them chances they didn't know would fly out of their hands if they don't know about it soon. Nessie was still a kid. But I can't deny her this truth.
"You think they will...?" Bella asked me in her mind.
And just then Alice who was on her hunting trip with others nearby had a vision. And that vision answered it all.
"They will. And it will be alright. Alice has seen it." I said in a really quite voice.
"But I thought..." she started. But I heard the question in her mind even before it had reached her lips.
"But she can see. She can see a girl who is-" I didn't have to complete. Bella knew.
"Human." she completed in her mind.
Nessie's POV
Mom and dad were having their silent conversation again. And my mom was looking at me with a worried expression. Why? They still loved me in spite of all the things that I did. Even though they believe I didn't.
These three days were so horrible. Embry and Andrea were in pain. Leah was in a constant agony. And our family didn't know how things would go without Carlisle and Esme. Nobody deserved this. But yet they suffered without saying a word to me. I would feel better if somehow they shouted and told me how horrible and awful person I was. How I was a mistake. That I should've never existed. But they kept repeating it wasn't my fault, it wasn't my fault. Which just made it more painful for me. Why deny the truth? And the truth was that I'm a monster.
"Renesmee." My dad said reading my thoughts.
And it took Jake only a second to figure what I was thinking.
"Ness please for my sake don't do this to yourself. Your pain is my pain. Remember? We had sworn we'd share everything. May it be happiness or sadness." He said.
"Yes Jake. I'm sorry for putting you through this-" I said.
"No. No sorry. Just a promise that from now on you'll be happy. For me. Please?"
I nodded. How could I deny him his happiness at my cost? He had already lost too much because of me.
And just then my dad gave me a look. I knew our talk was not far away. I had avoided dad at all costs. But I couldn't put it off forever. He would corner me someday. And dad nodded to me at that.
Then mom and dad both nodded at each other.
"Renesmee, Jake, we need to talk to you guys. I think it is better we sit down for this." Mom said.
I looked at them confusedly and so did Jake.
"Is everything alright Bells?" Jake asked.
"Yes and umm no. Please sit down." Mom said walking upto the dinner table.
I sat beside Jake across mom and dad.
"Jacob I need to ask you something before we start." Dad said to him. He nodded furrowing his eye brows.
"I know the answer but I still want to hear you say it. What matters more to you, Renesmee's wishes or Renesmee's safety? Would you go against her wishes to protect her?" Dad asked.
Where was this going? Our happiness was the same. Jake would never have to go against my wishes to protect me.
But Jake didn't even take a moment to think.
"We have forever to be happy, but if I don't protect her once, if I slip somewhere then there will be no point to my life. Her life matters more than anything. But why do you ask Edward? Whats happening?" Jake asked.
"Ness what we are about to tell you will affect not only yours but Jacob's future as well. So we want you to think through before you make a decision. And both of you'll have to make the decision. Please don't decide in a haste. We don't really want this to be happening but it is your happiness at stake Renesmee. So choose wisely." Dad said turning to me.
And I grew more confused by the minute. Where was all this leading to? I held Jake's hand so he knew what I was thinking all through this.
"Ness, we discovered a...a fact in Aro's mind when he had attacked." Mom started.
"Ok... And?" I prompted.
"And...well here it goes. By the time you are fully mature, you will become more like us and a little less like humans." Mom said.
"What do you mean?"
"What I mean is, when you reach that stage, you will freeze in a way. Your skin would still just glow not shimmer in the sun, you still will be slower than vampires, senses will remain the same. But..."
"But what mom?" Oh god please let it not be what I'm thinking it is. No this can't happen. I'm a half human. I should be able to...to...
"Your cycles will all come to a stop. You won't be able to have kids after that." Dad said. Mom couldn't continue.
And I just stared at them in shock. The future I had seen with Jacob and a bunch of tiny little wolves all just disappeared from my mind. And just cold crept into my heart.
I was...I was disappointing Jake. I knew there was a possibility that I could not have kids, but I didn't know it was totally impossible. I always hoped things would work out. And now they are not. Poor Jake. He imprinted on a girl-
"Who is more than what he deserves. It's ok Ness. I never thought of myself as the dad material. And if you ever want kids in the future, we'll adopt." He said like it was all ok. Like nothing had happened. Like what mom and dad said didn't even hurt him one tiny bit. Didn't he want to have kids with me?
"Of course I do Ness, but-" He said. Damn it, I was still holding his hand. I kept my hands to myself.
"But what Jake? My entire future, all my dreams just...just broke like that, in a second. And you pretend as if it's all cool. Like nothing is wrong. How will we adopt a kid? A human kid? We'll let him grow up and die while we live forever? Or will we keep adopting kids after one dies. One day those kids would look older to us. How will they handle that? How will we handle it?" I said. I was enraged. Destiny just took my dreams. How could this be what fates had planned for Jake. I wanted him to be a father. The one who could take tiny little kids on a piggy back rides and teach them how to play football.
"We will find a way. If the kid decides to stay with us forever then we can...we can turn him." he said. I knew he wouldn't want anyone to become blood thirsty vampires, who could possibly kill humans. But he would do it for my happiness.
"And then you would regret if by any chance that child kills a human." I said with tears burning my eyes.
"I want kids. I want them to be with us forever. I want you to be a dad. And mom and dad to be grandparents. I want...I want..." My cycles would stop after a year and a half. I had a year and a half! I had A YEAR AND A HALF! That was more than enough to have a kid!
"Ness think it through. It could be...it could be dangerous. You're body is just of a seventeen year old."
There was nothing to think through. I wanted kids. I still have a chance. Why would I not take it? There was no question that I would let go of this chance.
"Dad how long could it take for Alice to arrange a wedding?" I asked.
Every thought that I had of leaving Jacob, every thought that I had of doing the right thing, I threw it out of my head. This was my last and final chance of having a forever after with Jake. I could not...would not give it up. I know it's selfish of me, but where would I be if I let go? I'll make everyone like me. I'll stay with Billy and take care of him. I just had to make them see...that I'm not a monster. I know a lot of people died because of me, I know I'm responsible for everyone's unhappiness. I know today they are wolves because of me. And yes I know I don't deserve this happiness. But Jake does. And I want to give him kids. Because after this, Jake would spend the rest of his life would me but never happily. He would always miss something. And if I don't give him that something now, then I would always be responsible for his unhappiness.
"Edward no! I'm not...I'm not doing this!" Jake said and just like that he was out in a flash.
And dad followed him.
And I sat there in shock.
Was our dream not the same? Didn't he want kids and a happy future that revolved around them? I so badly wanted a little Jake Jr in my arms. And knowing that the more I delay, the more that little one would go away from my future.
"Mom... Why did Jake... Doesn't he wants..." I tried to ask in between my tears.
"No Ness it isn't like that. Jacob loves you and he does want a future with you." She said hugging me.
"Then where is the problem?"
"Ness you're six. Please let me finish." Mom said as soon as I opened my mouth. "No matter how old you are physically or mentally, you've just lived for six years. It isn't a long time for anyone to be prepared for a kid no matter how ready physically they are for it. I know Ness, you want a kid really badly knowing that there is no chance after a year and a half. But lets hold on a moment and look at it from Jake's point of view. It was never easy for him to accept the fact that you had grown up so soon. Your imprint bond, your changed feelings made him change the way he saw you. He never wanted to feel like this about a six year old, but you loved him and he just had to love you back. He became whatever you wanted. When you were eight, he was your older brother. When you were thirteen he was your best friend and now he is the love of your life. He kept changing because you wanted him to change. When you needed a brother to escape from our scolding, he took you. When you needed a friend to keep your secrets he became your secret keeper and when you wanted him to love you, he did without holding back. And now that you want him to be a father. It's not easy for him to accept the fact that the girl he used to be an older brother to four years back wants to become the mother of his kids. Try to understand his side. Please. Don't do this to yourself. Ness I know both of you'll can work this through."
We could work it through? How? Jacob won't even listen to a word I've got to say. He...he still thought of me as a...a six year old. He loved me because...because I made him fall in love with me. As if he had no say. As if the imprint bond was forcing him, I was forcing him.
What had the fates planned for us? First they made us for each other then they forced him to love me because I grew up so fast and fell in love with him, and now they are robbing us the chance of having kids ever. I don't mind if all this unhappiness was just for me, but it's also for Jake. He suffers with me, for me, because of me. And I can't do anything to make it better.
"Mom what should I do?" I asked her passing her every thought I had ever had.
"Darling, you need to talk with Jake. Ask him if he is ready. Edward is explaining it to him. But the final decision has to be by both of you. You can't force him and neither can you ever regret whatever decision you'll make today. The matter here is not only about your age but also your health. We don't know what your kids would be like, or how long will the pregnancy be or how...how painful it will be. Jacob will think about all this and only when he thinks he is ready and thinks this kid won't hurt you he will say yes."
"Mom you knew from the very start that I would be killing you, right?"
"Ness-"
"Just yes or no mom."
She nodded.
"But you still fought for me. Why? Because I was a part of dad. I was just an innocent little life who didn't know what she was doing. You didn't even know if I would become a monster or not. But yet you wanted me, yet you did everything you could. And look where I'm now. It's because of you mom. So why can't I fight for the future I want? Why can't I be strong enough for a little Jake Jr? Will it be so wrong for me to have kids that even my soul mate won't consider it?"
"No Ness. He is considering it. It's just that right now he is confused and shocked. He has no clue what to do. And after all that we've been through in the past few days, I think he deserves some time. In the end I trust him and I know he'll make a decision that'll make you happy and keep you safe at the same time." Mom said with confidence.
Happiness and safety. Did those two ever go hand in hand?
Edward's POV
His mind was a...chaos. He was running. He wanted to make Ness happy. He wanted that future. He had seen all this just a few days back when Ness swore to spend forever with him no matter what. But he couldn't imagine ever sleeping with her while she was still six even though physically Ness was seventeen and mentally over twenty.
He shifted in the woods and commanded every wolf who were in their wolf forms to turn back for a while. He felt better in his wolf form. He felt free. But the confusion in his mind still raged on. The picture of Nessie's birth scene was running in his mind. Then there was a picture of the Volturi coming for Ness, him and a bunch of kids they held.
"What am I supposed to do Edward?" he asked me with his mind finally stopping his race.
"Relax. Think. Talk to Ness." I said.
"It's obvious she wants kids, she wants that future. But will it be right on my path to...to take advantage of her? Because she wants it?"
I thought for a moment. I wasn't too happy about this part either. My Ness was only six. I had had a daughter for only six years and now she was ready to let go off me. Yes she was ready for marriage and kids. I know she is. But...how is it right?
Even though I never thought I'd say this, I had to. It was her happiness at stake. And I'll make my daughter happy no matter what.
"How will it be wrong Jake? She is seventeen, not six! Stop thinking of her like that. She is old and mature enough to make her decisions. And her decision is to marry a guy I trust and have kids with him. There is nothing wrong in this."
"Edward... Ok even if I forget the fact that she is six. What if she is hurt during...the child birth? What if something happens to her? How will I live with myself? We don't know what our kids would be like? What if someone comes for them next time?"
"The kid can definitely not hurt her. She is a half vampire. And your kids will definitely be like you two. A perfect combination. And if someone comes for them, then we'll fight till our last breath. Ness is my daughter Jake. You are family. And your kids will be protected at all costs."
"Edward but-"
"It's the future you've dreamt off. It's her happiness Jake. Her dream."
I guess that did it. He didn't agree to it. But he neither went against it. He wanted time. He shifted and we walked back to the house. Andrea's transformation was minutes away.
Nessie's POV
He walked in with dad. His face was an unreadable mask. And I was shocked. I could always figure Jake out. But now I couldn't. And that could only mean-
"Hold that thought Ness." Dad said.
I looked at him with confusion. What had they talked about? What was his decision? Why did he look so stressed?
"Ness...I...I want us to be happy. But I need some time too. And we need to talk this out before we do anything we would regret tomorrow. Will you...will you be with me through this all?" He said looking at me with worry.
"Jake I've promised forever. And I meant it. No matter what." I said hugging him.
"Jake it's over." Dad said suddenly.
And by the time I looked up from Jake's embrace, there was a pale beautiful color figure standing before me with blood red eyes. And looking at me with...hunger. She was a girl I once knew. And now she is...a blood thirsty vampire looking at me.
Mom and dad held her in a flash and Jacob had me behind him.
They hurriedly took Andrea into the room again and Embry was opening his eyes.
"Andrea?" he said as soon as he saw blood thirsty pale body of the girl who is his imprint.
And she growled at him.
"Reah are you still in there?" he asked. He still seemed to be in pain.
"I...I don't know. Embry I don't know whats happening except for the fact that this change is scaring me and I'm so thirsty that it's painful." she said her eyes glancing at me.
"We're taking her Embry. Jake take care of him." dad said and dragged Andrea out of the house with mom.
"Jake...I...I don't feel anything tying me to her. It's like my heart is ripped off from me and tortured and broken and crushed into pieces. She was the one. She was the whole reason behind my existence. Then why can't I...I love her anymore Jake? Why can't I?" Embry said. He was crying. And he was in pain. He was still shaking slightly.
Oh god! I had broken their imprint bond. I caused so much pain to Embry! I...I took away his love. I've as good as killed him.
"What is happening?" Leah asked hearing Embry's painful tears.
She entered the room and looked at Embry who was crying with his head in his hands.
"Andrea is a vampire. And they've...lost their bond." Jake said.
But it seemed Leah was not listening. She kept approaching Embry even though Jake tried to stop her.
She touched him at his shoulder and it seemed like time stopped. They both froze.
Then Embry slowly lifted his eyes. And it happened again to both of them. Both shook. Both couldn't take eyes off each other. And both of them saw a new future ahead of them.
Both imprinted. On each other.
It seemed fates were just trying to make what was left of their lives happy. If after all this pain maybe they can find that happiness, that love only in each other.
Maybe Leah's forever after wasn't gone with Caleb. Maybe Embry's forever after with Andrea just could not be anymore.
Maybe both Leah and Embry's forever after was meant to be with each other from the very start. And maybe they were just too blind to see that. Maybe the bad things had to happen so that those two could get here and finally see the light in each other.
But whatever happens, I know they will have a forever after together.
And so will Jake and I. No matter what decisions we make. No matter what future brings. We will always be together. Forever after.
A.N. So well here it is. The last chapter. Oh god I'm suddenly out of words.
So did you'll like it? Do you'll think I did justice? Please let me know. Like I've always said, good, bad, ugly, totally awful. Just throw anything at me.
I totally loved writing this story. I cried and I laughed along with the characters as I wrote them. I really thank SM for giving us the universe of Twilight.
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