I was in my locker room laying on the couch rubbing my temple as I replayed mine and Tracy's talk in my head.
"We need to talk" Tracy said crossing her arms and looking at me
"We do" I said looking at her and pointed to the patio in the backyard
We walked out both taking a set at the table I looked over at her and could see all the hurt and confusion in her features.
"Do you love me?" she asked
"Yes I love you" I told her honestly
"But are you in love with me the way you're in love with her?" she asked resting her hands on the table
The tone of her voice was calm but shaky almost like she was terrified to know the answer and to be honest I was terrified to answer.
"I don't know" was all I could come up with even though I knew the answer clear as day.
Tracy's face fell and I watched as the tears ran down her face she started to rub her stomach and rock back and forth.
"What did I do to make you stop loving me?" she asked through the tears.
"Tracy I do love you" I told her "It's just things have changed for us and you know that all the fighting and bickering it's just too much and all it has done is push me away" I told her "I'm not happy" I added
"And she makes you happy?" Tracy asked her voice laced with anger
"I can't explain it Tracy" I told her "I wish I could but I can't" I added
"I went to her house" she said "And I asked her if she was having an affair with you but of course she denied it and maybe you two have never actually slept together but you guys are having emotional affair and that hurts more than a physical one because you have to go to another women in order to be happy emotionally" she said "and I'm sure if she offered a physical side you take it" she added getting angrier
"Tracy what do you want me to say you?" I asked "She is my best friend and has been for a long time I can't change how I feel about her" I added
"You realize she is in her apartment laid up with some other guy" she said looking at me "That she doesn't want you" she said
"Stop" I told her through gritted teeth "Look I think its best if we just spend some time apart so we can both figure out what we truly want" I added.
"What we truly want? I want you" she yelled "and you want a divorce" she said "you're willing to break your family up over some chick?" she yelled at me
"I'm not leaving Jo and you know that so don't you dare use her against me" I said smacking the table
"What about the baby I'm carrying?" she asked
"What are you talking about?" I asked
Tracy dug in her purse and pulled some papers out from the doctor "I was going to tell you when you got home but you decided to say another women's name in bed so I didn't but I found out a week ago that I am pregnant" she said "but don't worry I got this like I always do" she said getting up.
She walked to the door and slid it open but turned and looked at me "Go on your little soul search all you want but don't expect me to be waiting with open arms and to pick up the pieces when she breaks your heart" she said slamming the door and leaving.
I walked back inside and seen all three shake their heads at me before looking back at the tv.
I groaned I was so torn on what to do my head was screaming at me to get a grip and go fix my family because I do love them and maybe I just need to fall in love with her again but my heart is saying walk out of this locker room go find Rose and tell her how you feel..
I am on cloud nine I always hated that saying but after the past few days and walking hand and hand with Finn into the building cloud nine was the best way to describe how I feel.
We walked over to the production board to see what the plan was for tonight then he walked me to the locker room.
"This is where I must leave you love" he said giving me a sweet kiss
I smirked and pushed him against the wall giving him an intense fiery kiss that lit both of our insides on fire.
"You're lucky where at work" he said biting my lip
"Oh yeah" I said smirking "Well I guess we will pick this up tonight boyfriend" I said walking into the locker room and leaving him in the hall with tight pants.
I put my bags down and started to pull my gear out when Sasha and Bayley walked in they both looked me up and down before smirking.
"What?" I asked
"The demon Queen" Sasha said with a smirk
"You and Balor huh" Bayley said with a huge smile
"The oh so sexy Balor" Sasha added
"Aren't you married?" I asked with a small laugh
"Yeah but I'm allowed to look" she said smiling "but honestly Rose I am happy for the both of you and you deserve it after all the Orton stuff" she added
"Thanks Sash" I told her
"I'll see you two out there" I said walking out toward make up
I sat in Lacey's chair and smiled at her through the mirror and she smirked.
"So I take it a certain Irish man has been good to you" she said
"So so so so good" I said clapping my hands "Lace I haven't been this happy in so freaking long that it just feels so good" I added.
"Well that's awesome Ro" she said fixing my hair
We were in the middle of talking when I seen Leati appear in the mirror I felt my good time high start to crash.
"What?' I asked
"I want to talk please" he said to me
"About what?" I asked "Why you been acting so crazy?" I said to him
"Rose please let's just go talk private" he said
"If you can't tell I'm a little busy" I said to him "So just say what you need to then go" I told him
"Damn it Rose stop acting like a child" he yelled at me
I flew up from the chair and turned to face him "Like a child" I yelled at him "Oh you haven't seen anything yet Leati" I told him taking a step toward him
"You want to talk so damn bad then do it" I said to him
"What's going on?" Finn asked walking up looking between the both of us.
"I'm in love with you" Leati said causing everyone to turn and look at us
"WHAT?" Me and Finn Yelled at the same time