Broken.
The night of the party and i had just finished getting ready. The whole TNA roster were going to be having a huge party tonight in the conference room of the hotel. Unfortunately for me, Jeff will be there. Tonight i had decided to wear a short black
mini dress with a long chiffon back panel that flows to the floor. It was very low cut and figure hugging. Pairing it with my black stileto heals and curly hair with back combed on top and my usual going out make up. I finally made it downstairs and
the room was already packed. Luckily it was dark and being lit up by only disco lights and lasers. First stop, the bar. The bartender smiles "what can i get you?" my face stays blank "three shots of sambuca and the strongest cocktail please" he nods
and prepares my drinks. The bar had been paid for all night, so i'm going to milk this! The shots didn't last long, once they were gone i made my way to a small table. It was set back from the others a little, just how i liked it recently. The music
was so loud it was vibrating the walls, again, just how i liked it.
I sat there enjoying my own companyfor almost an hour. Putting back shots every 10 minutes. My peace was shattered by Matt. He had walked over to me with Jeff by his side. Usually this would hurt me, but i feel nothing these days. He extended his
arms and pulled me in for a hug "why are you over here alone?" as i pull back i turn my gaze to him, a blank expression on my face "i wanted to drink and be alone" i notice Jeff shift uneasily as Matt laughs "well you've got us to keep you company
for a while now. Would you like a drink?" the last thing i wanted was company, but i couldn't say no to Matt. He's done nothing to me. "i'll have a strong cocktail please." he nods and makes his way to the bar, leaving Jeff stood there looking awkward.
My eyes stay focused on the dance floor, even when he speaks "i hear the signing tomorrow is going to be mental. There's so many people due to turn up" i shrug and continue to stare into space. After a few minutes Matt returns with drinks. I waist
no time drinking a huge gulp of mine.
As the hours passed, more and more people arrived. It was really starting to fill out now. I still had both Hardy brothers sat next to me, but i had got used to them being there now. I just blanked them both if i needed to. I'm already five drinks and
10 shots into the night, but i need more. "i'm going to grab a drink." when i reached the bar, it was as if the bartender could read my mind. He placed three shots of sambuca in front of me and the strongest cocktail. I could get used to this! Once
the shots were gone, i made my way back to the table. There was still two too many people sat there. I just sigh to myself and continue to drink. Until Matt grabs my arm "come on, we're dancing! I'm fed up of you being depressed and closed off" i
tried so hard to pull away, but his grip was too tight. I had no choice but to dance. I could see Jeff watching us. My body began to move to the music, but not like it used to. It was as if everything had died in me when i became heartbroken.
The time was now midnight and i was starting to feel drunk, finally. I had become so use to alcohol that it rarely touched me anymore. The party was starting to die down a little now, but i was still in full swing. Poor Matt was a little too drunk. I
felt more sorry for Reby having to deal with him later. I couldn't wait to head to a club as soon as this party was over. I needed some excitement and a new conquest, it is the weekend after all. I continued to dance next to Matt until the last song
of the night at half past midnight. That was my go ahead for the club. "come on Matt, i need to get you up to your room." before i could escort him, i feel a soft hand on my shoulder. To my surprise it's Reby. Jeff must have told her about Matt's
condition "he's in a bad way Reby, i feel sorry for you!" she laughs and attempts to lead Matt back to the room. For the first time in a very long time a smile creeps on to my face. The sight of a very drunk Matt attempting to walk was enough to make
anyone smile.
The club was packed and the music was loud. The second the smoke and lasers hit me, i wanted to party, hard! Once i had knocked back several shots, i took my usual spot on the dance floor. My head was spinning and the music slowly started to take me to
my happy place. The one place i didn't feel hurt and pain. Nights like this, i knew i could just get myself lost and not have to feel anything. My inner vixen didn't take long to come out, as my hips began to sway. The loud bass sent vibrations through
my body, head to toe. My hips moved to every beat as my hands trailed down the sides of my body. I could finally enjoy myself. I must have been dancing for at least an hour before i felt hands on my hips. As i turned my eyes fell on Jeff. He was stood
there with a tray of shots. "help me down them?" i stared blankly at the tray for a second before shrugging and taking two, downing them straight away. "how come you're here? With shots?" he smiled at me and placed the now empty tray on a table "so
i can't go out drinking now?" i could tell by his voice that he was messing with me. "i just didn't expect you to be here. I honestly thought you'd call it a night when Matt was escorted back."
The atmosphere between us was so thick you could cut it with a knife, but i didn't want it to ruin my night. I could see that he wanted to talk and try to set things right for tomorrow. The last thing either of us wanted was the signing to go badly. So
i gave him the benefit of the doubt and turned down the bitchy attitude.