It's the morning of Reaping, I am now a mentor. How wonderful teaching children how to kill each other.

I step outside of my house and see Haymitch exit his. I smile because I recall his reasoning to sleeping in his house last night.

I knew he just didn't want the Capitol to fawn over us yet. I knew he was cautious because if we live together they would think that were having sex.

"You ready?" I ask holding my hand out to him.

"When we're there" He sighs. He's very touchy with the Capitol knowing. I swear if we had the option I would certainly let him keep us a secret until I was nine months pregnant with his kid.

He walks right next to me instead of showing any sign of affection. I shrug it off as we reach the square.

"Hello!" A bright Capitol glazed accent squirms into my ears. "I'm Assandra" A very old woman approaches. She's short and has very red hair and an outfit to match. Her eyes are red too, it's horrifying quite frankly, "The new escort for district Twelve." She speaks up after our silence. He smile is glued to her face.

"Hi" I say with a pained smile.

"Oh the ceremony will soon begin!" She claps and now I can tell that her smile is surgically altered to stay that way.

"A-alright" I say tensely trying to get this woman away from this animal.

"Please take your seats." She guides us to our spots and the ceremony begins.

I drift slowly away from it all until I hear the girls name announced, "Roxanne Duggan"

Oh god... I think, that's Ruthie's little sister. I gasp she's just a kid barely turned twelve this year. I hear Ruthie let out a troubled sigh.

Roxanne makes her way to the stage trembling with fear holding back tears. "How old are you dear?"

"Twelve" She sighs as tears stream down her face.

I try to shake off my emotions but I can't. "Splendid!"

Now Roxanne is gasping and crying extremely hard. As Assandra tries to rally the crowd I stand up and take her in my arms.

"It's alright Roxanne." I whisper once and I'm sure everyone is gawking at me. Never has a mentor done that for a tribute. No one even knows if it's legal.

I hold little Roxanne she so short I have to kneel to reach her height. As soon as the boy is pick I let the other twelve year old cling to me.

I try my very best to sooth their cries but it's a futile attempt they are being sent to the slaughter house like the runt of a litter.

"Good luck tributes!" Assandra rings out to the crowd and I know I have to let go. As soon as I do their hands find mine and I lead them to the justice building.

The two are torn from my side, I take a deep breath before I face Haymitch, "Guess what new rule they're making?" I half smile.

He chuckles, "Yeah you're in deep shit"

"Well some ones got to keep them on their toes." I laugh with him. "how are we going to do this?"

He's silent, "Haymitch you know that-"

"Yeah I know!" He snaps suddenly.

"What?" I ask bewildered by his anger. He has never been angry about the topic. I knew that it was touchy but really?

"Later"

"No now! What the hell you can't get mad and then-"

"Later Noelle!"

Well I'm in trouble he hasn't called me that since my interview before my games. "Stop acting like your PMSing only one of us can at a time!"

"Fine!" He storms off towards the car. I stand shocked as he exits the building and camera's flash. I wait with wide eyes until the two kids come out and meet me.

I lead them to the car trying to almost shield them from the cameras. We get into the car and a very stubborn Haymitch looks out the window.

I want to roll my eyes and just let my tongue fly with anger but I keep my composure until we get to the train station and on the train.

"Come!" I whip him around and drag him to a back compartment. "What the hell?"

"Oh you don't get to question me!"

"Look tell me what's wrong"

"You should know!"

"What does that mean?"

"Don't play dumb!"

"I'm not! Stop being such a woman!"

"I'm just a piece! I'm just a piece in your game and theirs!"

"I don't follow" I hush the anger in my voice.

"You... You're just using me just like the Capitol... I'm just your little play thing"

"Is that honestly what you think this is? What you think we are?"

"Our 'love'? It's just so the Capitol can get what they want!"

"Is that how you feel?" My heart breaks as I even utter the words, "Because it's not how I feel" I whisper this part and only I can hear it.

"Our love it's not real! It's all just for them!"

"Is that what you believe honestly?"

"Yeah! It is!" Well it's official I will never be able to find all the pieces of my heart that he just shattered completely.

"How dare you?" I shout with a new pain, "How dare you suggest that I would only use you? Why would I ever-... You know what even if it was fake you know what they want to do to me! They want to sell me for sex!"

"Yeah I know!"

"How could you even think that I could hurt you like that?"

"You are!" I'm speechless can he really believe that? "I'm done! I'm out!" He throws his hands up and sighs. My eyes can't be bigger and my heart can't be more broken.

So this can only end well right? She can hold her own right? Well we'll see...