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"You must be the daintiest vampire I know.." He chuckled. I clawed at his hand with both of mine, the whole time thinking that Jasper was still on the ground, dieing. Because of this fucking asshole.

I swung the bottom half of my body up, wrapping my legs around his extended arm, before twisting myself up into a sitting position and tugging it up. I threw the arm away as quickly as I could.

At least now he had no arms to hit with anymore.

"You are really testing my patience, Lovely Bella."

"She never really had any of that to start with." My head whipped around, a tall blonde vampire stood in a crouch. I vaguely recognized him as Peter.

"I got Cauis, Bella, go take care of Jasper." I hesitated, looking from Cauis, to Jasper, to Peter, and back again. "GO!"

I nodded hastily, running to Jasper. Cauis growled, and I heard his feet thump against the ground with each step. I also heard the thunder like sound of Peter colliding with him.

"Jasper? Jas? Jazzy, come one. Keep your eyes open.." I encouraged. He smiled, reaching his hand out to me, touching my face with the back of his hand.

"You have no idea how much you mean to me."

"Jasper, keep your eyes open."

"I love you." He whispered, his eyes closing slowly. "You kicked his ass." He chuckled, before coughing. "Man, this really.. ugh, sucks." He groaned.

"Do you trust me?" I asked. He opened his eyes a little to look directly into mine.

"With.. m-my life." He coughed again. His eyes dropped closed, his breathing getting slower. I had tuned out Cauis's cries now, all I could see and hear was Jasper.

I held his face in my hands. This was wrong. So wrong. Jasper didn't deserve this.

I placed my mouth over one of the open wounds in his throat, pushing venom through, before moving to his wrists, ankles, the insides of his elbows and directly above his heart.

I hated myself for introducing him to the vampire world. But I hated myself the most for knowing how much he belonged here.

You can't quit until you try
You can't live until you die
You can't learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie.

Life Is Beautiful - Sixx: A . M

Bella POV

"BELLA!" Cauis rumbled. I kept my hand in Jasper's as he grasped it like a life line. "You have made.. Such.. A Mistake.."

"I know." I lowered my head. "I let you live." Jasper dropped my hand, I hesitated before picking it up again. "Peter?"

"I got it, Bells. Take Jasper home."

I nodded, slowly easing Jasper into my arms. Cauis screamed, running forward, only to be stopped by Peter again.

"Ugh.." He grunted. "That.. Fucking, .. ungh, hurts.."

"I'm sorry." I whispered, tapping my hand to his temple. He was out cold now. At least he wouldn't feel the transformation taking place.

"I'm so sorry."

The first day was hard. I watched Jasper whimper, even though he was unconscious. He would still grasp my hand.

"Bella.."

And he would still whisper my name.

Before screaming again, successfully making me feel like complete and utter shit for putting him through this.

The second day was just as bad as the first.

But there was a lot more screaming. He was starting to stir from his unconsciousness. I didn't know whether to knock him out again, or how much damage it could do to him.

"BELLA!" He screamed, jolting from the bed, before flinging himself off of the bed and onto the floor. I picked him up as gently as I could, placing him back on the bed.

He clutched my hand to his chest.

The third day was finally here.

Even Rose and Emmett's transformation didn't take this long.

"How's he doing?" Rose asked, placing a hand on my shoulder. She had taken Anna to stay with Jasper's father for a little while, just to adjust abit more to her new vampire life.

"He's okay." I didn't know who I was trying to convince more. Me or Rose. But he suddenly screamed, gripping my hand with almost newborn strength. I found myself wincing, wanting to pry his hand off of mine.

But I just couldn't.

"Mother fucker!" I hissed, biting my lip. His hands were breaking mine. They would heal, fast. But it still hurt like a fucking crack whore.

"Did I do that?" Rose asked, concerned. She tried to gently ease Jasper's hand off of mine. "Just to let it heal." She said, slipping Jasper's hand off.

"Thanks. No, you screamed, much like Jasper is now." Her face contorted into embarrassment. "But you didn't break my hand." I smiled. Rose smiled back.

It sounded like hammering concrete. His heart sped up quicker than normal. It knew it was about to stop beating. It was about to die. And Jasper was going to start this new life.

I could only hope he remembered his human life.

Who he was.

Who he is.

Who we are.

Who I am.

He blinked, eyes opening slowly.

Red stared into red.

But his red suddenly turned black, and before I knew it, I was being held against the bedroom wall, his arms wrapped tightly around me, neck craned looking back to Rose.

The hold tightened, and tightened.

He hissed.

Lol, sorry it sounds kinda stupid, but I really wanted to post another chapter before I have another power cut. Grr.