AN: Sorry for the delay and this is unbetaed sorry for the weird wordings or spellings.

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Even though Barbara was completely exhausted, she couldn't sleep, her mind wouldn't stop thinking. She didn't want to lose a single detail of what was happening. She was in Helena's bed cuddling her, something that only 24 hours earlier had been a hopeless impossibility that Helena might have felt the same way about her and reciprocated her love.

It was because of that love that Helena had left NG, believing that this would guaranty her happiness.

Oh Hel, how stupid we were, all that time wasted because of our fear of losing each other. It's true what they say about love being blind. Barbara thought to herself with a bittersweet smile. She closed her eyes enjoying the warmth of Helena's body, knowing that this was where she belonged, that her place was and always would be by the fearless, stubborn and incredibly sweet Helena Kyle.

Barbara was almost asleep when she felt a strange vibration against her chest. She opened her eyes wide-open feeling a bit disoriented, and suddenly she realized where she was and with whom, it was Helena.

Purring? How is it that I never knew? She thought, Helena had slept with her for several months during the first year that her mother had died and her own attack, but she had never heard her or felt her purr. True after that year Helena had stopped sleeping with her, but she would have felt it right? Tomorrow I'll ask her. Barbara promised herself. The truth was that Helena's purring was like a lullaby, her eyes felt heavy and she finally went back to sleep but never stopping from rubbing Helena's back, who at the same time cuddled closer to Barbara's body and swinging a leg over her without letting up on the purring much like a happy house cat.

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The first thing Helena felt as she woke up was a warm body next to her. For a moment she froze, feeling a bit confused. She opened her mouth slightly and took a breath of air scenting in the smells. A huge smile grew on her face as she breathed in deeply drowning in the scent that she never thought she would smell again. Helena sighed, she felt complete and absolute ecstatic with happiness just because she was wrapped around the redhead and knowing that the woman at her side loved her as much as she loved her in return. It was an overwhelming feeling; she had never felt as full of life as in this moment. She wanted to wake up this way every morning, with their bodies entwined. Knowing that this was the place that she belonged and that Barbara was hers and would be forever.

She remained that way for a while longer, not moving, just enjoying Barbara's nearness, listening to her breathing and her heartbeat against her ear. She felt at peace, truly at peace, no longer with those feelings of pain and emptiness that held her heart and threatened to bring her down on a daily basis. Finally, that which she had dreamed of was hers, Barbara was hers.

Her meta hearing perceived the cell phone ring and careful not to awaken Barbara she untangled herself from the warm body to which she was attached so closely and with cat footsteps, she left the room to answer the call.

"Kyle." She answered without paying attention to the number.

"Helena?" Leah's voice said. "Did you forget about our breakfast date?"

"Oh damn, I'm sorry Leah I forgot." Helena apologized. "I'm truly sorry."

"Well it's still early it's only been 15 minutes, I can wait for you." Leah said.

"Oh, Leah, I can't." She expressed her regret. "I had company last night." Recalling the reason why she had completely forgotten her standard date for breakfast, a huge smile brightened up Helena's face.

"Company?" She said intrigued. "What company Hel?"

"You wouldn't believe it if I told you." Helena confessed cheerfully

Leah held her breath for a moment and suddenly yelped. "Barbara! It's her isn't it?

"Yes!" Helena responded happily. "I couldn't believe it Leah. When I opened the door and saw her standing there in front of me for a moment I thought I was dreaming."

"From the happiness I can hear in your voice it appears everything turned out well? Right Hel?"

"Yes, she loves me Leah, she loves me!" Helena confided, the love she felt for Barbara evident in her voice. If Dinah or Reese were standing next to her, listening to the conversation, they wouldn't believe that this was the same Helena they knew, they would more than likely think that she was under one of Harley Quinn's hypnotic trances such as when she had tried to kill Barbara.

"Wow, I knew it!" Leah exclaimed happy for her friend.

"Huh?" Helena was baffled. "How did you…?"

Leah interrupted her with an amused chuckle. "Oh for Heaven's sake Helena, it's obvious. I might not know Barbara but from everything, you have told me about her and your life together it's not difficult to imagine. The problem was that you were both so worried about not losing each other that you were unable to see it for yourselves.

Even though Leah couldn't see Helena, she was sure that her expression at that moment was one of confusion and incredulity.

"Well yes something like that." Hel admitted wearily. "I never imagined it and neither did she."

"I suppose, so tell me what if you two come have dinner with me tonight? I'm dying to meet her and congratulate her for being braver than you and coming to look for you to shake some sense into you." Leah offered.

"Hmm, I don't think it's possible, at least not today, but I'll ask her and I'll let you know Leah?"

"Of course Hel, I'm so happy for you, you really deserve this chance, don't screw it up Ok?"

"I promise Leah. Catch you later and sorry for standing you up, it's just…"

"You don't have to give explanations Hel. For Heaven's sake, the love of your life has knocked at your door! Of course you have every right to be with her."

"Thanks Leah for everything." Helena sincerely said. Truly Leah had helped her see things from a different perspective, one which she would have never been able to see by herself, at least not right away and now that everything was out in the open and that she had Barbara's love, she couldn't but be grateful to her friend for helping her open her eyes. Red's visit would have been much different if she hadn't spoken with Leah beforehand. Perhaps they might have confessed their mutual love but maybe just maybe it might have been more explosive than what it was.

"You're welcome Hel, we'll be in touch. Say hello to Barbara, and tell her that she's a very fortunate woman for having your love."

"On the contrary Leah, I'm the fortunate one, she's unique in herself.

"I'm glad to hear you are so happy Hel. Take care.

"Bye Leah."

"Bye."

Helena closed her cell and took a breath, she half turned and almost falls on the sofa when she found herself in front of Barbara, she had not heard her come in.

"Hey." She smiled happily.

"Good morning." Barbara smiled in turn moving closer to brunette, and placing her hands on her waist, drawing her in closer. "Would you like to know what woke me up?" She said.

"Hmm?" Helena stared back lost in her eyes.

"You weren't there, I turned around and you weren't there and for a moment I thought that it had all been a dream when I didn't find you by my side." She confessed with a certain sadness in her eyes. "I refused to open my eyes thinking that if I did I would find myself alone in my own bed without you.

"Oh I'm so sorry." She looked contrite. "It's just that my cell rang and I came to answer it and I didn't want to wake you, you were so tired…" Barbara's fingers over her mouth silenced her.

"When I finally did it, I realized that it hadn't been a dream, that you were definitely here, the question was where were you? So, I came out looking for you.

"And you found me." Hel responded her eye shinning.

"I found you." Barbara agreed her lips only millimeters from Hel's. She took her mouth with sensual abandon, possessive, not just a good morning kiss, but also a kiss that reaffirmed what the redhead felt for Helena. She hugged the young woman tightly against her, her mouth devouring the young woman's mouth. Her tongue searching out each crevice of Helena's mouth, who responded with equal passion. Their tongues dueled to dominate the other, low moans of pleasure escaped from their mouths. Without releasing each other Helena, caressed Barbara's back, burying her fingers in the soft skin and pulling her down towards her.

"I love you." Barbara said against Hel's lips. "I love you Helena."

When Barbara had come out to look for Hel she couldn't help but hear the end of the conversation she was having with Leah. She wasn't sure what had been said, but the fact that she heard Helena speaking with her friend had made her feel extremely jealous, something completely stupid because she knew that Helena was in love with her, but she also knew that Leah had been even if only for a short time Helena's lover. However, all her doubts disappeared when Helena looked at her with genuine happiness and adoration when she saw Barbara there in front of her.

"And I you Red." Helena hugged Barbara and leaned her head against her shoulder. "Are you hungry? I can make something if you like or we can go out for breakfast somewhere." The young woman offered.

"Hmm, a coffee is what I need right now and we can just have breakfast here. I have some things I need to check and attend to before doing anything else." Barbara commented giving her a kiss on the forehead.

"Of course, let me go make the coffee and breakfast. There is my computer you can use it if you like or not. I have high-speed wireless too, so just make yourself comfortable.

"Who would have thought, you with a computer and high speed connection, I'm surprised Hel." She teased.

"Hmm, it's so I can play my X-box online." Hel confessed.

"Hahahaha, I knew it!" Barbara laughed heartily.

"Ok, ok." She gave her another kiss and pulled away. "I'm gonna make you your coffee."

Barbara let her go before deciding that after all she'd rather be close to Helena than anywhere else. With a smile, she headed for the kitchen.

Helena turned when she heard her enter the kitchen and smiled. "Impatient for your coffee Red?" She asked playfully.

"No, I just want to be close to you." Barbara sincerely responded looking into her eyes.

Helena felt breathless at the simple declaration from the redhead. A smile that could easily illuminate all of New Gotham appeared on her face. She tilted her head in order to hide her blushing face. Damn, I've always wanted to hear her say something like that, but, Wow! "Oh really?" She said a bit timidly still feeling the warmth on her skin from Barbara's words.

"It's true Hel." Barbara said softly drawing nearer to her and placing a hand on her cheek and caressing it. "I have spent two years without you and now that you are here I still can't believe it and I think about all the times that you were by my side, without saying anything, just because you wanted to be with me, true?"

"Yes." She responded shakily. "I have loved you forever and if that was the only way to have you…I would spend hours watching you without your knowledge." She confessed.

"Hel, I always knew you were there." She confessed. "I feel you, I feel your presence, your stare. But back then it made no sense to me because I didn't want it to make sense, but I was used to your presence, I needed it, I know that now. When you stopped spending time at the tower I missed you, I kept telling myself that it was work stress, but in reality it's just that I missed your silence presence."

"But just the same I watched you. I would stand outside of the other building and would watch you from there." She confessed. "I couldn't be near you once you started going out with Wade more formally, it was…it hurt too much." A tear escaped her eyes, betraying her and Barbara hurriedly kissed it away. "I…"

"Hel, forgive me." Barbara begged. "Forgive me for being so blind, for having caused you so much pain. I would die first rather than cause you pain like that ever again."

"Red there aren't any guarantees that we won't get hurt again, we are humans, we are not perfect but the important thing is not to forget what we feel. We might fight, we always do and I don't think that will change, but now it's different. Before I was so volatile with you because of my suppressed feelings and sometimes I would fight with you just to see that passion directed at me. And if that was the only way that you would be that way with me, by fighting, then…"

"Hahaha," She laughed. "Oh Hel, I think my passion for you is guaranteed." She said capturing her lips in a passionate kiss that left them both breathless and wanting more.

"Ok, Ok, this is getting out of hand." Helena grumbled as if angry. "Let's have breakfast and then we'll go tour the city for a bit, we still have a lot to discuss.

"Have I told you that you're a good kisser?" She raised a brow suggestively and Helena looked back at her with a mix of incredulity and desire and with a wink threw herself at the redhead who laughed cheerfully before Helena could capture her lips, silencing her.

When Helena let her go, her eyes were feral and her chest moved up and down with heavy breathing. "You are a very, very dangerous woman." She tapped her finger against Barbara's nose.

"Me?" She put on an innocent face but her eyes gave her away as they shown mischievously. "I thought you were the "the weapon itself," Hel."

"You…you…" Helena shook her head and turned towards the coffee pot. Barbara would find out soon enough how dangerous she was. Oh yes Red! You'll see very soon I promise. She swore to herself as she listened to Barbara's pleased laughter behind her.

The day suddenly turned much longer than Helena expected. Damn Babs, you are going to be the death of me, a delighted smile appeared on her lips, hmm, but what a way to go.

She served Barbara her coffee and then herself. When Barbara noticed the design on the coffee cup, she arched her brow questioningly "interesting quote Hel. Who gave it to you?"

Helena lowered her gaze and blushed as she looked at the cup; it was her favorite so she had forgotten what it said. I'm a artis and I know how to use my hands. "Hmm, well, I…" She blushed even more if that were possible. Barbara was looking right into her eyes with a raised eyebrow, daring her to lie. "Leah, Leah gave it to me, but it was way before there was anything between us." She finally confessed. "It was a joke."

Barbara remained silent waiting for Helena to explain further. "We had been going to the same café for breakfast for about two months and at least one where we ate together. One morning she called to cancel because she was waiting for a plumber to stop by and fix her kitchen sink. I told her to cancel the plumber and I told her I'd fix it in return for breakfast. So, I grabbed my tools and I fixed it. When I was done she told me I was just a big bag of surprises and I told her I was very good with my hands. The next day she gave me the cup."

Barbara took a sip of her coffee before making any comment. "Hel, I'm not going to pretend that I don't feel a bit of jealousy at the thought that you and she had something together. Christ Hel, I know I shouldn't feel it but I do, however, it's the past. That doesn't mean that I want to know about your former conquests or what you did or didn't do, but if some day something comes out, well that's fine. I just ask that you don't hide it from me. I would rather know the truth than let my imagination run wild. Will you promise me that?" She said in a shaky voice. The truth was that the idea of someone else touching Helena was not something she wanted to dwell on but things were the way they were and she couldn't change the past no matter how much she wanted to, her own cowardice was the culprit, not that Helena had all those lovers in the past. Barbara was just learning to deal with her own emotions and was discovering that allowing herself to open up to Helena's love which was not unwelcome it was difficult to get used to the "emotions" on the surface or to feel jealousy. Perhaps after all she should have paid more attention to her other coeds when she was in high school that way she wouldn't feel like a teen with her first crush and rampant hormones.

The brunette woman gently set the cup on the table, moved closer to Barbara and knelt in front of her as she had done on so many occasions when she had still been in her wheelchair. It was not meant as a token of submission but of loyalty and unconditional love that she bestowed on the redhead. "Red, I told you before and I'll tell you again, never nor will anyone ever take your place. You are my life, the air I breathe, the other half of my soul." Oh, could Helena be any more romantic? Barbara felt as if all her being was melting. "My love for you is forever Barbara Gordon. I promise you that."

Barbara leaned forward slightly and kissed Helena, several seconds before Helena finally pulled away. "If we continue this way not only are we not going to have breakfast Babs, but we'll never have a date." She said partly in jest.

"Fine, what are we having for breakfast?" Barbara agreed, after all they had all of their lives ahead of them. "I have to admit I am famished."

"What do you say about Waffles a la Alfred?" She raised a brow playfully.

"A la Alfred?" She said surprised. "How is it you know how to makes waffles a la Alfred?"

"Oh, I asked Dinah to get the recipe for me and she sent it to me by email. She knew how much I missed them." She shrugged.

Helena had always had a weakness for sweets, proof of that was her addiction to Pop Tarts, strawberry particularly. Alfred kept a good supply of these to this day. "Just in case Miss Helena should return." The butler told Barbara when she asked one day why he continued to buy them. The pain of the thought that she may never return almost caused her to double over. Since then Alfred made sure that Barbara was never around when he restocked them. Dinah also liked them and was always eating them, but much like when Alfred bought the sweet pastries, Dinah never ate them out of sight of the redhead.

"I would love that Hel." She agreed.

"Great." Helena stood and headed for the refrigerator to take out the things she needed to prepare them.

As Helena made the waffles, she entertained Barbara with tales of her trips to Mexico and parts of Central America.

"I'm sure you know already, but I'll tell you anyway Babs, there I was delighted with the samplings of the exotic Oaxacan food when a young lady at a food stand offered me some little chocolate figurines. They looked like grasshoppers but when I saw they were chocolate, I took them gladly and put them in my mouth. I thought it was some type of toasted seed because they crunched as I chewed, kind of like almonds, but they were delicious. So then, the young woman asked me if I had liked them and of course, I said they were delicious so then she tells me…They are chocolate covered crickets and we also have ants, maguey worms. I think I put on a "Oh my God" kind face. Imagine how I felt when she told me I had just eaten crickets! I turned green and ran off in search of some water."

By that time Barbara was dying of laughter as Helena began to tell her about the Oaxacan plates and she immediately associated the story with the custom of eating insects in that area. The very idea of trying to imagine Helena's face was priceless.

"Sure, sure laugh, I almost decorated the stand with my breakfast and you laugh." Helena said playfully, the truth was that she had enjoyed it and in truth, the crickets weren't that bad at least not after the initial shock. Once she had thought about it she decided they weren't bad after all and bought a small bag. "I have some around here if you want to try them." Hel offered.

"No thanks Hel, I'll pass, I don't want to deprive you of the delicious treat.

"Believe it or not Red, they really aren't that bad, sure at first it shocks you a bit but soon you realize that they don't taste bad. I also tasted the ants and worms, those I didn't like so much."

"Ugh, Hel, don't even think about kissing me after eating those crickets ok?" She warned.

"Hmm," Helena's eyes shined wickedly. There was nothing more tempting than a dare. "Ok."

"Helena," She looked at her seriously.

"Ok, ok. Well now that we are done with breakfast what do you say you do what you have to do while I clean up the kitchen and then we can go ride around. I'd like to take you to a place that's very special to me. We can talk more there.

"Ok, I'll be in the living room if you need me." She got to her feet.

"Always Red, I'll always need you." Helena declared.

Barbara smiled and nodded, taking the young woman's promise as a fact. "The same here Hel."

Helena began cleaning up the kitchen as soon as Barbara headed for the living room to check on things in New Gotham and to make a few phone calls. She still wasn't sure how she was going to ask Dick if he could stay a few more days with the girls. She had to come up with something; the truth was she still didn't want to share her reunion with Helena with anyone just yet. Not before having talked with her about where having confessed the truth and accepting their mutual love would lead them. A part of her was still reluctant to ask Helena to return with her to New Gotham. She felt it wasn't fair to ask the girl to give up her new life if she was happy with it.

Helena, without Barbara knowing, or perhaps because she was used to feeling her stare, didn't realize that she was being observed from the kitchen. Hel asked herself what she could be thinking about that had her frown as she sat lost in thought. She began to doubt for a moment, Was Barbara perhaps having doubts? No, she refused to believe it. Barbara loved her, she had confessed it to her. Before the insecurity could take hold she left the kitchen, went, and sat next to Barbara.

"Is everything alright?" She asked.

"Yes, I was just checking what happened last night in the city. It looks like it was a night like any other night. No big problems, a couple of robberies, a few street fights." She commented without removing her eyes from the laptop.

"Ok, it's after 12, do you want to go out now or do you still have things to do?" Helena asked.

"Hmm, I'm almost done, just give me about 15 minutes and I'll go change." Barbara said with a smile.

"In that case I'm going to get ready to go out." She got up from the sofa and turned towards Barbara leaning over to give her a kiss. "Don't take to long, I know how you can get obsessively lost in your work and forget your surroundings." She said half in jest.

"Yes, I guess you would know." She shook her head. "Theoretically I'm on vacation, so no Hel, I won't be longer than that." She promised.

"Ok." She was heading out when she stopped. "Are you going to tell Dinah that you're here?" She asked curiously. From what the redhead had told her the night before no one knew she was in San Francisco.

"No just yet Hel." She begged her to trust her with her eyes.

"No problema here." She accepted and continued to her room.

Barbara watched her go and disappear into her room before taking out her cell and calling Dick. She answered his questions and asked him to stay a few more days in New Gotham because she wanted to take advantage of her trip to visit a few places. Barbara hung up and sent an email to Dinah and another to Aiko. She rechecked Delphi's status and closed the laptop and set it on the coffee table and stood. She headed for the bedroom without thinking any further about New Gotham, crime or her work, nothing was important at that moment but to be with Helena.

When she entered the room Helena was calmly lying down watching tv, when she saw her enter she smiled. "Wow, you were serious, you didn't take more than 20 minutes."

"You doubted it?" An eyebrow rose.

"Well Babs you have to admit I had reason." She arched her own brow.

"That's true Hel, but at this moment all I want is to be with you, the rest is irrelevant." Barbara declared seriously.

Helena was speechless for a moment, Barbara had never said that her duty as a vigilante or her work were irrelevant. If she had, had any doubts before now disappeared like smoke. An enormous smile illuminated her face. "Thanks." Was the only thing she could say.

Barbara knew Helena very well and this time was no exception, she understood perfectly that surprise the young woman felt when she admitted the irrelevancy of her other priorities. However, two years without Hel had shown her that sometimes and under certain special circumstances were worth more than either being a vigilante or anything else. She moved slowly towards the bed and sat next to Helena taking her hand and kissing her knuckles. "Hel, I want you to know something, it has to be crystal clear that what I feel for you, what's between us…" she added, "will always be more important than anything else. I have changed a lot over the past two years just as you have Hel. One of the things that I learned is that time is too precious to waste. It's true, there will be times in which my duty as a vigilante will take up my attention but that doesn't mean that I will forget about you or move you aside. Nothing is more important than you Hel. Nothing.

Helena agreed feeling comforted; she had always known how important the redhead's duty was in the fight against crime and safety of the citizens of New Gotham, even over her own health and safety. However, having her say that she considered her more important than all of that, made her realize that Barbara was truly committed to her. That she truly loved her in every sense of the word.

An idea began to form in her head at that moment, one that she was decided to see through before returning to New Gotham, because Helena Kyle was definitely returning with Barbara when she left. Helena did not intend to spend another day far from Barbara. Now the only thing that remained was to convince her that it was a good idea.

TBC

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