WARNING! This chapter might be a bit...emotional and frustrating. Please read with caution. You have been warned.

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Chapter 26- Ayame cries wolf

When I was little, a boy at daycare once called me poo poo head. That was the first time I had ever been insulted, and I never forgot it, which was probably why I wouldn't forget my current situation. Why my brain functioned like this, I hadn't the slightest idea. Well, perhaps it was gens, or maybe I was dropped on the head as an infant. Whatever it may be, I would never know.

Sometimes I wish I could forget. So I could move on quicker. I wish I could forget I fell in love, and got pregnant, and was kidnapped by my sister, then lost my baby. I really wish I could forget it all, but I couldn't and I was okay with that.

At some point in everyone's life, it all goes downhill. And at that point it's where people start thinking about drugs, alcohol, and suicide-a curious taste. Thankfully, I was not at this point. Why would anyone want to be at that point anyways? Sure I was depressed, but I wasn't going to drown myself in drugs and alcohol. Crazy! I still had a life to live. I still wanted to get through high school and graduate. I wanted to be a math teacher and have a life. No way was I going to turn into one of those celebrities that do bad things just for attention. I already have enough attention as it was; I didn't need more thank you.

Sesshomaru had been on my mind twenty-four/ seven. No matter how much I tried, I couldn't get over our conversation and his deepening words. I really did think about it, about our relationship, what it meant, and how we could get through it. I wish I could live a dream where nothing happened and we had our son, and our relationship was stronger than ever. But reality struck me, hard, and it said that if our relationship was strong, then we wouldn't be in the predicament. In other words, if we were strong, then we wouldn't have these stupid arguments and I wouldn't be feeling this guilt, this… distrusting feeling that made me want to crawl up into a ball and cry. Which I did on numerous occasions. So in conclusion, I guess our relationship wasn't as strong as I thought I would be. It seemed like it was at the beginning, but maybe I was just getting ahead of myself. Maybe he wasn't the one after all.

When I realized that, I cried for six hours straight. I locked myself in the bathroom and sat on my floor, banging my head against the door. I had a pretty large bump and a headache after, but it was good to release all the frustration. I mean I looked deathly sick, but other than that my mind was clear and my decision was made.

While I was trying to put my face back together and look a bit normal, a knock sounded on my bathroom door. "Rin, are you in there?" It was Ayame.

I opened it up and gave her a plain expression. This expression told her one thing- I had cried myself so much, there was nothing left.

"Oh good lord. Didn't my tea do anything to you?" she asked.

"That was two days ago," I said shortly.

"So, it was tea!" she exaggerated. "That was the whole point of it! It was supposed to help you get back onto the horse!"

"And it did. I've come up with a decision," I said, cleaning up some unexpected mess of clothes on my floor. Hey, I haven't had time to clean and I was bored, so there!

"Oh no, I don't like the sound of that."

"I don't really want to talk about it."

Then she did the one thing I never thought she would do. She begged. Like hands and knees begged. "Please, oh, please tell me you didn't break up with Sesshomaru!"

"I didn't break up with Sesshomaru…."

"Oh thank god!" and she stood back up.

Oh I really hated saying it. "…yet."

"What?!" she shrieked. "Rin! Why?"

"Like I said, I don't want to talk about it. Besides, it's too complicated."

"But you guys were perfect for each other!" she whined.

"Yeah, well perfect apparently has a dark side."

"Awe man! And he was so hot too!" Oh for Pete's sake! Please don't remind me of his amazing body.

"Ayame, please…." I warned, sitting on my bed exhausted from the cleaning. Man, I didn't know how much cleaning took out of you. It was a workout!

"Okay, sorry." Then she gasped. "I know how you can get your mind off it!"

"Do I really want to know?" I asked kind of scared of her answer.

"Just trust me," she held her hand out to me.

"I don't think trust is on my side right now."

"Oh come on!" and she forcefully grabbed my arm and ran outside, pushing me into her car.

It was only ten minutes when I started to grow a little anxious. "Are you taking me to a strip club?" I asked, nervously as she drove downtown.

"No! We aren't even legal yet girl! Besides, we are waiting until we go to Vegas to see naked men on poles."

I rolled my eyes and watched outside as we pulled into a large parking lot. "The mall? Seriously?"

"Yes, the mall. I need new clothes and frankly, so do you."

"I don't need new clothes."

She grinned at me when we got out of the car. "Have you seen what you're wearing?"

She was right; I was wearing some ridiculous ensemble. It looked like something a sad clown would wear crossed with a school girl. But that's what happens when I get stressed, sad, tired, or depressed. I really stop caring about how I look.

"I'm actually embarrassed right now," Ayame added.

"Gee, thanks. You know you could've told me to change before we left the house."

"Oh please, like we have time for you to change. Now come on; let's get you something that will make you at least a little less weird."

Oh I hated shopping! It was the worst sort of punishment. And I wasn't even getting punished. I have a confession; I'm not and never will be a shopper. If I have to get new clothes, fine I'll go, but it was a quick in and out trip. And it wouldn't be consisted of dozens on outfits; it would be a pair of jeans and maybe a shirt. That's it. I wasn't picky with my clothes. But I think you already knew that.

Inside the mall, I groaned. I really hated the atmosphere inside this place. So many people, so many stores, and too much for my brain to sink in. It reminded me a lot of History and…let's not go there. Just like Ayame said, the mall was supposed to be taking my mind off of that. And so far, it wasn't doing a very good job.

The store we ended up going into was very…expensive. It only took one look at a bracelet hanging on the rack to know this wasn't my store. I was so out of there.

"Rin! Wait."

"Ayame, I can't afford any of that," I said once outside the store.

"So? That's why it's called shopping! Who cares how much it is?"

"I do! I don't have that kind of money, Ayame."

"Okay fine, where do you want to go then?"

"Home."

"Except that." She glanced around and gasped when her eyes landed on something. Oh great. "Oh, I know!"

I groaned again and shuffled with her to another, more cheaper store. The clothes there weren't that bad actually, and as much as I didn't want to, Ayame made me get something. So I landed with the cheapest thing, a pair of skinny jeans and a dark green cardigan over my tank. I liked it and thankfully so did Ayame. Hooray, shopping was over! "Can I go home now?" I asked.

"What? No! It's lunch. Let's get some lunch!"

"Fine. But you're buying."

After sitting down with our very disgusting lunch from McDonalds I watched as Ayame started to scout the cafeteria. "Who are you looking for?" I asked. I didn't like it when she scouted. It always ended in meeting someone I didn't really want to see. "Please don't tell me you called Sesshomaru."

She looked at me weird then. "No, why would I call our history teacher when you are trying to get over him? No, I'm looking for some cute guys to talk to."

I rolled my eyes and slouched in my seat, pretending I didn't know her.

"What are you doing?" she asked, noticing my new posture.

"Nothing," I answered, sitting back up.

"Why aren't you eating? I thought you liked McDonalds?"

"Yeah, when I was eight." I glanced at the uneaten hamburger in front of me. "Sorry Ayame, I guess I'm just not that hungry."

She grinned. "Take your time, Rin. It will get better."

"Yeah, I hope-"

"Oh my god!" she shrieked cutting me off.

"What?" I asked, thinking she spotted a celebrity.

"It's Koga! Uh..uh…I'm not here!"

I frowned. "Ayame, please don't tell me you still have a crush on him."

"And what if I do? He's hot!"

I turned to see him and found he was coming right towards us. "Oh great, now he's coming this way." I slouched back down, trying to hide myself.

"Hey Ayumi, Rin," he said, pronouncing Ayame's name wrong.

"It's Ayame actually," she smiled. I sneered in disgust. God this guy though…

"Right…um…" well this was awkward.

He was looking at me wasn't he? Fuck my life. "Well, I'm going to go to the bathroom. Koga, why don't you sit down," I offered, standing up and rushing out before Ayame could object. I really hope he didn't follow me and we had another problem again. I wouldn't want that in a time like this.

But when I left the bathroom a few minutes later-yes I really did go!-, I wasn't surprised to see him standing outside. I sighed in exasperation. "Try anything Koga and I swear to god…."

"I know. I won't do anything. I promise. I just want to apologize to you for everything I've done. And I hope that you can forgive me."

"You know Koga, right now isn't the best time for you to apologize," I said, walking back to Ayame.

"I understand. I just hope one day we will see past our differences and move on."

And then he left in the opposite direction. Okay, weird.

And even when I sat back down it was also weird. No seriously, Ayame had the creepiest look on her face. It looked like she had been struck by cupid. "Oh no, what did he do?" I asked.

Then she shot out of the dream and back into reality. "I'm going on a date with Koga!"

"No seriously, what did he do?"

"I am being serious, Rin! Koga asked me out, and I said yes!"

I groaned, not happy about the situation. I leaned in and whispered, "Ayame, are you insane?"

"What? I like him."

I kept my voice low, people were staring to stare. "May I remind you that he tried to rape me?"

"And may I remind you that he's changed since then?" she was obviously annoyed with me now.

I sighed heavily. "I'm sorry Ayame, I just don't…."

"Trust him? It's okay, I don't either."

I gave her a confused look. "Then why…?

"Pure curiosity. I want to see what happens."

"And what if it's something bad?"

She crossed her arms, determined. "Then I kick his ass."

I giggled. "Well then just be careful, okay?"

"Always am."

xXx

When I woke up on Monday I felt more depressed than ever. But I've was given an answer, and for that, I was grateful. I just hoped this day went by like a piece of pie. Mmmm, pie.

My brothers were around the table eating their breakfast when I came down. Dad had already gone to work and Mom, well…she was trying but I can tell she was hurting. After my parents came back from Mika's trial, Mom hadn't been the same. She was more depressed then me, and seemed to only slave around the kitchen cleaning everything when it was already clean. Dad had been doing overtime to get his mind off of it and make some more money for Mika's treatment.

Mika had been sentenced to thirty years with five years of therapy at the mental institute for the criminally insane. It was hard on all of us, but especially my mother. She tried to help Mika, but Mika had forbidden her from even coming in contact with her. My mom blames herself from Mika's actions. But you know what, Mika had it coming. So do I feel guilty?-Not a chance.

I sat down at the table and watched the twins play like it was a normal day. "Mommy?" Jiro asked. "I don't feel well."

And he was right, Jiro looked really pale. Speaking of which, he's been feeling off for the past few weeks. I hope he was okay.

"Here you go, sweetie," Mom said, giving him some OJ. I don't think that will help him, but he seemed content with it so…what are you going to do?

A honk outside interrupted my morning daze. "Ayame's here," I said. "See you all later."

On the way to school, all was silent except for Ayame who just kept talking and talking. God, that girl can talk.

"Ayame," I finally had it! "Please, can't you be quiet for at least ten minutes?" My head was about to explode. Not literally! Geez!

"But this is what I do! I talk," she explained, then quieted down. "Today's the day, isn't it?"

I nodded. "Today is the day."

"It will be alright, Rin. You'll see."

"I just hope I'm making the right decision."

"Do you think it's the right decision?"

I shook my head. "I think it will help with my current problem. It feels right, but yet it doesn't."

She pulled into the parking lot and smiled. "Then I wish you good luck my friend. I just wish you weren't doing this."

"Yeah, me neither."

As we walked into the school, I started to finally realize what I was about to do, and…well…okay, can someone please stop the world from spinning? Oh and the lights! Please turn the lights back…oh, I fainted didn't I? Well, fantastic.

Ah now it was too bright! Someone turn the lights off…oh, I was waking up. Then was it all a dream?

But when I saw long strains of silver hair, I knew it wasn't. I was in reality unfortunately. I groaned as I sat up slowly, with the help of Sesshomaru of course. Great, he was here. This wasn't where I wanted to do this. The nurse's office? Really? Really?

"Rin, are you alright?" he asked.

I nodded, sitting at the side of the bed, not bothering to look at him. "I fainted didn't I?"

"I'm surprised you knew."

"I'm not, this always happened to me as a kid. I would get extremely nervous then faint."

"You're nervous?"

I remained silent. I seriously didn't want to do this. But I knew if I didn't, I wouldn't be able to move on. Okay, deep breathe and go! Now! I said go! God damn it, Rin! Go! "I can't do it," I breathed out quickly.

"Pardon?"

"I've thought a lot about our conversation that night, and about my family's current situation. Nobody is well. My mom probably as depression and Mika refuses to even talk to any of us."

He stayed quiet.

I bit my lip and continued, trying to hold back the tears during the process. "I know I have until Friday to figure it out, but I've made up my mind."

I could see him stiffen at the corner of my eye. "You're ending it, aren't you?"

I nodded slowly. "I just feel that if we were stronger in our relationship, we would've gotten through this. I don't know why we aren't though, I couldn't figure that out." Now I was crying. Terrific.

He sighed and asked me a very important question. "Rin, do you love me?"

I froze then, thinking the question through. Oh god no. "I thought I did. But perhaps…I'm sorry Sesshomaru, I don't think do." That was why we couldn't do this. There was no love on my side. Our relationship was purely based on a mark and a crush that slowly faded away. There was nothing left.

"I understand."

Tears! Stop coming down my face! You aren't helping! "You know how much I wanted this work, I…"

"Rin, enough," he said simply, standing up. "You're decision is clear and I understand your predicament."

I stood up with him, preparing myself to stop him if he decided to leave early. "You know this isn't just about my miscarriage. It's just about my life right now. There are too many things that are happening and I don't want to be in a relationship." Then I grabbed his hand and felt the electric feel through my fingers. "But that doesn't mean I want to lose you."

"You will never loose me, Rin. I'll always be there for you." He sighed again and faced me. "Perhaps I should remove the mark."

I touched it tenderly with my fingers. Flashbacks of the night I retrieved it moved through my head like a movie. I smiled. "It was the best night of my life. When you gave it to me, I mean. That and…" I looked down at the ring, the beautiful diamond ring he gave me when we got engaged. I nodded though, agreeing with his decision. The mark would be removed. "I'm ready."

I felt his lips light on my neck as he kissed the mark softly before sinking his fangs into my skin. I gasped from the pain, holding onto him for support. Then just as fast as it started, it ended, leaving a dull scare of what it used to be. "I will no longer feel your emotions or your pain," he stated. "You're free."

It felt weird not being connected to him anymore. It was like I had just lost a part of my soul, and yet I didn't. So strange.

I slipped off the ring and handed it to him. "Here, you should probably take it," I muttered, tears still running down my cheeks.

His hand then wrapped around mine, covering the ring in my palm. "No, Rin. Keep it. Let it be a reminder that no matter what, I will always love you."

I closed my eyes as he came forward and kissed me lightly on the forehead. And as the tears still fell down, I saw Sesshomaru take his leave to the door. "Sesshomaru? What will happen now?"

"We move on."

"And what about us?"

Then he turned his head towards me and whispered softly, "My heart will always belong to you."

His words made my heart beat rapidly, but I knew our conversation was real. And as much as I hated to admit it, it was over.

We had officially broken up.

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UPDATE! (30/09/14)

THIS CHAPTER THO!

If you made it through this chapter without wanting to quit on this story, then I applaud you! If most of you are angry and frustrated with the fact that Rin is acting childish and thinks she'll never change then I have to tell you all that she will. Rin is in a very difficult part of her life right now and doesn't know what's going on. She's confused and acts this way because of the traumatic experience that happened. Things will change and she will get better. Saying that, Rin and Sesshomaru will get back together and she will grow up.

This chapter was probably the hardest for me to write on account of her acting this way. It was mentally and emotionally hard for me. Trust me, I hate it as much as you, but I can't change what my mind has been plotting for over two years. After the chapter was finished I wanted to throw my computer across my room and roll up into a ball and cry. That being said, the next chapter Rin will start getting the help she needs and she'll start to realize some important things.

Thanks for reading and if you decide to leave, I thank you for all your support in this story and I am saddened to see you go.

-Sapphire