James had walked me to my door. I smiled as I wrapped my arms around his torso as we said goodbye, "If you need an excuse to leave tomorrow. Let me know before you meet him." He joked – I think.

"I'll be sure to tell everyone, and then you can all blow up my phone with some crazy emergency." He laughed and hugged me tightly, slightly lifting me off the ground. I yelled in protest and he laughed as he set me back on the ground.

"I'll see you around soon, Sapphire." His words swept by my ear in a warm breath. I quickly dismissed it as a confused look took over my face.

"Sapphire?" I called to him as he was walking back to 2J.

He turned facing me as he walked backwards. "Yeah, you know? You and me: a couple of gems flashing in the dark." He winked with a smile as he turned back around and disappeared down the hall.

I shook my head slowly with a light laugh, "You're crazy, Diamond." I mumbled to myself as I got the hidden extra key and unlocked the door. I closed it behind me and walked straight for my room. No one was home, not need to stop for anything.

I was finding it a little hard to breathe and stopped by the peninsula, holding on to the edge of the counter. My head felt dizzy and my face was growing hot. I let my knees give out and I slowly sat myself on the ground. I pressed my back to the wall of the peninsula, my legs out in front of me, and tried to catch my breath. The heat in my face quickly spread to the rest of my body and I felt like I was on fire.

I just needed to change out of these clothes; it would get better if I changed into cooler clothes. Slowly I got up, my stomach threatening to twist into knots and slowly made my way to my rooms. It suddenly felt like it was miles away as I opened the door somehow managing it to close behind me.

I changed into basketball shorts and a tank top and sat down at my desk. I was feeling a little better, the cold air being able to cool me down, and got a good look at my desk. It was cluttered. Random pencils and pens, some cups remained from a few times I had deemed myself too lazy to take them out to the kitchen, though crumpled and scattered papers took the crown of invading my desk. I began to dig through them sorting the important ones, throwing the unimportant ones away; until something caught my eye.

An orange corner of a book I had been neglecting for a few weeks. I pulled it out from under the blanket of papers where it was hiding and opened it to a random page. It was dated from before I moved out here.

March 5, 2011
Not much to say at the moment except for the fact that Sawyer just dropped the best rap verse anyone could say, "Mac and cheese is great to eat at home when you are alone," he says it was by accident. But I'm not sure…

That's all I had written that day, well jeez that was a big day. I laughed at myself and flipped to another page – propping my bare feet up on my desk, being sure not to knock anything off.

February 9, 2010
Got to the Palm Woods yesterday; spent the whole day unpacking and catching up with Sawyer. He wanted me to come down to the set where he works after I was done, but it took longer than I wanted it too and I had to miss it. It was good to be able to see him in person though. Missing someone is a terrible feeling.

First day of school was today; my dad was able to strike a deal with the manager here, so now I am a student at the Palm Woods School, as long as I'm able to prove I'm working towards being a musician. I sat next to a guy named Logan. He seems really nice; he introduced me to his girlfriend Camille. I swear she gave me crazy eyes; Logan swears she's a method actor and was preparing for an audition, the only thing I can do is take his word for it. He asked if I wanted to come back to his apartment and meet his band mates; Sawyer was standing behind him and nodded when I looked at him, telling me it was safe. So I agreed.

They all seem really nice. There's four of them all together in the band; Logan, James, Kendall, and Carlos. Carlos wears a helmet. That little fact may not be important, but I feel like it should be known. I sound rude for blurting it out like that though. He's also really cute and looked like he was going out of his way to make me feel welcome. They all live with Kendall's mom and sister, Katie. Though they were out and I didn't get a chance to meet them, Kendall raved a little bit, he's not afraid to show his love for his family. I think that's great. James is one to be careful of; he seems like a lady killer.

I sighed and flipped to the last page for my next entry.

February 28, 2011
So much has been going on I've forgotten all about writing it out. So I'm going to list the important things:
1) Got a trial contract with Gustavo.
2) Jennifers suck.
3) James is turning out to surprise me.
4) I'm meeting up to talk to Brandon tomorrow.

That last one was a surprise to me. At first I wanted to know he felt bad, I wanted to see it in his eyes. But now after talking to James and Carlos, the only ones who know about it, I don't know what I want. I'm just going to have to feel it out tomorrow I guess. Too tired to write anymore, going to take my laptop and lie down in bed.

I stood to my feet, dropping the orange book on my desk and picking up my laptop and lied down in my bed. My dizziness had worn off and was finding it hard to keep my eyes open before closing my laptop and giving into sleep.

This is such a filler! I had the original chapter all typed up and finished but by accident left it on my Mom's laptop before I left her place! I should have it by next weekend. I'll have to make a few changes to it when I get it, but it should be posted sometime soon after I get it. Sorry! I'm dumb sometimes. But - review? :)