Today was my day off and I'm so thankful that it was. I really didn't feel like seeing my two teammates: Naruto and Sasuke. Honesty, I have no freaking idea what I'm going to do! Naruto basically confessed his true feelings to me last night after Sasuke stole my first frigging kiss and now my brain feels freaking FRIED.
My brain was so fried that I had the most worst and weirdest dream EVER! I had a dream that my hair was freaking pink cotton candy and that Sasuke and Naruto were eating it until I went BALD! WHAT THE HECK?!
Maybe that's suppose to symbolize that those two are going to drive me nuts in the future? Probably yes.
SIGH.
This mushy stuff is all so sudden and so messed up and just so CRAZY. My poor emotions feel like they are on a never ending roller coaster and even my darn thoughts feel like puking which doesn't make sense but whatever.
Anyways, I practically stayed up all last night, and only got about three hours of sleep. I couldn't stop freaking thinking about the two and the more I thought about them, the more I got confused!
I didn't even know they had romantic feelings for me and I have NO idea how I feel about them right now either! Well, I actually don't know for sure if Naruto really meant he liked me more than a friend, but what do I know?! I'm the most dumbest person on the planet when it comes to romance! GRAH!
. . .
I'm sure Naruto won't rush or pressure me in anyway but I have no idea about Sasuke. I thought that dude would never kiss me. Seriously. SIGH. But I guess Sasuke just couldn't handle it anymore. He had to kiss me before Naruto did, I'm guessing.
Still, he didn't have to be such a butt about it! What's wrong with him?! You just can't steal a girl's first kiss and then walk away like nothing happened! That's not right, man! GOSH!
UGH! I'm only frigging twelve! I shouldn't have to deal with boys yet or even have to worry about what's going to happen next. Although, even though we're all around twelve, we certainly do look older than twelve. That's for sure!
Right now, it's noon, and I was walking through the village while holding a boxed lunch I made for myself that was wrapped up with a violet cloth. I was planning on going to this field to have a private picnic just with myself, so I could relax while unscramble my weirdo thoughts, and I was also looking forward at just gazing up at the sky, admiring the clouds. That's my kind of fun.
Although, I know my time alone won't last that long, and that scares me.
With glum eyes, I stared down at my boxed lunch, and frowned.
"HEY FOREHEAD!"
Oh no. That voice. It belonged to Ino.
I looked up to see Ino in the distance and she wasn't alone. Two other girls accompanied her, probably more Sasuke fangirls. They finally walked up to me and slammed my boxed lunch out of my hands, causing it to sadly fall to the ground. They hit my boxed lunch so hard that my sandwich literally flew out of the box and mayonnaise splattered all over the ground, even on the violet cloth.
There goes my delicious sandwich.
Before I could even say anything, two of the girls forcibly pushed me, causing me to let out a faint scream, and I fell backwards on the ground, landing on my booty.
The three all snickered at seeing me fall and for some reason, I didn't feel angry at all. I felt really calm but also...really sad. My blank expression seemed to bother them though and they glared at me.
"What's the matter Forehead? Too scared to talk? HAHA. You're pathetic as always. We've been hearing that you've been spending too much time with our Sasuke-kun, so stay away from him OR ELSE!" Ino fiercely threatened, her sky-blue eyes fiery as she then smirked, and added with a mischievous laugh, "And don't even DREAM about being with Sasuke! You're not pretty enough to be with him anyways! You have a pig's beauty, maybe that's why you have pink hair and a gigantic forehead! HAHA!"
If Ino only knew that I'm currently trying to stay away from Sasuke.
SIGH.
"Yeah just go die already!" another girl who was standing next to Ino on the right joined in and she snickered.
"Yeah, you would be doing Sasuke-kun a favor!" the third girl argued and the three of them all loudly laughed.
Geez, I wonder how they would react if they found out that Sasuke kissed me yesterday? These girls are just downright crazy but...their words sure hit me where it hurts.
They secretly said all the negative things that I tell myself sometimes about my looks and that only reminded me of my insecurities.
With a serene expression, I stared at them with watery eyes, and said nothing.
One of the girl's laughed and remarked, "Look! She's not saying anything because she knows it's true! PATHETIC!"
Ino snorted with laughter. "HAHA! Looks like the Forehead is all washed up! Well, come on girls, let's not waste anymore time dealing with this piece of junk!"
The other two girls nodded and they walked passed me while laughing like freaking hyenas.
I remained seated on the ground and looked down at my lap.
I'm not going to cry. I refuse...
It's strange but I secretly wanted Sasuke to show up and say, "Get away from her." or something...
Anything.
Oh, what am I thinking? I shouldn't even be wishing that he was here when I don't even want to see his face right now. Gosh, what is wrong with me?! I'm probably going to go crazy like them TOO! SIGH. I suck.
With sad eyes, I slowly stood, and miserably gazed down at the ground.
I then heard Naruto's voice.
"Hey Sakura-chan."
I instantly looked up to see him briskly walking towards me and he now stood in front of me.
At remembering what he had said to me last night, I blushed as my heart tingled a bit, and then sheepishly greeted, "H-Hi."
"Hey, I was wondering if you wanted to hang out and watch a movie with me later tonight?" Naruto softly asked, his voice surprisingly calm as the blond flashed me a tender grin, and he then continued on, "You know, to take your mind off of things. Besides, we were going to hang out that one time but never did because we had to go camping instead. Remember? Haha. So... Wanna hang? It's okay if you don't want to. I understand."
For a moment, I stared at him all dumbstruck as my cheeks turned bubblegum pink, and I bashfully said, "O-Oh... U-Um... S-Sure..."
Closing his eyes, he smiled, and chuckled. "Great! Well, I'll see you later tonight then, Sakura-chan. Meet me at my house at seven. Later Sakura!"
My blond teammate was now walking away from me and the gentle breeze danced with my abnormal pink hair.
I frowned. He's so sweet.
Naruto... Your pain lurks but you always hide it. You always put others first before yourself. Even though my problems are very tiny compared to yours, you still try to make me feel better no matter what, and you still somehow do all this with that fake smile of yours. Your heart is pure. Thank you, Naruto...
For caring about me.
SIGH.
I wish I said that to him before he left. Oh well.
Pupils constricting, I then realized that hanging out with him might be a date, and my cheeks were now as pink as a pig.
WAHHHHHHHHHHH!
Ten minutes later.
I had left my destroyed boxed lunch on the ground. Hopefully I won't get in trouble for littering. Well, it really wasn't me who threw my lunch on the ground, it was Ino, but I still should have picked it up. Eh, oh well. My murdered sandwich well be a nice tasty treat for the cute little birdies in the sky or for the other animals around. I hope the mayo doesn't kill them...
Erm, anyways.
I'm currently sitting on this rock while meditating, trying to clear my mind, but something kept irking me. I felt like someone was watching me...
Opening my eyes, I immediately saw Sasuke leaning against a tree with his arms crossed, and those midnight eyes of his were so fierce.
"Yo."
Startled, I fell off the rock while I tried not to scream, then composed myself, and hastily stood.
"W-What are y-you doing h-here?! A-Are you s-stalking me or s-something?!" I frantically inquired, very flustered as my cheeks were now rosy-red, and I pointed at him with a glare.
"Actually I was the one who was here first..." Sasuke quietly muttered.
"Okay. W-Well... J-Just because I'm here doesn't mean you have to talk to m-me!" I hissed at him and growled.
"You were interrupting my training."
My eyes grew substantially wide in disbelief and I twitched. "H-How was I i-interrupting y-you?! I WAS MEDITATING!"
"Hn."
Feeling a vein pop, I twitched even more, and I felt like stabbing him with a PLASTIC FORK!
. . .
Don't ask.
Anyways...
Growing frustrated, I growled like a dog, and stormed up to him with fierce eyes.
Before I could even say anything, he sternly said, "You were distracting me. So leave."
Pure rage could be seen in my trembling eyes and my fierce eyes pierced right through him. "You...You have some NERVE! D-Do... Do you know how many hours of sleep I lost last night because of YOU?! Because you freaking k-kissed m-me?! Why... Why did you have to steal my first kiss, Sasuke?! WHY?!"
"I didn't want some idiot to end up being your first kiss."
Blood boiling, I scowled, and scoffed. "Too late. An idiot already kissed me..."
"Who?"
"YOU!"
He huffed. "Hn. If anything, I did you a favor. The only reason why I kissed you was because I didn't want some lame loser like Naruto to kiss you first. That's it."
"I find that hard to believe and shut your mouth about Naruto! You call Naruto a loser but your brain might as well be the size of a peanut! Right now you're being the lame loser by saying that dumb excuse! You must have better a reason than that!" I persistently insisted while clenching my fists and I have never felt so infuriated in all my life.
Sasuke rolled his eyes as he adjusted his hands into his pockets and the Uchiha turned to leave. "Tch. Idiot. I already made it obvious enough for you about how I feel. I'm leaving."
Before he could take a single step, I grabbed onto his wrist, and angrily shouted, "STOP! You always say or do the weirdest stuff and then you just LEAVE! That's not right! What's wrong with you?!"
Without saying anything, he then swiftly grabbed both of my wrists, and gently pinned me to a tree.
My heart skipped a beat as we locked eyes but didn't say anything.
For a few seconds, we talked with our eyes, and panic could then be seen all over my face, anticipating his next action.
Timidly, I tried to lean more of my head back against the tree but it was pointless as I was insanely blushing, and I frantically threatened, " I-If you k-kiss me a-again, I'll kick you in the nuts! I'll do it! I SWEAR!"
He smirked. "Hn. Try it."
"Why you!-"
My words became muffled as soon as his lips came crashing down onto mine, his eyes automatically shutting while mine grew outrageously wide, and armies of butterflies started to battle in my tummy. I was blushing so much that I literally thought that I was going to die from blood loss and my cheeks felt as if they were being roasted like marshmallows. With every second, my heart would race faster and faster, and I wanted to push him away but...I couldn't. His darn kiss was paralyzing me for some weirdo reason and my eyes trembled in complete panic. Our lips remained locked, unmoving, and my
brain was screaming for me to resist the kiss but my body refused to frigging MOVE! Surprisingly though, his lips were really warm but cold, (yeah I don't understand my logic either but whatever), and they felt kind of...nice.
. . .
GAHHHHHHHHHHH! WHAT AM I SAYING?! I'VE OFFICIALLY LOST IT!
After about six seconds, he withdrew his lips from mine, and smirked. "Heh. What happened to kicking me in-URGH!"
Yup. I kicked him where it hurts (the groin). Well, more like kneed him, but kicked him sounds better to me, I guess.
Blushing, I immediately escaped his grasp, and ran passed him like there was no tomorrow.
"CHA! NOW YOU CAN'T RESTORE THE UCHIHA CLAN! YOU BUTT-"
Yup. I tripped. I tripped like the clumsy idiot that I am and fell flat on my stomach. Ow..
A second later, Sasuke appeared right in front of me, aloofly kneeling down, and he smirked.
"Need help?" He mockingly asked, that weirdo smirk of his plastered onto his lips, and the Uchiha chuckled as he extended out his hand to help me up, but I slapped his hand away.
"N-NO! I-I don't need help from YOU, stalker! Leave me alone!" I hissed as I flashed him a glare and I blushed of total embarrassment.
"Hn. When did you become so cold?"
I twitched. Did he really just ask me that?
"Since you started being a BUTT!" I yelled while glaring at him as I stood and my stupid blushing still wouldn't go away.
Standing up, he closed his eyes, and aloofly shrugged. "Hn. Haven't I always acted the same though?"
Uncertainly, I shrugged, and rolled my eyes. "I don't know...I guess. GR! Whatever! You're such a JERK! I...I can't believe YOU were my first kiss! Out of all people, why YOU?!"
He narrowed his fierce eyes and asked, "Why do you think I would kiss you in the first place? Think."
His words made me flinch, causing my cheeks to be as red as a beetroot,
and I twitched as nervousness penetrated me.
"I...I DON'T KNOW! Y-You're just a pervert!"
Frustration easily overruled him and his midnight eyes trembled with complete rage. "Are you that MUCH of an idiot?! You really think that I would just randomly kiss someone without even really liking them? Tch. Pathetic. You're really more dense than I thought."
"Y-You haven't even clearly told me how you f-felt! Dummy!" I argued, my voice sounding childish but also somewhat fierce, and I glared at him while blushing.
He let out an irritable sigh and slapped a hand to his face. "This is stupid. I had enough. I'm going home."
Sasuke started to walk away from me and I held back a gasp.
"See?! You're walking away, AGAIN!" I called out to him, reminding him that he always randomly leaves after he says stupid crap, and I couldn't help but sigh.
So much for clearing my mind.
Later that night.
It was almost seven at night and I was on my way to Naruto's house. Earlier, I had told my parents that I was going to a friend's house tonight for a few hours, which I was, I just didn't mention that my friend was a boy. Oh gosh, I feel like such a rebel.
Anyways...
I couldn't help but feel a little giddy and nervous about this. Does Naruto think this will be a date? Honestly, I have no idea, but...he said that he wanted to take my mind off of things, because he knew how stressed out I was yesterday and he even saw me crying. He probably assumed that I had trouble sleeping last night too. I wonder if he has trouble sleeping every night...? Oh Naruto...
After about five more minutes, I was now standing at his front door, and knocked.
Seconds later, he opened it, and his beautiful shimmering sapphire eyes just made me want to melt on the spot. Naruto's headband was missing, allowing his gorgeous spiky blond bangs to cover his forehead, and he was wearing a loose black t-shirt along with baggy white pants. My blond teammate had no shoes on, just fuzzy looking white socks.
I was just wearing my normal red dress with no sleeves. How boring.
As I always say, he looked so handsome that he could pass for a model, and that alone made me blush.
He flashed me that handsome smile of his and closed his eyes with a chuckle.
I swear his smile could probably illuminate entire cities if he really wanted too. His smile was so bright and vivid, actually seeming genuine for once. Not a fake smile. ...Did I make him really happy by being here? I hope so.
"Nice to see you, Sakura-chan. Come on in," he politely welcomed, his voice surprisingly calm and collected, and he held the door open for me so I could enter in first.
He's really considerate. I like that.
Blushing, I slowly walked in, and sheepishly mumbled, "T-Thanks."
Smiling, he closed the door, and said, "No problem."
A lovely aroma then filled my nostrils and I repeatedly sniffed to try to figure out what the smell was.
"Are you...cooking something?" I asked a little apprehensively.
He laughed and bashfully rubbed the back of his head. "Yeah. You like popcorn?"
I immediately gasped as I clasped my hands together and my lime orbs sparkled in total awe.
"I LOVE POPCORN! It's weird but...I haven't had it since I was six..." I shyly admitted with a nervous laugh and then explained, "I-I m-mean... My parents stopped giving it to me because I almost choked to death while eating it one time. I usually eat responsibly but my old cat showed up out of nowhere and startled me so much that I started choking! Geez, that was scary."
He silently chuckled and aloofly assured, "Don't worry, I won't let you choke."
I don't know why but him saying that made me blush and I had this cute innocent look on my face.
"You like butter, right?" he tranquilly asked and walked into the kitchen.
"OOH YEAH! I remember I used to drench my popcorn with butter and my parents would get so angry at me when I did!" I exclaimed a little too blithely, causing me to blush of complete embarrassment at realizing how dumb I just sounded, and I then sheepishly apologized, "S-Sorry... Thinking of food makes me hyper sometimes."
I let out a nervous laugh and wanted to hit myself for acting like such a goofball in front of Naruto.
He laughed. "It's alright. Uh... I could drench it in butter though if you really want me too...?" Naruto quietly offered, his voice somewhat trailing off, and he retrieved the popcorn from within the microwave.
Instantly, my eyes grew wide as I blushed even more, and I frantically waved my arms around. "N-NO! I-It's o-okay! Normal amounts of butter is f-fine!"
"Alright," he said with a chuckle and my teammate put the popcorn in this massive plastic green bowl. It looked so pretty!
We then made our way to the couch and seated ourselves right next to each other.
"But yeah, I know what you mean about the thing where thinking of food makes you hyper. I always act crazy whenever I know that I'm about to eat ramen! Haha!" He told me laughing and I joined in with his laughter.
I giggled. "It's a crazy feeling isn't it?"
He nodded. "Yeah. Iruka-Sensei said I would probably kill for ramen! Haha!"
I bursted out laughing and even hugged myself because I was laughing so hard.
"I-It's p-p-probably t-true!" I said as I was choking on my laughter and my eyes automatically shut tight.
This is great. I love being with Naruto.
One hour later.
The lights were off and we were in the middle of watching this movie about a dude who threatened people by saying he would kill them with marshmallows and it was surprisingly really funny. I never laughed so hard in my entire life. Oh yeah, like the clumsy dumb-butt that I am, I almost spilled the entire bowl of popcorn onto the floor, but Naruto luckily saved it before it had it's lovely date with the floor. Speaking of popcorn, it was so GOOD! I had to restrain myself from eating a lot of it so I wouldn't look like a fattie. Can't have me looking like that in front of Naruto! Heehee. I'm hyper.
I then shivered. It's starting to get cold.
Naruto noticed this I guess and he asked, "You cold?"
Apprehensively, I nodded as I felt embarrassed, and said, "Y-Yeah."
He nodded. "Okay. I'll be right back."
One minute later, Naruto returned with this big red blanket, and handed it to me.
I blushed and sheepishly said, "O-Oh t-thanks!"
Timidly, I wrapped the blanket around my entire body except for my face, and then laughed.
I looked like a nun.
"You look like a nun! HAHA!" Naruto told me as he was hysterically laughing and the blond closed his eyes.
My eyes grew enormously wide. "GASP! I was just thinking THAT!" I exclaimed and laughed like a crazy person.
After about three minutes, our laughter finally died down, and we ended up having to rewind parts of the movie because we weren't even paying attention. We're such weirdos! Haha. Oh well.
I then took the blanket off of me and handed it to Naruto while sweetly saying, "Sorry I didn't mean to hog the blanket or anything. You're probably cold too. Let's share!"
I then blushed at realizing what I had just said and butterflies were now happily swimming in my tummy, which is really weird because butterflies can't swim, and-GAH! I HOPE THEY DROWN! ... Sorry, I'm hyper.
Grinning, Naruto nodded as he took the blanket, and wrapped it around the both of us.
My heart was hammering faster than any hummingbird as I stared at the floor all wide-eyed and the blood wouldn't stop rushing to my cheeks.
I've never felt this nervous before. It feels like my heart is going to explode or something.
Here I am. Sharing a blanket with Naruto while we're watching a movie and our bodies are so close too. It's a no brainer on why I'm nervous.
Everything in the room then just got a little hotter. Literally.
Minutes passed as we watched the movie in silence when he abruptly put his arm around me and I swear my heart almost jumped out my chest.
Blushing, I timidly looked at him, and he frowned.
"Is...Is this okay, Sakura?" Naruto reluctantly asked while blushing but his azure eyes looked kind of glum.
Oh geez. I can't say no to him!
"U-Um... Y-Yeah. S-Sure!" I nervously answered and flashed him a heart-warming grin to assure that everything was okay.
At first, he looked surprised that I didn't reject him, but he then nodded with a smile, and held me a little tighter.
Okay. I'm not even paying attention to the movie anymore. Right now, I'm way too busy focusing on the warm fuzzy feeling that I was feeling inside, and my cheeks were redder than any raw-meat. I was smiling without even realizing and I then tiredly rested my head onto Naruto's shoulder.
Naruto noticed this as I felt his innocent eyes on me and he then asked, "Sakura...? You okay?"
Smiling, I nodded, and softly answered, "I'm fine."
He nervously nodded. "O-Okay. That's good."
"Hey Naruto... Thanks for inviting me over. I really needed this..." I quietly told him, immense gratitude in my voice, and I flashed him a vibrant smile.
He fondly looked at me while smiling and his tender eyes were full of passion. "No problem, Sakura-chan..."
Suddenly, there was a kissing scene on the television, and we both watched it with wide eyes.
I don't know about him but I was blushing of course.
Slowly, we then both locked eyes once the kissing scene had finished, and the two of us just stared at each other for a few moments in silence.
Naruto's eyes then shut as he slowly leaned into me and my pupils constricted at seeing this. For some reason, I refused to move a single muscle, for I felt like I was in some sort of daze, and he gently pressed his lips onto mine. I didn't fight the kiss, it felt too nice for it to end. His lips were so warm while soothing and he even tasted a little bit like ramen, which tasted good. My cheeks were the same color as a cherry blossom and I slowly closed my eyes, giving into the heavenly kiss. Honestly, I felt like I was in some sort of trance, but whatever. This kiss feels amazing and I feel like it just made all my worries so easily vanish at an instance. Well, for now.
For about six seconds, our lips remained unmoving, just locked, and Naruto finally pulled away rather quickly.
His face was totally flushed of crimson red as he then looked panic stricken and Naruto frantically shouted, "S-SORRY! I-I should have a-asked, Sakura-chan! P-Please forgive me-"
"It's okay."
At hearing my calm words, he looked stunned, and relaxed a little.
Not knowing what to say next, I looked down, my cheeks as pink as a flamingo, and I intently pondered for a few moments.
We kissed. Now what? Well, we didn't really kiss. Our lips were just practically locked the entire time but...a kiss is a kiss. Honestly, I don't know what I feel for him. Yes, the kiss made me incredibly happy, it even seemed to cleanse my irksome thoughts too, but my feelings for him are unknown. I then remembered what Sasuke told me earlier today, saying that he wouldn't kiss anyone unless he truly liked them.
Well, what does that make me? Lower than Sasuke? Oh geez, I feel so bad now. Poor Naruto. We kissed and I have no idea how I even feel and the worst part is that I LET him kiss me. What is this madness?!
The guilt I'm feeling is making my heart scream in absolutely agony. I feel so selfish for letting him kiss me when I don't even know how I truly feel. I DON'T want to lead him on. How could I let this happen? Truthfully, I don't want to hurt Naruto at all in anyway, he's one of my closest friends, and I always want to protect him from getting hurt no matter. But now...
I don't know how I'm going to fare if I'M going to be the one that hurts him...
It breaks my heart.
What can I say to him to make everything better?
. . .
I know.
"Naruto," I softly started with a nervous smile, his curious eyes now on me, and I cautiously continued, "That was great, it really was. It made me really happy and I felt at peace, so thank you. But... I'm really not aware of my emotions right now. Look, I know how you feel about me now, especially after...well, you know, but... I really need some time to sort things out and to figure out my feelings. When I think of you, I think of you as not my friend, but...something else. I'm not quite sure. Do you think you could...wait for me? Y-You know... Until I have an answer?"
"No problem, Sakura-chan. I would wait an eternity for you if that's what it takes."
I felt like crying and I hated seeing that forced smile of his.
Naruto...
Author Note; Hello!
The Zabuza Arc will be in the next chapter and I can't wait to write about the Chunin Exams as well! There shall be an interesting twist in them ;D Also, as I stated many times before, this story has JUST started. I have most of my chapters planned out (including THIS chapter) but I still have no idea who Sakura is going to be with and it will be a longgggggggggg time before she actually decides.(Well, I have to decide first but you get my point xD) 26 chapters to me is like nothing, it's just the beginning. XD haha. Anyway, it is the weekend, so I shall be busy hanging out with my boyfriend. X_D sometimes I try to update at his house but it's rare. But I'll update when I can! Anyways, thank you for reading and for the glorious reviews! I'm glad people recognized that I was mainly just focusing on the love triangle XD The next chapter I'm going to finally get started with the Zabuza arc. Actually, chapter 24 was suppose to be the Zabuza arc but I changed it. :P Anyways, thank you all SO much! Please REVIEW, it would mean so much to me, and thank you SO much!