Stella started to find her way out of the darkness. It felt like she had been there for a while but she didn't know quite how long. She felt like she had been some place but she didn't know where. Stella slowly opened her eyes and all she could see was bright, light, bright white. She didn't know, all she knew was it was bright. She took a deep breath and moved her fingers, then her hand. It felt strange. She looked over and her hand to see tubes sticking out of her hand, she took a deep breath and the felt something wrapped around her face. She didn't like it. Stella went take it off and out of her nose when someone said

"Whoa Princess. You have to leave it on" She looked over to see Clay "Welcome back"

"What happened?"

"You were shot. Do you remember?"

Stella tried to think back and was ringing some bells "Vaguely"

"You lost a lot of blood but fought your way back"

"Where's Alex?"

"Outside getting some air. He was getting annoyed with the hospital staff. I didn't want blood bath"

"Good thinking" Stella coughed and felt a shooting pain run through her body, she winced and grabbed her stomach " Is he okay?"

"He took a pretty scary trip down memory lane."

"Why?"

"You got shot on the twenty fifth June" Clay told her as it all made sense. It was the anniversary of her mother's death. Stella was the same age as Savannah, when she died.

"Oh god"

"Yeah. He aren't good but you're awake now so he'll be alright"

"How Jax's?"

"You really don't need to know that yet"

"He's that bad?"

Clay didn't answer that's when she knew it was bad, instead he change the subject and said

"I'll go get the nurse"

Stella watched Clay walk out of the room and frowned. Something was very wrong, she had that sick feeling in her stomach and it wasn't from a bullet.

Stella ripped that oxygen off the first chance she got, when she thought she was alone in the room. She didn't hear him walk into the room; she didn't hear him close the door.

"I think you meant to keep that on"

There he was her Scarecrow.

"It was pissing me off" She smiled at him but he didn't smile back

"You know what you're the one that pisses me off. You had to be like her to the very end, didn't you?" Stella went to say something but he stopped her before she could. He had a lot to say and he knew that if she gave him that look and that smile, he wouldn't be angry anymore and he needed to be angry. "Don't you ever ask me to let you go again and while we're at it don't you ever let go that easy again. You hear me?"

"Yes I'm like her but with one big difference. I'm still here"

"You died Stella. You flat lined on that operating table. It took all the Tara had to get you back from wherever you went. You gave up to be with him. Trust me everybody knows you loved him but it's not about him anymore. What about me or Gemma. Ellie, Abel"

"I'm right here, Honey"

"Yeah, with a bullet wound in your stomach"

"You can't always save me"

"Well that's just crap"

Stella chuckled before quickly stopping and held her stomach. She took a deep breath before exhaling slowly. She gave him a reassuring smile to tell him she was okay and they both changed the subject.

"Is everyone else okay?"

"Yeah. You'll have to go see Ellie, when you feel up to it. She saw the whole thing"

"Oh god"

"She's pretty shaken up"

"Damn it!"

"Let's get you better first. Then we'll deal with everything else, Okay?"

"Piece of cake"

He smiled and shook his head. He had no idea what he was going to do with her, he knew she wasn't going to take it easy so he would have to put his foot down at one point or another. He'd just have to cross that bridge when he got to it

She didn't notice him until he spoke "You always have to have the last word, don't you?"

Stella looked up and saw Jax standing in the hospital doorway.

"I do what I can" she said sitting up. She winched in pain and grabbed her stomach. Jax rushed over to her. "I'm okay"

He sat on the bed and brushed the hair out of her face.

"I don't know what I would have done, if the last thing that we did was fight. I said things I didn't mean"

"Doesn't mean that the things you said weren't truth, because they are"

"Stella..."

"No, Jax wait. I have to say this" she said holding his hand "I had no business starting a relationship with you, when I am still in love with him. It wasn't fair to you. I do love you, Jax just I love him more

"Stella.."

"Wait. I'm not done. If you still have feelings for Tara and she has feeling for you. You both owe it to yourselves to figure it out. Trust me on this because if you don't speak up, now. By the time you do. You may not have much time left. You will regret it for the rest of your life. Learn from my mistakes"

He looked down and took a deep breath before looking back at her still, very pale face.

"I really thought this would work. I really wanted it to work"

"Me too" she said with a smile "Would have been prefect. Prince and Princess of SAMCRO together"

He rested his forehead on hers. She gave him a lopsided smile before he kissed her for the last time. She got lost in it. it was so loving and so final, so bittersweet. Until there was someone else in the room

"This is a new development" Stella turned out of their kiss to see her Scarecrow standing in the doorway "Gotta be honest. Didn't see this coming"

"Alex" she started before he held his hand and stopped her. They stared at each other, silent. Not knowing where to go from there. She took a deep breath before he walked out of the room. Jax heard Stella swear under hear breath. Jax knew he had to go face the music and slowly hopped off the bed and made his way to the door before she pulled him back with all her strength, which wasn't much right now. "If you go out there now, he is going to maul you"

"Someone's gotta talk to him"

"I'll talk to him. Just let him calm down first"

"You sure"

"Well, he won't kill me. You on the other hand"

"True"

They both smiled at each other, both knowing they were in for some trouble but they both knew that they would be they for each other.

Gemma crept into the room and made sure she stayed quiet, not to wake the patient. Gemma had never thought of Stella as a daughter, they certainly weren't going to start in a Hallmark movie but Gemma did love Stella with all her heart. She was her Savannah's daughter and Gemma had always felt responsible for her, even when her parents were still alive. To see her in a hospital bed and so weak was an experience Gemma didn't wish go through again. It wasn't the first time Gemma had seen her in a hospital room but it was the first time Gemma had seen Stella without that fire that made Stella who she was. It wasn't the first time she had done this, watched Stella sleep. Gemma had bargained her way into recovery after the surgery and sat there until they moved Stella into a private room, of course after Gemma insisted, very loudly that Stella have that private room. She sat down in the chair beside Stella's bed and looked at the tubes in Stella's hands and around her face. One of the toughest ladies Gemma had ever met looked so fragile. Gemma lightly brushed the hair out of Stella face before Stella's eye fluttered open.

"Alex knowing about Jax"

Gemma nodded her head and continued brushing her hair back

"It's okay, Baby. We'll fix it. Get some sleep"

Stella quickly closed her eyes again and falling back to watched her sleep for hours, just to make sure she was still alive