Saturday morning I weighed in at half a pound more than the day before, meaning that I was right on track for my weight gain goal of a pound and a half by Monday. At breakfast that morning Esme handed me a cheesecake flavored yogurt instead of vanilla flavored. She must be going out of her way to find less objectionable food items for me.

"Jasper, we are going to visit Edward today. Alice, Edward has been asking to see you. Do you want to stay here with Jasper or see your brother?" Esme asked.

"I'm not sure. I haven't seen Edward in forever, but I am still mad at him."

"Well, if you went you could tell him how you feel about what he did. Let him know how his actions have impacted your life. His therapist wants to have a group session with the family today. So, I just thought having you there would help the therapist understand how our family is struggling to deal with the situation." Esme replied.

"Okay. Jasper, are you going to be alright without me?" Alice asked looking into my eyes. I could feel her love for me in the concern of her voice.

"I'll be fine. I have a lot of homework to do. Just be back by nap time so I can sleep."

"Of course."

I waited until they left to decide what I was going to do with my free time. If I decided too soon, there was a chance Alice might see and stop me. I decided to call Henry.

"Hello, Jasper?"

"Yeah, it's me. Listen Henry, the family went to visit Edward at the hospital, so I have the morning to myself. You have a car right?"

"Yeah."

"Can you swing by to pick me up? We can go hang out together."

"Sure. Just give me half and hour to get ready."

"Awesome! See you then."

Henry was true to his word, and showed up with his car on my doorstep half an hour later.

"So, what do you want to do today?" Henry asked me.

"You have to promise not to tell anyone."

"Anything. You know we are best friends. I was going to convince Couch to put you on the football team with me next year." Football was everything to Henry, so this meant a lot coming from him.

"Well, I had a nightmare about Edward last night. I keep having them. I am scared he is going to get out of the hospital and come back and hurt me again. He is still taller and stronger than me. I have been trying to bulk up, but it is not working fast enough. In a few months Edward will be out and back in my house."

"What do you want to do about it."

"I want protection. I want a gun."

"Oh man, a gun is serious business. Are you sure?"

"Yes. I do not plan on killing him. But, if he comes after me again I want to give him a flesh wound so that I can get away."

"That sounds reasonable. But, you are only fourteen. How are you going to buy a gun?"

"Easy: off the streets."

I gave Henry directions as he drove into Seattle. He drove to the back alley where the local gang sold stolen guns with the numbers filed off. As we were driving, I got a text from Alice reading, "Don't do it." I chose to ignore it. She must have had a vision of what we were up to.

I used two hundred dollars of my savings to buy the gun and a box of bullets. The gang member even showed me how to use it. I made sure the safety was on, and the put it in my duffle bag that I had brought from home.

"What do you want to do now?" Henry asked.

Well, there were three things I was absolutely positive about. One, this was the last time I would get out of the house until after the pregnancy, as I was beginning to show. Two, I was pregnant and would need to eat soon or I would get morning sickness, again. And three, I was invariably and irrevocably in love with Alice Cullen.

"Edward gets all of the attention. I want to do something that will make my aunt and uncle pay more attention to me. Edward pulls stuff every week and all he gets is more special treatment. Lets go to the tattoo parlor down the street: that will show them."

"Are you sure dude?"

"Yes, I'm sure. Let's go. But, I'm hungry. Let's stop at Carl's Jr. for take out on the way."

"Please don't do it," Alice texted me. Again, I ignored her text. She must have seen what we were doing in another vision.

"What do you want to get?" Henry asked me as we walked into the shop, after having pigged out on chipotle chicken ciabattas and fries.

"Definitely a piercing. Do you want to get anything?"

"I've been thinking about getting a tattoo of a witch eating a calculator," Henry replied. Henry was a Pastafarian.

"That would be so ill! You should totally do it. Are you going to get the Flying Spaghetti Monster symbol to go with it?"

"Yeah."

So, Henry got a totally awesome religious tat, and I got a set of blue acrylic nipple rings. I was allergic to silver, so I went with the acrylic. I thought they looked pretty sweet. But, I was dehydrated from all the salt on the fries and not drinking anything all morning. And, piercings are known to make one light headed as the blood rushes to the site of the piercing. So, I fainted.

"Are you okay man?" Henry asked when I came to.

"Yeah. What happened."

"You fainted," Henry said chuckling.

'What is so funny?"

"You got your first two piercings and fainted. It could happen to anyone, but it happened to you. You have horrible luck."

"Darwin, do I know it. You better get me home so I can hide the gun before my family gets home."

"Sure thing bro," He said before taking me home.

I was able to get home before everyone else. I guess Alice did not tell on me. Yet. I hid the gun in the attic, in a box of my stuff that was in transition due to the remodeling, so that no one would find it. Then, I turned on a football game and set about looking innocent.

As soon as Alice ran in the door at lightening speed, she was on me and dragging me to her room. She shut and locked the door behind her. "Did you do it?"

"Did you not see?"

"I saw you doing it, and I saw you not doing it. But, I could not see which path you chose. Did you do it?"

"I did one of them," I lied. There was no way to keep the nipple rings from her.

"Which one?" she whispered slowly. "Please Darwin, do not let it be the gun." Good to know: Alice finds the gun more objectionable than the piercings.

To answer, I pulled off my shirt and showed her my chest. "Why did you do it Jasper? You are pregnant. You should not be getting piercings while you are pregnant. What about breast feeding?"

"First of all, women can breastfeed with nipple rings. Second Alice, for a psychic you can miss some obvious things sometimes. I do not have breasts, so I will not be able to breast feed. At all. Carlisle even said so."

"Oh…" Alice zoned out for a minute, a vision coming to her. "You are right that you will not be able to breast feed, but your chest will swell up a little bit and your nipples will ooze a little bit of fluid. But, never enough to feed a baby, and Carlisle is not even sure it is safe for a baby. So you feed her formula."

"It is still a girl?"

"Either that, or you like to put boys in frilly pink dresses. I have not actually seen the genitalia, so it could be."

"Well, I don't. But Esme might."

"Enough distraction. Back to the point: why did you do it?"

"Do you not like it? I thought it made me look manly."

"No, I think it makes you look like a chick. But, I do like it. Mom is going to freak. Why now? Why did you have to do this now Jasper? You could have waited until after the baby was born."

"This was my last chance to get out of the house. The bulge grows everyday, and I wanted to have some fun. And, Esme and Carlisle are always going on about Edward. But, Edward brings most of the stuff on himself, like with James. I just want Esme and Carlisle to forget about Edward and realize that they have other children too. Other children who can make questionable or poor decisions as well.

"There is a double standard in this house: Edward can do no wrong and they are always too busy to remember me. I'm pregnant. This is supposed to be my time to be in the spotlight. This is going to be my only pregnancy, because I am definitely not going through this again. Is it so much to ask that Carlisle and Esme notice me too?"

"Oh Jazz," Alice said wrapping her arms around me. I guess we will see how my aunt and uncle react soon enough.

Author's note: Although Fourteen year olds can get pregnant, they are still irresponsible kids, explaining why Jasper is continueing to act out. Although his behavior and judgement may be poor to non-existent, we need to keep in mind one thing: Jasper still has not made the decision for himself to want this baby, which is, after all, Edward's rape baby. Right now he is still just going along with what Alice wants for Alice's sake. And, until that fact changes, Jasper is going to continue to make the wrong choices in life...

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