Jill listened as her sister spoke, knowing exactly how she felt, though Jill didn't have as many shadows following her around, but it was more than enough for her to crave time jut to herself. She wish she could just have the one guardian, that she could accept. But even as she walked around to do her every day jobs, she always had a few lurking, following, watching everything. She looked back over at Lissa and nodded. "I understand how you feel with that, though you have it a little worse off than me. Though I'd rather it if I could just have Eddie as my guardian but I'm learning to try and block out the others following me around."
She paused for a moment before speaking again. "I would rather my guardian's to be put to use somewhere that they are needed more, there are too many families out there that have none at all and because they aren't of royal blood, they go without all because of some rule made god knows how long ago that said the royals were more important than everyone else." She tried not to sound bitter with that last comment; she knew there were royals that were more important than others, the woman standing beside her was one that was more important than any of them. Jill knew if she could, she would give up all of her guardians – except Eddie – to families that needed them, rather than have them follow her very move each day.
She shook herself out of those thoughts as Lissa asked her a question, she was studying Jill as if trying to figure out if she was really wanting to do all she could. Jill didn't hesitate to answer. "I really do Lissa, I want to be able to do anything to help out even if it is something small." She gave her a look of determination, wanting to show her she really wasn't lying about this, she wanted to help, she needed to help. She accepted the name and she would accept every responsibility that came with it, no matter how hard or how boring they seemed, she would push through it and do what she could.
She actually surprised herself with how much she actually wanted this, she knew she wanted to do it, but she didn't actually realise how much until now. She was far from wanting to be called princess and doing everything that the royals did, she still hated being called by her title. But the determination to help and to be able to use the title to do some good was strong and she needed to do everything she could to help now just her sister, but the Moroi and Dhampir world as well, she had a small bit of power and she would use it.
Jill gave her a real smile, not forced at all and lead the way to the small boutique, she loved fashion and as much as she thought she would hate going out with Lissa today, her mood has lightened and the idea of going out shopping with her didn't seem all that bad. She knew they were a long way off fixing everything between them but for now, she was actually starting to enjoy herself. She stopped just outside the boutique, a guardian that has been following them has snuck ahead and entered the shop ahead of them and Jill stopped herself from rolling her eyes. "Not sure what threats he thinks he will find in there." She said with a small laugh and opened up the door for the both of them. "After you."
This post was written by Eli aka princessjilldragomir on tumblr