Chapter 26: Love
I still can't believe what happened to Xion, I just hope she can wake up soon. I don't know why Saix treats her so bad, Axel told me it was because of his personality but I'm not sure. I guess it is because I don't remember anything from before and I don't know how my personality was.
After some hours of fighting Heartless on Hollow Bastion, Roxas finished his mission collecting hearts. He spent a hard time completing his mission since he couldn't think in anything but Xion. As soon as he finished the quota Saix gave him, he went back to the Castle.
Roxas reappeared on the Grey Area, he decided he could give Saix the report later and that Xion was more important now so he went to see her first. He opened the door and waiting to see his friend awake and smiling as she used to do, but as he feared, she was still sleeping on her bed, the same way and position she was before he left.
-Xion… -he sighed sadly getting next to her
-She hasn't even move since you left. –Axel said from behind him startling him
-Axel!
-The Vexen Replica said it could take a while for her to wake up. It seems she passed out during the mission and not defeated by Heartless like we thought. –Axel explained, Roxas sighed
-And how much is "a while"?
-I don't know, hours, days… Who knows? –Axel said sincerely, Roxas sighed again
-…It doesn't matter. I…I know she will wake up. –Roxas said hopefully, Axel raised an eyebrow
-How are you so sure?
-Actually, when you were on Castle Oblivion, I passed out on a mission with Xigbar. I was asleep for weeks! Maybe, this is normal… -Roxas explained, Axel stared at him seriously
-Well, it's weird, but it's definitely not normal.
-Don't say that! You'll see how she wakes up in a couple of days.
-I hope you're right. We should leave her rest, Roxas. –Axel said walking towards the door and waiting for Roxas there, he slowly nodded
-Right. Hope you get better, Xion. –Roxas said to her before leaving the room and closing gently her door. Axel stared at Roxas, he surely seemed depressed. He started thinking again in theory he had with Xigbar weeks ago.
-Roxas... –he started scratching his head, not finding the right words in his mind, Roxas slowly turned to him and stare at him curiously
-What?
-Damn it, how can I ask this…?
-Ask what? –he asked raising an eyebrow, Axel sighed
-I don't know how to ask this so I'll ask like if you had a heart: Do you feel something for Xion? –Axel asked directly, the question actually surprised Roxas
-Feel? Didn't you said Nobodies couldn't feel anything?
-You watch enough television with Xion to know what I'm talking about, so answer! –Axel said, Roxas stared confused at Axel
-I…don't know what are you talking about. –Roxas shrugged, Axel slapped his forehead at this
-You know something? Forget it. –Axel said resigned walking away from Roxas who stayed cold staring him
-I guess Axel needs some rest also.
The next few days, Roxas had a new routine: After breakfast and before leaving to his mission, he went to pay a visit to Xion and see if she got better, but no luck. After he finished his mission, the first thing he did when he returned to the castle was to visit Xion again and see if she was awake now. Finally, before going to sleep, he paid her another fast visit to check her.
Roxas knew Xion enough to know what she liked. Before returning to the castle, he went to a world named Destiny Islands and pick for her a seashell. When he paid her a visit after his mission, he placed a seashell next to her pillow just like she did when he was asleep, one for every day.
Roxas mission this time was with Demyx, heart collection in Twilight Town. As Roxas had learn, he already knew he'll end up making all the job for him, but he didn't protested since Axel told him he needed to keep his mind busy for a while, which mean that if Roxas did all the mission alone, it will take him more time.
This however wasn't Roxas lucky day, because for some strange reason Demyx actually helped him finish his mission, and it didn't help also the mission was easier than expected. They reached their quota faster than expected, Roxas sighed when he noticed this which made Demyx ask…
-What's wrong dude? You don't look happy. You want to work more? –he asked cheerfully, Roxas shook his head
-No. It's just, I don't want to go home and see Xion on her state. –Roxas said sincerely, Demyx stare at him serious and sighed.
-Well, you don't have to go home right now. You can do anything you do before going back.
I guess…. Hey, you want some ice cream? –he asked, the question surprised Demyx
-Ice cream? Well I guess I could eat some. –he shrugged
A few minutes later, Roxas and Demyx were eating their ice creams on the top of the clock tower.
-R…Roxas…Is it safe to be up here? –Demyx said scared because of the high place
-It's safe. I come here with Axel and Xion after every mission, and no one of us have ever fall from here. –he explained giving a bite to his ice cream, Demyx gulped still fearing to fall from such a high tower. There was a short silence until Demyx spoke again.
-So… Xion hasn't got any better? –Demyx asked, Roxas lowered his head and shook it
-No… It's been five days now…I wonder when she'll wake up. –he said depressed
-Too bad… She's a good girl. –he said, Roxas nodded. He then remembered what Axel told him days ago and thought maybe Demyx could know something…
-Hey… do you know what it means "to feel something" for someone? –Roxas asked hoping Demyx could know something, Demyx raised an eyebrow at the question
-Well, I guess it depends on the situation, why you ask?
-Axel asked me the other day if I felt something for Xion, but I didn't knew what he meant. It didn't help much that he didn't explained me also. –Roxas explained, Demyx understood the younger Nobody's confusion and start thinking on the best way for explaining him
-Umm… I guess he meant if you love her or something. –he finally answered, Roxas was surprised by his answer
-Love? But isn't "love" a feeling? I thought we couldn't feel without a heart.
-That's not completely true. I can say without having a heart that I love music. I can say without having a heart I love playing my Sitar also. –Demyx explained, Roxas thought over what the Melodious Nocturne said and started to understand…
-…I guess it makes sense. So… how do you know when you "love" something or someone?
-I know I love playing my Sitar because I enjoy doing it. Sometimes I wait all day long only for going to my room and start playing it. Do you enjoy spending time with Xion?
-I… guess. But I also enjoy spending time with Axel, does that mean I love him also? –Roxas innocently asked, Demyx immediately freaked out because of the question but quickly calmed down and tried to explain...
-Roxas, if you're a guy, you can't love a guy, only girls.
-Why? –Roxas asked clearly confused because of how Demyx quickly freaked out
-Just leave it like that, trust me.
-Okay, so… if I enjoy spending time with Xion, that means I love her?
-Possible. But as I remember, before you love somebody, you must first feel attracted to her. Is there something you like from her? –Demyx asked, Roxas didn't even take time to think on the question and answered immediately
-I like everything about her. She's smart, funny, and we get along very well.
-I think you like her then. I suggest you to tell her that when she's awake. –Demyx suggested, a small smile appeared on Roxas' face
-I'll like that. Why don't we go back now? With this conversation I can't wait for her to wake up now. –Roxas said motivated getting on his feet, Demyx chuckled
-Sure. I want to play my Sitar anyway.
Roxas and Demyx returned to the castle and both of them went different ways as they arrived. Roxas obviously was going to Xion's room, but unfortunately for him he crashed into Saix on his way to the girl's room.
-…Sorry. –he apologized as the older Nobody stared coldly at him
-Where are you going so fast, Roxas? –Saix asked
-To see Xion. –the answer somehow bothered Saix, but as it was usual on him, he didn't show it.
-Why you two are so interested in that garbage? –he asked, his question bothered Roxas who was starting to get sick of Saix insults on Xion
-Hey, stop it already. Her name is Xion . –he told him, Saix raised an eyebrow
-Does it bother you?
-Of course it does. You can't call a comrade "garbage"!
-And what are you going to do if I call that useless thing "garbage"? You two think just because you have Keyblade you can do whatever you want. –Saix words made Roxas get even angrier and without even wanting, he summoned his Keyblade
-STOP INSULTING HER! –he yelled angrily getting ready to fight, Saix however didn't even move from his place and just laughed silently.
-And what do you think you're going to do? You're just as weak as she is. –he said turning around and leaving. Roxas couldn't help but to glare at him, he sighed and continued his way toward the girl's room.
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