Sorry again for not updating recently. I just moved and haven't had much time to do much of anything. Story of my life lol. So here's another chapter! Thank you to everyone who has waited patiently for updates and added me to their updates lists.

Songs to use for chapter: Skillet – Yours to hold

BPOV

It had been a long couple of weeks. I had finally began to settle down into my new life as a vampire with the Cullen's. Esme had insisted I buy an entire wardrobe and decorate my new room with whatever I wanted. So of course Alice insisted on helping me.

Esme was handling everything so well. She had spent her time mostly in Carlisle's study reading all his books. I hadn't asked her why, but I figured it had something to do with getting a better understanding as to why he made his sacrifice.

I was driving down the windy road in my Mustang. I so loved this car! I still felt a little weird about Esme and Alice buying me all this stuff, but especially this car. Every time I saw it I got that uncomfortable feeling, until I got into it and started driving.

As I came around the last bend before the turn into the drive way my cell phone began to ring. I flipped it open without looking at who was calling. Alice's cheery voice came over the phone filled with excitement.

"Guess what Bells!"

"What's up Alice?" I asked. I hadn't heard this much excitement in her voice since she found out I was going to be living with them.

"You need to come home now! I need to tell you something in person! You're not going to believe this!"

"Alice calm down! I'm pulling in now. Give me 2 minutes."

I heard the phone click and as I pulled up to the garage Alice was already waiting for me at the door. She ran to my door before I even placed the shifter in neutral and pulled the e-brake.

"Bells we have to get you ready!" She sounded like she was hyperventilating.

"Alice calm down, what am I getting ready for?"

"Edwards coming home silly! We have to get you ready for him!"

I didn't know what to say. Honestly I had been missing Edward a lot. I was excited he was coming home, but at the same time I was very nervous. I wasn't sure how I was going to react when I saw him. It had been a few months since he had left.

"OH my God Alice. What do I do? What do I wear?! What do I say!?!" I felt like I was going to hyperventilate!

"Bells don't worry. I'll take care of you. Go upstairs and wait for me in my room. I'm just going to grab something extra special from the mall. I'll be back in 2.5 seconds."

I did as Alice said, but on my way upstairs I noticed the door to Carlisle's study was cracked open slightly. I peeked inside to see Esme sitting at the desk softly sobbing.

I walked in slowly so I didn't surprise her. I hadn't seen her break down since the day Carlisle died. I walked over beside her and placed my hand on her should as she sobbed. She quickly turned and embraced my waist and sobbed into my stomach.

"Esme it's ok, what's wrong?" I asked with sincere comfort and concern in my voice.

"I just don't get it Bells. I mean I know why he did it, but why did it have to be our family? Why couldn't it have been another family the Volturi went after? I mean I don't wish this on anyone, but at the same time I cant help but ask why!"

"Esme I can't give you the answers, all I can tell you is to be strong. You don't want Edward to see you like this do you?" Her head snapped up when I said his name. I guess she didn't know he was coming home.

"What do you mean Edward see me like this?" She asked.

"Esme Edward is on his way home. Alice just told me when I got here. He's on his way home."

"Bells my God! I know it may sound kind of crazy, but it feels like I'm getting a part of Carlisle back! Ever since he left I felt like Carlisle was completely gone."

"Esme that doesn't sound crazy at all. Carlisle to you is what my human life was to me, and Edward is the only connection I have left to that. Even though we weren't close when I was mortal, he was there, and since I cant see my dad he's all I have left."

We sat in silence together for what seemed like eternity until we heard Alice's car pull into the garage. I needed to get into her room because I knew she had something special planned.

"Esme I have to go to Alice's room. She wants to get me ready for Edward. Are you going to be ok?" I didn't want to leave her if she needed me, but a huge smile flashed across her face.

"Bells Go, I'm going to be just fine now. You get ready, because I know as well as you do that your ready." She was right, I was ready. I was finally ready to let my feelings for Edward out. I loved him and I wanted to see where our relationship could go.

I dashed to Alice's room and only second's later Alice came in after me. She flashed an approving look and a dazzling smile and then began her work.

"So Alice when exactly will Edward be here?" I asked. I figured she meant he was coming back tomorrow or by the end of the week.

"Oh, Emmett and Jasper are picking him up now from the airport. He should be here in like 30 minutes. So sit back shut up and lets get to work!"

If I had a heart it would have been racing right now. In 30 minutes I would come face to face with the love of my life for the first time since I let my feelings for him come out not only to Esme, but myself. Life was about to take another drastic change for me, and this time I couldn't wait.

Ok, sorry to cut this one short. I'm going to try to write a few more chapters tonight while I'm watching TV. So R&R and let me know what you think!