Road to Love

Chapter 25 – God's calling and Crazy In Love

Disclaimer: Okay honestly, I'm getting tired of saying this: I do not own Gilmore Girls; I will own Gilmore Girls when sheep's give birth to ducklings. Until then, I solemnly swear I do not own Gilmore Girls in any way.

AN: Hey there peeps! What's cracking? I decided to get an early start on this chapter because I suck at updating, and also because I've got free time right now, well not really, I should be finishing a project, but oh well. I'm so sorry for the wait for this chapter, but my computer has not been working lately as it should. I'm working on that right now. I'm going to get it fixed, I don't know how long it will take, but I'll try to update from another computer until then. Thanks a million and six for the reviews! I appreciated them like you would not believe; as usual replies to your reviews are at the end of this chapter as well as my ever famous rambling session. Hope you guys like this chapter! There is swearing in this chapter again in the PREVIOUSLY part, just letting you know. Enjoy!

Previously, on Road to Love…

He too was on his feet now, the bottle of steadily emptying wine swinging in one hand as he retorted just as loudly, his eyes blazing as well. "Fuck you Rory! You think you're all that, with your nose in books all the time. You hide, behind your books, so before you go and tell me to stop hiding, why don't you tell yourself first! And you know what, your damn right I'm going to party and drink and have sex because you know what this," he said, using his hand to motion between himself and Rory, "is over! I've heard all of what you just said before, and quite honestly, as much as you seem to think you know me, you don't, so don't you dare judge me! I am not scared. I know just how hard I'm going to have to work; I know just how big the shoes I'm going to be expected to fill, and then some." He finished out of breath as he bent his head back to take another mouthful of the burning alcohol.

"Oh shut up about how fucking lucky I am! I have no choices Rory! The day I was conceived, my life was automatically planned out for me! I wasn't even out of the womb when my father started drilling it in my head that I was supposed to take over his company, to be him and better. I don't want any of this, I'd give it all up in a second if it meant that I could just be free and do what I actually wanted to do! I don't want any of this, sure the money is great, that always has its benefits, but the rest is for the taking, because I don't want any part of it! But daddy dearest won't hear of it, no, why would he care about what I want? Just stop judging me okay, stop thinking that you know me and my life, because you don't. Just shut up about you not having opportunities, if you want something Rory, go and get it! You want to be a reporter, have fun, work for fucking CNN for all I care, just get out of my face!" Logan screamed.

"You are a dick Logan. You are a rich little arrogant, over-privileged drunken dick. You want me out of your face, fine, were through, and I'm glad. Goodbye Logan." Rory said curtly, hurt by his words, but at the same time she was fuming as she picked up her belongings and walked down the stairs. She could feel the eyes of the few people enjoying their meals upstairs on her retreating back. A prickling feeling attacked her eyes, but she refused, she wasn't going to cry over him, not after how he treated her.

It was over, and she really was glad.

And now, on Road to Love...

Lorelai heard the phone ringing on her bedside table around 2:30 in the morning she noted as she cast a quick glance at the clock. With her good arm, she reached over and snatched up the phone, "This better be god calling, if your not, die!" Lorelai mumbled sleepily into the phone, her eyes drooping closed as she waited for a reply.

All she heard on the other end was someone sniffling, laughing slightly at her greeting. "Hey mom, it's me." Rory said, holding back her tears as best as she could. Her face was red; her eyes were red as well from her constantly crying and rubbing them. She was a mess. She was stranded; she didn't have her car, and not nearly enough money to get back to her dorm. One thing was for sure, she was not about to ask, her ex-boyfriend, or, 'the whiny dick,' as she now referred to him for a ride back to campus, she was far too proud to do and besides he was drunk.

"Rory, what's wrong?" Her mom asked her eyes wide open now with worry.

"Uh nothing, I just need you to pick me up. I'll explain what happened later." She told her mother in between gasps for air, her tone of voice clearly saying that she didn't want to talk about it just yet and she'd tell her when the time was right.

"Um in case you hadn't noticed I'm in no position to drive you know what with the broken bones in me, but I can send Grandma's limo if you want." Lorelai told her daughter, chuckling at her daughters' forgetfulness.

"Oh… Sorry I forgot. Um sure, send it; I just really want to go back to school." Rory pleaded as tears fell silently from her eyes.

"Sure kid. Just let me call them, and I'll call you right back okay? But first I need the address." She said, grabbing a pen and jotting the address down on her cast and with that she hung up.

Rory walked back into the café, it was beginning to get a little chilly outside. She sat down at one of the corner tables after placing her order at the front. She had gotten a small meal and a plain coffee, she didn't feel like eating, but she knew she had to.

She sat, sipping slowly on the boiling hot liquid in her funny shaped mug. It wasn't long before she got bored waiting on her dinner and the shelves of books called out to her. She walked over to the books, her mug in hand. She chose a book, one that she had read before, a very long time ago. "A Little Princess," she muttered, making her way back to her table.

She settled into the book, moving her food around on her plate rather than eating it. She'd probably taken a total of three bites of the steaming hot meal. She just wasn't in the mood.

About an hour later, she saw a car pull up outside, probably her limo she thought as she felt her cell phone vibrating in her pocket. She picked it up quickly, "Hi Ms. Gilmore, your car is outside waiting." The voice said, "Thanks," she said in reply, quickly closing her phone. She paid the bill, and left, hopping into the car before telling the driver her destination.

It was now a week since her and Logan's ugly break-up, and although she was happy to be free, she couldn't help feel like a part of her was missing now, but she ignored the feeling. She was after all a Gilmore, and Gilmore's were extremely stubborn. She refused to admit that she missed him, and that she wanted him back. She wasn't going to make the first move, and besides he had said some unforgivable things to her, things she just could not get over in the blink of an eye. His boyish charm wouldn't win her over this time, and anyways, she reasoned with herself, the guard over her heart back in place, 'who's to say he even wants you back. Don't you think that he wanted you back; he would've talked to you by now. Don't you think he would've been trying to work through things with you if he wanted you back? And plus you saw him the other day, with Ms. Slutty-Mc-Slut-Slut. He's moved on. He's happy. So you should too, you deserve to be happy.' The voice in her head chastised, trying to make her heart see reason.

It was too late now anyway, it would take a lot to win her back, if he even wanted to. Oh how she wanted him too, but as usual, she would never in a million years admit it. She had crawled back behind her guard, she was hurting and she knew it, losing Logan was like losing Dean and Jess at once. It scared her that their brief, relationship, if you could even call it that, had meant so much to her. It scared her to think that she had in fact fallen, 'crazy in love,' with Logan Huntzberger. It scared her even more knowing that it was over, sure she'd been happy about it before, but she had been angry and hurting then. Now she was thinking rationally, and it was scary to think that she had lost him forever, that what they had could have been real, like in the fairytales but with the drama of real life.

She needed to talk to her mom about this again. She'd told her the whole story on her visit a few days ago, her mother hadn't said anything to her, and she just held her as she had cried. She didn't know what to do anymore, so she did what she knew, she threw herself into her work, hiding behind it. Logan's words stung at her at that moment, but she gritted her teeth, tears flowing as she continued, she had to forget, about him, about how he made her feel, just everything.

It was her mantra at this point, she had to forget, she just had to, she had a plan, she wanted to be a reporter, she had gotten this far with just herself and her mother to rely on, and she didn't need him.

Lorelai was sitting at home a few weeks later, her casts were still in tact, and it wouldn't be coming off for the next 2 weeks. At that thought she scowled at the television. That Jamie Olivier can really cook she thought, watching him speak in his cute British tongue as he chopped up some onions. She really envied the British language; it was so proper, and just absolutely adorable. She loved it. She made a mental note to remind Rory that she wanted to visit London, England at some point in her life.

She scowled as she heard a knock at the door; Marie was currently upstairs, re-organizing Lorelai's closet because apparently she just wasn't satisfied with her first five attempts. She was sure that this time she would organize it to her liking. Lorelai just nodded and smiled, knowing full-well that as soon as Marie left, and she was able to walk properly again, her closet would once again become the danger zone it had been prior to Marie's cleaning spree. She must be seriously bored Lorelai thought to herself, chuckling as she heard the person outside rap on the door again. "Alright I heard you! But I can't get up, so just tell me your name and I'll tell you if you can come in." Lorelai shouted, not bothering to ring her little bell for Marie to come, she would let her have her fun.

"It's me, Luke." A loud voice said in reply.

Immediately Lorelai froze up. Her face was locked in a shocked expression as she glanced down at her still flat stomach. She knew she had to tell him, but she would've preferred to do it when she was able to walk on her own two feet, rather than just one. It wasn't fun, limping around, struggling to stay balanced with the weight of the cast on her arm.

"Can I come in or not?" He screamed out from behind the white door, a little annoyed now.

She jumped slightly as his voice sliced through her thoughts bringing her swiftly back down to reality. "Um…What do you want?" Lorelai asked, not sure if she was ready to face him.

"Come on Lorelai, are you seriously asking me this?" He waited a beat for her to answer; all he heard was silence from inside the house and the light humming of the outside world from where he stood. "We need to talk," he told her calmly, "now can I please come in? Screaming back and forth is fun and all, but my throat is starting to hurt, crazy as it seems since I've had so much practice what with Taylor and all." He rambled loudly enough for her to hear.

She laughed to herself. She could hear the anxiety in his voice; at least she wouldn't be alone in her nervous state. "Come in!" She yelled.

"Ms. Gilmore… I mean Lorelai, is everything alright? I'm hearing screaming." Marie appearing on the staircase, worried.

"Everything is fine Marie, someone was at the door, and I thought I'd answer it instead of taking you away from your fun organizing. Sorry if I startled you." Lorelai told her calmly.

"Alright, well call me if you need anything." Marie said, going back to her organizing.

"Will do," Lorelai called after her. "So what's up?" She questioned Luke awkwardly as he eyed her casts and scrapes, standing uneasily near the staircase, wringing his hands, refusing to meet her eyes.

"Nothing much… I just… I don't know maybe I shouldn't have come. You've got enough on your plate already; I shouldn't come and add to it." Luke said stupidly, taking a step towards the door, ready to make a quick exit yet again.

Lorelai shook her head disbelievingly. "Luke!" She called. "Wait! You came all the way over hear, without coffee I might add. You made me scream, so the least you could do is tell me what's going on. Just because were not together anymore, doesn't mean you aren't still one of my best friends." Lorelai told him, her heart aching with each word she spoke. She wanted to be more than his best friend; she wanted to be a part of his life. She wanted to marry him. But it was too late for that now, as usual she had found some way to screw up one of the greatest things in her life, and she had to face it. It had been her fault and Chris's to some extent of course.

He nodded nervously as he stood still uneasy. This time however, he was near the phone, standing in the middle of the hallway leading into the kitchen. "Uh…you really mean that? What you said about us being friends I mean?" Luke asked, avoiding what he'd really come here to tell her. He wanted to tell her that he missed her, a lot. He wanted to tell her that he wanted her back. That he had been stupid. That he should have listened to her, and trusted her rather than jumping to conclusion. But at the same time a part of him still didn't completely trust her. She had hurt him bad when he had seen her and Chris kiss. He couldn't just forget that, he knew it wasn't her fault, but he couldn't help how he felt, as stupid as it was, he couldn't help it.

"You can sit you know. I won't bite, promise." Lorelai said, smiling broadly at him, it hurt her jaw a little, but she kept the smile plastered on her face as she patted the seat next to her. She was going to tell him about his baby; it wouldn't be fair if she didn't tell him. She had to, she wanted to. She needed someone to help her through this, this time around, she need him.

He shot her a small smile, taking his cap off as he ran a hand through his hair. He needed to relax; it was just Lorelai, the woman he loved with all his heart. 'Stop it,' he told himself, 'it's over, you need to face it. Besides, she only wants to be friends, she said so herself.'

"I miss you." He blurted out as he sat down. His hands immediately flew over his mouth as though he was trying to shove them back in. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that. It just came out." He told her quickly, apologizing for his moment of weakness.

It felt so right to be near her, it felt relaxing, and he knew, it would never be boring, not with her. She was the most exciting person in the world. Just looking at her made the dull light in his eyes spark up. Being near her however was a different story, it made him feel excited, tingly. She shifted closer to him, turning as best she could to face him.

"I missed you too." She said honestly, not caring if she sounded stupid, because it was the truth. She did miss him, with everything inside of her. Being with him right now just made that fact all the more obvious. She needed him in her life, he made everything better somehow, as unintentional as it may have been on his part, he had always been there for her. He had always trusted her, and she had ruined that trust, she knew that, she wouldn't exactly be surprised if he shut her out a little. She knew she had to gain back his trust, even though it hadn't exactly been her fault, the blame still lied with her, and she would just have to deal with that.

"Really,' he questioned her incredulously?

"Really, really," she said in reply, smiling at his disbelief. "Why wouldn't I have missed you?" 'I love you Luke. I want you back. I'm sorry, for everything, I am. I just… I need you.' She wanted to say, but she restrained herself. She didn't want to scare him off.

"I don't know. I thought… I thought maybe you'd gotten over me, and erased me from your life." Luke told her truthfully, looking much like a scared little boy who had lost sight of his mother in a crowed store.

"How could I? You've always been there for me Luke, no matter what's happened. I couldn't just forget about you, you've had too big an impression on my life for me to do that. Face it, you're stuck with me." Lorelai joked.

He cracked a small, but he didn't say anything.

"Hey Luke," she said softly. She couldn't hold it back anymore. She had to do it. Sure she was a stubborn Gilmore, and sure she wanted him to make the first move, but since that wasn't going to happen, it was up to her. She moved forward, crashing her lips on his, touching his cheek with her fingers before wrapping her good arm around his neck pulling him closer to her. He deepened the kiss, running his tongue along her bottom lip, biting down on it slightly, begging her to open her mouth and let him in, which she did without a second thought.

Her stomach was a mess, butterflies were fluttering around in her stomach, and her heart was beating, faster than ever before. She had missed their make-out sessions. Her felt like it would break out of her chest any second now if they didn't stop soon, which they did, they did have to breathe after all.

"God I missed you," Lorelai said, lunging at him again, knocking him backward on the couch only to gasp in pain as her already broken arm bent in an awkward angle. She pulled back, holding her arm in pain.

"Are you okay?" He asked stupidly, mentally slapping himself for asking the question. 'Obviously she wasn't okay, if she was, she wouldn't be gasping in pain now would she,' he snapped at himself. "Uh do you need to go the doctors or the hospital or anything?" He asked, sincerely worried about her.

"No, no, I'm fine; I just bent my arm a little oddly. Its okay, I think the hospital will survive without me today. They've seen far too much of me lately." She said honestly, with a grave expression set upon her face.

"Okay."

"Luke, I was stupid okay. I know that I was. I let you go that day in the hospital when you came to see me, and I shouldn't have. I should've asked you to stay. I don't want to let you go Luke. I miss you, and I need you… not as a best friend, as more, a lot more." Lorelai said, finding a sudden interest in the address on her cast. She was nervous. Nervous that he was going to turn her away, that he hadn't come over here to reconcile with her, and then he would be awkward around her. She didn't want that.

"Uh… wow, okay. You just sort of came out and said it didn't you?" He said, flabbergasted. He really didn't know what to say. She had taken the words right out of his mouth. But now that she'd said what he'd wanted her to say for the longest time, he didn't know if he could do it. It had hurt him so much to lose her the first time. He had to admit it was his own fault he'd lost her, he had been the one to end it after all. But it had still hurt like hell to know that she had kissed another man. "I want to Lorelai, I really do. But I need to know that I can trust you first. Just give me some time okay? I need you too, but I just need to know that I can trust you before I put my heart back on the line." He told her honestly, putting a finger under her chin in order to turn her face to face his own. "Okay?"

"Mm-hmm…" She said, holding back the well of tears gathering behind her eyes. You would think by now she would've cried all the tears she could've cried, but no, there was still more. She was happy, but sad at the same time that she had caused him pain. She was upset that he couldn't trust her. But she respected his decision.

She looked into his warm eyes, and the moment their eyes locked, she knew, inside of her, it would be okay. Somehow, even through all the ups and the downs, things would work out somehow or the other. 'It has to,' she thought sadly, 'it just has to.'

AN: Bo-yah! Another chapter finished! I'm so proud, this chapter is like one of the first that is going up without me apologizing about my tardiness, well at least this time, it wasn't really my fault. I hope you guys liked this chapter. I know it focused more on Luke and Lorelai than Rory and Logan, but it just seemed to fit. No, Luke and Lorelai are not back together, he needs time to think about whether he's really ready to trust her again with his heart, and just trust her period. He doesn't want to get hurt again, but who really does want to get hurt right? I really, really, really hope you all liked this chapter! My next update should be soon. I'm going to start working on the next chapter, soon! Byez!

Oh yeah, drop me a line or two in the form of a review please and thanks, it really makes my day, and I appreciate them beyond belief! Thanks! Byez… again!

Personal Responses:

Festis7 – You never know if Rory and Logan are going to get back together. Hell I'm not even sure, but you'll find out soon enough. Keep reading to find out, and thank you for the review! YAY! Another person who enjoys Prison Break!

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Angel1178 – My lips are sealed as to whether or not Rory and Logan are going to get back together. I'm evil aren't I? Sorry about that! Thanks for the review!

Jamie (anonymous) – Thanks for the belated birthday wish, and for the review! I'm super happy that you really liked the last chapter; hopefully you liked this one as well.

PolkadotBanana (anonymous) – Interesting name you've fashioned yourself there, I like it! I'm hoping that it will still be a Rogan in the end. Thanks for the review!

Sapphirestar11 – Don't be sad, it's going to be okay, maybe. Sorry for the late update! Thanks for the review!

Citygrl – I cannot believe the last chapter made you cry, honestly, that is touching! It's amazing to know the effect my story can have. Thank you for that, and your review! Hopefully this chapter was good, or somewhere near it.

Riotgirllina – Yes, they are over. I don't know if it's for good or what. You never know… wow I'm mean. Thanks for the review!

Rexgirl29 – I'm glad you're interested in this story! That makes me really happy, honestly! Thanks bunches for the review!

Aznangel4eva – Hopefully this chapter was a good read, and thank you for the birthday wish! Thanks for the review as well, it is always appreciated!

Smartiepantz – It's alright you took some time to think about your review before reviewing. To be honest, I did get a bit worried; I was like, "Huh? Why hasn't she reviewed yet?" Then you reviewed, and I was like, "Thank god!" LOL! I'm glad you were happy with the fight Rory and Logan had, I wasn't too pleased with it while I was first writing it. But then I re-wrote it, so it turned out far better. The Notebook was a very good movie, and it was touching. I did get teary-eyed, but truthfully that was about it. But that Ryan Gosling, he's just a regular hottie don't you think? He and Rachel McAdams are both really good actors in my opinion; they can go from role to role, portraying a ton of different people, and their amazing at it. I hope the rumors about them being together and engaged are true, because to me, they seem like a really great match. Thanks for the review, hopefully this rambling session was good as well!

PrincessSugar – I'm glad you like the rift I've created between Rory and Logan. I realize it is similar to the fight they had during the series, so I tried to base it on that, with my own style behind it. I'm really curious what the "Sophie" ship is. I feel so dumb for asking, but if I don't ask, how else will I find out right? I'm glad you thought I did justice to Logan's character. I didn't even think much of it while I was writing the chapter, it just came out that way, but I'm glad you thought it was good! Thank you for the review!

Celticember – Thanks a whole lot for the review, and for getting me in the know! Seriously, thanks. I didn't really understand the part of your review that talked about decent stories in the world, and it would be a shame to ruin mine. I'm sorry, but I really don't understand what you mean, if you could explain it to me, that would be great! Thanks again for the review!

Well, there you have it! Thank you for everyone that took the time to review this chapter, and the previous! You have no idea how greatly appreciated your reviews are! Thank you!

Now it is time once again for you to read my ramblings, here we go people:

So first of all, I'm bored. Seriously does anyone have any good book recommendations? I love romantic books, but teenage stuff, I'm a sucker for that, and besides I am still a teen! I like fantasy and mystery as well. Also, if you could, recommend some songs to me, I'm into the following types of music: Trance, pop, R&B, pop-rock, rap, and anything with a piano or with meaning. I'm open to a lot of types of music, but this is basically what I like.

I'm so happy; Gilmore Girls, One Tree Hill, and 24 are back! YAY! I'm like super excited. I cannot wait to see the new episodes, I really can't.

Oh my gosh! I'm like extremely excited, Pirates of the Caribbean 2 is coming out, and X-men 3. I'm going crazy. One is out in May, I believe its X-Men, and in June Pirates of the Caribbean is out. Okay, first of all I HAVE to say, in X-Men, Wolverine is a total hottie! Plus the ice kid, I forget his name, but he's a cutie! LOL! In Pirates of the Caribbean, Johnny Dep AND Orlando Bloom are freaking HOT! I'm going to need quite a few drinks (non-alcoholic of course), a few bags of ice, and a few hundred fans to cool me off! Or maybe jumping into ice cold water would do the trick. Anyways, they are both HOT! Oh I'm excited!

Moving on, school sucks! LOL! But I guess its okay as well, because I can chill with friends, and laugh and stuff. The doing work, learning, doing homework, and projects part however SUCKS BIG TIME! Is it not enough that we have to do work during school? NO! Of course not! How could it be? They have to be EVIL and give us work to do at home, and they never understand that, we have OTHER teachers who ALSO give us work to do! They just don't get it! They expect us to do each of their assignments, and hand them in, on time, and do them with care. They expect our best work! My foot! I struggle to get through assignments, but that might have something to do with the little fact that I always leave it until last minute. That MIGHT have something to do with it! You never know! Alright, that's all I really have to say right now, so uh… bye!

Once again, drop me a review please and thanks a million and more if you do! Seriously, thanks you to everyone who reviews, you all make my day like you wouldn't believe! Byez… again!