This is different from the rest of the chapters but I realised for the future chapter to make sense then I had to do something to explain certain things. Hope you enjoy it anyway.

Dear Carla,

I know you might not be expecting this but I seen what he done to you and I just had to write to you. I am so sorry for everything I have done to you. I've let you down continuously and I hate myself for it. At times I have gone out of my way to hurt you because I felt like you hurt me and you deserved it. I know I put myself in here, I know I deserve everything I get.

I know you'll probably never be able to forgive me but I hope that wherever you are, whatever you're doing I hope that you're happy because that's all I've ever really wanted for you.

I'd love it if you could write back to me but I understand completely if you don't want to.

Rob.

Dear Rob,

You're right, I wasn't expecting that. When you brought up the whole Johnny being my father thing I'm not quite sure if you know just how much damage you caused. You didn't ruin my life but you came so damn close to ruining Johnny's relationship with his children, Aidan and Kate.

I've got a daughter now. Poppy Grace. She's four months old now and the light of my life. Am I happy? Possibly. I was before all this happened with him but I know I'll be happy again, some day.

Carla.

Dear Carla,

Thank you so much for writing back. I'm so sorry about the whole Johnny thing. I wasn't thinking straight and all I could think about was how angry I was at you although I now know that I was really just angry at myself. I've been getting counselling, bet you never thought I'd say that did you? I really am sorry and I miss you so much.

A daughter? If she's anything like you then I imagine she's absolutely perfect. I'm sure with Nick and Poppy you'll be better in no time.

Rob.

Dear Rob,

I'm glad you're getting help. Believe it or not I actually attend counselling as well, it's really helpful. I miss you too, at times over the past year I've wished that I didn't but I do. I miss your stupid, annoying little brother ways because although I might be close to Aidan and Kate they're not you. They didn't grow up like we did, they didn't struggle through each day like we did.

Nick and I aren't together anymore. We split up a while back and Poppy isn't his daughter, she's Peter's. She is the most perfect little girl I've ever met. If you like I could send you a picture?

Carla.

Dear Carla,

I'm glad you're close to Aidan and Kate. I get what you mean, we went through a lot growing up together didn't we? You were always right to get out of that estate with Paul while you could. You made something of yourself Carla and I can't tell you just how proud of you I am.

I'm so sorry to hear about you and Nick, was that to do with the whole Johnny thing? Did I ruin your marriage? Peter, as in your ex husband Peter?

Rob.

Dear Rob,

I wanted to take you with me you know? Paul and I got that little two bedroom flat so you could come stay but you decided you wanted to stay with mum.

It wasn't your fault, it was mine. I messed up by sleeping with someone else. Typical Carla Connor, ey? Yep, the one and only Peter Barlow. We're not together but he's sober and he's a great father.

Carla.

Dear Carla,

You and Paul didn't need me cramping your style. You were planning a wedding, I was okay staying with my mum. I was used to it wasn't I?

So what name do you go by now? I'm glad he's a decent dad, are you two close then?

Rob.

Dear Rob,

Could I maybe come visit you at some point? If you'd rather I didn't that's okay but I miss you.

Legally I'm still a Tilsley but at work I go by Connor. We're pretty close, I see him practically every day and he's been really good throughout this whole thing.

Love,

Carla.

Dear Carla,

I'd love it if you'd visit. I can send you a visiting order if you're sure it's what you want? I don't want you to feel pressured or anything.

Do you think you'll legally go back to Connor then or will you stick with Tilsley?

Rob.

Dear Rob,

I don't feel pressured. You're my brother and I miss that irritating face of yours.

I think I'll go back to Connor, Tilsley just doesn't feel right anymore.

Love,

Carla.