Summary: Bonnie was okay with being alone. She was okay with not falling in love. She was okay with her form of happiness. Then Scott showed up. Scott was a romantic. He loved the idea of everything being better. He loved to dream, and love. Together they could be something else. Maybe even happy.
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Warning: This is part of a flashback.
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"Okay so we have a lot to do. First off, parties. There are a lot of them going down at Whittmore. I think we should go to them. Summer school parties are the best. Oh and I am sure someone here will be having one. There is going to be a Senior Party, but we didn't want it to take place until a week after Graduation. Like one big one. There were multiple mini ones and all that, but Tyler is throwing a big one. Oh and we are definitely having a girls night. Just you me, and Elena. But there will be a get together of the whole gang...but you have so of who should come and who doesn't..."
Bonnie sat on Caroline's bed as the blond vampire was sitting Bonnie's things around the room. She had insisted on helping, but Caroline demanded that Bonnie just sit back and relax. Of course that also meant she would just sit and listen to the conversation. But that was Caroline. She was a good person, but she could be a chatter box when left unattended. When Caroline was done organizing Bonnie's things, she plopped down on the bed beside her best friend.
"So...should we wait for Elena tomorrow, or do you want to spill about Scott now?"
"We can just...wait...what do you mean tomorrow?"
Caroline rolled her eyes.
"She is going through romance issues...again."
Bonnie just looked at Caroline in disbelief.
"Seriously?"
Caroline nodded. She looked at her perfectly manicured nails, as if totally unamused by the events.
"Mhm. This whole Damon and Stefan thing has lost every bit of spark. I mean it was definitely not interesting before. But back then I was frustrated that she was feeling any sort of thing for Damon. Now it's just..."
"Completely the most uninteresting thing to ever happen? Redundant. Stupid?"
"All of the above."
Bonnie just sighed. Part of her was annoyed by the continuing of such a pointless debate. The other part of her was pissed her friend was not even here. But she could not show that. No, Bonnie was here to do one thing.
Forgive.
She shrugged and sat back.
"We'll see her tomorrow. Anyway, I will tell you about my life, if you tell me about everything that is happening in Mystic Falls."
Caroline smiled. Bonnie knew Caroline was not big on keeping secrets, so she was not surprised when she was given a very thorough report on almost everybody, sans a few expected people.
Elena was still a vampire. Bonnie knew that. The plan to turn Elena back to human had failed, and she was given some of the blame. Of course Bonnie had secretly hoped that it would fail. That plan was to stroke the egos of three big problems. First was Elena. Bonnie had once wanted Elena to return to being human. She had not been willing to do it for Caroline, once having been scared of her. But with Elena, it was the fear of what she would become that did fuel this desire. Elena was weaker than Caroline. That was something Bonnie knew from the start. Elena had gone through more, and though she survived, she was running on near empty. She was also more like her ancestor Katherine than most would like to admit. Having an emotionally vulnerable, depressed teenage girl who had been through a lot in just a few months time, let alone a year, turn into a dangerous, emotionally unrestricted beast was not something to want. Caroline had shown to be able to adapt more, despite having regained her memories of everything. Elena did not. But it was during their escapade to save Elena, that Bonnie realized that she was probably not the first to experience such trauma, and would not be the last. It was best to keep her vampire for her own benefit.
Stefan was second. He was so invested in Elena becoming human because of selfish reasons. He could not look at Elena the same way when she was a vampire. It was too close to Katherine. And Katherine was everything Stefan wanted to admit to hating. The only problem was that he did not hate Katherine in the way he wanted. No his hate was created from the love he wanted to deny, he loved her dearly, but she had hurt, manipulated, and abused him. Stefan did not want to look, or even love, the monster. And Elena was becoming just that. A monster. But at whose hands? No one had really helped her adjust properly. It was always do this Elena, or go this far Elena, or don't do that Elena. It was never what vampire Elena needed. And she accepted that. All because she just as much did not want to be like that.
Then there was Klaus. He was possibly the most unimportant, yet important one as well. Klaus' motives for Elena were purely selfish, but the most honest. His hybrids. Klaus wanted to create them, and Elena was his only key...well not really. Bonnie often wondered why Klaus did not just wait for the next Petrova Doppelganger to just be born. As harsh and ugly as that had sounded, it was indeed the truth. Klaus had all the time in the world, and it was not like another one would not show up. It was afterall a curse. And Bonnie guess Klaus would eventually come across her one day. The poor soul. Klaus' greed and total lack of thought were to blame. Bonnie feared him on a small level, but she truly did pity him. He was pathetic in many ways: from his desire to have a family, despite already having one, to his attraction to Caroline. Speaking of...
"Hey not to interrupt, but is Klaus..."
Bonnie let it fall off, not knowing how to end that. Thankfully Caroline picked up on what she was thinking.
"He still sends me things. Which I throw away."
Bonnie nodded. Things had gotten complicated last October. Klaus had assumed that Tyler had a brief affair with a girl who had helped him break his sire bond. As did Caroline. Of course Tyler did tell her the truth, which they then used to their advantage. Unfortunately it did not help their relationship. Tyler and Caroline broke up after more extensive meddling from Klaus, with little reluctance from Caroline. Bonnie had not been around much for that, but did get details about it a few weeks after it had happened. Now with everything over, Caroline and Tyler were on speaking terms. Of course Bonnie thought they would get back together, but that would have to happen with time. It seemed if they were taking their time, as if trying to know each other, all over again.
"Tyler and I are...I think we are getting closer."
Bonnie nodded. She understood what Caroline meant by closer. From the outside Bonnie only knew that Tyler and Caroline loved each other and sex. That was okay, and none of Bonnie's business, it was when Caroline left she started to question it herself.
"I don't remember the last time me and Tyler had a date night at outside the obligated house party. I don't think we have just gone to the Grille and had a burger together."
Bonnie remembered the sadness in her best friend's voice. It was as if she was discovering an awful trusth.
"I love a man that I do not know."
Since then Caroline had been on a quest to understand Tyler. She knew the bare basics: she knew his birthday, his history with his dad, his secret. But she did not know his favorite color, or whether he was a window or aisle type of person. She did not know all the little things about Tyler, yet she had been in a six month relationship with him. It was as if she had been punched in the stomach when she discovered that.
"The things that matter Bonnie...they are the smallest things."
So how are Matt and Jeremy?
That was what she wanted to ask, but she kept it to herself. Both of them had upset her to great lengths. Bonnie had come to an understanding she would never be one hundred percent over Jeremy. They had not once come to a complete closure on their relationship. Instead Jeremy was sent away under compulsion. Since then, nothing felt resolved. It was a sad burden she kept to herself. Matt was a different problem. The way he acted around Elena was sad. How completely into Elena he had become. She had not seen a problem with it until she had left Mystic Falls. A lot of things that were not problems became that when she left. Stefan and Damon. Matt. Their entire dynamic. Elena.
Bonnie shook her head not wanting to think about it anymore. She looked at Caroline who seemed to be lost in thought now.
"Caroline?"
"I hate it here."
"What?"
"I hate it here. The last few months without you...it's been close to hell Bonnie."
"Care..."
The vampire shook her head.
"Everything changed. When you left there was an obvious hole in the group. But I didn't realize that it was...that it was not because we lost a friend."
"What do you mean?"
"We had a conversation a week or two after you were gone...and it just seemed weird. Elena was of course sad for you leaving. Stefan was their to console her, Damon just rolled his eyes, but you could tell he wanted her to be okay. It was like they were just reassuring her, and not thinking about you. When we departed I kind of heard them talking, and Damon was just...being Damon."
Bonnie nodded her head.
"He was just being a jerk, but what he said...it was like you weren't human. That you disappointed him and the group. Then he said: Well her powers were not working that well anyway. Good riddance. Stefan just stood there, did not correct him or anything. If anything it looked like he was silently agreeing. Well I think it was. I don't know anymore. Maybe I just hate this place so much where I can't see nothing but the bad. Maybe Stefan isn't bad. I know for sure Damon is...but Stefan...I mean when he is not the ripper he is a good person..."
Bonnie listened to Caroline ramble. She knew that Caroline was holding out on something. She was usually absolute on her opinions that did not have to deal with her. Caroline may question herself, but she rarely questioned anything else. That was why she was not with Klaus. She knew he was bad. That was also the reason she did not like Damon. Despite him helping her a few times, that never made up for what he did to her. But Stefan had not done anything, if anything he was helpful and supportive. So why would she reconsider her thoughts on him?
"Caroline don't worry about it. Things change. Plus Damon is an asshat."
"Asshat?"
Bonnie did not realize she had said that, it was one of the random things Stiles said.
"Yeah. Asshat."
"I think that is a California thing."
"It's a Stiles thing."
"Stiles?"
"Friend."
"Of Scott?"
Bonnie rolled her eyes.
"Yes."
"What a wonderful transition. So..."
Caroline shifted a little, allowing her to look at her best friend.
"Tell me about the elusive Scott McCall."
Bonnie sighed.
Monday had started off as a good day. Caroline had woken her up to a wonderful breakfast. Then she informed Bonnie that she had to do something today, which Bonnie found suspicious and sad at the same time.
"Don't worry, I kind of called your fave hair dresser."
"Janet?"
"Yes! I may have gotten you an appointment to get your hair done."
"All I would do is just get my weave removed..."
"Well that is something. So do it!"
Bonnie did not argue. After she ate, she got ready for the day and was then swept away clear across town to where her hair dresser Janet lived. Janet was a big black woman with a gorgeous smile and her hair was gorgeous. She always had Bonnie looking wonderful. The only time that did not happen was when she was out of town and Bonnie was left with her friend Chloe. She remembered the messy weave she had, and then got a wig to try to hide it. Unfortunately it did not due her well. Thankfully Bonnie's white majority friends did not notice, and if they did, they did not say anything. When she got there she almost cried. It had been a long time since Bonnie had gotten her hair done. It was one of the little things Bonnie loved to do. It allowed her to relax. Also Elena and Caroline would never go to a black salon, so she was safe to feel relaxed. No Salvatore problems, no Tyler problems, no Klaus problems. None.
"Oh is that Bonnie!"
She gave Janet a big smile.
"Girl the last time I saw you was in what September? Ugh that weave on your head must be tired. Girl let's get rid of that thing."
She did not even bother with small talk at first. Janet just snatched the much tinier girl away to Bonnie's favorite seat, and begun.
It was therapeutic. To be somewhere familiar that was hers. Doing something she enjoyed. Bonnie did not even keep up with the time. She had closed her eyes, and listened to Janet. She was a bit of a motormouth, but Bonnie loved that. When if was done, Bonnie was left with a mess of a head of hair.
"Alright, let's get this bad boy into recognizable shape and then I will send you on your way."
Bonnie was then put through intense hair therapy, as Janet called it; she had to untangle the shedding, take out the braids, and detangled the mass. It was a long process. When Janet was almost through, Bonnie's hair was a mass cloud of chocolate brown.
"Alright Bonnie. One last thing to do..."
"Wash?"
"Wash."
This was by far the shortest process and was done in no time. When it was all over, with Bonnie's hair dry and in a bun, she finally noticed something was off.
"Uh Janet...where is everybody?"
Janet smiled.
"Well...I am unfortunately closing down."
"What?"
"In Mystic Falls."
"But why?"
"Because Mystic Falls has Clare's running, and...a lot of the black girls get better treatment there. I am just a small shop that can do maybe five or six heads at a time. They can hold up to at least twenty."
"But..."
"But nothing, I gave the girl's recommendations, and I am going to move to North Carolina to help run my Grandmother's shop."
Bonnie felt a tear run down her face.
"Don't cry. I know you can take care of your own hair. I mean other than weaves and all that."
"I am going to need to find someplace where I live to do my hair...oh God..."
"Where are you living anyway?"
"Uh some small town called Beacon Hills."
"Beacon Hills California?"
Bonnie was confused.
"Yes..."
Janet gave her a smile.
"You are in luck. I have a friend that does hair over there. Practically sisters. Her name is Lorrell. She is a great hairdresser, probably better than me. But don't tell her I said that. Which I know you are going to see her."
"Janet."
"No buts in a week or month, whichever you want to try, I better be getting a call from Lorrell telling me she did your weave."
"Janet..."
The older woman took Bonnie into her arms.
"I am going to miss you. Hell I already did. Been doing your hair since you were a old enough to scream at the sight of a hot comb."
Bonnie wrapped her arms around Janet, taking in the warmth that was the woman.
"Sometimes people come into your life, no matter how long they stay, just to direct you into a different direction. Here's is to you Bonnie."
She pulled away and looked down lovingly at the smaller girl.
"Alright standard things I say: shampoo once a week, twice at most."
Bonnie smiled.
"Moisturize and hydrate."
"No weaves for two weeks at the least, but I prefer you go a month."
"Check them ends."
Janet smiled.
"And the most important thing..."
Bonnie waited wanting to say it with her.
"Don't use white people hair products."
"Well look who it is?"
Bonnie looked up with a smile to see Matt. Even though she was a bit upset with him, she did miss him. They talked a few times on the phone, generally at the insistence of Elena. Matt had found himself getting closer to Elena. He was her bloodbag at times. Bonnie wondered if she had called when Elena was feeding on her. The thought of her disrupting such a creepy moment did make her feel negative things.
"Hey Matt. How are you?"
"Fine, happy to see you are home...even if for a little while."
She smiled. She missed him. The little scar on his lip was her favorite. It was slight, and almost unnoticeable, but she focused on it a lot. She wondered if Matt knew that she liked looking at his mouth. It was strange, but Bonnie had wanted to kiss him, just to touch the scar. Of course she never did it, nor spoke about it. She was almost ashamed of that little fantasy.
"Hey, when do you get of f for break?"
"In ten minutes. That will be enough time to bring out your favorite."
Bonnie gave him a big smile.
"Thanks Matt."
"No problems. Be right back with your order."
Bonnie watched him walk away and sighed.
Matt placed her plate down in front of her, along with a glass. She was given a double bacon cheese burger, with tomato, pickles, no onions (Bonnie hated raw onions) and homemade chips on the side. The glass held a strawberry milkshake, Bonnie's favorite.
"Alright, do not be upset if I just sit here and eat and not talk a lot."
"I already know the Bonnie Bennett deal."
She smiled.
"Good. Alright so tell me what is going on with you."
Bonnie picked up the burger and took a bite out of it. She watched Matt smile.
"Uh well, I graduated. Before that it was a lot of hell and mess."
Bonnie, though still eating, looked at him confused, and worried.
"Oh nothing big...just Salvatores and Elena mess."
Bonnie rolled her eyes. Matt's tone sounded dismissive of it as well, but there was a tinge of worry. Bonnie knew it was because of Elena. Matt would never let go of her would he?
"Elena hasn't exactly chosen which one she wants, but at the same time she is distancing herself away from them. It's like she is being more aggressive and taking charge."
Bonnie nodded. She knew what it was: Elena no longer needed them constantly. She remembered talking to Elena after Jeremy had been taking hostage. She talked about her frustrations in how Damon and Stefan were treating her. Bonnie did not want to tell her that that was how they had been treating her for the longest. She would always be upset by it, but that was standard fair. She had never, outright been as frustrated by them. She wanted to help, not just say it. Apparently it was no longer a fluke either. Ever since their plan to turn Elena human again had failed, Bonnie remembered how much more independent she had become. It was like she finally accepted her fate as a vampire. Bonnie tried to remember what those months were like but she failed. Maybe it had to do something with her having magical and emotional problems at the time. It was one of the few times Bonnie had actually ignored Elena, though it was unintentional.
"Uh...well since you were gone...nothing much has changed. Sorry...well Caroline and Tyler are still, I don't know what they are right now. I think Caroline is taking it really slow, and Tyler appreciates that, but I don't know if they are going to get back together."
Bonnie nodded, her burger had been eaten to the point it fit in one hand.
"Jeremy is still a hunter. I think he enjoys it. Like a lot."
Another nod.
"Then there's..."
"I asked about you Matt."
"What?"
"Matt I asked about you. Caroline already told me about her and Tyler, and I'm sure I will see Jeremy soon enough. What is happening with you?"
Matt just sat there confused. Bonnie did not know what to think. Did he really not have much in his life?
"You're going to college right?"
Matt sat there quiet.
"Matt..."
"College isn't for everyone..."
"And neither is working at the Grille forever."
"Bonnie..."
"Please tell me you are not just going to stay here for the rest of your life? Matt you need to leave this place."
"And go where, Bonnie?"
"I don't know..."
"Exactly. I don't have options! I don't have immortality, or really great grades. I don't have that. I am just some normal guy."
"A normal guy can have dreams, too."
"Yeah, must have missed me."
"No you had dreams, but they involved Elena. Matt...it's over. You can't let yourself rot here."
Matt's face sunk.
"You'd think I'd rot here?"
"This place is hell Matt, you know that. When was the last time you were happy and it didn't come at a price?"
Matt got quiet again.
"You hate it here just as much as the rest of us. It's okay...you don't have to go to college, but staying in Mystic Falls..."
"I have to go."
Matt got out of the booth and walked off. Without even saying goodbye.
"Matt..."
He did not answer back.
She reclined in her seat, looking at the remains of her food. The burger was just a bite, there were few chips on the plate, and the milkshake was almost nothing but whip cream. She debated if she should finish her lunch. She picked up the burger and dipped it into the small thing of ketchup she had left. Just as she put it in her mouth, her phone started buzzing. Without even looking at the screen she answered it.
"Hello?"
Mouth full.
"Ah so it is true."
Bonnie's heart practically stopped.
"What do you want?"
"Ah come on, not even a you miss me? I know you did."
"What do you want?"
"Come on Witchy, at least..."
"So help me God if you don't tell me what it is you want I will hang up on you."
That was not all that she could do. But it was what she would do considering.
"Fine come to the bathroom."
"Wait you're..."
"Yes for God's sake, just come to the bathroom."
Bonnie stood up, and moved through the busy restaurant. As soon as she got to the bathroom, she locked the door.
"Where are you?"
"You're in the bathroom?"
"Yes, so where are you?"
"Well I am on my way to Boone, North Carolina."
"What then why did you have me..."
"Just to see if you would actually do it. Still gullible as ever."
She almost told him to go to hell. To go fuck himself. That she would rip his heart out and make Stefan eat it. Instead she breathed. She was not here to rehash old issues.
"What is it that you want Damon?"
A/N: Alright. Second update. Bonnie goes to get her weave taken out. Don't ask me why I did this...I just did. Anyway. Anyway...hi to Matt. Him and Bonny talk...and let me tell you this will be it until she leaves...but even then...nothing resolved. Also some minor discussion about Elena and them...eh. Klaus is not appearing. But the other two will, one more than the other.
Next chapter is Bonnie going to work...just like old times.
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