A/N: After writing that last chapter I felt inspired to write another one since the next two days I will be busy. Thank you for the comments I look forward to reading more, don't worry this story isn't over yet I still have some plans for Seth and Angel.. I'm glad you are liking it so far, keep leaving me comments I love them and it helps me write. Thanks again ENJOY!

26. A walk in the rain

No the rain won't last forever

Find a way to make it better

Long as we can stand together

Love will find a way

Gonna make a new tomorrow

Say goodbye to tears and sorrow

Better listen when I say

Love will find a way

Love Will Find a Way - Christina Aguilera

I couldn't help but be down on myself I knew eventually I would snap out of it but for now this was who I was. I sat up against a tree outside I made my way out on my own my vision was slowly becoming clearer, it was weird I could see shapes the world wasn't completely black. It was only certain times when it would. I heard footsteps and noticed a figure walking towards me. I knew who it was by his scent. He had been staying at the house for Carlisle to make sure he was okay. Mrs. Clearwater was okay with it and wanted the best for her son.

I tried to keep my distance if I was around him for too long my emotions would take over and I would end up breaking down. He sat down next to me and I could feel the intensity of his stare.

"Why do you keep running from me?" he questioned. I felt around for him finding his shape and touched his shoulder.

"I'm not running" I lied.

"I can see right through you and you are running you don't…"

"Okay Seth maybe I'm but the only reason is because I can't handle this I can't handle you not remembering me I just can't do it"

"So what are you saying then that you don't want to be with me because I don't know who you are. Look I may not remember any of you or your Family but what I do know is that my mind is still wandering right back to you, we have something do you want to break that?" he questioned. I shook my head.

"I don't want to I just I can't handle this I'm not emotionally strong enough" I told him.

"Okay so then you are breaking it off with me" he said. I saw his outline cross his arms.

"I didn't say that" I told him. I could hear the emotion in his voice.

"Well apparently it's exactly what you are feeling and that's fine, I'll be gone in a few days and you can just forget me if that's what you want" I saw him get up. I wanted to grab for him and pull him down. I wanted to kiss his lips and look into his chocolate brown eyes.

"Thought so" he said to me I felt him walking away.

I had no power to scream after him, I stood up and started to run I had no idea the direction I was going in. I didn't know what was in front of me either I just ran. I ran until I hit something as hard as my body.

"Hey slow down" it was Nessie's Dad, Edward. I looked up to see his figure, his face begin to blur in front of me.

"Where are you going?" he questioned.

"Away from here" I said practically dropping to the ground. I felt him next to me staring me down.

"Why don't we get you back inside"

"I don't want to go back inside I want out of this body I want out of this world… I want out of it all" I cried.

"Angel…" I heard Rosalie call from the house. I then heard her running towards Edward and I.

"Edward is she okay?" she asked.

"She's contemplating killing herself off" he said.

"Angel sweetie" I didn't move I just let her arms wrap around me.

I was completely numb and unhappy I had no reason to live I wish I hadn't have been saved.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

He was gone back at home his presence was gone but in my heart it lingered. I just got back from hunting with Emmett I was getting better with hunting blind. In fact I felt my vision day by day seem to get clearer. It would stay clear for a few minutes and then fade again. Nothing was black anymore I could see light and shapes and it gave me a little bit of hope that I would and could get better.

"Hey Angel Leah's here" I looked up at the door and noticed Rosalie standing there with a small smile on her face. I could see her smile and it made me smile knowing that I knew she was smiling.

"Okay tell her she can come in" I said. I looked over at the doorway and noticed Leah's figure my senses died out again but I could still see where she was. I watched her figure come into my room.

"Hey" she said softly. I nodded.

"Sit down let's talk" she said sounding like a Mother.

"I already know what this is about Leah you don't need to tell me" I told her.

"Just please hear me out" she said. I sighed and found my way to the sofa I sat myself down and felt her slide next to me.

"Come see my Brother he hasn't left his room since he's been home, he sits in his room throwing a baseball up at the ceiling for hours he just sits there. I don't know if you knew this but he's a pretty good drawer and the other day Mom found several drawings of you in his room. I know he doesn't remember much right now and we are trying every method to get him to remember but he needs you more then you know and I'm sure you need him"

"I don't need anyone" I said selfishly.

"Angel stop feeling sorry for yourself it's making everything worse not just for you but for your Family, do you think they are going to baby you for much longer? Don't do that to yourself or to them, get over yourself and get your ass over to my house to see my Brother please" she begged. I shut my eyes and then opened them again, she came in for a second clear as day light I noticed all of her features and they were as beautiful as I could remember. Then it went to fuzz again.

"He's miserable without you, he even drew you with wings you saved him" she said to me.

"I hurt him" I whispered.

"He doesn't see it that way, seriously come with me talk to him I promise he will remember you he remembered us"

"Don't make promises you can't keep" I told her.

"Look I understand if you are depressed but honestly you have everything right in front of you so why be?" she questioned.

"Because the one important thing in my life has been taken away"

"Seth didn't get taken away he's right in front of your god damn eyes" she stood up and I could tell I had made her angry.

"All you have to do is get over yourself" she started to walk away. I stood up and eyed her still only seeing her outline.

"Leah wait" I called after her.

"I'll come over" I said lightly. She walked back over to me and grabbed my arm.

~*~*~*~*~*~

There I was standing in front of his door waiting for the courage to knock. I lifted my hand and put it back down.

"What are you waiting for?" Leah questioned. I shrugged.

"SETH, ANGEL'S HERE" she yelled. I heard some commotion and not even a minute later his door swung open and he was staring me straight in the face. I saw his features I saw every feature including his eyes but it faded quickly. I felt myself choke up after seeing his eyes it hurt even more to see him.

"Why are you here?" he questioned. I shrugged my shoulders.

"To apologize" I said.

"Come in" he took my hands and pulled me into the room. His touch stung with the pain of memories. He brought me over to his bed and placed his arms around me.

"Look Seth I… I'm a stubborn bitch I know that and I'm sorry I hurt you I do want to be around you I do it just hurts so bad to know that you don't remember what we had and it was amazing what we had it was absolutely incredible and I'd give anything to have it back" I started to sob.

"I'm right here I'm Seth please you have to believe me I'm remembering bits and pieces of things, please Angel give me time bare with me, just don't leave me I'm scared" he sounded like he was crying. I couldn't see if he was or not so I placed my hands against his wet cheeks. It seemed like there were some recent tears and some dried up. His cheek felt dry.

"Please I thought we were going to get through this together please your face lingers and I don't want just your face I feel like I want the whole thing I have this strong desire to be with you and to want you" he said.

"Seth you are everything to me and I would rather have you here next to me not remembering me then not having you in my life at all" I confessed. I felt him looking at me, I fell into it again and wrapped my arms around him taking in his scent.

"You really smell do you know that?" he questioned. I laughed through my sobs.

"You told me that when we first met" I laughed again remembering our moment in the kitchen.

"Did I?" he questioned.

"Well yeah but you reek too" I said with a smile.

"I do not I showered" he said I could see him lifting his arms to smell his arm pits. I hit him playfully.

"You smell like a dog" I told him.

"Well Mom says I'm a wolf so I guess that's in the dog family" he laughed and I ceased my laughter.

"You didn't even remember that you were a werewolf?" I questioned.

"No it's weird how I can remember Mom and Leah but I can't remember anyone else like my Dad I don't' know who he is or I don't even remember my childhood with him. Apparently I'm in a wolf pack and I'm friends with these guys named Jacob, Embry, Quil… there is so much I can't remember" he said.

"Mom says I phase but I don't even know how to do that anymore" he said.

"I'm sure you'll remember in time, just like you will remember me" I said.

"It's strange how I could forget the most beautiful girl in the world" he said. I felt his hands touch my face. He rubbed my cheeks and then ran his hands through my hair. A few seconds later I felt his lips on mine with the taste of salt as the kiss become more intense. I felt myself tense up and kiss him harder. I missed feeling his lips on mine it had been weeks since I had last kissed his lips and felt the tingle down my spine. I didn't want to let go. Even with the taste of his salty tears I found it hard to let go. I opened my eyes and his face was clear once again. I looked at him and began to feel his face as we both pulled away from the kiss.

"Seth I can see you, I can see you… you're here I can look into your eyes I… it's you" I began to cry as I noticed my vision going back to a blur but I could still see him.

He started to get upset too and wrapped his arms around me so tight. I felt his hands rubbing along my back and we just held each other.

"I know that I'm in love with you, inside and out I feel it and I will remember you Angel Cullen I will remember everything about you and about us we're going to get through this and we are going to fight it you and I together no one not anyone can do this to us again, we are going to be just fine" he said through his tears.

"I believe you" I said losing my vision of him again.

"I know you do" he leaned forward and kissed me again on the lips, this one was more powerful then the last. I took it all in and enjoyed everything that the kiss had to bring.