Authors' Note:
"I just want to thank everyone for their patience, while waiting for a new chapter. Last week was a very bad week my uncle past away unexpectedly a week and a half ago and it was a very big shock for the family. We are all pulling together to be with my aunt and cousins showing our support and we're just taking it one day at a time." Imcrazyfordean.
"As in for me, well, friends share so no work was getting done all that week, plus I had my moments, but the good thing-maybe not that good but I quit my job so plenty of chapters are coming. Again, thanks guys for you patience." Asya55
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So, with no further talk, here is the new chapter, enjoy!
From Josie's diaries,
It's been a while since I wrote my diaries; mostly I only do it when I'm so happy or so stressed. Nah! It's always when I'm mad, frustrated and about to explode. And this time is the worst of them all, it's not about me fighting with Dean or losing Nick, it's a matter of life or death.
The week started with us-me, Sam and Dean-to investigate the murder of a man called Daniel Elkins who turned out to be one of John Winchester's old friends and mentor, but that wasn't all. Elkins left a note for John telling him that he had the colt, and for who don't know what the colt is, it's a gun that was made a long time ago and it has the ability to kill any supernatural creature. We knew all that from John himself who surprised us showing up after he heard about the death of his old friend, after that we went to get the gun who was owned by a bunch of mother suckers, vampires. And we eventually managed to get it, which thankfully didn't cost us much, only few fights between John and Sam.
Later after we got the gun and chopped some vampires' heads off, we had another argument with John, and this time it was the three of us not only Sam, even Dean grew a pair and faced his father. John was about to leave to find the demon who killed Mary and Jessica by himself, he-and like always-was thinking of us as kids, which we made clear that we weren't anymore, and finally he was convinced to take us with him to hunt this demon because we were much stronger as a family.
Yes, they were my family! After my parents' death I thought I'd never feel happy or loved with anyone in the world, but that was before I went to live with Uncle Bobby and meet the Winchesters. They are my family, and even with the crap that happened between me and Dean. I felt their pain and I wanted to help. They never made me feel alone, I know that John considers me the daughter he never had, Sammy know I'm his older sister and best friend, and Dean, well I don't actually know what is the exact feeling Dean has for me but I know he considers me one of them and he would risk his life for me. So, I had to fight for my family; that was all I knew, and all I cared about, whatever it takes!
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"I'm still not sure about this gun!" Josie told Dean.
"Don't you think it's little late for that?" Dean said parking the car in front of John's truck.
Dean and Josie went to get the antique gun John intended to give to Meg instead of the real one, Josie made it hell for Dean to get the gun and she was still not convinced with the gun-because she wasn't the one who chose it-but Dean insisted on it and he bought it handing it to John who thought it was perfect.
"See, he thought its good!" Dean smirked, poking Josie lightly.
"Bite me!" Josie said with a frown but seeing the smirk on Dean's face she chuckled. "I take that back!" she said and stuck her tongue at him walking to stand next to Sam giving him a little smile.
"Now guys listen to me!" John said making the three of them to look at him. "Now we need to make every second count," he told them pulling the colt from his pocket giving it to Dean. "You need to use this gun right, its useless without the bullets that was made especially for it." John demanded and they nodded.
"Yes sir!" Sam said.
"Dad," Dean called. "Don't get yourself killed!" he pleaded. "If this thing goes wrong just get the hell out!"
"Same goes to you!" John said. "Tonight this ends, you boys will end what I started!"
"Kick that Meg bitch's ass for me Uncle John!" Josie said hugging John one last hug kissing his cheek. John smiled back at her and kissed her forehead.
John smiled warmly at the boys before getting into his truck leaving.
"Later!" Dean said watching his father's car going further. Josie looked at him with a smile walking to take his hand into hers.
"It's going to be fine!" she said giving him a light squeeze. "Right Sammy?" she called.
Sam smiled nervously. "I hope so!" he said.
"Let's go now; we have a demon to kill!" Dean demanded.
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"We could tell them that there is a gas leak and ask them to leave the house tonight till we fix it!" Josie suggested.
The three of them were in the Impala outside of Monica's house waiting for the demon to show up.
"Since when does that work for us Josie?" Dean said sarcastically. She shrugged.
"We could always tell them the truth!" Sam said. Both Josie and Dean looked at him with a sarcastic look.
"Nah!" Dean said.
"Nope!" Josie agreed.
A moment of silence passed as the three of them focused on the house in case anything happened; there was nothing but the sound of their breaths, and the light knocks Josie was making with her fingertips.
"Do you think dad is okay now?" Sam started.
"We wouldn't have asked if we were with him!" Josie huffed.
"Or him with us!" Sam said.
"Don't worry Sam, tonight we kill the son of a bitch and we will be all save!" Josie told Sam leaning to hug him from the back seat. "Right Dean?" she asked giving Dean a light slap on his head.
"Right Josie!" he said slapping her hand away from him.
"Guys, I want to tell you something!" Sam said in his trade mark gloomy tone.
"Sam," Josie started but he cut her off with a hand movement.
"I just want to say thanks to the both of you!" Sam started. "Dean, you're my brother, and you were always there for me, the only one I could count on you whatever it was!" he told Dean. "And you Josie, you're my best friend and the person I can talk to about anything, you always got my back!"
"Sam, there is no reason for the goodbye speech!" Josie told Sam hugging him more.
"She's right Sam," Dean snapped. "We are not dying today, no one is, the only thing that will die is that son of a bitch demon! Okay!"
"He asked you something!" Josie nudged Sam.
"Okay! Okay!" Sam agreed.
"Thank you!" Dean muttered looking back at the house.
"Chill Dean, its Sam, he loves his drama!" Josie teased Sam talking to Dean, then she pulled from her and Sam's hug to hug Dean instead. "I think you need a hug too!" she smirked wrapping her arms around his neck.
"I need more than hug but huh, a hug will do it for now!" Dean said winking at her.
"Hey guys, check this out!" Sam said interrupting them turning the radio on.
There was nothing but a static noise, and when they looked out they saw the house's lights flickering as well.
"What the..," Josie started but she was cut off by Sam.
"It's coming!" he said opening the car's door getting out, Josie and Dean followed him fast.
"No, you stay here!" Dean said blocking Josie's way.
"What? No!" She exclaimed. "I'm not staying here while you two,"
"Stay!" Dean said firmly and without waiting for another word he left following Sam to the house.
"Damn it!" Josie screamed in the air kicking the car so hard that it actually hurt her.
Josie was so mad for what Dean did; patience was never a quality she had especially now when she felt helpless. A minute after Josie snapped hearing the gun shot from the house praying that the boys got it right and killed the demon. But right after she saw a fire breaking out in the house seeing the husband walking out in panic.
"Help! My wife and kid are inside, call 911!" he said walking towards Josie.
"Calm down sir, it's going to be okay!" she told him not believing herself.
Josie was about to go into the house as she couldn't take it anymore, she wasn't that good in following orders either. But once she walked towards the house she saw Dean and Sam bursting out of the house with Monica and her kid who ran towards her husband.
"Here you go!" Dean said giving them the kid.
"Oh my god, are you okay?" Josie said running to check on Sam. But he didn't even pay attention to her looking at the nursery room window.
"I have to go in!" He yelled pushing Josie away to get back into the house.
"Fuck no! Over my dead body!" Josie yelled pushing Sam. "Dean!" she called Dean for help.
"Sam you can't go there, you will die!" Dean said helping Josie keeping Sam away.
"I don't care!" Sam yelled.
"We care!" Josie snapped blocking his way. Sam looked at her and Dean realizing they won't let him go in, so he just took a deep breath standing next to them.
"We have nothing else to do here, let's go before the police arrives!" Dean told them. Josie nodded taking Sam's hand walking towards the car.
"Let's go Sammy!" she said seeing him still looking at the house, Sam looked at her huffing in frustration then he walked with her to the car but not before looking one last time at the house.
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"Dad is not answering his phone!" Dean stated turning to face Josie and Sam.
"Do you think something bad happened?" Josie asked standing up from her bed where she was laying. "Of course something happened, I hate when I ask rhetorical questions!" she mocked herself.
"I still think that you should have let me go in to the house, I would have killed it!" Sam said.
"The only thing you were going to end Sam was your damn life, get over it!" Josie snapped at Sam.
"Yeah, easy for you to say Josie, its not you who got her mother and girlfriend killed by this thing, you have no idea what that's like!" Sam shouted at her.
"Really?" Josie snapped looking at him with blood red face and angry tone. "Because I never lost anyone in my life, and I'm just a spoiled princess that never got hurt living in her white high castle right?" she yelled at him starting to get emotional. "I didn't lose my family when I was barley 10, right! And I didn't have to live this life right after, hunting!I've hunted since I was what Sam, 12? I help Bobby and clean up the mess the other hunters leave, I've seen things you'd never see in your whole damn life!" tears were starting to form in her eyes. "Don't talk to me about loss Sam, I know exactly what loss means, and if you think you're alone in this, well think again!" she yelled at him starting to lose control over her emotions, then Josie burst out of the room in tears.
"Josie, Josie!" Dean called her but she was already out of the room, then he turned to look at Sam angrily.
"I didn't mean to say that, I really didn't!" Sam said defending himself.
Dean was about to say something but he was cut off by his phone ringing.
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Outside Josie was sitting on the steps in front of the room, supporting her head with her hands crying her heart out.
The stress that was building up the whole year decided to burst out that night and it was clicked by one Sam Winchester picking Josie's wound, the one she keeps hidden all the time, her family. The idea of losing another one she loves and considers family, someone she always looked up to like John, made her think of losing her parents, not like she forgot about them but it re-opened the wound. And Josie who always plays the tough card cracked just thinking of that, it was like she became 10 years old again, scared little girl who knew squat about life, and what she was always good of hiding came out now with just one word "loss".
"Josie!" Dean called her softly coming out of the room sitting next to her.
Josie tried to wipe her tears fast before he saw them. "Yeah!" she said with a sniff.
"Meg got dad!" Dean told her.
"What?" Josie exclaimed in a shock.
"Yeah, she called now and said she has him now!" Dean huffed.
"Oh my god, what are going to do now?" Josie asked panicking.
"We need help, we can't go to Meg now, we are not prepared, we won't help dad dead!" Dean told her.
"How is Sam?" Josie asked. Dean smiled bitterly.
"Bummed, and he wants to act all ninja and go fight Meg!" he told her. Josie let out a nervous laugh.
"Once a Sam," she said rolling her eyes. A moment of silence passed till Josie broke it. "Dean, there is always one person who can help us!" Josie said softly.
"But he might not," Dean started but he was cut off by Josie.
"He is not that bad Dean, and he loves you guys, he will do anything to help us!" she said. Dean nodded.
"Okay, after all Bobby is the only one we can trust now!" he said standing up. "Now let's go before those hell spawn find us!" Dean said stretching his hand for Josie to take; she took his hand smiling at him.
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