One gunshot was all that it would cost. Just one through my chest and this would all be over.

I sat on my bed, thinking of things that could distract me. It was a sunny day today but my own personal cloud shoved it away; my own sun was absent to make the clouds go away.

The throbbing in my chest continued, the hole sucking everything in me. Life, love, and reason were lost. Nothing's left but agony. Is it possible that everything the opposite of happiness is in me? I thought about it. Yes, it's possible. It's happening right now isn't it? That oughta be some living proof now.

"Jacob, what's wrong?" Billy asked as I went out of my room and closed it with a slam.

"Nothing's wrong." I said through my teeth. "My life is actually perfect, Dad. Thanks for reminding me." I went outside the pouring rain and phased. I'd lost Bella, (technically, not yet but still . . .) I'm not going to lose my pack now.

Jake. Embry said.

Embry, I thought. Tell Quil, Sam and Seth to go on patrol right now. That goes the same for you.

Okay, Jake.

I circled the forest with caution. I ran slower. I was careful in keeping myself together. As for now, I'm successful. I would have to worry about tomorrow and the remaining eighty four years in front of me before my death.

Jacob, I heard Sam say as he phased. Are you alright?

What a question. Yes, I'm still alive. I said sarcastically. Just go on patrol. The usual spots assigned.

I heard nothing more from them as they patrolled. There was nothing to talk about like before. Instead of their voices filling my head, it was emptiness' turn to do so. I wonder how long this will go on.

Patrol was flowing nicely when a too-sweet smell entered my nose. It could only be one thing: a bloodsucker. I winced at the smell of it and searched around to see if it they were around. It was one of the Cullens' scent when I sniffed it for analysis.

What are you doing here on the borderline, bloodsucker? I thought if ever it was Edward that was present.

"I just thought I'd drop by." The leech said, appearing in front of me.

So are you happy now? I thought sarcastically. Was he here to torture me some more? I'm already in the state of torture. I didn't need more of it.

"About what?" He said, cocking his head to one side. Stupid leech.

Do I really have to tell you what's going on or are you stupid now to not use your powers? I wanted to screech at him.

There was a moment of silence as he searched my head. "Ah," he finally said, breaking the silence.

Ah. That's a really helpful response, leech.

"What do you want me to do, then?" He said through his teeth, irritation visible in his features.

Forget it. Never mind. I told him.

"I knew that she'd find out one day," He suddenly said. "but I didn't think it would be this soon." He added.

So you are happy. It wasn't a question. It was a matter of fact.

"No, I am not. I'm not happy because Bella's upset."

So you're saying, I gulped. That this is my fault?

"Well, technically, yes. You are at fault."

That's great. Really great. Thanks for reminding me, bloodsucker. The throbbing in my chest made itself present again. It hurt more because it seemed that my heart inflated. Soon enough, it was going to pop.

"I feel bad for you too, Jacob."

I don't want to hear your sympathy. I thought and ran away from him. He never followed me—good.

Jacob? Is that you down there? We need to talk. A familiar voice said. It wasn't the pack, it wasn't David either. . .

Sacha.

What do you want?

Slow down, Jacob. Please. We have to talk.

There's nothing to talk about, Sacha.

I'm sorry about you and Bella. She seemed laconic in words. It didn't feel like she was sorry at all.

Don't remind me, Sacha. I've inflicted enough pain on myself and on her already. Don't make it worse.

I'm sorry I ever did that to you. She said, trying to catch up with me. I bolted faster until my speed was out of reach for her. But I still have something else to say.

What is it? Make it quick. I growled. I didn't feel the need to talk.

David is mad at you—

Isn't that kind of obvious?

Yes, but there's more to that. I let her continue, sensing the fear in her thoughts. He's really furious with you. In return for what you did, he's decided to hunt Bella and hurt her himself. He thought that since you inflicted pain on him through me, he planned on doing the same for you.

Then why didn't he just come for me? What if something happens to Bella, Sacha? Who would I blame? Myself? I've already got a lot on my plate!

I'm sorry, Jacob. She said, hurt filling her words. I honestly tried to stop him since I was the reason for all of this but he reasoned things about you. I couldn't stop him. . . .

Do you have anything else to say? I asked. I wanted to speed out of here and go to Bella's house. She was going to be in harm. No, she was gearing towards harm right now.

He. . . He saw Bella leave your home last night. He followed her but I don't know where. I couldn't hear him when he was past Port Angeles. Where the hell was Bella then?! Oh man, oh man.

Anger coursed through me causing my temperature to go up. I would kill that David no matter what it took. I would find Bella then kill that wolf. No matter what, I would find him.

I leapt towards the forest, screaming profanities in my head. I needed to go right now.

Sam? Sam! I called, impatience trapping me. Take over the pack!

What? Where are you going? He asked, digesting my conversation with Sacha.

I'm going to find Bella, it's obvious, Sam. Read my mind. I growled. Anger continued making its rounds inside of me.

You should let some of us come, Jacob. You won't be able to find Bella with you all alone. What if. . .?

I've had enough of the what-if's, Sam. I'm going whether you guys like it or not. You're taking over Sam. I thought, broadcasting my news to the whole pack.

Jake, wait! Seth said in my head. We'll help.

No, stay out of this. This is my problem. I'm going to be the one to solve it, alright? You have to understand. I'm not sentencing any one of you to death. This is between me and David.

They were all silent. Did I realize now what will become of this in the end? Death? Death only needed to choose one of us and I'm crossing out Bella. I was alright with dying. In fact, it was the only gift that I'd like to get.

"Jacob," Someone stopped me in my tracks. I didn't need these kinds of intermission. Bella's life was hanging by the moment!

"I'll make this quick, Jacob." Edward said from behind a fir tree. "You have to let me come with you. I'm not letting this wolf hurt Bella if—"

No! I phased back because of my worried state. I wanted to express my emotions using my mouth now.

"Jacob, consider this. If you're planning to kill this David, you can't do it alone."

"What part of 'no' can't you understand, leech?" I spat at him.

Strings of profanities began circulating in my head. Edward looked like he was thinking of another way to do this with me. I don't want him to come along whatever happens.

"Alice," He mumbled. "Alice can't see what's going to happen but even without her gifts, Sacha already told you what was going to come. Alice had seen Bella driving to Alaska, though I don't know why she was heading there but that's where she's headed."

For the first time, I'm thankful. At least I'd know where to search for her in the world.

"Jacob, take my car, please. Since you won't accept my help, it's the least you could do." He said, pleading. Bella's lifeline was as important to him as it was to me.

"No thank you, Edward. I don't want to let the smell stick to me. I'm thankful though. It's been a lot of help but please, just let me go. Bella's life is at stake here and I'm pretty sure you understand it more than I do." Anxiety and fear coated my words. I was in such a hurry I could barely do anything slowly.

I left Edward without waiting for his response and just went the direction towards Alaska. Where was it? North? South? East? West? North.

There was no use going on foot so I phased again. As I got out of the borders of La Push, I heard the howls of my brothers. Their howls contained the worry that I had. Their howls were enough to keep me going.

I howled into the burning sun—not caring about who could hear it—as I got past the borders of my own home towards the lurking dangers that waited for me.

AN: Jacob's just not stable anymore, is he? We're nearing the end, people. So tell me what you think! :D Do you like it? Will Jacob be able to save Bella?