I am SOOOOO sorry :( I didn't mean to take so long to update I got distracted by shopping, and work, and my friends and its a rubbish excuse but its finally my day off so I now have plenty of time :D
This was really hard to write, I wrote like a chapter for after this one before I wrote this one, it was just difficult haha but here it is, suckiness and all! :D
Just a quick HEY to Britanny 21, I hope you had a good holiday sounds amazing, I am off to Greece next week for my own sun filled break so I am super excited as I look at the trail of bikini's I currently have on my bedroom floor waiting for me :D thank you for your ideas, they were amazing as always :D
Comment as always and enjoy!
I do not own Twilight
I glanced at the clock, 4.30pm, she was still passed out, clutching onto my hand as she led peacefully. The nurses were hooking up new drips to her, they both smiled at me as I opened my eyes from the nap I had been taken in the chair next to Jade's bed.
"Sorry, didn't mean to wake you" One of them said, her voice was a whisper.
"She's lucky to have a boy willing to stay with her like you have, I don't think I've had a patient so young where her boyfriend has stayed by her side while she slept, it's cute. Lucky girl, my husband wouldn't even do that" The older nurse smiled as she changed the drip bags across.
I smiled as she said boyfriend, I would be her boyfriend one day.
"No, I'm the lucky one" I smiled back at her, her grin got wider and she nodded. I was lucky, lucky to have imprinted on Jade, the guys were right, she was a piece of work, but she was worth every bit of it.
"You make sure you pamper her when she wakes up, she's going to need it" The young nurse piped up now as she scribbled Jade's temperature and blood pressure down on her notes.
I nodded, I would spoil her rotten if it made her better, I would spoil her every day for as long as I live, just to see her smile.
They finished what they were doing and left, Jacob walked in as they went out, he smiled at me lightly, and then looked down at his sister.
"Guys have gone; dad's gone to speak to Charlie about the boy. So umm, if you want to go home and change or anything, I will stay with her, Jason's on his way up so she won't be alone" He stopped by the bed, his hand holding her free one.
Before I could say anything her hand that was wrapped in mine tightened, as if telling me not to go. I smiled, I would never go anywhere.
"No, I want to stay" I whispered back as Jade relaxed again.
He nodded and smiled, leaning down to kiss her forehead.
"I'll be out there if you want anything, Rachel is here too" He whispered, patting my arm before leaving again.
I glanced down at Jade, her hair was a mess, all over the place, she had a hair band on her wrist so I slipped it off and started trying to braid her long hair, I had seen Emily do it to Claire, I think this was right. It looked a little wonky and messy but it would do, and it would keep the hair from her face.
Her hand reached out again, trying to find mine, I slipped mine back in to hers and she let out a long sigh before falling silent. She was doing better, she didn't look as pale and Carlisle had come in about an hour ago and had taken the breathing tube out. The only tube going in was the drip to flush her system completely and keep her hydrated.
She was going to be ok, hopefully; hopefully this wouldn't get to her emotionally. But part of me knew it would, she was sensitive, and her emotions were all over the place no matter how hard she tried to be tough. I led back down, drawing small circles on her hand with my fingers, her heart picked up its rhythm, thumping in her chest, I couldn't help but smile. Even unconscious she could feel the pull to me. I shut my eyes, never stopping the circles on her soft skin, the sound of her heart soothing me into another light sleep next to her.
Jade pov
"Shake that ass, watch yourself, shake that ass show me what your working with" I giggled as my mom sung loudly from the front seat of her car, waving her arms around wildly as she drove through Forks.
"Mom you're so embarrassing" I whined, but in reality I loved her weirdness, the random bursts of song she broke out in, she knew how to make people laugh.
"Of course I am baby, that's part of being a mom"
I rolled my eyes, it was raining lightly outside, the sky was turning a grey colour, it felt like night time but it was actually only the afternoon.
"So we need to go get you that dress baby, the pink one for Rachel's graduation party"
I groaned, it was pink and frilly, I was not wearing it. Embry Call would be there, he would see me looking like a freak. I liked Embry, he was Jacob's friend, he was cute and he always smiled at me when he was over. He was the only one of Jake's friends who did, Quil usually chucked food at me or made fun of me, but Embry was always nice.
"I won't wear it mom" I whined now, hoping to whine so much she wouldn't put me in the damned dress.
"Oh yes you will" She scorned, only lightly though, she could never get really angry with me.
"No I will not" I snapped back, smirking at myself.
"Oh yes you will" She sang in a high playful voice and I giggled.
"Oh no I won't" I sang back now, she laughed and blew a raspberry in my direction.
"I wish you would listen to me for once little Miss Jade" She sighed heavily as we crossed the lights leading to Port Angeles.
There was a loud screech of wheels to my left, my eyes flashed to my mom who let out a scream as the car swerved across the wet road, she turned in her seat, looking at me, her face full of desperation as she reached out to grab for me. A loud bang and a bright flash of light erupted around me and everything fell silent.
"Yeah because I'm the asshole here" A loud booming male voice pulled me from my nightmare with a slight jolt.
"You did nothing to help her, it was your fault, you were too busy being a man whore" Another loud echoing voice brought me back to my current surroundings again.
I had a thumping headache, pounding against my ears and temples. My eyes were heavy, I couldn't lift them properly, a shot of bright light hit the tiny slit I had opened and I squeezed them shut again, it hurt, the light hurt. Everything hurt, my whole body was in the strangest pain, it wasn't physical pain, it was different.
"Whatever man, don't put this shit on me, this is all on you lot, you were all messing with her head, making her get all freaked out and weird and shit. If Rachel hadn't gone at her like she had then Jade wouldn't have even gone to the damned party and if you stopped messing with her she wouldn't be so emotional and vulnerable. So shove that where the sun don't shine Embry" Jason, Jason's angry rumble of a voice. He was never angry, not really anyway. Embry, he was shouting at Embry. Why are they arguing? What did I do this time?
"Calm down guys" A rough voice spoke now, breaking the tension that even I could feel as I lay here so confused.
"Oh screw you Jason, you were there, you should have realised she was gone. I tried helping her after the Rachel thing but she ran off to you" Embry, his voice shook slightly, the anger in it was so sharp it pierced through me. He sounded slightly jealous.
"Yeah she ran to me, because I'm the only one who has always been there for her. You lot suddenly acting all loving over her aint going to change shit. I messed up one time, and I didn't even really mess up, I tried looking for her and I got told she had gone home. So sue me for not running back to check she had gotten into freaking bed ok" Jason roared now, my eyes fought, trying to open but they wouldn't.
"Yeah one time that could have freaking killed her"
My heart stopped; did he just say I could have died? The angry yells around me fell distant, my whole brain going fuzzy as Embry's words hit me, stirring my confused brain into frantic scrambles trying to remember.
I concentrated, trying to remember, ignoring the thumping from the headache. I had been at Nathan's house party. With the girls. Then I went to the kitchen, someone had followed me. Who was it that followed me?
It hit me then; everything hit me like a ton of bricks coming down on me hard.
My body was numb, I had no energy. Someone had followed me, a guy, a guy had followed me, I couldn't remember who. He had given me that awful drink, it had tasted like crap. It had made me go funny, I couldn't remember anything after the kitchen.
My stomach lurched, bile rose within me, a bed, I remember being on a bed, someone was on top of me, who was on top of me. oh god, what did I do? What did they do to me?
"He was going to rape her Jason, Nathan was trying to attack her when we got there, so you didn't just mess up, you well and truly fucked up" Embry's voice snapped back through my cloudy head, his words shooting through me.
Nathan, rape.
Panic rose within me, taking over every inch of my tired body, had I been hurt by Nathan? My body was numb, just the strange pain echoing from my chest, I couldn't tell if he had hurt me.
I needed to leave, to go home, I needed to shower, I was dirty. I could feel slimy dirt all over me at Embry's words, Nathan had been on top of me. It was Nathan who had followed me, Nathan who had made me feel so weak and vulnerable.
"Piss off Embry, I won't be blamed for this, so get the hell out of my face and trot back to your little drugged up friends, sorry am I being too disrespectful to the La Push protectors, freaking joke. I am sure Jade would like to be asshole free when she wakes up so off you run" Jason snarled, my body reacted to the panic in me and I started moving, trying to force myself awake.
A bustle of movement followed by a crashing sound made me jump, like that dream had but worse, the crash sound sending flares of fear through me as my eyes flashed with the same light that had flashed that day, it was right next to me, my eyes flew open, searching for something to calm me down.
"GUY WOAH STOP IT" the loud controlled voice from earlier flew up and my tired eyes darted around the room, Jason and Embry were flying around, clutching to one another, throwing punches into each other's stomachs.
"Guys stop now!" Sam was stood directly in front of me, as if shielding me from the fight.
"Woah woah she's awake, Jade Jade" The usually angry voice of Paul sounded and I snapped my head around, he was stood over me, his hot hands came down on my arm, clutching me whilst shaking me slightly. Rachel stood next to him, her eyes were red and puffy, she had been crying.
I went blank, I couldn't think of anything, I couldn't find any words, or any movements to make. I was just, led here, blank as a piece of paper as the commotion around me stopped and Paul looked at me, not with anger or hate like usual, but some sort of weird concern that I had only ever seen on his face the time he had been trying to make breakfast at our house and didn't understand why the toaster hadn't popped his pop tarts out after five minutes. I explained the need for plugs to be turned on, which made him more concerned about what would happen if there was a power cut.
"Jade?" A rough but familiar voice erupted, Embry was now swooped over the bed, directly in my face, his eyes soaking up every inch of my body which now felt dirty and tainted by the thought of Nathan being near me.
I pushed myself away from him with too much force and my whole body writhed from tired agony, not physical pain, but I just felt weak.
"Jade" He took a hold of my hand, his voice a little hurt from me pulling away. My heart dropped slightly at it, not liking the hurt tone to his voice.
I looked around as Embry hovered in front of me, a hospital room. I was in hospital. Sickness overcame me again, he had hurt me, Nathan had done something to put me in hospital. I tried scrambling to my feet, I needed to be sick, but my body wouldn't let me.
"Give her space asshole, how do you feel Jade?" Jason spoke now, pushing Embry out of the way, standing next to me, his own face paler than usual but he still managed to glare at the now growling Embry.
"Jason, I feel sick" My voice finally found itself but it was small, he leant into my bed getting closer to me to hear me better.
As he did, the bed tipped slightly, sending the flares of sickness within me to the surface and before I could stop myself, I threw up all over Jason's top.
"Eww Jade" Paul moaned and stomped toward the door, shielding his eyes as he went.
Embry was laughing to himself, looking smug. Enjoying the fact I threw up on the guy he had just been fighting with far too much. Rachel smacked his arm lightly and his face fell into the same caring concern he wore each time he saw me.
"Ok so that answers that question" Jason's disgusted voice groaned and he got off the bed, walking to a little sink in the corner of the room.
"You ok now? Oh god do you need a bowl, can I get you water, you need water, or do you want me to call a nurse, oh god, call a nurse I think there's something wrong with her" Embry's frantic voice yelled slightly, before anyone could do anything he had backed away and ran into the hallway, his frantic yells of "someone help" echoing through the swinging door.
"He really does have a screw loose" Jason mumbled, I looked over at him, he had taken his top off and was walking back toward me smiling lightly as he did.
"I'm going to go get Billy" Sam caught a hold of Paul and dragged him from the room. Leaving Jason and I alone with Rachel, while Embry's yells could still be heard drifting through the door.
"Jade are you ok?" Rachel cooed at me, wiping up the sick from the bed. I just threw up everywhere, in front of Embry, and Paul, he would never let me forget this.
I nodded, not trusting my voice. But I wasn't ok; I was a bit of a mess, a bit confused, a bit scared and just generally, feeling like crap. But I couldn't speak, I would cry.
From there on out, everything was just a blur, I couldn't really hear the conversations around me; I couldn't really feel the needles pricking into me as Carlisle took blood samples and checked me over. I couldn't even concentrate on Embry as he ran around the room frantically continuously checking me over.
A nurse and Rachel calmly told me what had happened, Nathan had drugged me, and then tried to sleep with me, the boys got to me in time, and Paul had battered the living daylights out of him. But worst of all, Charlie had to let him out on bail. So really, he would get away with it, his parents were rich, had friends in high places. He would never be charged for it. My mind was a mess, I could hardly remember anything, just snippets, and even those snippets were cloudy.
Everything just felt strange, like I wasn't really here, I was looking down on someone who wasn't me. I had always blocked myself off from this sort of pain, but right now I couldn't, my whole body was vibrating with a dirty pain that was killing me slowly, he had made me so vulnerable. I just felt like a different person. I felt so weak. Like I was a twig and was being slowly tortured to breaking point as Rachel told me more of what happened, each word was like a lingering stab to my chest. But even as I reached that point, I had no energy to cry.
Maybe it was karma, for being such a bitch for all these years. Maybe I deserved to be some dirty tainted bitch that no one wanted or needed. I deserved to be alone.