Chapter 26

How would I convince Bella that she's pregnant? Or to get pregnant if she wasn't? This may be harder than I thought.

(Bella's POV)

The most I had been asleep was maybe an hour. I wouldn't have woken up if I hadn't realized that Carlie wasn't in my arms anymore. I slowly opened my eyes and sat up when I heard her.

"I love you daddy," she was with Edward. I bit my lip thinking about how she might get hysterical again when I heard him.

"I love you too princess. So much." I quickly stood up and looked over at him. My ears hadn't deceived me. He was awake. Edward was awake. I bit my lip again to stop the tears from coming. I didn't want to breakdown in tears in front of them.

I was so happy that he was awake but I didn't want to scare Carlie or alarm Edward. Of all people to be worried he was the one that didn't need to be right now. So I just stood there and watched. I couldn't think of anything else to do.

Carlie let go of his neck and rested her head on his chest. "Sleep princess. I'll still be here when you wake up," he whispered to her.

I wiped at my eyes and wrapped my arms around myself as I waited for her to fall asleep. He still hadn't noticed me yet. He was staring at Carlie so intently. I could see the love and wonder in his eyes. He really did love her there was no doubt in that.

After a couple more minutes I could tell that Carlie was asleep by her breathing patterns. I still didn't know what to do. I seemed to be frozen in place. I wasn't in shock or anything I just couldn't think of what to do to get his attention or if I should lay Carlie down on the couch.

I looked away from Carlie and looked back at Edward. As soon as my eyes were on him he looked up at me. He looked into my eyes intently with a serious look on his face.

I probably had the same expression on my face except my bottom lip started to tremble. He patted the spot next to him on his left, "Come here."

It took me awhile to get my legs moving. I slowly walked to the other side of the bed and looked down at him. He took my hand away from my arm and held it in his. "Lay down next to me love."

I bit my lip lightly and hesitated before I gently got on the hospital bed next to him. I rested my head on his shoulder and looked at him, "You scared me," I whispered to him in a vulnerable voice.

"I'm sorry," he whispered back. "I was just trying to protect you."

"I know. I'm sorry. We shouldn't have split up in the first place. I don't know what I was thinking," I whispered back to him with a small shake to my head.

"Bella," he said making me look back up at him, "I'm sorry for making you and Carlie worry."

"Carlie's the one that took it the hardest," I told him.

"She did?" he asked as he looked down at Carlie.

"She got hysteric Edward. She'd scream for you to wake up every time she looked at you."

He looked at her for awhile before he looked back down at me, "And you?"

"What about me?" I asked confused.

"How were you?"

I sighed and looked at his neck, "I wasn't good. Your dad had to talk some sense into me."

"Why?"

"Because this was all my fault. I should have thought it through. I should have just forgotten about my stupid phone," I said barely above a whisper.

"This wasn't your fault love. Never ever blame yourself," he told me firmly as he tightened his arm around my waist.

I sighed and looked back up at him, "I'm just happy you're okay…and awake."

He smiled down at me and leaned down to kiss my lips lightly, "I love you."

I smiled back at him, "I love you too."

He ran his hand up my back and stopped suddenly. He looked at me confused which got me worried, "What? Does something hurt?" I asked as I moved awhile a little to look at him better.

"No I'm fine," he said still confused.

"Then what's wrong?" I asked confused.

"How long was I out?" he asked baffled.

"Around three days. Why?" I asked confused.

"Why'd you cut your hair love?" he asked.

Oh so that's what he was confused about. "It was too long. I donated my hair for cancer patients," I informed him.

He ran his fingers through my hair, "Hmm I like it."

I smiled lightly at him before I relaxed against him, "Carlie thought you'd like it. She said it would be a great surprise for you."

"Well she was right," he said with a small smile.

"Of course she is she's my kid," I said jokingly.

He smiled at what I said but it quickly faded away. He was staring at me with a serious expression on his face. I stared into his eyes intently as I waited for him to say something. But he didn't say anything instead he moved his arm around me and rested his hand on my stomach.

I looked down at his hand before I looked back up at him. He had a slight smile on his face, "I think you should get checked up while we're here."

"Checked up for what?" I asked confused although I had a slight hint of what he was talking about.

"To see if you're pregnant," he said as his smile started fading away.

I took his hand and removed it away from my stomach, "I'm not pregnant Edward," I got off the hospital bed and stood by the bed looking down at him, "When are you going to understand that?"

"I won't understand that until I get proof that you aren't," he said with a frown.

I was making him sad. And it hurt me. I shouldn't make the love of my life look like that let alone feel like that. "I'm sorry," I apologized as I gently took his hand in mine.

"I don't understand why you won't believe it. Why you seem to hate the idea of it," he said as he looked over at Carlie with an even sadder expression.

I was baffled by what he said. He thinks I hate it. How could he think that? "I–what?" I couldn't think of anything else to say.

"Do you not…want anymore kids? Or is it just me?" he whispered the last question to himself but I still heard it.

"I never said I didn't want more children," I told him with a stern face as I shook my head.

He looked back over at me with the same hurt look, "It doesn't seem like it."

I sighed and sat down on the bed with my back facing him, "I'm just worried about Carlie," I told him.

"That can't be the only reason. She told you herself that she wants to have a sibling," he retorted.

"Wait…how do you know that?" I asked as I turned my head back to see his face.

"I heard the conversation Bella. I know," he said as he looked down at his hands.

I looked back at the ground and sighed, "I'm scared."

"What?" he asked confused. "What are you scared of?"

"Lots of things," I confessed in a helpless voice.

"Like what?" he asked as he lightly touched my back.

I got off the bed and looked at him, "What if there's some sort of complication?"

"There won't be," he said as he shook his head.

"I had complications with Carlie, Edward. It is possible," I told him firmly.

He scrutinized my expression, "That may be part of your fears but I know there's something bigger behind this Bella. You can't keep it from me and tell me all the little fears you have. You need to tell me what's wrong and why you're scared to have another child."

I started pacing. I noticed that I did this every time I was nervous now. My chest felt like there was a heavy brick lying on top of it. My heart felt like it may stop beating any minute. It beat against my chest hard and slow. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

I ran my fingers up in my hair and left them there as I tried to stop the tears from coming. "Tell me love. That's what I'm here for. I'm here to help you through your fears and to love you like there's no tomorrow. To help you when you're sick and to be here when you need me."

I sat back down on the bed and let out a shaky sigh before dropping my hands on my lap, "What if you're not here?"

"What do you mean?" he asked confused.

A single tear brimmed over and rolled down my cheek making me wipe it away with the back of my hand, "What if you're not here? What if you leave again? I can't do it without you again Edward. I just can't," my voice broke before the rest of my sentences came out in sobs.

"That's what you're afraid of? You think I'm going to leave you again?" he asked as he lightly touched my chin and turned my head towards him.

I already had tears rolling down my face and I was sniffling like crazy. "I'm not leaving you Bella. Ever again. I know what it did to you and I know it was a big mistake. I made this family complicated and I'm sorry for that. But one thing I know for sure is that no matter what happens I'm never leaving you again. I can't do that to you. I'm not letting you go through that alone ever again. You and Carlie mean everything to me Bella. I'm not going to leave and ruin everything again."

My lips trembled lightly as more tears blurred my vision. I quickly laid down next to him and buried my face into his chest, "I'm still scared," I cried out.

"Its okay love," he whispered to me as he lightly ran his hand up and down my back, "We'll get through this. No matter how long it takes we'll get through this."

A/N: Well that makes it official; My best friend inspires me to write more for some reason. If she's here and I'm trying to write while she's here at my house then I actually can write. She's my MUSE. LOL anyways I hope you understand now why she has problems with thinking she's pregnant. Hope you liked the chapter!

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