A/N: Ok peeps Carrie-Ann here! The second to last chapter has finally arrived so you can put your pitch forks down now. I'm sorry for taking my sweet arse time with this chapter but if it makes you feel any better it's REALLY long! ;D And I say second to last because I decided against the idea of an epilogue. After I read the end of Charlotte's chapter I just thought it was the perfect ending for Jasper and especially Alice. Here's the next part. You'll soon see what I mean and I hope you'll love it just as much as I did

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POVs: Jasper, Alice

August 28th 2009

Wish Upon A Star

JPOV

"How are you today, Alice?" Jillian asked. She was Alice's therapist whom she had been seeing since she came back home. It took a few sessions for her to actually stay in the room for the whole hour she was supposed to, but now she's finally toughing it out every few days seen as she severely needs this as her doctor says.

She glanced quickly at me then focused back on the woman in question. "Umm, good I suppose." She said it like a question, I watched Jillian's eyes shift for the smallest of seconds picking this up and then the mask came back and she was all smiley. I hoped to God Alice didn't see.

"What would you like to talk about in today's session Alice? I've noticed you brought Jasper along again." She didn't look once at me, her eyes were latched on Alice watching her every expression and movement as she fidgeted. I hated every time I came here, she watched her like a bug in the desert, fascinated as it stayed still and just waiting for it to run away.

"I don't know." Alice gave the same answer every time and I didn't blame her. She was the damn therapist, shouldn't she be the one asking the questions and knowing what she wanted out of her?

"That's fine Alice." She smiled at her sweetly but behind that look was a very intelligent woman, her brain plotting for ways to help this girl in front of her spill her darkest secrets out on the table. "Well we will do the usual, I'll write down an agenda." She rummaged around for a pen and paper and focused back to Alice. "I'll check your mood on a scale of one to ten, then we can have feedback on what you did yesterday and we can talk more about your time with James." Alice flinched at the last part and gripped onto my hand unconsciously.

"What kind of things?" Alice asked in a small voice.

"Whatever you feel comfortable with right now, you can take as long as you want. You don't have to tell me everything in one session; it could be a sentence of your time with him, a few words, anything." Alice's hand loosened around mine. "We need to know what happened though Alice, eventually, so we can determine where to go from there, how we can help you. You will get better Alice, I promise." My hand tightened around Alice's at the last part. Better? She's not sick, she's fucking strong and brave and the most wonderful girl I have ever met. There was nothing to fix about her, she was perfect. How dare she think that something needs bettering about her! I bit my tongue and stopped those words from leaving my mouth.

"Okay." Alice replied, her voice still small.

"Were going to check your mood now. On a scale of one to ten, how would you rate your mood? Ten being depressed and one being great." She had her pen poised ready to write down immediately.

"Umm… about seven and a half, not quite eight." I looked at her when she said that and waited for her explanation. Two days ago she was at five, now she was seven… what made things change?

"What's changed Alice, you've gone up on the scale." This clearly worried Jillian too, it made me think better of her.

"It's the nightmares, some nights I don't have them, but other nights I can't stop them from happening. I try to think of other things, even wake myself up but they keep on coming." Her hand was trembling in mine and I hated it. I wanted to scoop her up and take her away from all this. I brought her hand up to my mouth and kissed it softly, which seemed to ease a tension out of her shoulders.

Jillian wrote furiously on her pad. "And what are these dreams of Alice? What is happening in them?"

"James and sometimes Jim." The names burned to the core of my being with such hatred, for the first time I noticed that Jillian was watching my reaction and went back to her pad writing away. I ignored her and focused on Alice again. "With James it's always… the beating, the rape and what he did to Jeffrey." Her voice cracked on the last word and I furrowed my eyebrows at the new name. Jillian looked up too, surprised.

"Who's Jeffrey, Alice?" She asked softly, coaxing the answer from her.

Alice hesitated and stayed quiet. I wasn't taking that as an answer though. I'd been told numerous times that I shouldn't really speak in here, but I couldn't hold back on this, this was a new name. "Who is he?" I asked, squeezing her hand letting her know its okay.

"He was just some guy." She blushed and I felt myself go stiff. Some guy? Why blush if he's just some guy?

"Was he bad to you Alice?" Jillian asked.

"No." She smiled shyly to herself.

"Was he a friend of yours?" Again Jillian pried for those answers.

"You could say that." That blush again.

"He was a boyfriend of yours?" I heard the scratching of the pen against paper as my senses went into overdrive.

"Kind of." She let go of my hand and ran them along the jeans she was wearing.

"You said he occurs in your nightmares and that James did something to him…" She trailed off, hoping that that would lead to Alice explaining her story and to my amazement it worked.

"He… he found out about the two of us." I could see her fighting back tears and to my amazement again I found myself wanting to comfort her instead of being jealous that there was another man in her life, someone she cared for other than me. "Jeff was a good guy, he was amazing. We were together for months before we moved our relationship onto the physical side." She blushed tomato red at this and my inner jealousy reared is ugly head. "I loved him, he loved me. I told him everything about James, the beatings, the abuse, verbally as well as physically. It was only a matter of time before Jeff had to suggest us running away together." She let the first tears fall and I fought not to wipe them away. I was shocked at this revelation; she was in love with someone else? "I couldn't leave with him though." She put her head in her hands and I thought I heard her whispering; all my fault, all my stupid fault.

"How did James find out about the two of you?" Jillian's voice was full of sympathy, the story was affecting her and there was no hiding that.

"We got into a stupid fight." Alice almost shouted with anger as she cried. "I told him I loved him but I couldn't leave, I couldn't just run away. He didn't understand and when he asked, I couldn't answer him!" She turned into me then, crying into my shoulder. "I was upset and cried the whole way home without realising I was returning home to him. He saw the tears and did his usual routine of beating the answer out of me." She shivered in my arms with fear and I wanted to ask badly what he did to her.

As if reading my mind Jillian asked and received an answer. "He tied me up, dragged me into the coffin under the floorboards." This wasn't the first time I'd heard about the coffin, but each time horror spread through my body hot and scolding. How any creature, no matter how evil could do that to another human being was beyond me. I hugged her tight and she popped her head over my shoulder so her next words wouldn't be muffled by my chest. "He got his answer and tracked him down. I told him everything! I told him his name!" She fisted my shirt and cried harder into my shoulder, this time ranting the words, all my fault over and over again loudly.

"What did James do to Jeffrey, Alice?" Jillian was serious now.

She whispered. "He came back crying. He released me from my coffin but he was covered in blood." Her voice squeaked at the last word and she pulled free from my arms. She looked me right in the eyes, ignoring the woman in the room. "He killed him Jasper." She whispered, shaking visibly. "He beat him to death. He kept saying he didn't mean to do it, he just got carried away…"

"Have you told the police this Alice?" Jillian asked over Alice's shoulder.

"I couldn't Jasper, I couldn't tell on him. I saw what he did to him; I helped him bury the body." Those were the last words she was getting out of her today. I was horrified at the story. Alice had told me many things James had done, but nothing like this, murder was another thing entirely. I pulled her to me and I wouldn't… couldn't let her go. I was just thankful he never got carried away with her; I couldn't bare the thought of never holding her in my arms again.

The days passed and little by little Alice began feeling more comfortable around each of us. She never strayed too far from me and I was by her side at every given opportunity. I had just gotten her back and I think I was still in shock. I just couldn't believe that she was really here with us again. Sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night and pinch myself because it felt too much like a dream. I think the same could be said for the rest of her family as well. She had been gone for such a long time it was obviously going to take everyone time to adjust to her being here twenty-four-seven.

I could tell sometimes by the expressions on her face that at times it got too much. She wasn't use to having so many people around her that craved for her attention. She was too used to being ignored and only paid attention too if that person wanted something from her – not because they actually wanted to spend time with her. Sometimes she would do her best to hide her feelings because she didn't want to offend anyone and most often than not it worked. But I was getting better and better at being able to tell when she needed her space.

Alice hadn't left the house yet besides the one time. If she needed anything that we didn't already have in the house, someone would usually jump at the chance to get it for her, eager to please and make her happy. And she was more than willing to let them. It was all new and strange for her but she knew it made them all happy to help her in whatever way they could so she let them. Even if it was the smallest thing like making her a drink or helping her pick out certain clothes to wear that day.

Even though she seemed content to never leave the comfort of her home ever again I was desperate to take her out on our first date. I had been thinking about it constantly and every idea I came up with seemed just as bad and over the top as the last. I couldn't help it though. She deserved everything good in the world, no matter the cost. I hated that she hadn't been treated the way she should have been all these years and I just wanted to make up for that. I knew that most of my ideas would have made her uncomfortable and I wanted her to enjoy the first date we should have had many years ago.

So instead of throwing my money around and planning what would have probably turned out as the most expensive first date in history, I had decided to keep it simple. We would take a small picnic to the park and sit in our favourite spot we had as kids. It was simple yet romantic. And I knew without a doubt she would love it.

She was almost as eager as I was to get out of this house. I could tell she wanted to but there was always that small spike of fear behind her eyes of what might happen if she did. She hadn't had the need to leave the house yet because the doctors decided on her having lots of rest because of what she's been through. And since she was always more relaxed at home surrounded by her family they let her go grudgingly. Though Rose can be persuasive when she wants to be and had convinced Alice to go shopping with her and Bella once. From what Alice told me they did the girly thing and she even ended up enjoying herself more then she thought she would. Which I was extremely happy about.

Sometimes having a doctor in the family works out in your favour. The doctor would come everyday at first because of her withdrawal symptoms from the amount of drugs she had in her blood stream. It was so hard watching her got through something like that. It was almost like she wasn't there with all the sweating and writhing on the bed. The screaming and crying for the pain to stop was the worse though. Sometimes it was just too much and I had to leave the room for a few minutes so I could pull myself together. I would always make sure she wasn't left alone though… she hated being left alone.

It was so hard for everyone to watch her go through that and no way to help her. All we could do was be there for her and hope for the best. And if it wasn't the doctor's visits it was the police coming by to question her on every little detail she could remember. Those would always drain her of her energy because of how much she would have to remember. By the end of it she would be crying in frustration at what had happened and sometimes it would take hours for her to finally calm down.

Watching her live through the memories of what happened to her was just as bad as watching her go through withdrawal. It seemed like the questioning went on forever even though it couldn't have been more than twenty-five minutes. Everyone could tell how hard it was for Alice but she answered every question as best she could and didn't forget to leave out any minor details that may be important. I hugged her close to me through out it all and when things got too difficult for her to say she would snuggle into me so she wouldn't have to make eye contact with anybody.

After a week of going back and forth making sure Alice didn't forget anything or that they hadn't missed any major details they finally left us alone and wished us their best for the future. They kept us up to date on a regular basis even though not much had changed, they didn't want us to feel like they weren't trying their best at finding who was responsible for this whole mess.

I sighed and ran my hands through my hair as I sat on Alice's bed, waiting for her to finish changing so I could talk to her about the date I had in mind. I think she might be a little hesitant at first but I think with a bit of persuasion I could get her to agree. The door opened and out stepped my angel. She gave me a sweet smile and I instantly returned it.

I swear she got more beautiful every day.

"Hey," she said softly, making her way to the bed.

"Hey," I responded wrapping my arm around her waist, bringing her closer. She snuggled into my side and I ran my hands up and down her smooth arms. "So I was thinking maybe we could go out today." I felt her breathing hitch at the idea and placed a soft kiss to her forehead. She instantly calmed down and tightened her arms around me.

"Err… I don't know Jasper. I mean I want to but I-I don't know… you know if I-" I placed my hand over her mouth to stop her from going on. She was rambling and while it was quite amusing I could tell she was uncomfortable with the conversation.

I removed my hand from her mouth and placed my hand under her chin, lifting it a little so I could look her in the eyes. "Alice, I know you believe you can't do this but you can. I know you can." I said sincerely. She sighed and tears began to fill her eyes but she didn't look away.

"But what if… what if something-" She broke off again. I nodded my head at her in encouragement and she took a deep breath before continuing. "What if something goes wrong… what if it something happens and I lose my family again?" I wrapped my arms around her, tighter then ever before and pulled her onto my lap knowing she always felt safest in this position.

"Alice, you know I wouldn't ever let anybody take you away from me again… away from this family. This is where you belong. Nowhere else, but here. Okay?" She nodded her head against my chest and I decided to tell her about my idea for our date. "The whole reason I asked if you wanted to go out with me in the first place was because I wanted to take you out on our first date."

She gasped and looked up at me, excitement plastered all over face. "Really?"

"Really." I said smiling down at her. I could feel her vibrating on me in excitement.

"Well what did you have in mind?" She asked completely forgetting her worries from before.

"Well I was thinking we could maybe take a picnic down to the park and sit in our favourite spot from when we were kids. It was under that beautiful willow tree by the lake… we use to skip rocks there and see who could go the farthest." I remembered with a fond smile on my face. I peered up at Alice to find she had this look of concentration on her face. She suddenly looked up at me with the biggest grin on her face.

"Yes, I remember!" She squealed.

I threw my head back and laughed at her only to be silenced with her lips upon mine. The kiss was soft at first as she brought her arms up and wrapped them around my neck and began playing with the soft hair at the base of my neck. I deepened the kiss opening her mouth with mine and the moment our tongues met we groaned simultaneously. I chuckled a little while she giggled and we kissed a little while longer until our need for air couldn't be ignored. We were breathing heavily trying to catch our breath back and I noticed the love and adoration she had shining in her eyes while I looked back at her.

"I love you too, Alice." I whispered. She grinned back and gave me a quick peck on the lips before moving herself out of my arms and making her way across her room to grab a jacket.

She put her jacket on and made her way to the bedroom door only stopping when she realised I hadn't moved from my spot. "Well are you coming or not?"

I laughed again and quickly made my over to her, opening the bedroom door and grabbing her hand in mine leading her downstairs. I lead her to the kitchen to prepare some food for the picnic only to find a picnic basket on the kitchen counter with a small note on top.

Dear Jasper and Alice,

There's more than enough food for the both of you in here that I made. Don't worry too much about eating it all (I'm sure Emmett wouldn't mind eating the left overs) I hope you have fun and enjoy your date.

Love Bella

I chuckled a little at the Emmett joke knowing without a doubt it was true. I had informed Bella of my plans for mine and Alice's date the night before and she offered to help with the food. I accepted right away knowing how good of cook she was. Just thinking about the different foods she has made for us waiting in the basket had my mouth watering.

Alice nudged me wondering what had me day dreaming and I handed her the note. I watched her face as she read, smiling when she did at the Emmett joke. Her smile turned soft and she looked up at me with her eyes sparkling with tears. She was pretty emotional when it came to people doing things for her just because they loved her. But I never grew tired of her reaction every time. A lot of people take the love that others give them for granted and don't appreciate what they have. But Alice knows what its like to live a life without love and so cherishes every moment.

I gently wiped the few the tears that had fallen onto her cheeks gave her a hug. She buried her face into my chest and we stood there a moment just revelling in each others closeness. After we had our moment we pulled away from each and I caught her hand in mine again as I grabbed the picnic basket with other.

I led her outside and opened the car. When Alice was finally settled into the passenger seat I placed the picnic basket carefully on her knee and started the car. We drove to the park in comfortable silence, neither one of us feeling the need to fill the silence. I was more then happy to quietly sit there, feeling her delicate hand in mine. She gently played with my fingers as the radio played softly in the background and it felt like no time at all had passed when we finally reached the park.

When we got out of the car I grabbed a hold of Alice's hand and led her across the grass and over to the edge of the lake we loved so much as kids. I spotted the tree almost immediately and pulled Alice along quicker in my excitement. When we finally reached the tree I heard a gasp from behind me and turned to see Alice stood there with a shocked expression on her face. She slowly stepped from behind me and walked towards the tree in a daze. My eyes followed her arm to where they reached out and realised she was running her fingers over a carving on the tree.

It was an 'A + J' with a heart surrounding it. I felt my smile stretch across my face as I remembered that day as if it had happened yesterday.

"I think this is the best idea I've ever had!" Squealed a nine year old Alice.

She was jumping up and down giddier then ever. She handed me the pen knife I had taken without my parents seeing and came to stand beside me so she could watch. If they found out I had taken the knife I would probably be grounded until I graduate college. I tried not to think about how much trouble I could get in and focused on the moment. This was supposed to be a special moment for me and Alice and I didn't want my fear of getting caught getting in the way of that.

"Okay. Where do you think I should do it? We need the perfect spot." She beamed at me and pointed to where I should start. I smiled back and placed my hand on the tree to steady myself as I carved.

As I carved into the wood Alice would jump in now again giving me pointers on how I could make it look prettier.

Her words, not mine.

I did as she said anyway because I knew it would make her happy and Alice should always be happy.

"Like that?" I asked.

"Perfect." She beamed at me.

I stopped now and again to blow away the loose parts and to see which bits needed more work doing on them and all the time Alice would just stand there with her eyes glued to the tree.

Once I was nearly done I stood in front of my almost masterpiece and told Alice to close her eyes. I knew she had already seen most of it but I wanted to put the finishing touches to it so it would look perfect and I didn't want her to see. I wanted it to be a surprise for her. She covered her face with her hands and when I made sure she wasn't trying to peak I turned back to the tree to finish off what I had started.

When I was sure I had finished I stepped back to admire my work and deemed it perfect. I turned around and took hold of Alice by her wrists and slowly pulled her hands away from her face. Her eyes were staring right back at mine and the smiled still hadn't left her face.

"Don't move your eyes away from mine till I tell you too, okay?" She nodded back at me and I took a deep breath.

"1… 2… 3. Now look." I stepped from in front of her and the moment her eyes attached onto the tree. I chuckled a bit at her reaction and waved my hand in front of her face and she didn't blink once.

"Jasper." She whispered my name. "It's so beautiful. Thank you."

She finally turned to me and her eyes were full of tears waiting to fall. She threw herself at me and gave me a tight hug and I whispered "Anything for you" into her ear. I squeezed her back and we finally released each other and stood side by side facing the tree. Alice reached out and carefully glided her hand over the letter J.

She took my hand into her delicate one and turned to me before saying, "This way we can always be together."

Alice was oddly quiet as she studied the tree and I took a step towards her, lightly placing my hand on her shoulder for comfort.

"I remember." She whispered in a shaky voice.

I came up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist and placed my chin on the top of her head. I hugged her tightly to my body and she let out a deep sigh to calm herself down. I bent my head down and kissed her softly on her neck before whispering in her ear.

"Everything is okay now. You found your way back to me."

She turned in my arms and reached up wrapping her arms around my neck and pulled me closer to her. She stood on her tiptoes and brushed her lips over mine before pressing them firmly against mine. I deepened the kiss and opened her mouth with mine, moaning in contentment. She grabbed a fistful of my hair and pulled slightly eliciting another moan from me as my hands found underneath her shirt where I lightly stroked her soft skin.

A cough from somewhere in the distance had us jumping apart and straightening out our clothes. I looked up to see Alice staring at the ground near her feet like it was the most interesting thing in the world while the old woman shook her head at us and walked away with a mumbled "Kids today…"

When she was a safe distance away Alice lifted her head and looked at me in embarrassment, her cheeks tinged pink.

"Well that was… interesting." She laughed awkwardly. I chuckled and reached out for her hand, pulling her back to me.

"Hungry?" I asked. She nodded her head and I opened the picnic basket and pulled out the blanket that was folded on top and laid it on the grass for us to sit on. I pulled out the assortment of foods placed them on the blanket between us. There were sandwiches, fruits, chocolate and yogurts and even something to drink.

Everything looked so delicious. We ate in a comfortable silence only stopping now and again to make small talk or to voice random thoughts we might have. Everything was going so well and I couldn't believe this moment was actually happening for me. That Alice, the person I thought I would never see again, would never be able to touch or kiss or simply just be around was sat in front of me holding my hand in her small ones while smiling in contentment. She was happy because of me and it simply amazed me that I could make her feel this way.

After we had finished the food we lay back on the grass and looked up at the clouds just like we use to when we were kids. I would point out silly things to make her laugh and giggle because I enjoyed the sounds so much. And before I knew it I was on top of her kissing her breathless with my hand under her top, running my hands over the softness of her stomach. Her breathing hitched and I heard my name release itself from her lips.

"Alice." I responded just as breathless. Without even thinking about it my hand started making its way towards her bra and just as I brushed the underside of her breast she froze under me. I removed my hand from underneath her top hoping she wasn't mad with me or anything. I thought this was what we both wanted.

"Alice I'm so sorry I didn't think- I mean I don't know…" I trailed off not really knowing what to say. I felt her shift under me and realised she was trying to get up so I sat back onto the heels of my feet to let her up.

"Its okay Jasper, its not your fault. Its just… I'm-I'm not the same person as I was before." She finished in a whisper, looking everywhere but me. She was wringing her hands together which probably meant she was nervous.

"Hey." I said taking her chin into my hand so I could get her to look at me. "Listen to me. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you okay. I know you've been through so much but that doesn't change the fact you deserve happiness, love, family and everything else worth living for in this world."

She still wouldn't look at me and when I leaned forward to give her a reassuring kiss on the lips she backed away from me and I'm sure the hurt I felt inside showed just as much on my face. She took her hand out of mine and stood up, taking a step back. I could tell she felt bad for backing away from me like that, it showed all over her face.

"I'm so, so sorry. I didn't mean it, it just kind of happened." She cried. "I'm such a horrible person I can't believe I backed away from you like that. Your this amazing and caring guy and any girl would be lucky to have you and for some fucked up reason you want to be with me. The crazy, messed up girl who's an ex-junkie and for some stupid reason can't even accept a kiss from her own boyfriend who's done nothing but love me and been so damn patient with everything!"

I sat there a little shocked at her out burst and realised she must have been hiding a few things from me and the rest of the family. I was a little hurt at the fact that she didn't come to me if there was something wrong but then I remembered she probably wasn't use to having people around to talk too. She was used to hiding her feelings and pushing them down, pretending they didn't exist.

"Alice please calm down there's-" She stopped me from finishing my sentence by holding her hand up at me. Now she was a little pissed.

"Don't you dare say there's nothing wrong with me Jasper Hale. Of course there's something wrong with me or I wouldn't be acting like this!" She screeched. "I'm not the same person you fell in love with. You'll just have to accept that I am no longer Alice. I'm Mary and probably will be till the day I die."

I felt physically sick inside after that last line. How could she even think those things? I didn't understand. All I knew was that I loved her and to me she would always be perfect. Of course she had a few problems to overcome but who didn't? Nobody had a perfect life and it would take time for her to heal and to feel at home and have any kind of normalcy. It would be hard but with all the people she had around her that loved her so much it would make everyday that tad bit easier.

As I was about to tell her this to give her some form of comfort in knowing that it wouldn't always be this way, she turned on her heel and ran away.

APOV

There was no way I could stand for him to say 'there's nothing wrong with you' one more time. It was highly frustrating and I knew he meant well its just that I also knew it was a lie. There was no point in pretending that there wasn't anything wrong with me when there clearly was. I hate that I ran away from him like that but I didn't know what else to do. When things get tough I run. Its what I do better then anyone else I know. So I kept on running not realising where it was I was actually going till I noticed my surroundings. I was running back to the place I felt safest with the people I love.

Home.

Never in a million years did I think I would get to say that word. A lot of people take it for granted but I know what its like to feel alone and have nobody care about you, so I try and cherish every moment I have with my family.

I pushed myself harder wanting to get home to the safeness of my room so I could break down and cry in peace without anybody watching. I rushed up to the empty house, unlocking the door and slamming it behind me once I was inside. I quickly made my way upstairs feeling ready to breakdown at any moment and ran in the direction of my room. Once inside my room I locked the door and heaved a sigh of relief knowing I no longer had to hold in everything I was feeling. Slowly but surely the tears collected in the corner of my eyes and streamed down streaks, falling onto my jacket. I took it off and threw on it the floor, not caring where it landed and threw myself onto my bed, lying on my stomach and buring my face into my arms.

Before I knew all my doubts and fears were bursting out of me and I was wailing louder than a dog. I was just thankful that the house was empty which meant no one could hear me. I didn't think it would feel this good to finally let it all out. I knew there was a good chance I would feel lighter afterwards, I guess I was just to scared to finally let it all go. I lifted my head up off of my arms and reached over to my bedside table to grab a tissue for my nose. I blew it lightly then threw it towards the bin where it just missed and fell lightly to the side. I grumbled to myself and put my head back down onto my arms not bothering with the tissue. It could wait.

I finally calmed down but decided to just stay where I was. I was comfy and I felt safe so I decided that maybe I should take a little nap to relax myself. I snuggled myself furthing into my bed quilt, not bothering to get under because I was warm enough as it was and I don't think I would be as comfy since I was wearing jeans. I was slowly slipping into unconciousness when I heard a faint tapping at my window. I decided to ignore it, thinking it was nothing and allowed myself to drift off again.

Before I got far the tapping continued and I sighed while lifting myself off of the bed so I could check it out. The first thing I noticed when I lifted my head was the person crouched on my window ledge, glancing down at the ground in apprehension every now and again hoping they wouldn't fall.

Some how Jasper had climbed up the tree that stood outside my window and made it onto the ledge, gripping the sides of the window as hard as he could.

I pushed myself off the bed and slowly walked over to the window, pausing in front of it, not sure what to do next. Should I let him in or not? Would he be mad or upset with me for running away? I decided the only way to get the answers to my questions would be to do the thing I didn't want to most. I took a deep breath and prepared myself for the scolding I thought I was sure to get. I pushed the window up then backed away and flung myself back onto my bed so I didn't have to see his face. I didn't want to see the disappointment in his eyes. It would have been too much and I really didn't want to cry again. I had done that too much lately and it was beginning to get tiring.

I heard him jump through the window then close it softly. His feet shuffled across my bedroom carpet towards my bed and I felt it dip as he sat beside me. I felt his hand rubbing my back up and down to sooth me.

"Alice?" He began. "Won't you please look at me? I promise I'm not angry or upset with you."

I could tell he was telling the truth, I could hear it in his voice. Plus, I don't think Jasper would ever lie to me. Even though I knew that my stupid insecurites were still holding me back. If I knew he was telling the truth why couldn't I look at him? It didn't make any sense and I hated feeling this way.

"Alice." He repeated drawing out my name while he lightly tickled my back. I couldn't help the giggle that escaped me and before I knew it I was full out laughing with him on top of me pinning my legs to the bed whilst sitting on them.

Before he went crazy with another round of tickling I keld my hands up in surrender. He grinned down at me and instead of going for my sides he placed both hands on the sides of my face and kissed me sweetly. What began innocent soon turned into a frenzy of kisses. I was getting so caught up in my feelings that I almost forgot I didn't want our first time together to be rushed and over before it even started. I wanted it to be something special that we'd remember forever.

"Jasper." I gasped. He groaned in response but continued to softly nip at the skin on my neck sending shivers up and down my spine.

"Jasper." I tried again this time pushing a little on his chest so he got the point. He stopped what he was doing and layed his head on my chest while he gained control of his breathing before talking to me.

"Sorry." He apologized sheepishly.

"Don't be." I assured him. "I was just as eager as you were. I just want our first time together to be special, you know?" He nodded his head as I continued. "I don't want it to be rushed. I want it to be us, together... Feeling everything and setting our own pace so we never forget. Just like how I always imagined my first time being."

Jasper decided to ignore the last part of that sentence and leaned in softly kissing me on the lips again.

"I know exactly what you mean." He whispered. "I want it to be special because you are special. You deserve everything good in life and more."

He smiled down at me and his eyes shone with the love and adoration he had for me and I decided right there and then that this was the perfect moment. I was with the man I loved more then anything else in the world with an empty house. It couldn't be more perfect. I reached up and ran my fingers through his soft blonde hair and whispered "I'm ready." That's all it took for him to know I was ready. He knew I wouldn't push myself into something this big unless I was ready… Especially after everything I had been through.

His eyes immediately darkened with lust now he realised I was serious about this. He placed his lips softly on mine and I brought my arms up and around his neck, pullling him closer to me. His body was flush against mine and I could feel his growing erection pressing into my thighs. I groaned into his mouth and he groaned back just as enthusiastically. Suddenly his hands were everywhere all over my body and all thought went out the window. My mind was a cloudy haze and I couldn't remember ever feeling this good.

My fingers slowly worked the buttons of his shirt and unfastened them one by one. He shrugged it off and threw it to the floor. He lips immediately found my collarbone. He sucked and nipped on it lightly leaving me breathless and yearning for more. He traveled lower down my body placing kisses to my flushed skin. He brought his hand over my left breast and hesitated. It hovered there a few seconds before I gave him an encouraging smile and he gave my breast a soft squeeze. I moaned my appreciation and I was suddenly thankful that Rosalie had thought to buy me some decent bras. Though I had been almost as embarrassed as Bella was looking through all that lace. I'd never seen that shade of red on a person before…

Jasper nipping and sucking on my collarbone brought me back to the present. He tugged on the end of my tank top and I lifted myself of the bed a little so he could pull it over my head. He sucked in a deep breath when he saw my red lace bra. It was one of my favourites and lifted up my cleavage making it look like I had more then I actually did. He licked his lips and I giggled at the excited look on his face. He brought his face down and placed soft kisses just above my bra on my right breast. He worked the other with his hand, surprising me when he pulled my cup down and moaned at the feel of me in his hands.

He removed his hand from my breast and replaced it with his mouth, sucking hard on my nipple.

"Oh God." I whimpered. Jasper chuckled at my reaction, sending vibrations through my chest.

"You feel so damn good." He whispered. He reached around me and unhooked my bra, pulling the straps down my arms and flinging it across the room. He then moved to my jeans, hurriedly trying to get the button undone.

"I really need to get your jeans off." He panted, finally undoing the button and pulling down the zip. I lifted myself off the bed and he pulled down my pants and panties at the same time.

"I could say the same about you." I laughed a little breathlessly. I made quick work of his pants and found I was strangley nervous about seeing Jasper naked for the first time. I knew that even though I was nervous I was definitely more excited. I don't ever remember feeling this good before, it was almost like a drug.

When his jeans were off I fingered the top of his boxers before slowly slipping them down his hips and gasping when his erection sprung free. All I could think was how I was such a lucky woman and no other woman would be able to enjoy him except for me. Seeing him ready and waiting for me had that fire inside me burning like a furnace. I wanted him so bad and before I knew it I pounced on him, both of us falling back onto the bed, me on top with Jasper laughing hard at my reaction.

My mouth flew to his and I kissed deep and hard, putting everything into it. I opened his mouth with mine and our tongues danced together fighting for dominance.

"I need you Jasper, I need you so bad." I pleaded. I was rubbing my thighs together hoping for some friction but it wasn't nowhere near what I wanted the most.

"Soon, I promise. Right now, I want to do this." He flipped us over so he was on top off me and ran his long fingers over my skin and spread my legs far apart. I gave him a curious look and he winked at me before putting his fingers on my thigh and slowly making his way up to where I wanted him the most. My breathing sped up and I was close to screaming when he finally…

"Holy shit." I whispered. "Don't ever stop."

"I don't plan too." He said gazing at me lovingly. He bent forward giving me a kiss before slowly pumping his fingers in and out of me.

"God you feel so good." He said in a husky voice while reaching over to play with my breast.

He added another finger and started rubbing at me with his thumb. I could feel the fire inside me getting hotter and hotter and I knew without a doubt he was going to push me over the edge soon.

"Faster Jasper. I need you to go faster." I commanded trying to breathe.

"Anything for you." He promised pumping faster just like I had wanted.

I gripped the sheets beneath my hands in a tight grip needing something to hold onto. I felt kisses on my stomach getting lower and lower and before I knew it I could feel his hair brushing against my thighs tickling me. He removed his fingers from inside me and I almost cried from the loss of contact. His eyes filled with so much lust bore into mine as he licked his fingers clean and I had never been so turned on in all my life.

"Mmm you taste so good. I wouldn't mind eating you all day." Did I mention how much I loved his dirty talk. I hadn't seen Jasper like this before and I had to say… I fucking loved it.

"Jasper, please." I begged. I didn't even know what I was begging for I just knew I needed him to do something.

He chuckled at my begging and spread my legs even further apart right before his lips found me and I cried out in pleasure.

"Yes, yes, yes!" I chanted as he sucked and licked and did all kinds of crazy things to me. His hair brushing against my thighs just added to that euphoric feeling that was building up. His teeth grazed me as he dared to suck harder and I cried out again.

"Uhh… feels so fucking good." I panted.

"Come for me…" Jasper whispered, now rubbing at me with his thumb while attacking me with his talented lips. And just like that I came fast and hard, seeing stars behind me eyes and calling out his name while gripping the bed sheets so tight that my knuckles had turned white.

I took deep breaths to try and calm my breathing while Jasper crawled up my body to kiss me. I licked his lips and tasted myself on him.

"I do taste good." I whispered seductively and he growled in my ear and started sucking on my neck. I'm pretty sure he gave me a hickey but at that very moment in time I couldn't careless.

"I need you so bad right now." He growled into my neck, sending shivers through my body.

"Take me then." I replied just as eager. I ran my hands down over his chest and toned stomach and until I brushed against him and I felt him twitch against my thigh. I took him in my hand and began pumping him.

"Feels so fucking good." He growled into my ear and I smiled satisfied that only I could make him feel this good. Before I could get him to finish he grabbed my wrist and stopped me.

"Did I do something wrong?" I asked hesitantly.

"No of course not!" He tried to reassure me.

"Then why did you make me stop?" I asked confused.

"Because the first time I come, I want it to be inside you and not in your hand." I blushed a little from his words and found myself trying look anywhere but him. He laughed and covered my face with kisses that made me giggle because they tickled.

He grabbed my legs and wrapped them around his waist. He positioned himself at my entrance and watched my face for any signs that I wanted to stop. I smiled at him and placed a hand on cheek, rubbing it affectionately. He must have seen what he needed to on my face because I could feel him slowly pushing into me trying to be careful.

When he was fully inside we were both breathing hard, brimming with excitement that it was finally happening. I could tell it was taking everything in him to not pound into me with everything he had. He waited a few more seconds before pulling out and push back in again. He started a steady rhythm and it wasn't long before we were both panting breathlessly and giving each other drunken kisses.

"Faster. I want you to go faster." I panted. He picked up his pace and I brought my arms up and wrapped them around his neck to bring him closer to me. His lips soon found my breast and he placed open mouth kisses that sent shivers up and down my spine. He rolled my nipple between his fingers making it perk up and then started sucking on it. He grazed it lightly with his teeth and I moaned out loud at the sensation it gave it to me.

"Urgh… I'm coming Alice, I can feel it. I want you to come with me." He said into my chest.

He brought a hand down between us and fingered my clit while he pumped in and out of me faster then I thought possible. I was feeling a million things at once and I could feel the burning inside spreading through my body and Jasper's thrusts started to get erractic. My hands tightened in his hair as I felt myself get pushed over the edge and he kissed me with everything he had, both of us moaning into each others mouths.

Jasper lay slack on top of me placing kisses on my sweat covered skin. I loved the feel of his skin against mine and I had never felt so connected with someone in my whole life. He pushed himself off me and rolled onto his side, bringing me with him. I cuddled into him lying my head on his arm for a pillow.

"Shit!" I heard Jasper gasp. I looked up at him and started getting nervous with the panic I saw in his eyes. "We didn't use a condom."

I sighed in relief knowing that wasn't anything to worry about and laughed a little at the expression on his face. I laughed even harder when he looked down at me with a look on his face that said 'have you completely lost you mind!'

"Its okay Jasper. I'm on the pill." I saw him visably relax and that tid bit of information and I giggled again. "Sorry I didn't tell you. I err… got a little caught up in the moment."

"Its okay." He laughed a little. "When did you go on the pill?"

"It was right after they found me. They thought it would be a good idea and I agreed. Which I'm most definitely happy about doing right now." I grinned up at him.

He chuckled and cuddle me closer. He released me a little so he could pull my cover back so we could get underneath. After we were settled he pulled me against him again immediately not liking the distance between us anymore then I did.

"I love you so much." He whispered to me before nibbling lightly on my ear.

"I love you too." I replied happily. I sighed in contentment and wondered how my life had turned out into my very own fairytale. I was unbelievably happy right now I just wanted to run screaming through the streets and sing cheesy songs from the rooftops.

Me and Jasper spent the rest of the day in my room, neither one of us being disturbed by our family. They could probably sense that we needed this time together and I was so thankful that I was apart of a family that knew and understood each other so well. It was everything I remembered dreaming of.

I knew that this was what it was all about. You always hear about it in the movies and most people think its just cheesy but that's how it can feel like to a person in real life if you found the right person. When you find that special someone you just know it in heart. They know you inside out, what you're feeling, whether you need your space or just to be surrounded by the ones you love most. They're there for you no matter what until the very end and you know without a doubt that you wouldn't survive without that person.

I finally realised that I didn't need the drugs to make my life seem like it was better then it actually was. All Heroin did was make me feel better but it didn't solve anything. I needed something or someone in my life that would keep me grounded and show me the world wasn't as bad as I thought it was. Sure, it had its downsides and not everyone living in it was leading a happy life because they didn't have that special someone to show them the light through the darkness. I had Jasper for that and with him I could see everything a lot more clearly. Jasper was my light and I didn't plan on ever letting him go.

We made our connection, a full on chemical reaction, brought by dark divine intervention , yeah, you are a shining light…

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