Matt feet crunched thru the snow on the ground as he walked up towards Shay, and Severide's apartment. It had stopped snowing at this point but not without leaving a few inches first. As he reaches the front door he blows his warm breath into his clamped hands to warm them from the cold air before rapidly knocking on the door and returning his hands to his mouth to keep warm again.
After a brief pause the door swung open." Kelly did you leave your keys again." Shay says looking behind her into the apartment before quickly turning as her smile faded noticing who it was." Oh Casey, what's up?" She asks stepping into the doorway blocking his entrance.
"I want to talk with Gabby." Matt said firmly but polite.
"Well how do you know she's even here?" Shay snapped.
"Come on Shay it's freezing out here." Matt says shivering." I know she's here so please let me talk to my wife." He pleaded with her.
Just as Severide came up the walkway now." What's going on?" He asks stopping behind Matt.
"He wants to talk with Gabby."
"Shay let the guy in to see his wife." Severide says moving past Matt opening the door wider." This is not your fight to battle." He whispers to Shay as she moves out of the doorway.
"No but he still hurt my friend."
Matt dropped his eyes to the ground now." I know." He whispers ashamed of his behavior.
"Come in Casey." Severide says but still looking at Shay.
Gabby steps out of the bathroom now using one crutch as she notices the commotion at the door." What's going...Matt?" She says as he comes into view." What are you doing here?" Her voice soft, sad seeing him stand there still makes her heart race.
"I'm sorry." Matt says stepping forward causing Gabby to step back." Baby I'm sorry." He says again more hurt by her coldness.
"Matt don't." Gabby says turning away heading for the couch." Sorry won't cut it."
Severide takes Shay's arm now moving towards the stairs." We'll be upstairs if you need us." He whispers getting a nod both both Matt and Gabby before the were out of sight.
Matt slowly moved closer to Gabby sitting on the loveseat across from her. He studied her puffy eyes and sad face, feeling the ache in his heart grow knowing he caused this." Gabby." He whispers getting her to look up causing his heart to skip a beat when her eyes meet his." I'm truly sorry."
Gabby watched the sincerity in his eyes." I'm sure you are." She finally responds as a tear falls down her cheek.
"Baby." Matt says leaning across to wipe her tear." Can we move past this?"
Gabby placed her hand over Matt's that lingered on her cheek." I don't know." She says meeting his eye's again." I forgave you the last time you walked out."
"I know."
"Now I need time." Gabby says dropping her hand from Matt's looking away." To think this thru."
"How much time do you need?" Matt asks with panic laced in his voice." And think what thru...us?" He says pulling his hand away now.
"Yes all of it." Gabby whispered afraid to look up.
Matt's hurt quickly grew to anger as he stood from his seat turning his back towards Gabby." So that's it your just giving up?" He asks annoyed never turning back." I've given up, no wait I've lost everything for you to have what you want."
"So your calling me selfish again?" Gabby snapped." Well maybe I am, cause I was selfish to think that this could have ended any differently. No Matt I'm done fighting with you about this ." She now looks up to him." I think you should still go to Jefferson Park."
"What about you?" Matt stuttred out holding back tears." You never wanted to come did you?"
"Matt I, I just need time." Gabby says as fresh tears start to fall." All of this really scares me."
"Moving?" He questions." Then I'll commute if you want."
Gabby turned her body to face Matt taking a deep breath and wiping her tears." It's not just the move. You really hurt me Matt."
"Babe." Matt rushed to her kneeling down." I'm so sorry for that I promise, I was just angry." He places both hands on her thighs now pulling her closer to him as his own tears fell." Just come home with me I love you."
Gabby placed both her hands on his cheeks before kissing his forehead." I love you too, but I can't come home with you."
"You love me but you can't come home."He repeats in a sarcastic tone pulling her hands from his cheeks." Gabby we are married you know, so this is you hurting me now." Matt says with a slight chuckle.
"Matt don't make this harder then it already needs to be."
"Then don't and come home." He pleads." What will it take?"
"Time."
"What about the baby?" Matt asked worried." Do you still want that?"
"Of course Matt and you will be a part of everything involving that."
"But us you need time." Matt says understanding.
" Please."
"Fine I will give you what you want." He says sitting down next to her." But I want you to know this is not what I want."
"Thank you." Gabby says placing her hand in his." And I meant what I said about Jefferson Park, I want you to take that job."
"No not if will destroy us."
"Matt If we are gonna try to work out our problems then that is one of them, and if you really liked it their then I need to figure out for myself if we can make it work from a far.
"Ok, but only if you promise to try to make it work with us." Matt says ." Let me make it up to you."
"I will." Gabby says giving him a smile." I don't want to be mad or hurt anymore."
"For that I'm sorry again." Matt says kissing her cheek." Just know that even if I'm giving you your space doesn't mean I'm going to give up easily without a fight." He says wrapping his arm around her shoulder.
"Good I don't want you to give up on us just yet." Gabby says placing her head on Matt's shoulder.
They sat together quiet now no longer angry at each other but only realizing the new obstacles they were about face would either make them or break them. Neither one wanting to admit how scared they were.