Huuuuuh ...
No , this isn't some lack of imagination as to how I could resume what happened few hours ago , it's just that I have no fucking idea as to describe the scenery when I open my eyes slowly , for the second time of the day .
I am greeted not only by the sleeping naked form of Tayuya sleeping and drooling on me , but also by all the other girls who probably thought it would be a good idea to see if I was still asleep , or awake .
Don't misunderstand me , I'm REALLY happy to see that all of them are safe and sound , and that they were worried about me , but I don't think this was the best way to celebrate the fact that we were still together .
I can't help but scoffing and having my eyebrows twitching nervously . Are they all here , in my tiny room to just watch Tayuya drooling on me while sleeping , or were they waiting for me to say something first ? Either way , both of the ideas were quite ... embarrassing right now . I was far from having it all solved and cleared with Tayuya , but the last hours had helped to ease her wrath against me . That was a start , but she was only one of all of them , and I still had to make it up to the others because of my fucking asshole-like attitude back there .
It was still an awkward feeling to be back in my very own room , in my small appartment on the 3rd floor of my building. I was used for so long to living alone , resigned at the idea that it would remain that way , and now due to my ' travel ' into this world , this whole adventure , my boring and shitty life had took a turn for the best , probably , but there was also this side of me who thought that troubles would be reaching us sooner or later , because let's be honest , when you think you're done , there's always more , hiding somewhere , waiting to jump on you when expect it the least , right ? That's how life is , fucking unfair and you just have to deal with it , like it or not . As I said in the past , a perfect life would be too much to ask , and way too calm , devoided of true meaning .
I was surprised when Tayuya told me that one thing she had a complex about was her chest , instead of her rash and sometimes angry personality . I mean , with Natsuki being a tsundere , Caulifla being more of a fighter than a woman , more of a tomboy , Erza and Sakura having their respective mood changes , I was quite used by now to see a woman changing her attitude from better to worst in a matter of seconds . So it was easier to deal with it , even if tsunderes in general weren't my cup of tea . However , even if I wasn't 100 % into that style still , I knew how to handle it more , by acting the exact same way . Tsunderes are people who don't want to admit their true feelings , by fear of being rejected , shy by nature , or having issues with the reality around them . So because I ' kinda ' had a part of me who was just like that , it was more practical to study this phenomenon from afar for a while , before practising myself , and adding this to my personality.
It came quite fast , so I thought it might have been something natural for me , maybe I was destined to be that way to some extend ... Well , whatever .
I change the direction in which I was looking from the girls to the ceiling for a bit , realizing again all of this , from the very beginning , wasn't a dream but had truly happened ! I was of course a lot to digest , many people would just brush aside all of this or just consider it a dream/nightmare because it is all way too surreal to be true , but it actually was !
I look at the girls again seeing that they were obviously really wanting to talk about something , but I couldn't just wake the sleeping , yet cute , monster on top of me , or I would have my head printed in the wall just behind me . Hmm , guess I really have to get up , but that means actually putting back my clothes on me . And the only clothes I can see so far are the same ones I had in the other world , that black sleeveless shirt full of holes and cuts here and there , my tattered pants , and Tayuya's clothes she borrowed from me on top .
I motion to Sayori to ' please , hand me my clothes , the ones who just look like a tiger or a mad cat just tested his claws on ' with my index finger , looking on the ground . She comes near me , hand me my clothes and ... kisses me in the process ! Okay , now I have a much better idea about what this conversation is about.
She turns herself to go back to her spot , but I grab her hand , and I firmly grasp it as to tell her to stay there a bit more . She looks flustered , and kneel next to the bed , looking at me with her blue eyes , and the red tint on her cheeks . I release my hold on her hand , and I pat her hair , before actually letting my fingers slowly making their way through her hair . I look at her with a faraway look , I close the distance between us , and after kissing her softly on the lips , I lowly tell her .
" I promised I would kick the shit out of your demon's ass inside that head of yours right ? Now the little angel is alive and well , and can leave her life to the fullest . "
I put my forehead against hers and close my eyes , thinking about all we've been through . It might had been really rough and tough for her , for them , having to care about each other , but also about my sorry ass , while me , what was I really doing for them ? Did I really helped them ? When was the last time I showed them my affection, a proof of my supposed love to all of them , an equal one ?
I frown at that realization , and look away with a sad face , avoiding eye contact . I didn't saw them , but I still felt their gazes on me , and they too , might have realized this after this emotional moment . I can't blame them if they are somehow disappointed or mad at me , after all they saw and heard , all I truly did was whining like a fucking child about how mean people was to me and how life was hard . Sure it wasn't easy at all , but me , complaining instead of keeping it inside me like I always did ? There's some times when you just have to shut it up , and deal with it as best as you can ...
Wait... What am I saying ?
This is , in a nutshell , what I did my entire life , and what led me into that depressed state , where I lost all interest , all passion , all emotions , leaving me in that empty shell of my former self that I've been for the last years . Am I not the contradictory one , saying how white snow is one minute , and how black it looks just after ? Damn , my mind is fucking messed up , I really needed to mess it up even further , that early in the morning huh ?
11:39 A.M ...
Okay , scratch the ' early in the morning part ' , clearly not accurate anymore . I feel Sayori's soft hand cupping my chin , and making me look at her again , this time wrapping her arms around my neck and resting her head on my shoulder . I widen my eyes before looking at her , placing my hand on the back of her head , giving her a hug of my own , well , a one-arm hug ... With my right arm , the one I had injured . I stop myself from wincing at the slow amount of pain still inside it , and keep the hug firm and tight for some few seconds . I then look at her face smiling a bit before kissing her forehead , and letting my hand running along her left arm , and interlocking briefly my fingers with hers . I reluctantly let go when she point at me my clothes , on the top of my bedsheets , to which I nod , and she slowly goes out of my room , but it seems that she's the one who actually got the meaning of that action , because all the other girls are staying at their spots , watching me intensely . I look at them with my bored and blank face , motionning myself and my clothes , as a way to say ' me need dressing , you go out ! ' , but either my message isn't clear enough , either they just want to stare at my naked form .
My eyebrows starts to twitch even harder and I severely point all of them before showing them the door with my right hand , in a hard and fast motion , causing a bit of pain to resurface .
They stare at me like that , unmoving , unflinching ...
They couldn't be wanting to piss me off , right ? I mean , after all they saw , after how I acted , they don't want to see that side of me again... could they ?
FUCK ! I transformed them unknowingly into hard masochists !
I see that I have no option , so I roll slowly on my left side , making Tayuya getting off me , lying peacefully on her side , while I sit on the edge of my bed , clothes in hands , with the sheets still covering me from my waist to under my knees . No , I won't give them the pleasure of seeing me naked yet . Pants first,
followed by the shirt , then kissing Tayuya softly and caressing her cheek while I feel her fingers reaching for my other hand , intertwining our fingers together , as a way to say , even in her sleep ' stay , please '.
I smile to myself , thinking ' Seriously , you wouldn't be that much of a pain in the ass if you were honest like that when you're awake . ' . I don't know how , or why , perhaps she had the power of reading my thoughts,because she suddently start to put more pressure in her fingers , as if she was trying to break mines , and a tick mark on her forehead . Never wake up a sleeping yet cute monster ! That was a good self note , especially to stay alive , and perhaps have children some day...
I brush a strand of her hair that was on her face , ans I say softly , my face mere inches from hers.
" I'll be back , don't worry okay ? I'm just next door , so come when you're awake ? And please , stop trying to crush my hand , it already hurts a fucking shit lot ! "
" Hmmnngn ... You don't even want to wait for me then , leaving me alone in your bed ? What a jerk of a boyfriend ... Asshole ... "
" Tayuya ? You're awake ? " I say , taken aback by that . Could I possibly had woke her up when I rolled on the side to get her off my chest , and she felt it in her sleep ?
She opens her eyes to look at me , kissing me , and facing me with the same bored and deadpan face I was looking at the girls when trying to say ' get out please ' .
" No , I'm Naruto Uzumaki , I'm gonna be Hokage Dattebayo , and I'm gonna whoop your ass all around Konoha if you dare thinking my dream is as lazy ass shit as you are ! " Was her answer to my question . Needless to say that it made me laugh a bit , her facial expression adding it to the fun of the situation , while she just stare at me before chuckling as well .
" So , you gonna wait for your last girlfriend to come along to the party or you just gonna leave me in the dust , Casanova ? "
" Oh , so you did some research on the internet I see , because there's no other way that you would've known my world's Casanova in any of the other worlds you've been until now . " I playfully rub my thumb on her cheek with a smile on my face while saying stupidly " Who's the good girl that had done her homework ? It's you ! "
Well I was really happy about the fact that she cared about me and what I was thinking , but that was before she bit my thumb , with an angry look on her face .
" I'm you girlfriend fucking moron , not an animal you can pet and give it a reward for good behavior ! " She raged at me , while I was trying to make her lift the pressure on my poor finger ! Guess I deserved that , at least . " Okay okay I got it , you won , now STOP FUCKING BITING MY THUMB , THAT HURTS ! " I yell , making the other girls laugh at the comical situation currently taking place in front of them .
I pick up her clothes once she release me from her grip , and I give the to her . She starts to put her shirt on , then look at her panties and her pants , then at me . I'm not exactly sure why she does this , I do believe that it has a meaning . I look at her and raise an eyebrow as to silencely ask her what's wrong , and she exchange stares between me and the piece of clothing , then she look at where her legs were under the sheets with the corner of her eyes before slightly tilting her eyebrows , as to say ' there's a problem . ' .
Wait , is she telling me ... Oh , that makes sense after all . Considering what we've done , it would've been better for the both of us to take a shower before putting our clothes on , but we clearly didn't had the time or the opportunity to do so . I sigh and nod at her , understanding and telling her it's okay , we'll wash the clothes and ourselves after that problem solved . It was also a good thing that we didn't took a shower ,because we would have been at it again , and there was no telling if she really had a limit in that domain .
Even though we've been sleeping , it was mostly due to exhaustion after doing it , not because of a lack of sleep . Monika was very demanding on that matter , and Tayuya so far might very be on the same level . I don't know if it is something those two have in common , or if it is due to me being ' enjoyable ' or what that makes them wanting more every single time , not that I disliked it ... Hermmm , well , anyway !
She finally ends putting her clothes on , and I stand up , offering her my hand , but she brushes it away because it's my right hand , and instead take my left , and interlock her fingers with mine . I would have never expected her to actually consider the fact that my right arm was still injured , and going easy on me , not wanting to hurt me even further . I smile at her and kiss her on her cheek to thak her for that little attention, causing her to blush lightly , turning her face away . Tch , I know you like it , no need to hide it , you're not good at it at all you know ?
Everyone have smiles on their faces, or almost , some being more honests about themselves than others . We get out of my room , and they all gather themselves in a half-circle all around me , sitting on the floor . So , I have a bit of an idea about what this whole thing is about , but I shouldn't jump to conclusions and hearing what each and everyone has to say before speaking . So I sit crossed-legs , before remembering something . I have to tell them about it before all of this begins .
" Hrmm , not that I want to interrupt all of you , but you should sit in the sofa , the chairs , and let enough space between all of you . You might wonder why I'm telling this , it's because this building , and the appartments of course , are kinda old , and I doubt the floor will support for a long time all of our weight combined and center in one spot , not that we're heavy , but a lot of people , and they weren't designed for that . In fact, we might be closer to the double of what they are supposed to withstand , so I don't want me, or any of you , to injure yourself by passing through the floor , down a level . I care about each and every single one of my girlfriends after all . "
I say this while smiling a bit sadly , knowing that I'll have to talk about those thoughts at one point or another . Tayuya , due to our time spent together this morning , choose to sit on me , firmly gripping my left hand in her own hands . I don't know if it's because of the realization of her feelings for me , or the fear of somehow being abandonned , but she doesn't want me to be away from her . She rests her head on my shoulder , which I find both surprising an cute in the same time , and I wrap my arms around her frame .
We became really close in those few hours , and I wanted to keep that while also sharing it with all of them. I don't know what each and everyone thinks about all of this , that whole situation . It's kinda complex no matter how you look at it : One boyfriend for Seventeen girls , seventeen Girlfriends coming from games and animes/mangas for one simple guy like me ... Many of the guys I can think about , doesn't matter if I know them or not , would give both their arms and kidneys just to be in my position , but I doubt they realize how much troubles it can actually causes . I'm not complaining , just thinking about what could potentially happen because of that unnatural situation we're in . It's not your everyday occurence that first , you're sent in a non-existing world to meet and help not only 4 , but 17 different girls , most of them coming from different and other worlds not only from your own , but also from the one you're all locked in . And when you wake up , they are all still here , staring at you and only you , seemingly not wanted to be separated from you , and even though it's nice and really making me feel alive for the first time in decades , I can't just stop thinking about how we gonna sort things out . Eighteen different people , all in a relationship , in a world that don't know about the fact that they are now real , not only 2d-3d characters anymore , but living breathing , and kicking , human beings . Just how far science and die-hard fans of all those characters would react if they knew about them being alive , and here , with me ? The girls wouldn't react quite nicely to that , but there's also the everyday routine . How about money , food , bills , showers etc ? I can't afford to buy a phone to each of them , or clothes , or enough food for all of us . This was a pain in the ass just thinking about it , and I wish I could have the solution to this . Due to my depression , I have a daily treatment , and I can't quite go for a job . On the other hand , they can't go search for a job either , because not only they have to preserve their identities from the world , they also have to adapt to it . It's a foreign place for all of them , far away from games and mangas universes , when you have your powers almost allowing you to do whatever the fuck you want without caring too much about the consequences . Especially in that hellhole of a city where , probably like in every small city , every one knows about every one else , and their dirty little secrets, frowning on the most single thing that differentiate you from them, the " masses ".
Without realizing it , I was so deep in thought that I hugged Tayuya a bit too tightly , and she was now looking at me with concern on her face , along with the others . Even though this was supposed to be a matter for later , and I should have talked about it after them , I decide to tell them every single thing that had been through my mind . Of course , it created a lot of concern , and some few propositions and answers were proposed , but they were mostly for a short term situation , not a long term one , which was difficult to accept . I guess we'll have to go through all of this together in due time , for now , I should concentrate myself on what they have to tell me . I release a bit my hug on Tayuya , who seems to appreciate it , and rest her head again on my shoulder , a ghost of a smile on her face . You'll never cease to surprise me, fuck sake !
I like this sensation , I do have some aprehentions about the future , but overall , I feel serene , and most of all
ALIVE