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Pain, pain, so much pain. Kurt just wanted to die. He had been in some horrible situations before but he had never felt like his whole body was burning. It was so much worse than anything he had experienced before. He wasn't sure if he would survive this. God, what if he was already dying? Or was he dead? That was how it felt? No, it couldn't be that bad. He didn't deserve such an intense pain. He wasn't ready to die, he had so much to do… Yeah, there was definitely something waiting for him in the world. What was it? He knew that it was something important but he couldn't remember…

Sometimes he heard voices. He couldn't make out the words but there was somebody talking to him. It was such a gentle voice, it made Kurt feel a little better. Sometimes the voice faded away and he was all alone in the darkness. No, not complete darkness. Sometimes he saw a faint light but he had no idea where it came from. This whole situation was so confusing. He didn't remember anything… Why couldn't he remember? How had he ended up in this place without knowing about it?

There was that gentle voice again and he heard someone cry. Why were they crying? Were they crying for him? But Kurt was still here… He didn't want to die.

The pain became worse than ever and he felt himself being pulled towards… something. He didn't want to move. He was so tired and everything hurt so much, he didn't want to feel any worse than now. He just wanted to be like this forever. Okay, not forever, just for a little while.

A sudden sharp pain in his stomach brought him out of the darkness and he moaned as he opened his eyes, the pain becoming almost unbearable. He was a strong person but it was too much for him. He couldn't breath, he couldn't move, he couldn't listen to those voices around him. God, they were so loud…

A face came into his view and Kurt smiled. Blaine. It was Blaine, leaning over him, talking to him. He didn't care what Blaine was talking about, all that mattered was that Blaine was here. Kurt would be alright because Blaine wouldn't let anything happen to him.

"...you hear me?" Blaine's voice finally made its way to him and Kurt blinked in confusion. Maybe he should pay attention to what Blaine was saying. "Are you in pain? Should I call the doctor?"

"Where am I?" Kurt tried to say but his voice was so weak, barely more than a whisper.

"It's gonna be okay, Kurt" Blaine said. "You are in the hospital. You… You had an accident but you are going to be fine."

Accident… Yeah, there had been an accident. Kurt remembered falling down from somewhere, he remembered the fear he had felt back then but other than that, there was nothing. Just darkness.

"Accident?" he whispered.

"Look, I think I should call a doctor. You must be in pain" Blaine said in worry.

"Yeah. Yeah, that would be great" Kurt said.

"I will be back in no time" Blaine said.

Kurt watched as he ran out of the room, wincing as pain shot through his skull when Blaine slammed the door shut. He already hated this. He didn't want to feel the pain anymore. He didn't even know where it came from. He felt it in his head, in his arms, all over his chest and his stomach. That one felt different, though. Wait a second…

Kurt pressed his lips together and forced his aching arms to move. He finally grabbed the sheet covering his body and pulled it up. He was right. The pain in his stomach was familiar because he had felt it before. When Elyse had been born. He had given birth again, he just didn't remember it.

But then he remembered everything else. He remembered his encounter with Tony, he remembered what horrible things he had told him, he remembered trying to break free and then the fall. He had fallen down the stairs. He had tried to protect his babies but he had failed. He must have lost consciousness and he hadn't been able to…

Kurt was already in panic, crying and trying to get up from the bed when Blaine returned with Sebastian. At least a familiar face… Kurt needed someone who understood him. He needed help, fast.

"What are you doing?" Sebastian asked as he rushed inside. "You can't get out of the bed. You have to…"

"My babies!" Kurt cried desperately. "I fell and must have lost consciousness and they… They are gone, right? I couldn't protect them. I failed to keep them safe, I…"

"Kurt, you have to calm down" Blaine said as he joined Sebastian and tried to push Kurt back down.

"Don't touch me!" Kurt screamed. "This is all your fault. They are dead because of you!"

"Kurt, what…"

"The twins are fine" Sebastian said quickly. He had to make Kurt listen because he would just hurt himself with this. "Can you hear me? Yes, you had an accident but you were brought in here and we could take them out in time."

"What?" Kurt asked, finally going still.

"Your babies are fine. They are two days old and perfectly healthy" Sebastian smiled.

"Do you want to see them?" Blaine asked. He thought that Kurt must have been worried about the twins, that was why he said those things.

"We can bring them here" Sebastian nodded.

Kurt slumped back into the bed and took a deep breath. His babies were fine. They were alive and they were okay. He had done it after all. He had protected them.

"Honey, you are going to be alright" Blaine said gently as he sat down beside Kurt and took his hand. "I know you must be confused right now, you went through a lot after all, but believe me, the kids are fine and you are going to recover as well."

Kurt looked at Sebastian for reassurance. He didn't trust Blaine anymore.

"He is right" Sebastian nodded. "You broke a few bones but you might get better soon. Stay here with Blaine, I'm gonna find my colleague and ask him to run a few tests and…"

"Don't" Kurt said hastily.

"Kurt, they have to check if there is any permanent damage" Blaine said.

"Don't leave me here with him. Please" Kurt said, his eyes still on Sebastian.

"With Blaine?" Sebastian asked in confusion. "You remember Blaine, right? He's your husband, I think he should…"

"I don't want him near me" Kurt said as he pulled his hand back.

Blaine watched him with wide eyes. He had no idea why Kurt acted like this. Sure, they had a break because of his behaviour but Kurt surely didn't want him to leave right now… Right?

"Are you sure?" Sebastian asked hesitantly.

"I don't want him near me" Kurt said again as he looked at Blaine. "Or the twins. You can't let him hurt my children."

"Kurt, what are you talking about?" Blaine asked with wide eyes. "I would never hurt you or our children…"

"They almost died because of you!" Kurt shouted.

"Blaine, I think you should leave" Sebastian said carefully. He didn't know why Kurt acted like this but the stress wasn't good for him. He had to calm down.

"I can't" Blaine said desperately. "I… Kurt, please, listen to me…"

"Get the hell out of here" Kurt hissed.

"Blaine, come on" Sebastian said and quickly stepped to Blaine to grab his arm. "Let's have some fresh air, okay?"

"But..."

"Just come with me" Sebastian said.

With some effort, he dragged Blaine out of the room and shut the door behind them.

"What the hell was that?" Blaine asked when the door was closed behind them.

"It must be his head injury" Sebastian said. "Just stay out here, okay? I'm gonna find out what's going on."

"I don't understand" Blaine said desperately.

"Me neither" Sebastian said. "That's why we have to run a few tests on him as soon as possible. Stay out here. I will be back soon."

Blaine could do nothing. He watched helplessly as Sebastian left to get the other doctor. He looked at the door next. He wanted to go in there to Kurt so badly, to hold him in his arms and reassure him that everything would be alright. But Kurt didn't want to see him at all. Blaine hoped that the doctors could fix this because he couldn't do this. He wanted to be with his family, he wanted to be there for Kurt, he couldn't just let stay away from him when Kurt needed him so much.

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"What's your name?"

"When is your birthday?"

"Do you remember your family?"

"Where do you work?"

Kurt sighed tiredly as he answered all those questions. He wasn't crazy. Whatever these people thought, he knew exactly who he was and he had no memory loss. He was perfectly fine. Why couldn't they just leave him alone?

"Now you believe me?" he asked after answering all those questions. "I remember everything. I'm fine."

"Are you sure?" Sebastian asked as he stepped forward. "You acted really weirdly around Blaine. It made us worried."

Kurt looked at him and then the other people in the room. He didn't want to talk about this to anyone. Only to Sebastian. He trusted Sebastian after all.

"Could we talk privately?" Kurt asked.

"Sure" Sebastian said and turned to the others. "Are we done here?"

"For now" the other doctor nodded. "We have to check on you once the results come back, Mr Hummel."

"I'm not going anywhere" Kurt sighed. He couldn't even leave his bed, he surely wouldn't leave the hospital anytime soon.

"See you soon" the doctor smiled and left.

Sebastian waited until everyone was gone and then checked if the door was closed, then turned back to Kurt.

"Okay. What's going on?" he asked.

"You promised me to let me see the twins" Kurt said quietly.

"I did" Sebastian nodded. "And I will bring them here myself, once we talk. Because you didn't want privacy to ask for your kids."

"You are right" Kurt whispered.

"Kurt, what's going on? Why did you kick Blaine out?" Sebastian asked.

Kurt took a deep breath. He remembered what Tony had told him. He remembered all those horrible words, the fear he had felt, the fear that was still there… He couldn't lose his children. He couldn't let that happen.

"It wasn't an accident" Kurt started. "When I fell… There was somebody else there."

"Yeah, I heard that" Sebastian nodded. "The police is searching for that guy, by the way. They want to ask you about it, too, but I guess they were right. Somebody pushed you down those stairs, right?"

"Yeah" Kurt whispered. "I knew that he wanted to destroy me but I never thought he would do such a thing. Hurting me is one thing but trying to kill my children…"

"What happened?" Sebastian asked gently.

"I was on my way to get Elyse. I just left the apartment and then… I saw him" Kurt said. "I have no idea how he got into the building but he was waiting for me. It was creepy."

"I agree" Sebastian said. What a lunatic would do that? And why? Kurt was such a kind person.

"He told me horrible things" Kurt said as he started crying. He heard those words in his head over and over again. It was too much. "He-he said that he and Blaine would take the kids away from me. That they would raise them together."

"Who?" Sebastian asked.

"Tony" Kurt whispered.

"Tony? The guy who was all over Blaine?" Sebastian asked. It didn't make any sense. He had talked to Blaine, he knew what had happened. He also knew that Blaine didn't want to see that guy ever again.

"They want to take my children away from me" Kurt cried. "Please, help me. They can't take them away from me. I-I won't let that happen."

"Kurt, noone wants to take your children" Sebastian said gently. Kurt must have knocked his head pretty badly if he thought that Blaine wanted to hurt him like that. Blaine had been there with Kurt this entire time. He wanted to get Kurt back, hell, he had punched Sebastian because he had thought that Sebastian wanted something from Kurt. Blaine certainly didn't want to do anything to hurt his husband.

"That's what he said" Kurt said. "Before he pushed me down those stairs. He said that he and Blaine would get the kids, all of them, and they would raise them together."

"And you believe that guy?" Sebastian smiled. "He is insane! Blaine told me that Tony forced himself on him and he could barely fight him off. That guy is sick. You shouldn't believe anything he told you."

"You think he lied to me?" Kurt asked.

"Yes" Sebastian said without hesitation. "He wanted Blaine and he did horrible things to get between him and you. Because he knew that Blaine still loved you. And when it didn't work, well…"

"He came to me" Kurt whispered. It did make sense. Tony was insane, he had surely tried to trick Kurt to make him break up with Blaine for real, so his way would be free to the man… And Kurt had believed him. He was such an idiot.

"And he let you believe in his lies, yes" Sebastian nodded. "You shouldn't trust people like him. He's a cruel man and he only wants to hurt you. Both of you. You didn't see Blaine when you were brought in here. He was so worried about you, he didn't give us a single moment of peace and when you were finally alright, he didn't leave your side. We could barely convince him to change clothes and check on the kids. We needed your father to come in here and tell him because Blaine didn't trust anyone else."

"Really?" Kurt smiled.

"Yes" Sebastian said. "Now that we got this out of the way… I'm gonna check on the twins and then bring them here. I'm gonna be back soon but until then, I think you should talk to someone."

"Is he still here?" Kurt asked.

"Of course. He's still waiting out there" Sebastian said, nodding towards the door.

"Could you… ask him to come back in here?" Kurt asked.

"Sure" Sebastian said as he walked to the door but turned back once again. "Hey, Kurt!"

"Yeah?"

"Don't screw this up" Sebastian said.

Kurt smiled as he watched Sebastian leave. Within seconds, the door opened again and Blaine stepped inside. He made a few careful steps towards Kurt's bed but then stopped. Kurt knew why. He was scared of what Kurt would tell him this time.

"I'm sorry for what I said" Kurt started. "I just… Things happened before my accident and I was confused…"

"It's okay" Blaine said quietly.

"No, it's not" Kurt said. "He did that to you, too, right? He tricked you. He made you believe in his lies."

"It was him, right?" Blaine asked. "It was Tony. He pushed you down those stairs."

"We had a fight" Kurt said, feeling like Blaine had to know everything about this. "He… He told me horrible things. He said that you were together and you moved in with him and-and that you wanted to take the kids away from me and raise them together…"

"Oh, Kurt" Blaine said as he sat down beside Kurt and grabbed his hand. "I would never do that. Not to you, not to Elyse. Even if we are… If we don't get back together, I would never do anything to hurt you. You are the father of my children and there's nothing that could change that. I would never take the kids away from you because I know how important they are for you."

"They are" Kurt cried. "I can't… I can't lose them, Blaine."

"I know" Blaine nodded.

"Or you" Kurt whispered.

Blaine's eyes widened. Was it real? Did he really hear that… Kurt really wanted them to...

"I wanted to tell you this before the accident" Kurt explained. "I wanted to ask to you move back to us and I wanted to try it again."

"I wanted to do that, too" Blaine said.

"Do you… do you still want that?" Kurt asked. "I mean… Do you want us to…"

"I do" Blaine said without hesitation. "There's nobody else for me, Kurt. You are the love of my life and even if we don't agree in some things… I can't think about being with somebody else. I don't want to. I love you and nothing can change that."

"Even when we fight over stupid things?" Kurt asked.

"Especially then" Blaine nodded. "I love our stupid fights but we both know that it's not why we spent this time apart. I… I want to apologise, Kurt. I was horrible to you, I hurt you and it is all my fault."

"Don't say that" Kurt said.

"It is true" Blaine continued. "I'm such an idiot. You were right all this time. I trust people too easily but I don't trust the person who means the most. That will change. I will change, I promise. I will do everything I can to make you and the kids happy. I love you all so much, I… I can't lose you again. I wouldn't survive that."

Kurt smiled. Although he knew that it wasn't that simple, he believed that they could make this work. Slowly, with time, but they would go back to normal eventually. Because they both wanted it and he believed that they could make it work.

"It's gonna be fine" Kurt said as he grabbed Blaine's hand and squeezed it.

That was all for now but it was still more than nothing. It was a start. Sebastian smiled as he watched those two, lost in each other so much that they didn't even notice him and the babies he brought with him. He didn't say anything, though. He didn't want to ruin the moment when these two finally talked to each other like adults and seemingly gave themselves another chance. Things would get better with time, Sebastian knew that. He wasn't an expert of love but his friends loved each other for sure and now that they had a second chance, they had to get it until they could. He would make sure these two didn't screw up again if he had to. These few days had been like hell for all of them, it was time for something new… Something better.

"Come on, let's give them a little more time" he whispered as he stepped back onto the corridor with the twins.

He usually wasn't so supportive but Kurt had helped him so much with his own love life, he deserved the same from Sebastian. Besides, he liked these kids. Especially that one with the loud voice, he was just like the smaller version of himself. Blaine and Kurt were so lucky to have a kid like this one. They should totally name the baby after him. Little Sebastian… He would love that.