For the past few days, I've been lying inside the tent for hours, never getting out to the sunlight because I wasn't still recovered from my wounds. Everyday felt so lonely and boring. No one would visit, like the gang would time to time just to feed me but like that's a different story. I stared up at the covers and blinked a couple of times. "JAEHAAAAAA!" I screamed out his name. "COME HEREEEEEEE!"

"Yes? You called." A smiled curled on his lips as he popped his head inside the tent. I knew he knew that it was rare for me to call him over, but I did for a reason.

"Come and annoy me. It's too boring to lay down and do nothing for hours. Entertain me."

It was like an arrow shot through his heart. "Whaaaaat?!" His voice and facial expression was too shocked to think. I knew he would be surprised. "You would want me to entertain you?!"

"Yes." I groaned out, thinking to myself if I'm making a mistake to call him over. "I am bored, so entertain me, like I said, Jaeha."

"Alright!" He moved himself in to annoy the heck out of me.

Only Jaeha could do the job because Shinah is just a no, Kija is another no, Hak is a definitely no, Princess can't relate much, Zeno will be depress me, and Yoon… What do I need to say about him? He's gonna lecture me about medicines or something. Jaeha is the only one that's funny and laid back in the group, it chokes me to say that.

Not long after ten minutes, I started to wack Jaeha's arm like crazy. He was asking some dumbass questions to me. Half was stupid, the other half was hilarious. "Ah…!" Jaeha winced in pain as he held it in his wide smile. He rubbed his sore arm from my rough hits. "You still hit hard….even though you're injured than me." A nervous chuckle slipped out of his mouth and sweat marks were running down his forehead.

"Sorry, Jaeha. You can leave if you want." I said, casting my eyes away from his. At the corner of my eyes, I saw Jaeha's face dropped more than his eyes. He didn't want to let me down because of my condition and I personally called him over. He knew I could barely walk because it felt like my feet had chains on them, scraping off my flesh to my meat.

"I'll stay to keep you company. Out of all the people, you chose me, so I feel special." Jaeha smiled, flipping his long hair back behind his shoulder. I saw sparkles behind him as he did that.

Since we were talking, I had something to ask him. "Jaeha, let me ask you a question."

"Ask me anything." He propped his chin on his hand, and awaited for my question. His attitude seemed so carefree, but wait until I ask the question and I'll see how he'll react to it.

"So… I know that you're a womanizer and pervert *cough cough* woman whore *cough cough*…. How many women have you slept with before you saw Princess?" Jaeha's face lit up from my nuclear question and I smirked at his jolted expression. He tried to conceal his wavering looks by laughing it out as if it didn't affected him.

"That's in the past now. I'm a new man!" Jaeha didn't even stutter or choked on his own words. How good he was to cover his past by saying that to me, but I'm not stupid to fall for it. Despite his words and facial expression, his body movements was telling me otherwise. His upper body was somewhat fidgeting from his nervousness of his role being unraveled.

"Ten."

"What? What do you mean 'ten'?" Jaeha poundered in confusion.

"What do you think? Guess." I arched my brows at him.

"Ten…. Ohhhhh." It finally clicked in his head when he thought about it. Jaeha didn't even try to turn his head away, so maybe he is admitting to it.

"Mhmmmm. Ten one night stand, it is!" I yelped, pushing myself to sit up on the bed. "How does it-"

A finger was placed against my opened lips. "We don't talk about the past, Dear." His hushed voice made me want to talk more about it. I'm very intrigued about his past with women now.

"Ten it is, huh? Tell me more about it." I sarcastically said.

"Do you think that low of me to do?" He brought his face closer to mine.

"Have you seen yourself?"

"Do you want a kiss from me and be the eleventh one?" I was quickly taken back of his words as I gulped, before recomposing myself in a split second.

I moved my head back, then hastily crashed it toward Jaeha's so-called beautiful head. BAMM! He felt backward and landed on his back. Jaeha looked like those bugs who's fallen on their shell and can't get back up, excluding the part where they kick their legs and arms in the air. I rubbed my throbbing forehead in pain, but I felt proud that I got to do that. "That's not going to work on me so easily. I'm not easy, I'm a tough bi-" Jaeha didn't let me finish my sentence.

"So you're saying I have a chance…?!" He sprung up like a jack in the box toy, and surprised me as he popped in my face.

"I never said that." I denied, shaking my head.

"You made it sound like I could have a chance. Do you not want to be with a Green Dragon like me?"

"Tell me when food is ready." I flopped back down to sleep, ignoring the pestering Jaeha who kept on questioning me after I didn't respond back to his question.

Later that day…

Peeeeeeeeeeeeewww Boooooooom

My ears alerted me to that fire crackling sound that I jolted me up from my long sleep. Just hearing that sound gave me a mini heart attack in my damn sleep. I wanted to walk where it was, but I couldn't. Maybe the others may come for me, because they have no choice but to really. So the time game is what I'm playing now….

I waited in silence for minutes. "I'm just waiting…. Just waiting…. And waiting…. Waiting for them to come inform me…. Mhm, they're coming soon…. They can't forget me…." I was talking to myself so normally, just waiting until they remembered about me.

I finally got out to get some sunlight to see someone soooo familiar. "Is that Kan Taejun I see? The one who so-called tried to killed Princess and Hak?" I turned my head to the side, staring at Taejun. "Is this King Hiryuu's calling? Did he hear my prayers about me gutting Kan Taejun opened?" I looked up at the blue, clear sky with big eyes.

"No, Seina." Yoon dragged me away from Taejun. "You sustained many injuries that is currently healing right now, so sit quietly and watch Mother Nature." Yoon planted me in his garden so I could be far away from Taejun as possible. "You stay put and watch the garden for me."

"Do I have a choice really?" I looked down at the gruesome ankles of mine.

"No you don't." Yoon walked off to leave me alone once again.

I looked at the grass I was sitting on, and it got me feeling sad. I felt like a child who wanted some love and attention, but everyone was busy with their own work that they totally forgot about me. It sounds selfish of me to say but I wanted them to notice me or something. Just something to say 'I'm here and not gone'. I picked up some small flowers off the grass and started to peel of its petals one by one. I don't think my wounds will ever heal. They're going to be carrying me like a little child on their backs. What a burden I am.

Pitter patter pitter patter pitter patter

Only the rain will know when I'm sad. It came down heavy, drastically changing the clouds sky to a dark shade of grey. I sat still in the now wet grass, hoping for them to remember me. "Remember the Black Bird." I whispered, smiling up at the wet sky, but only to cry in my own sadness that formed in my black heart. I fell on my back, splat, and curled in my fingers to catch the pouring rain that kept my hands wet for the longest. "The taste of bitter rain… bittered like my heart."

"Why did you bring me up to a tree?" I asked, looking up at Jaeha who just simply smiled down at me. I was watching Fire Tribe soldiers healing the sick with Yoon and Zeno helping them out.

"Just watch these soldiers try to help their own nation. Look how clumsy they look, trying to figure out what medicine to use, or how to aid a sick person." I could tell that Jaeha was trying to lighten up my mood because the past couple of days, I've been moody and mad, mainly because of that rainy night I had by myself. They totally forgot about me… Did they think that I can walk on my own? But I guess I'll forgive them… They were busy that day; everyday they're busy.

"Yeah." I said dryly. I wasn't interested in watching soldiers trying to help their own people because I had nothing to do with it. Then I started to cough out a bit, covering my mouth with my sleeves, but it just kept on coming and coming.

"Seina?" Jaeha's voice was deep in worriedness. I felt his eyes on me, scared that we'll be revealed because of my quiet coughing that may turn out to increase its volume. "Are you alright?" His large hands were on my shoulders and he tried to turn his face to look at me.

I turned my head away from him looking at me. "I'm… *cough* ...fine… *cough*" I think caught a cold from the rainy day. "It's just a cold." I finally turned to face him. "I'll be fine soon." I assured him, patting his head lightly. But when I was about to retract my hand, he quickly grabbed it in a tight hold that made my eyes dilated. "Wh-what's wrong?"

Jaeha gazed at me with a stern expression. "I could ask you the same question, Seina. I know you've been in a bad mood, but I never asked because I thought it wasn't the right time and moment. Now since I have you right here and alone with me," he zoomed his face close to mine and whispered, "tell me what's going on. I want to help you and listen to whatever you have to say." My breath hitched and heart fastened. The breathing from my nose was getting harsh from our closeness. This was not no Teasing Jaeha, it was Business Jaeha. I gulped in silence, unsure if I should answer honestly, fakely, or not at all to him.

"I'm fine. Small mood swings shouldn't bother you at all. It's a girl thing, isn't it?" I moved my head back to give myself some space. "You shouldn't get too close, or else you want to get sick by me."

"Seina—"

Quickly changed the topic, "Did those kids die from the bandits?" I remembered back when I tried to protect the two kids who encountered the bandits. I never really got to ask since I totally forgot about them, but somehow it popped into my mind right now.

"..." Jaeha kept silence, so I took that as a 'yes' then.

"Oh…" My voice dropped from my imagination of their murder. "The irony came back to me like a double edge sword… I tried to save the kids but instead the kids they die, just like…" I cut myself off because I couldn't afford to speak about it, and instead shook my head in disappointment. "I feel stupid for making the same mistake again. I guess I'm bound to not save anyone. People will die around me… I must be cursed." I ran my hands through my hair.

"Seina, you can't always pin the blame on yourself. You were injured. We can't blame you for that." He's always trying to defend me, but why not oppose me and my stupid decision of what I've done and couldn't have saved?

"If it wasn't my fault then, where were you guys when the kids were running around with Shinah's sword huh?" My hands moved up to grab onto his shoulders tightly, slightly digging into his skin. My big steel eyes were enraged from my past event that I couldn't save my own son from a killer like my so-called 'husband', who forced this child upon my will, torturing me with his acts and body.

"I…." Jaeha was speechless. He didn't know how to reply back to me because through my eyes, I bet he could see my hurting inside. Pain and burden was the only emotion that carried who I am, and the seers will know what hell I've been through, but did he see it? Did he see what a mess I was in my past? Will he be disgusted by me? Because this was never my wanting from the first place. I never asked to be taken advantage of, or to be used as something so disgusting that I'd rather die than live. "I can't say." He muttered out quietly, keeping his eyes locked on me. Jaeha wasn't going to rip his eyes off of me so quickly and easily.

"You saw it? You saw my pain and events in my eyes? It was a rolling film that showed you what I went through. Do you think I'm a disgusting person? Regardless of what I said about you, calling you a whore, a woman whore. Do you think low of me now?!" I started to move myself onto him, making him lay down on the tree branch that could hold our weight. My hands were still in place of his shoulders and I sighed, staring down at him.

"It's not your fault." He replied the same answer like always and it made me super mad like can't you say something else than that?!

"Shut up! Why do you keep defending me like that?! I didn't push my rapist away! I let him take advantage of me, let him use me. I didn't fight back, Jaeha! And is it still my fault?" My ears were desperate to hear something different to come out from his mouth.

"It's not your fault."

I growled and lifted up my hand. "You son of a—" I was moving too much that we both fell off the tree branch and landed on the ground, but that didn't stop me from resuming my action toward him. But I stopped my hand in midair. I didn't have the courage to slap him that I lowered it down. I moved off of him and dusted myself off. I sat down, still looking at him. "Why? Why do you keep defending me?!" I yelled at him, and he wiped off the dirt smeared on his cheek with his sleeve.

"It's because you were young, weren't you?" He took my silence as a 'yes'. "You didn't know any better until you got older. It was an event that you couldn't stop, you didn't know what to do, so stop blaming yourself!" In slow motion, I was tackled down by his hug. He suffocated me with his chest as he held me tight in his arms. One hand was on the top of my head and the other one was wrapped around my back. Jaeha was whispering incoherent words that I couldn't hear.

"But you were only interpreting it from my eyes…" I said. "I never—"

"You still told me about it even without your full details of the event. You confirmed that you were sexually assaulted without your realization, did you not?" He didn't look at me as he spoke, he just cradled me like a baby in his arms.

"Take me back to the tent… Let me rest." I didn't want to talk about it no more. Just being in his warmth made me feel warm and safe, but still tense and traumatized. I tried not to let my trauma get me whenever I talked to men.

"If you say so." Jaeha turned me up into the bridal position and carried me down to the tent in the village.