Part Twenty Six.

"God pours life into death and death into life without a drop being spilled."

~Author Unknown

~(A/N- Disclaimer: This is another chapter is really where the 'M' rating of this story comes into play. There is a detailed scene with sexual acts…)~

A few days later Addison woke up a little before noon; after changing clothes she headed down stairs and saw Crowley sitting in the living room.

"Morning." He greeted not glancing up from the newspaper he had.

"Morning." She responded.

"Ready?" He asked.

"Umm… I don't know, for what?" She asked confused.

'"Field trip." He stated as he stood from the couch.

"Where?" She asked, eyeing him cautiously.

"Come on." He said, as he grabbed her arm and ported them to Bobby's kitchen.

Addison looked around the unfamiliar room and then looked into the next room and saw Sam and Dean; looking back at Crowley she saw him pick up a bottle of liquor from the table.

She started into the room with Sam and Dean and stopped as she could now see Cas was in the room with them.

"Cas!" She exclaimed she ran over and hugged him, closing her eyes and enjoying the feeling as he wrapped his arms around her.

His eyes brightened at seeing her as he returned the hug and held her tightly against him, his heart races as his mind flashed back to the night they had spent together.

"Who the hell are you?" Bobby asked looking at her.

"That's Addison." Dean informed him.

Addison let go of Cas and turned around giving him a friendly smile.

"You're the Nephilim?" He questioned.

"Well, I prefer to be called Addison… but yes." She said.

"Hmm." Bobby said shaking his head.

"What?" She asked him confused at his reaction.

"I just thought being powerful and all you'd be bigger… or at least taller." He said.

Cas looked at Bobby, "Her physical size has nothing to do with her powers." He said.

Addison smiled at his comment and him not understanding exactly what Bobby had meant.

She stood right up against him and just enjoyed being back with him.

"Hey." She said smiling at Sam and Dean, who were turned around in the chairs looking at her.

They both said hi as they looked back and forth between her and Cas.

Shaking his head Sam turned around and looked back at Bobby,

"So how did you piece all of this together; how are you sure that Death is going to be there?" Sam asked, returning to the conversation they had been having before Addison joined the room.

"I had… you know, help." Bobby admitted.

"Don't be modest… I barely helped at all." Crowley said from the kitchen finally making his presence known as he walked into the room with them.

"Hello boys." Crowley greeted Sam and Dean.

Looking over at Addison and Castiel he smugly gave them a knowing smile, "Cas." He greeted.

She refused to look over at Crowley as she knew her cheeks had taken on a pink tone. She wasn't at all comfortable with him knowing anything about her sex life.

Looking back to Bobby, Crowley said, "Go ahead. Tell them, there's no shame in it."

"Bobby… tell us what?" Sam asked.

"Worlds gonna end; seems stupid to get all precious over one little soul." Bobby slowly admitted.

"You sold your soul?" Dean asked him in disbelief.

Castiel hung his head and gave a heavy sigh at the news.

Addison glanced over at him as she moved her hand and grabbed onto his, it didn't matter even if it was just their hands that were touching; she wanted to spend every possible minute with him.

His blue eyes met hers and he smiled at her.

Crowley explained that he intended to return Bobby's soul after it was all over.

Addison looked around the room biting her lip.

Finally she asked, "Did you kiss him?"

"Addison!" Dean exclaimed as he looked back at them. Looking back and forth as he saw her and Cas's hands.

"What? Like you guys weren't thinking it." She said, looking between the brothers.

"Charming isn't she?" Crowley stated to the room, glancing over at her.

"Did you?" Sam asked looking back to Bobby.

"Sam!" Dean yelled now looking at his younger brother.

"No!" Bobby exclaimed.

Just then Crowley cleared his throat and displayed a picture on his iPhone showing them kissing.

"I knew it." Addison remarked shaking her head.

"Really Addison?" Dean asked looking back at her.

"She did bring it up before anyone else." Castiel defended.

Addison laughed a little as she looked over at him.

Finally Dean stood up and said, "I'm sick of this, give him his soul back… now."

"I'm sorry I can't." Crowley responded.

"Can't or won't?" Dean yelled.

"I won't all right? It's insurance. As long as I have his soul in the safety deposit box you won't kill me. I'll return it when this is all over and I can walk away safely." Crowley said.

After they determined that Niveus pharmaceuticals was going to ship out a large shipment of swine flu vaccine laced with the croatoan virus; they decided they were going to stop the shipments while Dean went to Chicago to try and get Death's ring.

That night, they were outside of Bobby's getting things ready for the 2 separate but important tasks they were going to do.

Addison loaded the bullets into one of the sawed-off shot guns and handed it to Cas as Bobby sat in his wheelchair a little ways away watching them as he loaded more weapons into a bag.

Castiel looked at the gun and took it from her as he sighed heavily.

"What's wrong?" Addison asked him.

"I'm useless… what am I supposed to do with this?" He asked her holding the gun up.

"Well, preferably headshot cause if something's coming after you – you don't wanna just injure it." Addison said, looking at him.

"And where are you going to be?" Cas asked her.

"I'm guessing with Crowley and Dean trying to get Death." She said.

Once everyone was gathered around the van, Addison looked at Crowley. "Am I going with you… or…?" She started to question.

"You're coming to Chicago." Crowley informed her.

Cas sighed loudly and shook his head as he looked down at the gun still in his hand.

"What's wrong with you?" Dean asked him.

"Well, clearly he fancies her; don't you angel?" Crowley asked Castiel smugly, as he tucked his hands in his coat pockets.

"I don't like being away from her." Cas admitted to the group.

Dean raised an eyebrow at him, "Come on…" He said, shaking his head back and forth, thinking they had bigger problems at the moment then Castiel being upset over Addison.

"Well, I don't like being away from her." Castiel re-stated.

Addison looked around as all eyes were on them.

Shifting uncomfortably on the gravel under her feet she said, "So… how are we going to get the ring from death? Can anything actually kill him?"

"Right, umm. I guess you guys will need this…" Sam said as he handed the demon killing knife to Dean and looked back over at her.

"Keep it… Dean's covered." Crowley said as he presented a slightly curved weapon.

"Nu-uh! Is that really deaths scythe?" Addison asked her eyes wide.

Everyone looked at her. "You know, like the thing that the Grimm reaper carries around with him in the Sims games?"

"No?" Dean questioned.

"Never mind." She said.

"Yes, it's his scythe. Kills, golly, demons, angels and reapers and rumor has it the very thing itself." Crowley explained as he handed it to Dean.

"Totally called it." Addison said, smirking at Crowley.

"How did you get that?" Castiel asked him.

"Hello, king of the crossroads…" He reminded the group.

"Bobby, you just gonna sit there?" Crowley asked.

"No, I'm gonna river dance." Bobby said sarcastically.

"I suppose if you want to impress the ladies." Crowley retorted.

Everyone looked at Crowley confused.

"Really wasted the crossroads deal. Fact, you get more if you phrase it properly. So I took the liberty of adding in a teeny little sub-A clause on your behalf." Crowley explained.

"What can I say, I'm an altruist." Crowley said as everyone looked at him.

"Just gonna sit there?" Crowley asked him again.

Standing up Bobby looked at them.

"Son of a bitch." He remarked shocked the demon had helped him.

"Yes, I know. Completely worth your soul. I'm a hell of a guy." Crowley remarked smugly.

"Thanks." Bobby said his tone honest as he looked to Crowley.

"This is getting maudlin. Can we go?" Crowley asked as he turned and started for the Impala.

Addison smiled warmly at Bobby before turning and looking at Castiel.

"Be careful." Addison warned him, hoping he wouldn't go into a fight thinking he was invincible.

Cas nodded but still seemed upset.

"You're not useless… angel powers or human, you are absolutely amazing." She said, her voice soft as she spoke to him.

He raised his head and looked at her, a little spark of light returning to ocean blue eyes.

"Addison!" Crowley yelled from where he was standing.

Sighing she put her hand on the back of Cas's hand. "Please be careful." She said again before she rose up and gave him a quick kiss on the lips.

" Good luck you guys." She said to Bobby and Sam as she walked past them, avoiding their eyes.

~()~

After they were in Chicago, Crowley ported out of the car and was checking the city to see if Death was there.

"So, Addy…" Dean began.

"Dean?" She questioned.

"You and Cas…" He said his voice trailing off as he watched her in the backseat in the rearview mirror.

"What about me and Cas?" She asked him.

"Still trying to say you guys are just friends?" He asked, an eyebrow raised.

She was silent.

"Addison?" He questioned.

"We are friends… I care more about him than anyone else." She admitted, avoiding his eyes and looking out of the side window.

"Best be quiet Dean, she gets squeamish when you try to talk to her about her sex life." Crowley said, from the passenger seat.

No one had noticed he had ported back inside of the car.

"Oh my god, Crowley." Addison said, shaking her head in disbelief.

"Wait… sex life? So you two…?" He started to ask.

"I am not going to sit here and talk about this… it is no one's business." She said feeling like her cheeks were redder then a tomato.

"So you did?" Dean pried, as he turned and looked over the seat to her.

"Hmmm, go Cas." Dean said under his breath.

"Oh my god." She breathed out shaking her head back and forth.

A little while later Addison and Crowley were standing on the windy city sidewalk Addison looked at Crowley after Dean had snuck in the back entrance of a pizza parlor.

"You're sure he's in there?" She asked him as she hugged her thin jacket to herself.

"Positive." Crowley said, as he looked over at her for a minute.

"What?" She asked, looking back to him.

Sighing he grabbed her arm and ported them right outside of the Niveus supply warehouse.

"Are you going to help them with making sure none of the shipments get sent?" She questioned.

"I'm not, I'm going back into hiding." He explained.

She looked at him confused.

"It's out of our hands now… this is all on Sam and Dean, if they fail we're all done for. If they succeed, splendid." He told her.

"Okay?" She questioned.

"Meaning… I don't have a need to keep you around anymore." He said.

"You're… you're letting me go?" She asked, surprised.

"Well, your clock is ticking anyways." He responded.

She laughed and shook her head.

"Good luck." She said, before turning and walking into the building.

She rounded a few corners until she saw a croat had Bobby pinned to the floor.

Running up she put her hand on the back of its head and concentrated like she did to kill demons and angels; she killed it within seconds.

Bobby looked at her wide eyed as he rose to his feet.

"Are you hurt?" She asked him concerned.

"No." He said still looking at her surprised.

"Thanks." He thanked her as he picked up his gun.

"Welcome. Where's Cas?" She asked him.

"I think they're over here." Bobby said as he started off towards the right.

Addison followed and they rounded the corner just in time to see Castiel shoot the head off of a Croat as it had pinned and was choking Sam.

"Actually these things can be useful." Castiel said, looking down to the gun.

"Nice shot." Addison said as she walked up beside him.

"What are you doing here?" He asked her.

"Crowley dropped me off here, says he doesn't need me anymore." She said.

~()~

Standing in the bathroom of their hotel room, Addison brushed her hair and tried to avoid her own eyes in the mirror above the sink.

Even though she was trying to act like the thought of her dying didn't scare her, she was absolutely terrified.

She looked down at her navy blue spaghetti strap shirt and black shorts she had changed into.

Opening the door she shut the light off and walked out into the room, looking over at Cas as he sat on the side of the bed staring at the far wall.

Slowly she crossed the room and stood in front of him, smiling at him as he raised his head and looked at her.

His blue eyes surveyed her clothes, and he remembered the last time they were in a hotel room together. Immediately he felt his body grow warmer in response to the thoughts.

Standing he faced her, his breathing a little shallow.

She smiled to herself at seeing the look of desire in his eyes as he looked at her longingly.

Stepping forward she leaned up and kissed him, her stomach jumping with excitement as she also recalled the memories of their first time together.

Her soft hair fell between his fingers and around his hands as he held onto the back of her head, deepening the kiss and sliding his tongue between her soft, parted lips.

While their lips were still moving hungrily together, she removed his tie letting it fall to the floor like she had the other night.

His tan trench coat fell from his shoulders and arms on the floor behind him as she pushed it from his body.

She had started to slide his black suit jacket off when he slid his hands under her shirt, thinking that she felt even better under his fingertips than before.

Reaching her arms up, she rested them on his shoulders and smiled into the kiss as he started to slide her shirt up and pulled it slowly off over her head, his every move more assured and confident than before.

His eyes went from her eyes, to her lips before traveling down and stopping his gaze on the dark green bra covering her chest.

Locking his eyes back with hers, his breathing wa labored as he ran his fingers down her shoulders and arms feeling her skin start to form goose bumps and shiver slightly under his hands.

She hummed a small moan against his neck as his hands now rubbed down the sides of her body, still not able to get enough of the way she made him feel.

Addison quickly slid his suit jacket off of him, followed by the now unbuttoned white dress shirt.

Pulling back from their kiss, her eyes slightly widened as she rubbed her hands over his bare upper body, still astonished at how close they had gotten and how much she loved every single thing about him.

He swallowed hard as she kissed across his chest and up the side of his neck, causing his breathing to hasten even more as his heart thudded away inside of his chest.

"I'm glad you're here." He said as he leaned back and held onto her sides, rubbing his thumbs gently over her pale bare skin.

"I am too." She said, with a soft smile.

"When I woke up that morning and you were gone… I was deeply upset." He admitted.

She frowned a little at his words.

"I'm sorry, I was going to wake you up before I left but you were sleeping so soundly." She said, reaching down she held onto his hands that still had a firm grip on her sides.

"I felt lost without you here." He explained how her absence had affected him.

"I've felt like that for quite a while now, my favorite place is with you… it doesn't matter where we are, as long as I'm with you." She told him holding onto his cheeks as she spoke from her heart.

Her mind flashed between memories of them from the past year and a half she had known him.

She let out a small laugh at remembering the night he appeared in the laundry room with her at her apartment building, and how she had been terrified of him.

"What?" He questioned at her small laugh.

"I just… kind of can't believe we're here… with each other… doing this." She said, feeling her cheeks flush.

He had a slight look of confusion in his eyes at her words, "We've already made love." He pointed out.

She smiled even wider. "I know… and I can't get enough of you. But I mean that we've gotten so close and came so far from when we first met. It just amazes me is all."

Glancing down between them she could see the slight bulge through his pants, as she pushed her body against his, craving his attention.

As they pulled back, both fighting even harder for their breath as the undeniable passion and lust grew the longer they were in each other's presence; the love she felt for him still stunned her to her very core.

Leaning his head down he kissed across her shoulder, before he moved behind her.

She glanced over her shoulder, the look in her eyes left him breathless as he remembered the first time he saw her body.

His feelings had only evolved and grown for her since then, every single thing about her was even more alluring and his manhood strained and ached in his pants.

Closing her eyes she savored the sensations of his flesh against hers as he gathered her long, soft hair in his hands, looking down he shook his head as even the sight of her almost bare back mesmerized him.

"Addison… here." He said, as he kept her hair gathered in his hands and up off of her back.

She smiled to herself as she reached back both of her hands and took her hair from him.

With his hands now free he looked back down to the thin dark green fabric of the back of her bra as he unfastened the clasps one by one, making her body shiver every time his skin brushed against hers.

His movements were still awkward but he was able to unhook the bra quicker than the last time; he kissed the back of her exposed neck before sliding the silk straps down her arms.

She let it land on the floor and her breath stopped in her throat as his mouth was refocused on her neck.

Reaching around her, he hugged her body tightly against his as he continued to kiss her neck and shoulders.

She felt his breath grow heavier against her skin as he moved his hands up her flat stomach before pausing on her upper stomach.

"It's okay, Cas. You can touch me…" She said, feeling he was hesitant to continue moving his hands up.

"Okay." He whispered his cheek was against hers as he continued to move his hands up, letting her breasts fill his hands.

Turning her face sideways she kissed him over her shoulder as she placed her hands over his and held them even tighter against her tender skin.

He groaned against her parted lips as she arched into his grip, pushing her butt against the bulge in his pants.

Slowly he ran his warm fingers over her cool flesh, she slid her hands up and held onto his arms as continued to rub his hands down her body, until he reached the waist band of her black shorts.

She felt a slight hesitation and un-sureness in his movements again, as he grasped the elastic waist band.

Addison opened her mouth to tell him it was okay again, but before she could say anything he started to slide them down her toned legs.

Stepping out of them she turned and faced him as he kicked out of his shoes and unfastened his belt.

He was growing braver and more confident in his actions.

Feeling her staring at him he looked up, and his blue eyes met hers.

Rushing forward she pressed her body back against him, urgency in his movements as his tongue swept her mouth, both of their breathing grew even more shallow as she reached down and unzipped his pants sliding them off his body.

Smashing his lips back against hers, he held firmly onto her hips.

Rubbing her hands over his naked upper body several times, she danced her fingers down to the waistband of his boxers.

Knowing what was coming next he broke their kiss and rested his forehead against hers, staring into her eyes with an amorous look.

Castiel's body tensed as she trailed her hand farther down his body and into his boxers then slowly, but firmly slid her hand up and down his throbbing shaft.

His hot breath was harsh and uneven as he breathed against her face, feeling his manhood swell even more and harden, begging for her attention as she continued to move her hand on him.

Reaching up with her other hand she held onto the back of his head as she reclaimed his mouth with her own, his fingers dug into her hips over the silky dark green fabric of her underwear.

Removing her hand from his boxers she started to trail her other hand back down his body to pull the last of his clothes off, but stopped as he kissed down her chest running his searing hot mouth over the sensitive tips of her breasts.

She ran her fingers through his short hair and pulled in a lung full of air in response to his movements.

Lifting his head up he kissed her before pulling back and looking down the front of her body, his eyes stopping on her underwear.

Thinking how good her hands felt to him, he rubbed his hands and up down her sides before wrapping one arm around her upper back right under her arms keeping a tight hold on her.

She grabbed onto the sides of his face, sliding her tongue across his lips before she tangled it with his.

The way she had done to him, he kept his one arm tight around her and ran the other down her body.

She closed her eyes and brought his face back her, enjoying the feeling of being in his arms. Her heart felt like it was going to beat out of her chest and she gasped as she felt his fingers start to slide in her underwear.

Swallowing hard she looked into his eyes, breathing heavier than before as she readily accepted his touch, while his fingers explored the sweet warmth between her legs.

Fighting for a breath she grasped onto his shoulders as he slid a finger over the swollen pearl of nerves. Her eyes locked with his again as he read into her response and slowly started to rub softly with light circles.

Keeping her hands on his shoulders trying to steady her stance as every flick of his fingers made her feel like her legs were going to buckle; she kissed him roughly, fighting to catch her breath as he continued to give her the touch her body was craving.

She panted against his neck in between kisses as she ran her mouth down his face and neck.

He loved the feeling of her hot breath over his damp skin where her tongue and lips had been on his neck and shoulders, and the sound of her soft moans and gasps in his ear.

Reaching her arms up she wrapped them around his neck as she put her forehead against his upper chest, under the front of his neck as her body started to jerk against his hand.

Her mouth hung open as she desperately fought for a breath; she kept one arm around his neck as her fingers dug into the top of his arm.

She could feel his muscles move under her fingertips as he continued to pleasure her with his touch.

"Cas…" She breathed out her voice and breath choppy as she moaned against his chest, and franticly grabbed onto his arm as she felt the dizzying explosion starting to stir within her.

Her irregular breathing halted as his touch sent her over the edge, and her body shook against his, she was thankful he had his other arm so tight around her because her legs buckled under the intensity of the climax.

As the intense waves of pleasure finally slowed, she was able to catch her breath. She still held tightly onto his body as she looked up at him.

His breathing was almost as uneven as hers when their eyes met.

Pushing her body back against his she open mouth kissed him, still fighting for oxygen.

She gently pushed him back on the bed, pressing another hot kiss to his lips before she breathed out, "Lay back…"

His eyes were intense as they bore into hers; he scooted back on the bed some but was still sitting up. Joining him on the bed she knelt with her knees between his legs and faced him.

Leaning in she kissed him again and repeated, "Lay back." As she gently put her hands on his shoulders forcing him to lie back until his head was on the pillows.

She leaned over him and looked into his eyes as she slid her hand back in his boxers, taking his length in her hand.

His body jerked up from the bed and she smiled into their kiss as his fingers tangled in her soft hair, keeping his mouth pressed tightly against hers as she continued to stroke him.

Pulling back from their kiss her light green eyes searched his face before she lowered her head and kissed down his chest and stomach.

He was breathing loudly as his muscles jumped and flexed under his skin while her tongue and lips were now focused on his lower stomach.

Rising up she grabbed the waistband of his boxers and started to slide them off of him; he raised his hips up a little as she tugged on the soft fabric before pulling them off and dropping them off the side of the bed.

She moved back up, again kneeling between his legs as she looked down at his full-standing erection.

Addison kept her eyes on his as she hovered over him and continued to slide her hand over him, smiling to herself as she felt him shift under her touch.

Taking a deep breath she looked into his eyes before she slowly lowered her head and kissed his bare lower stomach, glancing up she saw he had raised his head and was looking down over his body to where she was nestled between his legs.

Locking her eyes on his she rubbed her hand up and down his length again before she slowly lowered her mouth onto the head of his shaft.

She saw his eyes widen as he watched her take him into her mouth. He sucked in a harsh fast breath through his teeth as she slowly ran her tongue over him, before lowering her head back down on him.

He opened his mouth like he was going to say something, but she started moving her hand on him while she took him into her mouth again and again.

All he managed to do was groan loudly, as she swirled her tongue around the sensitive tip before locking eyes with him again as she brought her mouth back over him, and pushed his throbbing manhood farther into her mouth until he felt the smooth skin at the back of her throat.

She paid close attention to his body's response to her movements as she brought his length back between her slightly swollen lips.

He dropped his head back on the pillows and put a hand over his face as his breath rushed in and out of his lungs, in complete ecstasy from the magic her mouth and hands were working on his aching shaft.

Looking up at him as he still lay back on the pillows, his hips jerking up with every pass her lips made, she saw the one hand covering his face and the other laying awkwardly down at his side.

With the hand she didn't have around him, she reached up and grabbed his hand in hers.

Feeling her touch he raised his head again and watched as she continued to take him farther into her mouth and he squeezed her hand as she kept her gaze steady on his eyes and face.

"Addison…" He breathed out, looking back up to him she saw him take in a deep ragged breath and hold it as she felt his leg muscles start to move.

Even though he had already given her an intense climax, she selfishly wanted their bodies connected again.

She wanted to be as close to him as physically possible, for him to hold her close and rock through his high.

So when she felt him starting to lose it, she stopped her movements and leaned back looking up at him, as he slowly let out the breath he had been holding.

She slowly kissed back up his body, keeping the moment alive but letting him calm down some so he wouldn't climax so quickly.

As she ran her tongue up his chest, and brushed her lips across his glistening skin, he still fought for his breath.

After a few deep shuddering breathes he lifted his head back up from the pillows and looked at her smiling at him, before lowering her head and kissing over his shoulder on the way to his neck.

He rubbed his hand over his face again, swallowing hard and taking another deep breath and gently grabbed onto her hair and the back of her head.

She stopped kissing his neck and looked back up at him.

He pulled her face over to his and looked from her intense green eyes to her parted still swollen lips.

Running his thumb over her bottom lip, he looked into her eyes before pulling her face down to his, hungrily moving his lips and tongue with hers as his male member still ached for her touch and a release.

After a little while she separated her mouth from his and moved beside him on the bed as she pulled her underwear off and dropped them off the bed.

His breathing came in short, shallow breathes as he watched her now fully nude body climb back on him.

Leaning down she kissed him, running her fingers through his short hair before she took a hold of him again and positioned himself at her opening.

She felt his breathing stop when she started to lower herself down on him.

Addison watched his face closely as he looked between them, taking in another sharp breath and swallowing hard as he watched his shaft slowly disappear within her as she bit down on the side of her lip and moved down farther until she had taken all of him in.

She stayed still for a moment; he ran his hands down her sides his fingers gliding easily against her sweat glistened skin as she allowed her body to adjust to his length.

There was still a bit of soreness at first as she leaned down and kissed him when she started to rock her body against his, the pain soon subsided and she moved a little quicker and harder against him.

Feeling like he still wasn't close enough to her, he brought his hips up from the mattress embedding himself even deeper inside of her; groaning when he felt her tight, wet heat completely surround his still aching arousal as he filled her completely.

She gasped and leaned up placing her hands on his chest and continued to grind her body against his, his hands found their way to her thighs as he continued to push up from the mattress.

She closed her eyes and leaned back enjoying the feeling of pure bliss that radiated through her.

When she leaned her head forward again and opened her eyes, she found his eyes with her own.

Moving his hands up her sides he gently grabbed onto her arms and pulled her hands from his chest, as they continued to rock their lower bodies together.

Like she always did with him, he took her hand in his intertwining their fingers and looked up at her as he pulled on her other arm until her body lay flush against his.

Keeping their fingers laced on one hand, he wrapped his other arm around her holding her against him as their movements hastened and she started to pant into his mouth.

Her hair messily hung around their faces as their tongues mated in the warm, sweet havens of their mouths.

A low moan sounded from their kiss as he started to feel himself losing control.

The masculine noise and the way his arm tightened over her back and squeezed her hand was all she needed to send her into her second blood-rushing climax of the night.

Her fingers clutched onto the shoulder of his arm he had around her as her body broke into a frenzy of spasms.

She had her face beside him, her sweaty flushed cheek pressed against his as she couldn't even catch her breath as more and more waves of dizzying pleasure rushed through her.

Her body clenched tightly around him, he raised his head up from the pillow and buried his face against her shoulder as he let out a long groan he joined her over the threshold of glory with his own pulsing, jarring white hot release.

His body stiffened and released, pulsating within her as he released himself inside of her, still tightly holding onto her warm trembling body.

Neither one of them could move or even catch their breath for a few moments until he released his hold on her hand and ran his fingers over her back.

She raised her head and looked at him her cheeks a deep red color as she still tried to catch her breath.

Raising his head up from the pillows he kissed her, holding onto the side of her face with an adoring look in his eyes.

Rising up she unglued her still sweaty body from his, and laid down beside him; snuggling back against his side as her body still lightly quivered from the evening.

Feeling her shake beside him, he leaned up grabbing the blanket and pulling it over them.

After a few more deep breathes he turned on his side and faced her, pulling her closer to him. Her head was barely on the very bottom of his pillow as she lay down farther in the bed than he was.

Closing her eyes she moved her head forward resting her forehead against his chest.

Glancing down at her, he leaned his head down breathing in softly, savoring how her hair smelled so clean to him. Taking another breath, he kissed the top of her head before laying his head back down on the pillow.

She had been so quiet and still he thought she had drifted off to sleep, but a few minutes later she broke the silence of the room and said, "I would give anything to stay here… like this, with you forever."

Her voice was soft, and he felt her sweet breath warm against his chest as she spoke.

Castiel thought about her words and it really started to sink in that she wasn't going to be there with him forever.

He swallowed hard and took a deep breath.

"I can't bear the thought of losing you…" He replied.

She clenched her eyes shut swearing to herself that she wasn't going to cry.

"We can't think about it." She said, feeling the lump growing in the back of her throat.

"It's all I can think about." He told her, the thought made him subconsciously tighten his arms around her, not wanting to let her go.

"We should really try and get some sleep… we've got a long day tomorrow." She offered, even though she hadn't planned on sleeping as she was now trying to remember every single passing second she spent at his side.

Closing her eyes and keeping her forehead against his bare chest she reached a hand up, and lightly touched her fingers to his skin, reminding herself that these moments with them were real because it felt surreal how much she loved him, and loved them together.

She kept her hand against his flesh and stayed still so he'd be able to fall asleep.

It was a couple hours later when she felt him pull away from her body.

He turned flat on his back, the way he had been sleeping the prior nights, even though she knew he was trying to get comfortable she wished he would have stayed the way he was laying.

But her sadness was soon swept away, as he got comfortable on his back and took a deep breath before he reached over and gently pulled her across the soft sheets until her bare body was pressed against his side.

She laid her arm over his bare stomach and snuggled her head on his chest breathing in his scent as his hold on her tightened.

Addison had been laying there for another hour, just enjoying the way it felt to be with him and replaying the events of the past year and a half in her mind. Smiling at the memory of the first time they kissed.

She relished in the memory of him first telling her he was sure he loved her. She pinned her eyes shut keeping the tears back at remembering when the archangel had killed him, and how she had never been so devastated in her entire life.

She was shaken from her thoughts when she realized he wasn't breathing the way he did when he slept.

"Why are you still awake?" She questioned, not moving her head from his skin.

"I don't know." He responded, as he stared up at the ceiling.

"What do you mean you don't know?" She asked, confused.

"I am tired, but I can't get to sleep." He told her.

After a pause he asked, "Why are you still awake?"

With the arm that was still across him, she danced her fingertips across his side and said "I'm worried about Sam and Dean."

He was silent.

"I don't like the idea of Sam agreeing to be Lucifer's vessel, if he jumps in that cage we're never going to get him back. Dean is trying to act strong but he's barely holding it together." She finally breathed out.

"I don't like any of this." He admitted.

"Me either… life is cruel." She said.

The room fell silent again, and she listened to the heartbeat echo in her head from her ear pressed against his chest.

"I should have told you about what is expected to happen on your 21st birthday." He said, his voice barely over a whisper.

"No you shouldn't have. Crowley shouldn't have told me either, I'd rather just drop dead than know it was coming and dread it." She admitted.

"If I could do something…" He said.

It seemed impossible but she managed to snuggle even closer against him.

"I know… but you can't." She told him.

"If I were still in possession of my powers from heaven… I might be able to stop it, or bring you back to life." He said, swallowing hard at the thought of losing her.

"This isn't your fault, Cas. It's no one's fault… it is what it is." She said, as she trailed her fingers over his skin again and closed her eyes trying to again store every feeling and sensation in her memory.

It was close to an hour later when she finally heard the familiar, smooth even breathing followed by his soft snoring as he had drifted off to sleep still holding her in his arms.

Even though she had planned on staying awake all night, it wasn't too long after he had fell asleep that she couldn't fight the exhaustion and she fell asleep also.

The next morning she woke up on the edge of her side of the bed in the hotel room, and smiled when she realized Cas was right behind her with his arm over her side as he snored softly against the back of her neck.

She stayed still not wanting to wake him until she heard his breathing change and he started to move.

Turning around, she lay facing him on the pillow, their faces only inches apart.

"What are you going to do?" He asked her, his blue eyes searching her face.

"About?" She asked, not knowing what he was talking about.

"Until the day of your birthday?" He asked her.

"Help Dean and Sam and spend as much time with you as I can." She admitted, her green eyes starting to glisten from tears as she was now only down to a few days.

"You're not leaving?" He asked her.

"Where would I go?" She asked him.

"I've seen on television that when most humans are faced with certain death, they try to make their aspirations come true before they die." He explained his reasoning behind the question.

"There must be places you wanted to go." He went on to say.

Feeling her chin start to quiver she shut her eyes for a few moments before she leaned her head forward pressing a kiss to his lips.

"I'm spending my last few days exactly where I want to." She told him.

A/N- I really hope you all liked the chapter! I just can't stop writing for this story at the moment. ^_^

Also, I hope you guys liked the steamy scene… I know it's the 2nd chapter in a row. For those of you who don't like to read those scenes, I'm sorry that it's been 2 chapters in a row now… but I think it's believable that they are trying to spend every moment they can together, as close as they can get. I will always put an authors note at the beginning of a chapter letting you know if there is graphic content, because I know it's not everyone's cup of tea.

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