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Chapter 26
She was busy filing paperwork, when Erin entered the archives. "Want to talk about it?"
"No, I don't. I just want to do my job." Rebekah said walking away from Erin.
Erin followed her as she asked: "Bottling it up inside isn't going to help either."
"Says the girl that went on a cocaine spree when Nadia died" Rebekah sneered looking Erin in the eyes. After a moment of silence she continued. "Jay got really hurt because you weren't there to watch his back."
"I got him back." Erin defended herself.
"He wouldn't have been taken if you would have been there in the first place. So don't tell me how deal with this." Rebekah said walking away.
At 8 PM she was still filing paperwork in the archived when sergeant Platt entered. "Little Halstead, what are you still doing here? I thought you could go home at four."
"I can go home at four, but I figured the sooner this is finished, the better." Rebekah answered her. "Aren't you supposed to be home with your fiancé?"
"He's on shift till 10PM, so I figured I'd get some work done." She stated.
"Well, I should get going. It's getting late. See you tomorrow sergeant Platt." Rebekah said walking out of the archives and to the locker room where she picked up her stuff. She went to the diner not far from university and ordered a sandwich. She sat there pondering over whether she was ready to go home and face Mouse.
She ended up knocking on the door as Olinsky opened. "What are you doing here Halstead?"
"Can I stay here for tonight?" Rebekah asked with tears in her eyes.
"Come on in." He said. "What made you come here?"
"You're the only one who won't make me talk, and won't tell Mouse or Jay where I am." Rebekah said sitting down on the couch.
Olinsky just nodded as he said: "You can take Michelle's room, she's staying at friends place tonight."
"Thank you." Rebekah said.
"I know it's none of my business, but you should at least let Mouse know you are safe. And you are right I'm not going making you talk, but if you need someone to talk to, I'm here."
"I know." Rebekah said walking into Michelle's room.
Mouse had been calling her for the last hour, getting no response. Having called Jay, Erin and Voight neither knowing where she was. He finally decided to trace her phone, he traced it back to the precinct. He decided that if she was at the precinct she would at least be safe. He called her phone one last time to leave her a voice mail.
"You probably want some space, but I just want to say that I'm sorry about this morning. I love you."
Rebekah woke up screaming in the middle of the night. Olinsky was in the room within seconds, with his gun ready. Seeing her he asked: "Are you okay?" while tucking away his gun.
"Yeah, just a bad dream." Rebekah asked almost crying.
"What happened?" Olinsky asked her.
"Something really bad." Rebekah said as he sat next to her on the bed. "I don't think I can do this on my own." She continued starting to cry.
"Maybe you should consider talking to doctor Charles." Olinsky said. "I know you don't want to, but maybe it will help."
Rebekah nodded "I'll call him in the morning."
Rebekah sat in front of his office waiting for her appointment as she saw Natalie approach. "Hey sweetie, how are you feeling?" she asked coming to a stop next to her.
"I don't know." Rebekah said defeated.
"You're a strong girl, you'll figure it out." Natalie said. "And do me a favor, call Will. He's been up all night worried about you."
"I kinda left my phone at the precinct." Rebekah said.
"Tired of people checking up on you?" Natalie asked.
"Something like that. And knowing my boyfriend, he would trace it." Rebekah told her. "Anyway, how's Daniel?"
"He's adorable. Will is great with him." Natalie told her with the biggest smile.
"Who would have thought that the eternal bachelor would turn out daddy of the year." Rebekah replied.
"Rebekah Halstead?" A voice asked
"That's me." Rebekah said standing up.
"What brought you here today, Rebekah?" doctor Charles asked her.
"I'm sure Voight already told you when he called yesterday." Rebekah said.
"So what if I did, I want to hear it from you." Doctor Charles told her. As Rebekah stayed quiet he continued: "They're right you know." Making her look up as he went on. "Doctors make the worst patients." He kept quiet for 5 minutes waiting for her to talk.
"Someone is dead because of me. Nothing more to say." Rebekah spoke up.
"What makes you say it was your fault?" He asked her.
"If I would have done something, he would still be alive." Rebekah said.
"What could you have done?" he stated.
"I can think of a million things I could have done that would have resulted in a situation where he would have been alive." Rebekah told him.
"Are you upset with Greg?" He asked.
"I know he pulled the trigger, but he did it to save me." Rebekah started
"You didn't answer my question." he stated.
Rebekah let out a laugh, "I don't know how I feel about him. I want to be mad at him for shooting him, but I can understand why he did it. And if he didn't do it, someone else would have."
"Would it be easier if someone else had shot him?" he asked her.
"No, because he would still be dead because of me." Rebekah stated.
"I know this wasn't the first time you were in a position like this." He started
"Last time nobody died." Rebekah spoke.
"Do you think what happened last time made you freeze up?" Doctor Charles asked.
"If it was, how the hell am I supposed to do this job?" Rebekah asked him.
"That's something that you need to figure out. One day you are going to wake up and know the answer on how to do the job." With that they ended their session.
She stopped at the ER's nursing station, hoping to see Will before she left. He walked up as she asked April where he was. "Do you have any idea how worried I was last night? Mouse called asking whether I knew where you were because you didn't come home."
"I was staying at a friend's house." Rebekah told him.
"Just let me know you're safe next time." Will asked her
"Let's just hope there won't be a next time." Rebekah said giving him a hug.
Rebekah stood in front of the precinct making up the courage to walk inside and face everyone.
"You know you have to go inside one day right?" she heard Olinsky say.
Rebekah laughed as she spoke up: "I don't know if I'm ready to face them."
"Only one way to find out." He said pulling her inside.
As soon as she walked upstairs she could see Mouse's worried face. She could see him trying to keep his distance to give her space. She just walked up to him and gave him a hug and said; "I'm sorry."
"It's okay, as long as you're safe." He said giving her a kiss.
"You were right though, talking to doctor Charles was a good idea." She told him as she saw Erin and Jay walk in. "Hey Erin, can I talk to you in the break room please?"
"Sure." Erin said as she followed Rebekah to the break room.
As soon as they were out of sight Jay asked Mouse: "Where did she stay last night?"
"I don't know, I haven't had the chance to ask." Mouse said looking in the direction where she had gone. "I'm just glad she's safe."
"Look, for yesterday..." Rebekah started as Erin interrupted her. "It's okay, you were dealing with everything that happened."
"It was not okay, I should not have said it. Everyone deals with grieve differently, and knowing Jay he would have found a way into trouble even if you were there watching his back."
Erin laughed as she said: "He probably would have. Just know that we're all here for you."
"I know. Right now I just need the courage to walk into Voight's office and apologize to him as well for yesterday." Rebekah said walking away towards Voight's office.
"Rebekah, come in. I signed your papers and redacted confidential information." Voight said handing her back the papers.
"Thank you." She told him accepting the papers. "About yesterday."
"You were right." He said. "I can't force you to go and talk to someone, but that doesn't mean I think it might help you."
"I talked to doctor Charles this morning. That's why I was late." Rebekah explained. "And even though I was right, I want to apologize for the way I said it."
"apology accepted, now get to work!" Voight said.
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