That night Chloe was in her room getting Trixie ready for bed. Well, she supposed now that it was also Lucifer's room. Trixie would need a few more nights before she'd feel secure enough to sleep in her own bed, so she'd be sleeping with them again.
"Mommy, I don't wanna go to sleep without you," Trixie said. She was still scared that she was going to lose her mother again. That it would either all have been a dream or something else would take her mom away.
"Monkey, it's alright. I'm gonna stay until you fall asleep, and in a few hours, Lucifer and I will be in to sleep with you," Chloe promised. She hated seeing her daughter so afraid, and a part of her wanted to give in and just stay with her every second, but that wouldn't be good for her daughter. It would just keep the fear going.
"But what if something happens?" Trixie asked.
"Nothing's going to. I'm not even leaving the house. Lucifer and I will be right in the living room. Plus, everyone involved with trying to hurt us has been stopped. Everything is okay," Chloe said.
"You promise you'll come to bed soon?" Trixie asked.
"Yeah. Once you fall asleep, it'll only be a couple of hours," Chloe promised.
Trixie nodded reluctantly. She still didn't like it, but she knew she didn't have a choice. She also knew Lucifer wouldn't let anything happen to her mother. He would keep her safe. Trixie just couldn't help but still be scared.
Chloe began tucking her daughter into bed.
"Mommy, what's gonna happen now?" Trixie asked.
"What you do mean, sweetie," Trixie asked.
"Is Lucifer going to leave now that you're back. I don't want him to. I don't want things to be the way they were before with Lucifer," Trixie said. Before her mom got hurt and her dad died, Lucifer only came over once and a while to see her mom. She didn't see him all that much. She didn't want it to be like that anymore.
Chloe sat down next to her daughter. She wasn't at all surprised by her daughter's words. Of course, Trixie was attached to Lucifer. She spent six months with him as her primary caretaker. He was her parent. That wasn't something that could just be disregarded, not that Chloe ever would. She respected the relationship Trixie and Lucifer had, and she wouldn't dare undermine it, no matter what might happen between her and Lucifer. "Trixie, listen to me. I don't know exactly what's going to happen next, but I promise that you do not need to worry about Lucifer not being a part of your life. No matter what happens, Lucifer is a part of our family. He's always going to be here for you."
Trixie relaxed quite a bit. "Good. Do you think Daddy would be made that Lucifer's like my daddy now too?"
"No, Monkey. I know that Daddy would be really happy that someone was there to take care of you when we couldn't be, and that there's someone to do all the things that he can't do anymore," Chloe said. There was no hesitation in her voice as she spoke. She knew that was exactly what Dan would say if he could. He loved Trixie more than anything. He'd be grateful to Lucifer.
Just then, Lucifer came in. "Alright, Spawn, are you ready to go to sleep."
"I guess so," Trixie said before handing him a book that had been next to her on the bed.
Lucifer took the book from her, immediately recognizing the same title he'd seen every night for the last month. "Alright, but this is the last time for this one. Tomorrow, you pick another book."
Trixie smiled. She knew she'd get him to read her the same book tomorrow. He'd said the same thing for the last week, but he still read her the same book when she asked.
Lucifer and Chloe immediately got up on the bed, on either side of Trixie, and laid down.
Trixie cuddled up to Lucifer and put her head on his shoulder, like she did every night when he read to her.
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Chloe and Lucifer walked out into the living room twenty minutes later. "I miss that, tucking her in at night," Chloe said.
"Well, you'll get the chance from now on," Lucifer said, almost with a grimace. He was glad that Chloe would have the chance to tuck her daughter in every night, but it was bittersweet because he didn't know much longer he'd get the opportunity. When he first found out Chloe was alive, he was in mind blowing shock, which then turned to extreme happiness. He was still extremely happy that Chloe was back. He didn't even want to imagine losing her again. But he couldn't deny that he now felt fear. Chloe was back, which meant he wasn't needed to care for Trixie anymore.
"Are you okay," Chloe asked. She'd noticed Lucifer had become very thoughtful, plus his face was filled with worry.
"Yes, it is nothing to worry about," Lucifer said.
"Lucifer, something is obviously up. You're a bit off. I expect some of that. You thought I was dead for six months. That would jilt anyone, but this seems to be more than that," Chloe said.
"I…I was just thinking about how much is going to change now," Lucifer said.
Chloe nodded. She knew what he was thinking about. It was the same thing Trixie had been. He was afraid of losing the only thing that had kept him going for so long. "Come on, let's go sit down," she said before offering him her hand.
Lucifer took the offered hand and soon found himself sitting next to Chloe on the couch. "Uh, I hope that didn't sound wrong to you. I certainly don't mean that it's not a good thing that you're back, and that means changes."
"I know that. It's just that you can't forget what happened when I wasn't here. You can't go back like that time didn't happen. I can't either. I know it isn't the same as it was for you, but my life changed too, and I can't say that I'm the same person," Chloe said.
"Again, I don't want this to come out wrong, but I don't think I even want to go back to that person," Lucifer said. The person he was then hadn't loved Trixie as he did know. He hadn't really considering as much other than the detective's child. He would've done his best to keep her safe because he cared for her mother, and in turn cared for her somewhat, but it was far from what it was now. Plus, losing Chloe had changed the way he was. He was no longer so afraid of loving someone or feeling vulnerable. Before, he was afraid of being hurt, but nothing could possibly hurt more than losing Chloe had.
"Yeah, I get that too. I won't say that what happened was at all good. There's nothing good about Dan's death, or yours and Trixie's pain, but there are certain things that I'm glad happened, like learning all there is to know about you," Chloe said.
Lucifer nodded. She seemed to know exactly how he felt. There wasn't anything good about what they'd lost, but certain experiences because of It weren't so bad.
"You know, you were wrong this morning, when you said I wouldn't be happy that you had Trixie. When your father showed me that you had been taking care of her, I was relieved," Chloe said.
Lucifer looked at her in shock. "But, you knew I wasn't good with children. You knew I didn't know what I was doing, and that I'd say or do something inappropriate."
"I also knew you wouldn't let anything happen to her, and that you would try to do what was best for her. You wouldn't try to make her something she wasn't. I couldn't trust my mom, or anyone else I could think of, to do those things. That's probably why I never made a will. There was no one that I could think of that could give my daughter what she needed if Dan and I couldn't. I never thought of you because I knew you didn't like children. But you did it anyway without anyone asking you to," Chloe said.
"Well, that's not exactly true. Your mother did ask, and she did do what she thought was best for Trixie," Lucifer said.
"I know. She realized that you were better able to care for Trixie than she was," Chloe said. She had to give her mother credit. She'd thought of Trixie's needs before her own.
"I was shocked when she asked me to do it. I told her that I couldn't care for a child. Then she informed me that I already was. I hadn't realized it. I think I was acting off of autopilot. I think I did that for a long time," Lucifer said.
"You helped each other. No pun intended, but you were both in hell. You got each other through it all. Lucifer, listen to me. There is so much you and I have to talk about. I don't even know where to start, and I certainly don't know how it will end. What I do know is that I respect everything you've done for Trixie. I respect your place in her life. You are her father," Chloe said firmly. He could never replace Dan, who would always be Trixie's father, but that didn't mean she couldn't have another one. Lucifer was Trixie's dad in nearly every way.
Relief and joy hit Lucifer almost immediately. The fear he'd originally had was gone. He wasn't going to be cut out of Trixie's life, not would his place in it be diminished. Chloe had just acknowledged that she was his child too. "Thank you for saying that."
"It's the truth," Chloe said.
"Mommy!" Trixie suddenly yelled out in fear.
"I had a feeling she was going to have nightmares," Chloe said.
"Yes, I did as well," Lucifer said before standing up.
Chloe got up as well and followed Lucifer to check on her…. to check on their daughter.
