Yay! I love your guys' reviews, even though I refuse to say anything about a few questions you guys have. It will all come together. Just give it time, and enjoy. About JJ and Will...this is just one of those bear with me and let the story play out things. You will understand eventually. I just don't want to spoil it, ya know? Trust me I meant for the dream to be that way. It may get a bit confusing but it will make sense. I have everything planned. TRUST ME! Also the evil smirk was a lie. I was going to do something but it didn't work so now it went this way. I thought about it. I wont be evil till they get back home. Don't hate me.(: Anyways! ENJOY!
Guest: YAY! I have been listening to a lot of Stevie too! (:
My eyes flutter open as light shines throw the window. Meow. I hear and I see Sergio at my feet. I smile and lay on my back. I pat my chest and Sergio jumps towards me. I pet him, and he moves with my hand every so often. He crawls closer to my face and paws at it. I lay kisses in his fur, and hope David and Erin don't freak about this. I've been meaning to tell them, but I'm so scared they'll say no. I know they probably will, but Serg is such a good boy. I don't see why it would be an issue. He could even be good for Spence. Pets are good for kids. I feel Derek start to move beside me, and I smile. I put Sergio down and kiss his little nose. "Are you playing with that cat again?" he asks groggily.
"Yes. I am." I say moving my hand so he swats at it with his little paw. "He's adorable Derek!" I say. Derek lets out a laugh and sits up in bed with me. I feel his arms wrap around me and I nuzzle his chest.
"He's not the only adorable one in this bedroom." he says. He kisses my cheek and gets out of bed. I check him out as he walks. He is so damn hot. The way his muscles flex. I groan audibly. He turns to me. "What princess? See something you like?" he asks me. I smile and bite my nail.
"How about you drop those shorts that are in your hands and come back to bed...then I can show you how much I like." I say teasingly. I glance down again, and he shakes his head.
"Look you wicked woman...I am hungry. I will not let you get in my way you temptress." he says. I kiss Sergio's head, and put him on the ground.
"Fine then. Guess I'll just lay here." I say moving the covers and laying down on them. Not an inch of flesh covered by the sheet. He groans, but turns away quickly. I move and get off the bed. I walk over to him, and wrap my arms around him. I press myself up against him, and get on my tip toes to put my head on his shoulder.
"Princess...stop it. Food. Beach. Sex. Beach sex. Food again. Okay?" He asks. I laugh.
"Okay." I lean up to kiss him, and it's passionate. I break it to put on a sundress over my naked body. Who needs underwear right?" I trot down stairs, hand and hand with Derek. I go to the kitchen and start my pancake batter. I cook up my pancakes, and watch JJ devour them. Besides those damn fritos, my pancakes are the thing she loves the most. After we eat I walk out of the house, and lay on the beach. I undo my top and lay on my belly so I can tan. My skin is fair, but I can still manage some color. Soon I can feel someone, Derek, sitting on my back. I feel something wet, I'm guessing lotion or oil or whatever, fall on my back. Just then he starts to move his hands. He starts to work out all the kinks in my back, and I love him for it. "Oh god Derek." I moan. I can practically see the smirk written on his face. He moves to my shoulders and starts a shoulder rub. He is a god at this. I move my hair to the side, and he starts on a neck rub. This is were I need it. Soon I feel his hands on my arms turning me over. I look around the beach before turning over. Like I said before my top is only hanging by the string around my neck. Derek leans down and kisses me softly on my lips. He puts more oil on his hand, and rubs my stomach as we kiss. He gets it covered before moving higher. I know where he is headed, and I don't mind it a bit. His hand moves higher till it's on my breast. I let out a moan.
"Really guys? On the beach in midday? Really? One day at the wrong time you two will be out here, and a cop will just so happen to be trolling the area. That is not a call I want to make to David." JJ says to us I bite my lip, and Derek's keeps the both of his hands both my breasts. I blush red because he doesn't move his hands. "It's lunch time. Stop touching her in my presence. It makes things weird." JJ says turning away and walking toward the house.
"That was..." I start not knowing how to take JJ being so causal about the fact she walked up to Derek groping me. Derek kisses me, and pulls me to him.
"Horrifying? Weird? Oddly casual. Take your pick." he says. I smile and he does the back of my bathing suit for me. We go inside, and start to eat lunch. JJ cooked and it was delicious. We all sat around and talked for a bit, and I was cuddled against Derek almost the whole time.
That night Derek and I made love in the privacy of our own room. The day after we did it on the beach at night. No one ever knew except for us. It was a beautiful night. I blush just thinking about it. Sergio is in the back seat as we drive our way home. I stroke him, and sigh at the loss of the warmth of the beach. The drive is long. Too long. When we get there it's midday about 3. We left at midnight last night. I smile when I see my home. I had called David and told him about Sergio, and he just said we'd talk about it when we got home. I told Erin and she was excited. I walk into the house holding my kitty cat. David gives me a look. "Now you can't have that cat." I look at him with wide eyes.
"What?! Why?" I say getting upset. Serg is my baby.
"You bought a black cat in New Orleans? What the hell were you thinking? That thing is probably a devil." he says with a smile. "He's cute though. I guess you can keep him." I put Sergio down, and hug him. "I missed you Bella. Did you have fun?" he asks. I smile.
"It was amazing!" I say with a smile. "Where's Spence? I missed him too." I say looking around. David smiles an even wider smile.
"He is on a date. With a girl named Ashley." David says and I smile in shock. So does the rest of the kids. I smile a smile of pride.
"I knew he could do it." I say.
"Hey! I taught him how to use it!" Derek says with a smile. I shake my head.
"I taught him what to do! I told him that magic would work!" I tell him. He smiles, and wraps his arms around me. We go to my room, and unpack our belongings. He lays down and I lay down on top of him. It's been a long, long, long fifteen hours. My eyes shut, and I smile.
"Momma! I hungry!" she yells at me. I laugh, and pick her up.
"Do you want nuggets or pizza roles?" I ask her. She smiles wide.
"PIZZA!" she yells. I laugh, and sit her in her chair. I cook the pizza roles and lay them in front of her.
"So Sade...are you ready for the zoo today?" I ask her with a smile. She throws her hands up.
"YEAH!" she yells. I pick her up, and we go take a bath. We get out of the tub, and I dry her off. I tickle her tummy, and she giggles. Just then I hear the baby cry. I sigh.
"Can you dress yourself? Your dress is on the bed. Do you think you have it?" I ask her. She smiles and nods. She runs to her room after I put her pull up on her. I get Dylan and glance into Sadie's room. Watching her fiddle with the dress is adorable. I get Dylan ready and kiss his little head. I get myself ready, and Sadie walks in with her dress on backwards. I laugh, and flip it.
"Did I do good?" she asks me with a smile.
"Almost." I say. I fix it, and take her hand. We get her shoes on her and then we head out. When we get to the zoo she rambles.
"Monkeys. Hippos. Zebas. Elphants. Rhin...Rhinos...Rhina...rhinasaurse!" she says and I laugh. Rhino-saurohes was how it sounded. Dylan mumbled in the back ground and I smile at my kids. I get out of the car, and get them out. I put Dylan and Sadie in the double stroller. I roll them and pay our way. When we get to the first exhibit I take out my video camera.
"Say hi to daddy Sade!" I tell her she waves and smiles.
"Hi daddy! I'm looking at the Rhinasaauesrses! I miss you! Catch the bad guys so you can come home!" she says waving and pointing. She smiles, and blows him a kiss. I turn the camera to me, and smile.
"We love you! Don't we baby?" I say nuzzling Dylan's nose. I wave Dylan's hand for him. "Say hi dada!" I say. Dylan smiles, and mumbles something. "What are you gonna do with these kids I swear. I love you baby! Good luck! Be safe." I say. I click the end of the video and send it too him. Fifteen minutes later I get a text that says 'They're so adorable. So are you. Daddy loves you guys! Have fun. I'll be safe.' I smile, and take my babies around the rest of the zoo. When we get home we get through the door. I smell food being cooked and I walk into my kitchen slowly just in case. I keep Sadie and Dylan back behind me and glance into the kitchen.
"Princess?! You home?" he yells. I sigh in relief and start to walk toward him. Sadie beats me too it though.
"Daddy!" she yells. She jumps into his arms, and I hold Dylan in my arms while I lean to kiss my husband.
"Emily." he whispers.
"Emily!" I hear my name being yelled. I groan but get out of bed. I kiss Derek's cheek and I wrap a robe out of me even though I'm wearing pajamas. Just in case some one is downstairs. I walk down and see David looking at me curiously. "There is some boy here to see you." he says. I look at him confused. I walk closer and I see Matthew. He has that smile on his face. I put a hand over my mouth before running and jumping into his arms.
"Matty." I whisper. I smile and nuzzle my face in his neck. "How...where?" he lets me down, and brushes the hair out of my face. "Matty." I whisper again. I feel tears in my eyes.
"Told you I'd find you." he says to me. We're nose to nose. He holds my hand and I stare into his eyes. He still loves me. I can see it. He wipes a tear away. "Don't cry Em." he says wrapping his arms around me. He lays a few kisses on my neck. I look at him, and hold his face in my hands.
"I can't believe you're here." I say with a smirk. I grab his hand, and take him to the couch. I put my leg on his lap, and shew away everyone in the room. I grab his hands. "How did you get here?" I ask him. He smiles.
"I uh...I'm going to college here." he says. I look at him and smile with tears in my eyes. "I'm here for a while Emily." he says. "I'm here and you are too. We're back together again." he says taking my hands. He pulls me too him, and I snuggle up to him. "So you have a lot less privacy now." he says with a chuckle. I nod.
"Yeah, but...I love it here. There are six kids living here. JJ is pregnant." I say. He smiles.
"It's a bit smaller than we're used to, isn't it." he asks looking around. I smile at him.
"It's more comfortable I think. I made up with my mom." I say with a smile. "She's actually kinda cool when she talks. She apologized for not being there for me. She was devastated when I told her...what...happened." I say turning my head from him. I bite my nail, and I feel his fingers caressing my thigh. "I used to dream about you." I confess to him. He smiles a sad smile.
"I still do. How are the nightmares?" he asks me. I shrug.
"They've gone away mostly." I whisper. "I had a dream that you died. It was so scary. Johnny told me." I tell him. He wraps him arms around me and pulls me onto his lap.
"Have you spoken to Johnny since you left?" he asks me. I shake my head no.
"I haven't spoken to him since he left me." I say wiping a tear away. That still hurts me sometimes. He was so mean. It was only because he didn't know.
"You didn't deserve that." Matty says in a husky tone. He was always so sweet. He moves my hair away from my neck. Just then I hear a voice.
"Who is this Emily?" I hear. Oh shit. I turn around, and smile.
"Derek. This is Matty...Matthew. Matthew Benton." I say with a small smile. "He was my best friend in Rome." I say. Derek gives me a small smile. He walks up and pulls me too him. I guess making sure Matthew knows I'm his. Matthew knows I'm Derek's now. I just watched Matty's face turn to a frown. "Matty...this is...my boyfriend Derek." I say with a hint of sadness in my tone.
"Oh." he says sounding a bit sad. "Good. You're being taken care of." he says with a smile. I smile too.
"You should stay tonight Matty." I say with a smile. He smiles too.
"I don't think David would be ok-" I stop him.
"Please stay Matty. Please. I wanna talk with you some more." I can feel Derek watching us. I hug Matthew. He's my friend. I can hug him right? Derek looks at me, and walks off. I follow Derek. "Look Derek. It'll just be for a day or two. I just...he's my friend." I say with a small smile. I hug him, and he kisses the top of my head.
"Okay princess." he says. Everybody files into the room when they call us down to eat. I ask Matty to join us for dinner and I watch him the whole time he eats. He talks about his time around the world. I stare at him in awe. I can't believe he is here. Everyone seemed to like him. After dinner I continue to watch him. Everybody get's up, and I start dishes because it's my night. Matty joins me, and he grabs the dishes from me.
"What are you doing?" I ask him with a smile. He's staying tonight. David said it was okay.
"Helping. I can't help?" he says with a smile. I give him the dishes and he helps me wash them. Sometimes our hands touch in the water and I feel sparks shock through me. At one point his finger curls around mine. I blush a little and smile.
"I missed you. I can't believe you're here right now." I say with a wide smile. He takes his hand out of the bubbles and puts a bubble on the tip of my nose.
"I missed you too mi Angelo." I blush. He always called me his angel. He smiles and I stare into his eyes.
"Emily?" I hear. I turn around to see Derek. He sighs and rubs his jaw. "Can you give us a moment alone?" he says. I frown. Matty nods and walks out. "What the hell was that?" he asks me. He's mad. I look through the door.
"What are you talking about?" I ask him. He points toward Matty.
"You know. You've ignored me all night long Emily! We get back from a wonderful vacation and he's here. You go off and leave me in the dust." he says. I look at him angrily.
"I'm not aloud to spend time with my friend?!" I ask him. He advances on me.
"NO! You guys aren't just talking. If you were then we wouldn't be having this conversation. The touches. The glances. You stared at him all through dinner. You guys were nose to nose just now! Why do I feel like I'm being forgotten?" he says. I look at him in shock.
"You're crazy. I love you. He's just my best friend." I say angrily.
"Well I was your best friend too. Is that it? You pick a best friend then sleep with them?" he says. A sword goes through my chest and I can't breathe. His face changes and he looks guilty but I don't care. I turn around and try not to cry. "Em...I'm so s-" I stop him.
"Don't. Just...don't. I...I don't want to see you in my bed tonight. Maybe you should...go back to your room for the night." I say. My voice cracks, and I can't look at him. I walk out, and see Matty. He walks up, and sees the pain on my face.
"Stai bene?" Are you okay? He asks me.
"Basta tenere a me." Just hold me. I say. He nods and wraps his arms around me. Derek walks out of the kitchen and looks at me. I can't look at him. How could he say such a thing? Matty and I walk to the couch. He lays down and I lay on his chest.
"Are you and Derek going to be okay?" he asks sadly.
"He just said something really mean. It's...we'll be okay." I tell him. He nods.
"Do you love him?" he asks me. I smile a bit.
"Yeah." I whisper.
"Do you love me?" he asks. I sigh.
"I will...always love you in a way." I tell him. He turns away.
"Not the way I love you." he says. I pick at my nails and look away. "You leave and everything goes to shit Emily. I thought that if I came back you and I would fall in love and you would...I...it's stupid." he says. "I shouldn't be staying here." he says. I look at him some tears fallen.
"Matty. Don't leave me. Give me a few hours in your arms. Don't leave yet." I tell him. He wraps me up in his arms, and takes deep breaths. "Do you want to go to...my room?" I ask him. He nods, and I lead him up there. I close the door, and sit on the bed with Matty.
"Do you still smoke?" he asks me. I shrug.
"Sometimes. Not as bad as I was." I tell him. My walls are covered with pictures of my family. Of my new family.
"I feel like there isn't any room in your life anymore..." he says looking around. "Let's face it though. I was never really more than a best friend." he says. "You only wanted Johnny. You never wanted me." he says with a frown. I do too.
"That's not true. I did want you." I tell him. I look up at him, and he leans down toward me. I get up quickly though. "David is my biological dad. Mom lied. She got pregnant by David and then she married Joseph." I say trying to change the subject.
"I never thought you looked anything like that guy. Where was David your whole life?" he asks. I sigh.
"He didn't really know that I was his till I was five. By then mom said it was okay for him to not stick around. He felt guilty and..." I take a breath as he gets closer to me. "He...didn't..." Matthew pressed against me, and I can't find my words.
"Hush mi Angelo." he says. He brushes my hair out of my face and I stare at his lips.
"Matty." I whisper. He goes to kiss me but I stop him. "Stop Matty. I'm with...with Derek." I say with tears in my eyes.
"Ti amo. Mi baci." I love you. Kiss me. I close my eyes, and he leans in. His lips attach to mine, and my breath is taken away. I can taste the tears on my lips. I don't know who's tears they are. He leans me back and continues to kiss me. You're cheating on your boyfriend! I break away fast and gasp. I move away, far away from him, and shake my head.
"I can't Matty. I...I...no. I'm with Derek. I love Derek." I say. He looks so broken. He walks out of my room in a rush and I chase after him. "Matty! Where are you going?" I ask him. He looks at me, and I can see it. The pain he is in. "Matty stop." I say starting to cry.
"Emily what is it worth!? You will never want me! Never! YOU NEVER HAVE AND YOU NEVER WILL! You loved Johnny! You love Derek! I...came here to see YOU. I wanted you." he rubs his nose, and I can see his hands shaking.
"Matthew. Are you alright?" I ask him. He is pale. Skinnier than I've seen him last.
"I...need to...go to the bathroom." he reaches in his pocket, and runs to the bathroom. I open the door, and see him dump a powdered substance on the counter. I watch him from afar in pain. He goes to snort it, but I stop him.
"NO! Matty! Drugs aren't the answer here." I tell him. He shakes his head.
"I need that! I need it Emily! It makes me stop hurting! Emily..." he is breathing hard. "I need it." I stare at it on the counter, and I'm shocked. I don't know what to do. I wish Derek wasn't mad at me. I wish this was different. I just want the old Matty back.
So sorry for the shorter chapter but it's late. Cramming for finals so slower updates are possible! Don't hate me for bringing Matty in! What should Emily do? I already have an idea but your guys' opinions mean a lot too! REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW!(: REVIEW AS SOON AS YOU CAN! I love them with all my heart.