Chapter 26:
Making up:
A few hours after getting out of surgery Jane was still unconscious. Maura and Angela were still at her bedside waiting for her to wake up.
After hours of crying and praying Maura fell asleep her head on Jane's bed.
Angela though, even if she was also exhausted did her best to stay awake in case Jane would wake up or God forbid needed assistance.
As she was about to go out to buy a cup of coffee Maura's mom shyly entered the room.
"May I come in?"
"Yes, Maura is sleeping." Angela replied.
"I can see that, I brought you some food and some coffee, I thought you might need it."
"Thank you very much, it's so thoughtful of you. Thank you for everything you're doing."
"Please don't thank me, Jane is family now."
"Just like Maura is family for us." Angela smiled.
"Who knew two women that different would fell in love land would make such a wonderful couple?"
"I know, that's exactly what I said to myself the first time I met Maura. But now when I see them together, the way they look at each other, you can see that they share a rare bond. "
"I agree, seeing two people so young being so in love and so involved and committed to each other is are. You know as parents all we want for our children is to find love and to be fulfilled in what ever career they choose. I think we have nothing to worry about regarding our daughters, they're on the right path to have a wonderful life together."Constance said as she sat next to Angela and the end of Jane's bed.
" I think you're right, of course as mothers our job is never done, but I think we did a pretty good job with our daughters, don't you think?"
"Yes, Maura grew up to be a passionate, smart, ambitious woman and your Jane is probably the most caring, loving and patient person I have ever met, don't get me wrong I love my daughter, but she's not the easiest person to live with. Maura is very lucky to have her. I'm thankful that she fell in love with someone as wonderful as your daughter."
"Thank you, I think Jane is lucky too, Maura is the best thing that ever happened to her. She used to be quite lost and I think she really find herself when she found Maura. God I don't know what I'm gonna do if she doesn't wake up?"
"Please don't say that. Jane is strong and the surgeon said she was out of danger. Just give her some time to rest and I promise you she's going to wake up soon."
"I know, but the surgeon said she might have some long term nerve damages. I know my daughter, being physically diminished is not something that she's going to handle well."
"Angela look at me. I made a few phone calls and I found her a spot in the best physical rehabilitation center in the state. She's going to be taken care off by the best physical therapist there is. I promise you she's going to get back on her feet in no time."
"I know, thank you again."
"Please stop thanking me, as I said Jane is family, I did what was best for her."
As Maura's mom and Angela were talking Jane started to wake up. When she opened her eyes, everything was still blurry. Her throat was burning from the intubation and her shoulder was hurting like hell.
"What happened?" Jane mumbled as she tried to open your eyes.
"Jane!" Maura screamed as she immediately woke up.
"Jane sweetheart you scared us, how are you feeling?" Angela asked.
"I'm okay, have I missed your graduation?" Jane mumbled.
"No you didn't it's in two days, but it's not important, you're back, oh Jane you scared me so much, don't do that ever again." Maura said rushing in her girlfriend's arm.
"I won't. I'm sorry." Jane replied bitting her lip as she felt Maura's head on her wounded shoulder.
"Maura darling I think you're pressuring her shoulder." Maura's mom pointed out.
"Oh, sorry , does it hurt?"
"It does, I can't move my fingers…" Jane said a panicked look in her eyes.
"Don't worry it's perfectly normal, the bullet hit some major nerves in your shoulder, but don't worry with some physical therapy you should regain full usage of your arm and hand in no time."
"I already arranged for you to go in the best physical rehabilitation center of the state, you're going to be just fine." Constance said.
"Thank you Mrs Isles, but I have my personal Doctor, that's if you still want me…"
"Of course I still want you, I love you, I'm sorry for being so hard on you." Maura said as she pressed her lips against Jane's.
"Ouch, that hurts." Jane replied.
"Oh, I'm sorry, it seems you bite your lips when you fell. I'll take care of it don't worry."
"I know I'm in good hands with you." Jane replied stroking her hair with her fingers.
"Well, I think we should leave you two alone for a while." Constance said pointing the door to Angela.
"Yes, you might use some privacy, I will see you later darling, your father and your brothers will visit you later. " Angela said leaning over to kiss her daughter's forehead.
"I'm sorry I scared you guys like this…."
"Don't apologize from what I heard your saved your partner's life. "
"I did?"
"Yes, I talked to your Lieutenant and it seemed you got shot trying to protect him while he was on the ground unable to move. You're a hero Jane." Mrs Isles said.
"I only did my job Ma'am, he would have done the same thing."
"Well, I'm glad to hear that you have each other's back but what you did was brave, you should be proud of yourself, but right now you need to rest."
"Yes Ma'am."
As Maura's mom and Angela were leaving the room Maura and Jane could finally be alone. They had so many they needed to apologize for, so many things they wanted to say to each other.
"Can you forgive me?" Jane asked.
"Of course, I'm sorry I shouldn't have left you, I should have stayed and try to understand your insecurities instead of being stubborn and walking away like that."
"No, I was talking about getting shot, I promised you I would be careful. I'm so sorry."
"I know you didn't run toward that bullet on purpose, you did it to protect your partner. Do you remember what happened?"
"Yes, I remember that they started firing at us, after a few minutes I saw him lying on the floor and that guy was aiming at him so I started shooting at him trying to get close to my partner. I don't remember anything else after that."
"Well you were brought it and Dr Corday, who I did my surgical rotation with operated on you. She's the best trauma surgeon there is ."
"Did someone call you?"
"Yes, I left my phone in our library so my mother was the one who took the call thinking it might be important. It was your Lieutenant, apparently I'm the first person on your emergency list."
"Yes, I always knew I would prefer you to be notified before my mother, so you can notify her and calm her down."
"Well, I didn't notify her, I asked my mother to send our driver to pick her up, I didn't want her to hear it over the phone and then kill herself on the road."
"Good thinking, God that hurts." Jane groaned her hand on her shoulder.
"Do you need me to call Dr Corday?She might need to adjust your IV."
"No, I'm good, I want us to talk ."
"Oh Jane, I appreciate it, but there are more important thing right now, you need to rest."
"I'm fine, it hurts but I'm not tired, I do not need to sleep. What I need is to apologize for my behavior. You were right I treated you like my property and that's not the kind of girlfriend I want to be. I don't want to be the kind of girlfriend who forbids you to go out and see your friends. I'm sorry, I know I have no reasons to either doubt your loyalty or commitment or the fact that I'm good enough for you. If you're with me I guess it's because I'm worth it, I just have issue believing it. "
"You have to start believing it. I love you Jane, you make me incredibly happy, you are more than I ever dared to dream of. You need to stop putting yourself down like that. You're the only one for me."
"I know sweetie, you're the only one for me too. I don't know what happened you started to talk about our future engagement party and I suppose I freaked out a bit."
"I'm sorry I brought the marriage thing up, I know it's too soon for us to talk about it."
"Yes it's too soon but I want to marry you some day you know that right?"
"No, I don't. We never really talked about it and I know you're not the marrying type…"
"Well I wasn't the relationship type either before I met you, but you changed all that. For the first time in my life I'm actually starting to make plans for the future, and marriage is one of them. When the time is right I'll make an honest woman of you don't worry."
"You shouldn't tell me that, you know I'm going to be be impatient now."
"Then you're going to have to learn to be more patient. You know I love you and that when the time is right, I'll go down on one knee and pop the question, alright?It's going to happen, so don't over think it. "
"You're right, we're still young, we can't rush into this. We should just continue to grow as human beings and as a couple before taking the most important step of our lives. I won't have time to plan a wedding during my residency anyway.."
"Exactly we can totally wait 5 years."
"I was joking, Don't you dare making me wait 5 years!"
"Alright, please stop making me laugh it hurts too much."
"I'm sorry, I just love you so much and I thought I was going to loose you."
"So did I, I really thought I was going to loose you when you left. I know I'm not perfect and that I went a little cave woman on you but for the past 7 months every time you had doubts or felt unsecured I was there to comfort and to reassure you. I don't want to make you feel bad about it but I needed you and you just left me…"
"I know and I trust me when I say that I feel terrible about it. You're right you've always been here for me when I needed you. God knows how insecure I was for the first 6 months of our relationship , actually I still am, but you never gave up on me, you keep on telling me you loved me, every single day. I'm sorry I didn't help you. "
"I know you're sorry, but I hope you understand that I have insecurities. I know that I've always tried to be the strong and confident one in our relationship because that's what you needed me to be, but I'm scared Maura, being with you, picturing a future with you is scary."
"I know, It's scary for me two and I promise I won't let you down again if you ever need me."
"I trust you. Come on, show me that beautiful smile."
"If you promise me you won't ever leave me."
"I would never leave you, you should know that."
"I'm a Doctor Jane, I know that there's nothing you can to against a 40 caliber."
"I know but I'm tough and I will always fight to stay alive because of you. When I was lying down, I could barely hear or see anything because I hit my head so hard. All I could picture was your face and even if it hurt so bad and even if it would have been easier to just give up I didn't. I pictured your beautiful face and knew that I couldn't leave you like that, especially after the way we fought like time I saw you. You will always be my reason to keep on fighting and to come home safely, I promise."
"I know and I knew from the start what I was getting myself into when I agree to start dating a cop, but I didn't expect it to be so hard. I'm sorry I should have been stronger."
"Hey, I am the one who should be apologizing. You're right I'm a cop and you knew that I might get wounded one day, but being prepared doesn't take the pain and the fear away ."
"I know, would it be too much of me to ask you not to go back to the drug unit?"
"No, I won't go back, you were right it's not worth it. Having my Detective shield isn't worth risking my life and risking loosing you. I'll make Detective another way. "
"You saved a life and you took care of several heavily armed drug dealers, that might help you with your shield."
"Maybe . To be honest with you, I don't care. All I want right now is go home and start working on my hand and after that I want us to take some vacation before you start your residency, would you like that?"
"I think that's a terrific idea. You nerves will need several weeks to heal and physical therapy is going to take at least a month but after that you'll be as good as new and I would love nothing more than to celebrate your recovery away from Boston."
"Alright. Do you think I'll be well enough for your graduation?"
"I don't know, if you rest a lot, you might be able to get discharged for a few hours just for the ceremony."
"How long am I going to have to stay here?"
"That's not up to me Jane. I'm not your Doctor, you're going to have to talk to Dr Corday and trust me she's though. She won't discharge you until she's 100% confident that you can go home."
"That's great, I hate hospitals."
"Well, I'm sorry Jane, but don't worry I'll stay with you and I'm sure you're going to receive many visitors."
And for the nest two days Maura stayed with Jane nights and days. She sat in that chair next to her bed and watched her sleep beating herself up for being so childish.
She took Jane for granted and got used to her being so confident and strong that she failed to see when she needed her. Almost loosing her made her realize that she needed to stop acting like a spoiled little girl. Jane had given her everything and had never failed her once in 7 months and it was time for her to start acting like an adult and stop putting the weight on their relationship on Jane's shoulders. Jane was human and was probably as scared to be in a committed relationship as she was, she just never showed it because Maura needed her to be strong. Now Jane needed Maura to help her and support her during her recovery and Maura was determined to be the best personal Doctor possible and to take good care of her.
SO guys what do you think?I know Jane wouldn't be so talkative after being shot, that it's not realistic but I wanted them to talk. I think that they both feel guilty and Jane despite de pain needed to clarify things and always reviews are welcome, the more feedback I receive the more inspired I am!