Where I Belong

by Alexandria M

It's been 8 years since Roman aka Joe and Teagan have seen each other since a nasty break up. Teagan and Joe have both moved on with their lives but what happens when after 8 years they run into each other again? Will it change everything they know or will everything stay the same?

26. The Darkest Secrets

*Thank-you for the reviews on the last chapter they were greatly appreciated. Thank-you all so much*

A FEW DAYS LATER:

"Hey, Sir," I say as I am sitting in Joe's hospital room. He still hasn't woken up yet. He is still lying there motionless, weak and helpless. He is breathing on his own and the swelling in his brain has gone down a little but not by much. I miss him more and more each day as each day without him gets harder and harder. I have been stretching myself thin for the last week between being a mommy, working at the office and visiting Joe every day. I am glad that his mom came into town a few days ago or I would have lost my mind by now. "I wish you would wake up, Sir. I miss you so much. I need you so badly," I say with tears in my eyes. "Please, Baby wake up. I miss you and the girls miss you. We need you so badly. Please," I beg as I feel tears fall from my eyes as a lump forms in my throat. I cry out looking at him. He looks so helpless I can't take it that the strongest most dominant man that I once knew is now lying in this hospital bed and it's all my fault. If I hadn't cheated on Jay with Joe none of this would be happening now. If I hadn't left Jay none of this would have happened. It's my fault. I take full responsibility for it. His bruises are starting to fade little by little but you can still tell he went through hell. "I love you, Joe," I say through my cries as I rub his soft arm as I hold his hand into mine with our fingers intertwined. "Please, Baby," I beg as I lay my head down on his bed. I have also been spending every night at the hospital with him in the hopes of him waking up.

I lay crying on his bed hoping to see his beautiful eyes again soon and to see his beautiful smile soon. I am beside myself in devastation. My cries are interrupted by hearing him groan. "Joe," I say as I lift my head up as he starts to stir. "Joe," I say with a smile as his groans get louder and he starts to move a little more. He clears his throat as our eyes meet each other. He smiles at me instantly and I smile back with tears in my eyes. "You're awake," I say with a smile as I run my hand over the top of his hair.

He groans out before he speaks. "My head hurts. What happened?"

"You don't remember what happened?" I ask.

"Where am I?" he asks as he looks around.

"You're in the hospital. You were attacked do you remember that?" I ask with concern before I page for someone to come into the room to check on him.

"I remember walking home from work," he says as he lets go of my hand and places it on his head. "My head really hurts."

"That's because you experienced some head trauma in the attack," I say, "do you remember anything else other than walking home?"

"Um," he says as he squints his eyes. "I remember taking the short cut and I heard footsteps but I couldn't see anyone. I walked down the alley and then these guys jumped out at me. I remember them having baseball bats and telling me that Jay had a message for me."

"So they said Jay had a message for you?" I ask.

"Yeah," he says. "And then I remember being hit but that's it. Everything else I don't know or remember."

"You got beat up pretty bad," I say. "Broken ribs, a shattered elbow, head trauma can you remember your name?" I ask.

"Joseph Anoa'I or Roman Reigns," he says. "Why are you asking me this? I know who I am."

"Because you had some swelling on the brain, Baby. I have to worry about you."

"I'm fine," he says. "How long have I been out?"

"About a week," I say as the doctor comes into the room.

"Mr. Reigns," he says, "How are you feeling?"

"Good," he says. "My head hurts but I'm okay."

"Do you know what state we are in?"

"New York," he says.

"And the year?"

"2014," he answers as he looks at me. I don't think he gets it that he was out for about a week and the doctor is just checking him out.

"And the president is?"

"Barack Obama," he says.

"Good," he says. "Let me just take a look at your eyes." The doctor takes his light and looks into Joe's eyes. "Looking good I don't' see any signs of a concussion. I am still a little concerned. You took numerous blows to your head which caused you to fall unconscious and caused swelling on your brain. I want to do a cat scan to make sure everything is okay and to make sure that there aren't any long last effects."

"Okay," he says. "Can I have some water first?" he asks. "I'm really thirsty."

"I'll get you some," I say as I stand up to get him some water from the pitcher on the table across the room. "Here you go, Baby," I say with a smile.

"Thanks, Angel," he says with a soft smile before he drinks the water down. "I feel much better. So you're saying that there could be long lasting effects from the injuries I sustained in the attack?"

"Yes," he says, "we're just going to do a scan to make sure everything is okay and to see that the swelling on your brain has gone down as well as to make sure there is no bleeding on the brain."

"Okay," says Joe.

While Joe is getting his scan done I call his mom to let her know that he is awake. "Hey, Grace," I say with a smile as she answers the phone.

"How is Joe? Is everything all right with him?"

"He just woke up. He seems to be doing all right. He knows who he is and where he is. He seems to be doing well. The doctor took him for a cat scan to make sure that the swelling is gone and to make sure there are no long lasting effects and he is checking for bleeding."

"That's great news! Take care of my baby boy for me," she says as I smile. "I know you love him."

"I really do," I say with a smile. "He's a great guy. You did a great job with him."

"Thank-you," she says. "He always loved you, Teagan, even after Gina left. He came to New York looking for you. I'm glad he found you."

"I'm glad he found me too," I say with a smile as I rub my stomach to feel our little girl kick.

"All right," she says. "Keep me posted and let me know what is going on. I would like to know what is going on with him."

"I will," I say with a smile. "Bye, Grace."

"Bye, Teagan," she says before we hang up the phones.

Once Joe gets his scans done on his brain the doctor lets us know that the swelling has gone away and he has no signs of bleeding on the brain. As far as he can see there are no long lasting effects from the attack. He wants to keep Joe for a couple more days just to monitor him to make sure the swelling doesn't come back and to make sure there is no bleeding. "So," says Joe, "don't worry about me, Teagan. I'm worried about you," he says as he motions for me to get into the hospital bed with him. I smile as I get into the bed next to him and he wraps an arm around me as I gently wrap my arm around his waist trying not to touch his bruises. "How are you? I'm worried about you. I know this probably hasn't been easy for you and I am sure you're under an extreme amount of stress. How is the baby? Is everything okay with the baby?"

"Yeah," I say with a smile. "She's doing great. She's actually kicking up a storm right now. The most active she's been in days. I think she missed you," I say with a smile. "I know that I did."

"She's my little princess already," he says with a smile as he kisses the top of my head before he takes his hand to my stomach. "Hey there Baby L," he says rubbing my stomach as she starts to go crazy. He laughs and says, "Did you miss Daddy? Daddy is awake now so daddy can talk to you again. I missed you too my little princess," he says with a smile. I smile as he lifts my shirt to touch my bare stomach to be as close to the baby as he can get. "She's really moving isn't she?"

"Yeah," I say with a smile. "She loves her daddy."

"I love her too," he says as he kisses my stomach softly. "I love you, Baby L," he says softly before he puts my shirt down but keeps his hand on my stomach. "At least she's active."

"Yeah," I say.

"And how are my other girls?"

"They're good. They miss you too," I say with a smile. "Especially your little Bumble Bee. She makes you new pictures every day. And she prays for you every night."

"I miss her," he says with a smile. "What about Renny and Sydney?"

"They miss you too. They are ready for you to come home again."

"I can't wait to go home. And how is everything with the office?"

"Good," I say as I bite my lip.

"What, Teagan? Why are you biting your lip? What happened?"

"I may have fired Cheryl," I answer as my blue eyes lock onto his blue-grey eyes.

"Wow," he says with a smile. "You wasted no time getting rid of her."

"I couldn't take her fakeness anymore. She wasn't there to help you she was there to hurt you. I needed to get her out of there and I didn't do it without slapping her across the face."

"Damn, Tea," he says with a smile. "I go unconscious for a few days and you slap someone. That's the Tea I know."

"Yeah I know," I say with a smile. "She's lucky I am pregnant or it would have been worse."

"I'm sure," he says with a smile as he kisses the bridge of my nose. "You're so beautiful."

"Thank-you," I say with a smile. "You're so sexy only you could pull off a hospital gown and still be sexy and you're all mine," I say wrapping my arms around his neck softly before I kiss his lips softly as he moans against my lips.

"Careful, Ms. Teagan," he says with a smile. "I've been out for a while but everything is waking up now. Don't wake him up unless you can take care of him."

"You know I always do," I say with a smile before I kiss his lips once again as we share a passionate kiss. I have missed his kisses so much. I have missed the feel of his perfect full lips, the feeling of his large hand on the small of my back as he pushes me closer to him. He may have been out for a few days but he is still the man he's always been.

"Good," he breathes against my lips because he needs some attention," he says as he takes my hand and places it onto his growing erection.

"My pleasure, Sir," I say as I smile against his lips before I kiss him again while I stroke him softly till his erection becomes full and large in my hand. I feel his smile against my lips before I break away to take care of his situation.

I lift his gown and smile before I take the tip of his erection into my mouth. He moans out at the touch of my lips. "Tea," he breathes out as I stroke him with my hand as I suck on the tip before taking more into my mouth. "God, yes," he says as I take more of him into my mouth as I suck him softly and run my tongue over the length of his erection. "Take it all, Tea," he says as I take so much of him into my mouth I can feel him in the back of my throat as I suck before I slide my tight lips and tongue back up and then down again. His breaths growing heavier as I continue to do this. "I'm going to cum," he says as he warns me. "It's all for you, Angel," he says. "Keep me in your mouth," he says as I feel his erection start to throb and grow larger in my mouth before he finds his release and his hot seed hits the back of my throat as I swallow every drop before I remove him from my mouth. I wipe my lips and smile at him. "Very good, Angel," he says. "I told you I was feeling better."

"You were," I say with a smile as I lay down next to him again. "I hope I pleased you well."

"You did, Tea, and every time I am more amazed with your gag reflexes. You practically had me in your throat."

"You were in my throat," I say with a smile. "It takes practice."

He smiles and says, "I'm glad that I was the one you practiced on all those years ago. I'm sure Jay appreciated what I taught you."

"I guess," I say as I lay my head on his chest as I take his hand into mine and intertwine our fingers together. "I can't believe that he is responsible for this. Actually I do believe it because he's a coward. He wouldn't do it himself but he was behind it which is bad enough."

"Don't even worry about him," he says. "I've got him."

"Well, about Jay," I say, "I have to tell you something about him."

"I'm listening," he says.

"I went to his office," I say. "I went to pay him a visit."

"You shouldn't have done that, Tea. You shouldn't have gone to visit him. He could have hurt you. What would you have done then?"

"I had Matt and Steve with me. I was upset, Joe. He put you in the hospital. I knew it was him. You didn't even have to tell me. I knew. I went to let him know he was done."

"He is going to be done when I get through with him but you shouldn't have gone there. You put yourself in danger and not only you the baby. You put her in danger too. Anything could have gone wrong. I understand that you care and you love me but I love you and if I ever lost you or if I ever lose you my world is going to be over."

"Are you going to punish me?"

"No," he says. "I'm not going to punish you. I know why you did it but I don't want you to do it again. I will take care of him. Don't you worry about it, okay?"

"Okay," I say with a smile. "I love you."

"I love you too," he says with a smile before he kisses my lips softly.

*A COUPLE DAYS LATER*

"Guess, who's home," I say with a smile as I help Joe walk into the house.

"Daddy!" yell all three girls as they charge at him.

"Careful," I say, "Daddy is still very sore. He still has some bruises and his ribs still hurt. You have to be very careful with him."

"Okay," they say together.

"Daddy," says Lylah, "did you get all my pictures?"

"I did," he says with a smile as I help him out of his jacket. "I loved them all. My favorite was the flower. You are a wonderful artist."

"Thank-you," she says with a smile. "Are you feeling better now?"

"I'm getting there," he says with a smile.

"Good," she says.

"Sydney, how is school?"

"Good," she says with a smile. "I missed you, Dad," she says as she carefully hugs him.

"I missed you too," he says as he hugs her back before kissing the top of her head. "I need to sit down," he says.

"All right," I say as I help him to the living room so that he can take a seat. "Is there anything I can get you?"

"No but you can sit down next to me," he says with a smile before a take a seat next to him on the couch.

"So who hurt you, Daddy?" asks Renny.

Joe and I look at each other before he answers the question. "Some bad men did this but I talked to the police and the police are going to find them. You don't' have to worry about anything."

"Why did they hurt you, Daddy?" asks Lylah.

"I don't know, Sweetie."

"Are you going to be okay?" asks Sydney.

"Eventually," he says, "it's just going to take some time but in the meantime I'm going to be home with you while Mommy works."

"You're not going back to work?" I ask.

"No not yet. I need some time to recover probably 2 or 3 weeks out so I need you to run the show."

"Okay," I say with a smile. "I've been doing that."

"Good," he says with a smile, "I'm sure you're doing a fantastic job."

"Thank-you," I say with a smile.

"You're welcome," he says with a smile. "I love you."

"I love you too," I say with a smile before he kisses my lips softly.

We spend most of the day with the kids since Joe hasn't seen them for over a week. He does everything they want him to do like play games, read them stories, play dolls with them and color with them. This is the first time in days that the girls have been this happy and I don't blame them. Having Joe home has made everything a thousand times better for us and a lot happier. That emptiness we felt while he was in the hospital is gone and filled by his laughter, his voice and his smiles as he plays with the kids.

Once the kids are in bed I take a shower while Joe is in the bedroom watching TV and relaxing like he should be. I let the hot water hit me as I think about everything that has happened lately; everything with Jay and his father. I can't stand either of them. I feel like they are both the biggest pigs in society. I don't know how I stayed married to Jay for so long and put up with everything he put me through. I'm not with him anymore and he's still putting me through hell. It's never going to stop until he's dead. I wash my hair as my mind takes me back to my marriage with Jay and all the bad memories come flooding back. Tears burn my eyes as I think of all the things I've done and all the things he's made me do. Tears roll down my cheek mixing with the hot water as I cry thinking about every beating he's given me and every negative thing he's said to me. Every name he's called me and every word he's said to me. It rips through my body and I find myself falling to the ground in the shower, crying and choking on my sobs as the hot water turns to cold as I cry. I shiver as the water goes off. "Teagan," says Joe as he is standing outside of the shower. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing," I say.

"Why are you crying," he asks as he gets down onto my level. I don't' answer him as I continue to cry. "Tea, you can talk to me about anything. It's freezing in here," he says taking my hand. "Let's get you warmed up," he says as he helps me out of the shower. He wraps a towel around me and helps me to the bedroom. I just stand there thinking about everything that I want to say and everything I want to tell him. He gets me out one of his t-shirts and a pair of sweatpants. He helps me get dressed the best that he can with one hand but he does pretty well and then he leads me over to the bed and as I take a seat he pulls out the brush to brush my hair. "We can talk, Teagan," he says softly. "I'm here. I'm listening."

I take a deep breath and turned to face him. "If I tell you something do you promise that you won't think any less of me?"

"I would never think any less of you. You're the best thing in my life and mean more to me than anything. What's up?" he asks as he lays the brush down on the bed and gives me his full attention.

"Can I tell you about my marriage with Jay?"

"You want to talk about it?" he asks.

"Yes," I say, "there's so much more than the beatings that you don't know about."

"Like what," he asks brushing a piece of hair behind my ear.

"I hate them both," I say with tears in my eyes. "I hate them both. They are one in the same."

"Okay," he says. "I hate them too."

"It's so much more than that, Joe," I say. "His dad," I say as I choke on my words, "is a pig. I hate him so much."

"What happened, Tea? Did he do something to you because if he did I'm going to kill his ass."

"Not this time," I say.

"But he has before," he says.

"Yes," I nod. "Jay and Jay used to make me do things I never wanted to do. Jay used to make me have sex with him even if I didn't want to. He would rape me when he wanted it but I didn't. Then there were times," I say as I choke on my sobs. "He would let his dad get a turn. It was the most disgusting thing I have ever been through in my life. The most degrading thing I have ever done. I am not that person, Joe. He threatened me if I didn't do what his father wanted."

"So his father made you have sex with him?" he asks. "What kind of sick bastard has sex with their son's wife?"

"He does apparently," I say, "and I had to do it. There wasn't a choice. I would have rather had sex with him then get a beating which was always what would happen if I rebelled."

"This is horrible," he says, "I'm so sorry, Tea," he says as he wraps his arm around me and kisses the top of my head.

"I hated it, Joe. I felt so dirty. And the worst part Jay would sit and watch as his dad and I were doing it. He got off on it and then he had to take his turn and then his father would watch. It went on like that all night some times. I thought it would never end. I hated it so much. I hated my life with him. The beatings, the rape everything. I hated it all. I never want to go back there and I never want to have that life again," I cry.

"You won't," he says, "I promise. You belong to me. You're going to be my wife and I would never allow that to happen to you. You're safe now."

"And sometimes I would get beat up by both of them. His father was never afraid to put his hands on me. Jay learns from the best. I felt so useless and felt so violated. I hated myself and everything about me. Then you came back into my life and I started to love life again. I started to feel better about waking up in the morning. I just don't know what all Jay can do. I mean I know what he can do because he does a lot of dirty dealing. He is dirty there is no way to lie about it. They are both dirty. That's why when you told me they had this drug cartel I wasn't shocked. I am sure if you do more digging you'll find out more secrets and find out more things they are hiding. I am sure you'll find extortion, prostitution, sex trafficking and a whole bunch of other crazy stuff."

"Are you serious, Tea?"

"I'm dead serious. You don't know them like I do. That's why I told you to be careful. I know the people they run around with and I know what they are capable of. I want them to die, Joe. I really do and I would never ever say that about someone but after everything they've put me through I can't help but wish that. Please don't hate me."

"I don't hate you," he says holding me tighter. "I love you even more for being strong enough to go through that. I will take care of Jay and Jay Richards. They are going to pay for everything they've ever done to you. Don't worry, Angel, I've got this. And you don't have to worry about a thing. You're with me now. I will NEVER let anyone hurt you again, not you, not Baby L and not the girls. We are going to take them down and they are going to suffer. I guarantee you that," he says as I wrap my arms around him and break down crying onto his chest as he comforts me and holds me.

A/N: What did you think of Joe waking up? What about Teagan blaming herself for everything that's happened is it her fault? What about the connection JOe has with the baby? What did you think of JOe actually putting Tea in charge of the corporation until he returns back to work? Do you think we have seen the last of Cheryl? What did you think about Teagan coming out with the secrets of her marriage? ARe you shocked that Jay and Jay took turns with her and beat her around? Do you think JOe blames himself for everything that Teagan has gone through in her life with Jay? Do you think Jay and his father have their hands in other stuff than just drugs? What did you think when Joe's mom told Teagan that Joe came New York to find her? Please review and thank-you for reading.