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Confrontation and Support
To anxious about the day ahead of me I awoke by 8am with a smile on my face. I was looking forward to spending the day with Edward and being able to talk through some things with him. I knew that I had to talk to my father but I didn't know what the right way to was. My father and I hadn't had any serious conversations ever and I knew it was going to be awkward, but I needed answers. I needed closure in order to move beyond that hurt I felt ever since my mother and he divorced. Before I could enjoy my day with Edward I needed to put this part behind me.
At exactly 10am I got a call from Edward asking me what time was good to drop by. I wanted enough time to talk to him so I asked him to drop by as soon as he could. After letting me know he would be by in half an hour I rushed into my room to finish getting ready. I put on a pair of blue skinny jeans, my purple Applebottom v-cut shirt and a pair of Mary Jane's. I left my hair out and then went to the kitchen to prepare some breakfast for Edward and me. When we talked earlier I let him know I was cooking breakfast so I knew he would eat when he got to the house.
At 10:45 my doorbell rang and I yelled out from the kitchen for Edward to let himself in. I didn't hear him come into the kitchen so when I turned to head into the living room I jumped back in surprise.
"Jeez Edward you scared the living daylights out of me!" I squealed holding my chest.
"I'm sorry I thought you heard me come in." he chuckled looking over at me.
"No I thought you were in the living room. Why didn't you say anything?" I asked.
"Umm I just got in here. Sorry." he said running his hand through his hair. A habit he had when he was nervous.
"Uh huh sure Cullen. I'm going to pretend I didn't catch you ogling me." I joked and turned to take the plates over to the table.
"I have no idea what made you think that Swan." He chuckled as he grabbed the glasses I had filled with orange juice.
"Yeah Yeah." I laughed and looked over at him smiling. "So what are the plans?" I asked while digging into my eggs.
"Well I'm not sure about right now but I do have something planned for later on. What would you like to do?" he asked.
Thinking this was the perfect time to talk to him about my situation I put down my fork and looked over at him. "Well I wanted to do something today and I was sort of hoping you could help me with it."
"Sure what is it?" he said placing his fork down.
"Well you know how I told you I needed to start this change for me?"
"Yeah I do."
"Well I think that I should first deal with what started it all. I need to talk to my parents about what I was feeling after their divorce and maybe get some closure on that. My dad is the only one here so I was thinking of talking to him today and well I could use your support." I said looking at him hoping that I wasn't asking for too much.
"Okay I'll go with you Bells. Are you sure you want me there and not do this alone though?"
"Yes I'm sure I need you there." I smiled over at him.
"Okay so do you want to go now?" he said as he finished his plate.
I nodded and then picked up both our plates and placed them in the dishwasher. After grabbing my bag Edward and I headed over to my fathers house. He usually had Sundays off and would be home getting ready for the game so I knew that it was the best time to stop by.
As Edward drove up to my father's house my nerves started to get the best of me. I sat on my seat twisting Edward's bracelet around continuously. Noticing my nervousness Edward reached over and placed his hand on mine.
"Bella it's going to be okay. Don't be nervous." He said and then turned to smile at me before parking the car next to my fathers' cruiser. I instantly stopped the fidgeting and felt the nerves subside a little. That was what I loved about Edward. His ways of making all my worries disappear with just one touch or smile.
"Thanks." I whispered and then let out a deep breath as I got out of the car. As soon as I started to make my way towards the house Charlie came storming out in a hurry. When he noticed me he made his way towards me quickly.
"Hey sweetheart, what a surprise." He said wrapping me in his arms.
"Hey daddy, I actually wanted to see if I could talk to you about something really quick." I got to the point since he looked like he was about to step out.
"Umm sweetie, I'm sorry but I have plans right now, can this wait?" he said looking at me.
"Umm it'll only be a few minutes. Do you have an emergency?" I asked.
"No, but I have plans with your sister and I'm kind of running late." He said looking at his watch.
"Oh…I don't think she'll mind if we talk for a minute dad I just need to talk to you about something important." I said knowing Alice wouldn't mind the wait.
"Uh listen sweetie I'll pass by later and we can talk. Alice and I are meeting Jaspers parents and I'm running late. We'll talk later okay." He said kissing me on the forehead and then turning.
I don't know what it was but at that instant all of the hurt I felt before came boiling to the surface. This was exactly what I hated! I was always put second to Alice and that is exactly why I acted out. Though this time I knew Alice wasn't to blame but my father sure was. Why couldn't he just talk to me for a few minutes? He could have called Alice and told her why he was late. Jasper's parents weren't more important then his daughter! Or were they just more important then me? As all those questions ran through my head and I started to get angrier and angrier. Before he could get into his cruiser I stormed over to him.
"You know I'm your daughter too!" I shouted as I got closer to him. Charlie turned to me stunned that I was screaming at him. "Dad all I need is a few minutes and you rather be with Alice then listen to me for a few minutes!"
"Sweetheart it's not that I don't want to talk but I'm running late." He said calmly.
"Who cares? Alice will understand if you tell her! I just wanted to talk to you about why I was acting out before and you can't even take a few minutes to listen! This is exactly why I'm the way I am! You have always put me second to Alice and I hated you for it!" I shouted as I stood in front of him with tears rolling down my eyes. "I was your princess dad! I was your everything! But as soon as Alice came around you threw me to the side! It was always Alice this and Alice that and Alice and I did this and that! You never wanted to spend time with me! I hated Alice for so long because of the way you loved her more then me! I hated my own sister because of you and it isn't even her fault! You have two daughters like it or not dad!" I cried and as I felt that I was about to crumble I felt a pair of arms around me which instantly calmed me a little.
"Sweetheart stop with the theatrics and we'll discuss this later in private. We will talk Bells, but later okay." Charlie said looking over at me. I couldn't believe that he had just blown off everything I had told him. It felt like the knife in my heart was being twisted more and more. I felt Edward's grip tighten on my waist and I knew that he was getting angry.
"No dad how about we don't. I've heard everything I needed to hear. Go on and meet up with Alice she needs you more then I do." I said as I tried to find the strength to be strong. He had already answered my questions and nothing more needed to be said.
"Bells sweetheart please don't be upset. We'll talk at a later time okay." He said as he opened the door to his cruiser.
"No we won't Charlie. I'm trying to change the person I have been lately and I just needed to know that you still loved "your princess" but I got my answer. I won't bother you anymore with my theatrics. Just know that you only have one daughter from this point forward. I've always felt like you didn't love me and I just got my answer. So thanks for the talk dad." I sneered and then turned and walked towards Edward's car without waiting for a response.
I couldn't stand there anymore and waste his time. I knew where I stood with him and it hurt me deeply. Charlie had never spent time with me like he did with Alice but he would always reassure me he loved me. He never showed it though and what he just did finally had shown me that his love was a lie. I was young but not naïve. No father that loved their daughter would ever stand there and do what my father had done. No father complained about not having time to talk to his daughter. But Charlie had done just that. This day was supposed to be the day where I finally could feel the loved that Charlie had always said he had for me. I was supposed to walk away from this conversation with a smile on my face and knowing that my father loved Alice and I equally. This was supposed to be my closure but it wasn't. This was the day I found out how much of a disappointment I was to my father. The day where I finally concluded that I was fatherless. As the word replayed in my mind I could feel my walls of strength start to crumble. As I sat there wrapping my arms around myself I heard the car door slam and the car speed away.
Not even ten minutes later I looked up and noticed that we were at my house.
"Edward I don't want to be here." I whispered.
"Okay sweetie." Edward said as he put the car in reverse and sped off.
I continued looking down at my hands forcing myself to be strong until Edward placed his hand on mine.
"Come on." He said as he stopped the car.
I looked up and noticed that we were at our park. Well not technically ours but it was our spot. As I got out Edward came to my side and wrapped his arm around me waist. I leaned onto his shoulder and together we walked over to the edge of the hill and sat down. As soon as I was sitting next to him he brought me towards him and held me against his chest. That was when the flood of tears spilled out.
"I wanted so bad to know that he loved me Edward. What father does that?" I sobbed into his chest.
"No real father does that Bella. I never thought Charlie was like that. He should have done what a father does and stood there to listen to you. Honey I'm so sorry you had to go through that." Edward said as he ran his hands through my hair.
"He would have if I was Alice but I'm not. These past few days I gave him the benefit of the doubt. I didn't think that what I thought could be possible. I didn't think that he didn't love me after all the times he assured me he did. He stood there and completely ignored my pleas to talk because he had to go meet Jaspers parents! They're not as important as his daughter!" I cried and then as the next words left my mouth I lend up "They're important to him because it concerns his daughter." I sniffed.
"Honey you're his daughter too and he should have talked to you. Alice would have waited for him." Edward assured me.
"No I'm not his daughter. I've been a disappointment for a while anyways so now he doesn't have to worry. Alice is his pride and joy and I'm his regret. You know what Edward I'm not going to cry." I said as I wiped my eyes. "He's not worth it. I wanted my answers and I got them. I'm not going to let my dead beat of a father kill my spirits. I want to change Edward and I will now that I know Charlie's real feelings. I'm going to show him that I could be a great person and that I'm not a disappointment. I will change Edward." I said and looked over at him determined.
"I admire you Bella. You just experience something that is so horrible and so hurtful but you don't let it break you. It makes you stronger and experiencing it makes me proud of you. The old Bella I'm sure would have gotten revenge but all you want to do is prove him wrong and I know you will. It hurts me to see what I just saw but you're determination to prove to him that you aren't a bad seed makes me happy." Edward said looking over at me with so much admiration in his eyes. I could see the love inside of them and it made my heart flutter with joy. That look just made me more determined then ever.
"Thanks Edward. I'm not going to lie, behind this strength I feel all the pain of what just happened, but I'll prove him wrong. No matter how much my mother and Phil are absent I've always felt their love. I always knew that Phil rooted for me to change and he always assured my mother I needed time. That is what a father should do, so if Charlie isn't proud of his daughter then I'm sure Phil would be." I said and looked over at Edward who had a smile on his face.
"Well just so that you know, I'm proud of you Bella." He smiled and then bumped me gently with his shoulder.
"Thanks Edward." I said as a smile appeared on my face. "I'm proud of myself too."
As we sat there in silence for a few minutes my phone started to ring. I quickly grabbed my phone from my pockets and noticed that it was Jake calling. I noticed that Edward had also seen the screen and quickly smiled at him before answering the phone.
"Hey Black what can I do for you?" I joked into the phone.
"I'm wondering if I should be saving you Swan." Jake joked back and at the mention of my surname my heart ached. I wasn't a Swan anymore so I didn't want to be reminded.
Edward noticing my hesitation grabbed my hand. "You okay" he mouthed and I nodded quickly.
"Bella" Jake spoke again.
"Umm yeah I'm here sorry. No I don't, thank you very much." I chuckled.
"Okay so he's treating you well so far then right?" he asked.
"Yes umm so I should get going. I'll call you tonight." I said not trying to be rude to Edward or Jake.
"Okay but if you do need me I'm a call away. Bye Bells." He said.
"Bye Jake and I'll keep that in mind." I laughed and then hung up. "Sorry." I said placing the phone in my pocket.
"That's okay. So how about we start my part of the day early?" Edward said as he stood up.
"Okay sounds great." I said standing up. "What are we doing?"
"It's a surprise. You'll have to just wait and see." He said as we headed to the car.
"Edward Anthony Cullen I don't like surprises, so spill!" I whined as I stood with my arms crossed in front of me.
"Nope you'll have to wait." He said getting into the car.
I sighed and then got in "Fine." I huffed which made Edward laugh.
"Just a twenty minute ride and we'll be there. I promise okay." He chuckled and then drove away from the park.
As we were turning the corner into a parking lot I noticed where exactly we were going. When we drove up I noticed Rose and Emmett standing to the side obviously waiting for us because they waved when they noticed Edward's silver Volvo.
"Edward what's this?" I asked curiously looking over at him.
"This Bella is me trying to make up for treating you so badly. I know you want to forget how I treated you but I can't and so this is like a token of apology." He said getting out the car and heading over to open my door.
"Edward you don't' have to do this." I said as I got out.
"I want to and plus I still have to complete my dare." He smiled and grabbed my hand.
As we headed to the entrance I was excited and nervous about this part of our day. Excited because I loved the carnival and experiencing it with Edward was going to be fun. I was nervous because we were going to be married for the next few hours and that was going to be awkward.
"Are you okay Bells. With our new arrangement you don't have to do this." Edward said looking over at me.
I contemplated saying no because we were trying to be friends and things would get awkward but instead I smiled at him. "No problem at all my dear husband." I said and chuckled. I needed a day of fun and to forget about what had just happened so I welcomed the invitation. As long as things didn't get awkward we were going to be fine.
"Well Mrs. Cullen lets get this show on the road." Edward smiled over at me.
At the mention of Mrs. Cullen my heart was doing flips in my chest and I knew awkward was going to be the least of my worries. This was going to be an interesting time.
