Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight not me.

Authors Note: Right well here we are then, the next chapter! To answer some of your questions, Bella's conversion will be whenever it will be! :D Have to keep reading to see it.

Also about the intimacy thing I probably should have put more of an emphasis on it, but being that close to Bella is really painful for Edward, she got her wish and that is enough for her, she doesn't want to cause him any unnecessary pain. and despite that they are hardly ever left alone enough to get the chance to since Bella is exhausted from everything that is happening around her. At least that would be how I would imagine feeling, exhilarated from the wedding, being happy, but she has a lot of things on her mind too which would make her tired...you need a lot of energy to go through all the emotions the poor girl has had over the last few chapters!

So as always review please the more the better good or bad! :D

Chapter Twenty-Five

Rene had burst into tears several times when we went to say goodbye, one minute she was sobbing uncontrollably and the next she was smiling broadly her hand always hovering around her stomach protectively. Edward and I had gone to see them at the hotel before she left, and had stayed for about an hour before she had finally acknowledged that they would have to leave if they were to make the check in time at their hotel for the night. Having promised to email Rene as soon as I arrived at college, and been drawn into a vice like hug Rene and Phil had left, Phil's crutches leaning out the back window of the car.

I had been close to tears the entire time myself, fighting against them not wanting to upset Rene further. I knew that once I started I would find it next to impossible to stop. This was the last time that I would see Rene as a human, I wondered how different she would seem to me the next time that I saw her. For one thing she would have Marie too, but I would also crave her blood too, a thought that caused me to shudder. Edward who had been standing beside me holding my hand, pulled me closer to him comfortingly. I couldn't imagine wanting to hurt Rene and only hoped that when the time came that I would have enough control to be able to allow her to hug me as she had done today.

"Love are you alright?" Edward asked uncertainly as I continued to stare after the now out of sight car. I nodded slowly, not trusting myself to speak just yet, Edward put his finger under my chin and lifted my face up to see my expression. "It's alright Bella...it's not the last time that you'll see her..you have years left still.." Edward spoke softly rubbing his hands up and down my arms in an attempt to comfort me. I nodded again still unable to speak, but when I saw his pained expression at not being able to help I smiled reassuringly and finally found my voice again. "Edward...I'm fine..hounestly...there really is no need to worry about me..." I spoke softly moving closer to him resting my head against his shoulder, Edward wrapped his arms around me. "Love what exactly were you thinking when you saw Rene leave?" he asked, instantly picking out the point that was upsetting me and was something I'd rather not discuss. I shook my head, unwilling to answer, Edward sighed, "Bella I don't want us to have any secrets...please you know that you can tell me anything..." he pleaded, I knew that he would get it from me eventually I just hoped that it wouldn't upset him too much when he heard it.

I thought for a moment of how to word it carefully, "Well I was just thinking about the next time that I would get to see Rene...and how different everything would be..." I began trying to explain myself, "I mean for one thing she'll have Marie..and I won't have seen her for almost a year..and well I was just realising that this would be the last time that I would see her without some part of me craving her blood.." I finished not knowing what else that I could say to explain what I was feeling without worrying Edward further.

Edward frowned at me his expression remaining somewhat pained, "Bella if there was anything that I could do to change this for you I would...remember that you do not have to do this it's entirely up to you what you want to happen..." he spoke quickly, I could tell that my admission was making him nervous. My humanity always being a sore topic for Edward, "No Edward I want this...don't doubt that for a second...I'm having no second thoughts or doubts...I don't know how many times that I'm going to have to tell you this before it finally sinks in.." I moved back slightly and took his face in my hands, forcing him to look directly in my eyes, "Just because I'm considering the downsides to this it doesn't mean that I'm changing my mind...it only means that I really am making an informed decision I already know how things will change and am acknowledging it..not going blindly into the entire thing.." I finished hoping that my words would ease his worries.

Edward tilted his head to the side and smiled sadly at me, "I suppose when you put it that way it's hard to argue with you..." he began, "but love I truly wish that there didn't have to be a choice between myself and your family and I will never forgive myself for having taken you from them.." Edward trailed off staring over my head into the distance. "Edward...my life would be nothing without you...my family know that...they've seen that and I know that they never want to see that happen again...so look at it this way..instead of taking me from them your saving me from myself and giving them peace of mind.." I enthused knowing that what I was saying was true, unsure though if this logic was going to work on Edward.

Edward considered my words for a few moments and smiled his crooked smile at me, "I love you Bella...even when I'm doing something impossibly selfish and is going to hurt so many people including you.." I almost interrupted him at this point, "you still try to console me..." Edward finished looking at me incredulously. "What did I do to deserve you?.." he asked hugging me closer and kissing me on top of the head. I shrugged causing him to laugh, "The feelings mutual.." I whispered holding onto him a little tighter than before.

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Once Rene had left, Edward and I planned to leave the next day. We would drive to Alaska together to the new house accompanied by Carlisle and Esme who were telling people that they were both helping us find a place to stay. I knew that they would return to Forks then after my conversion only to be replaced by Rosalie and Emmett, who would help Edward look after me in my early days until Alice and Jasper followed on with the same excuse of returning to college or in Alice's case starting. Esme and Carlisle planned on staying in Forks for about two weeks before Carlisle would conveniently be offered a job in another hospital, forcing him and Esme to leave, and therefore come and join the rest of us.

Edward spent the night before we had left packing his CD's while I watched, afraid of somehow ruining his meticulously organised collection. He had laughed loudly when I had explained my reluctance to help and told me to just relax while he worked. I could hear the others around the house packing too, Alice had a ridiculous amount of clothes and was sending some cases to Alaska with us as were Rosalie and Emmett who would be along a few days after us. I could hear Jasper laughing loudly, his deep bravado voice being carried up the stairs, "Alice I don't think Edward is going to allow you to give him quite this much luggage to take with him to Alaska...he has some things too you know.." he teased. There was a loud crash and I heard Alice snapping something at him the words being drowned out by the loud laughter of Emmett who had been apparently walking past by the sounds of things. I could hear Rosalie now, "Emmett Cullen leave them alone and mind your own business!!" she scolded. After this everything went quiet and I sat there stunned for a moment before I burst out laughing.

I saw Edward look up at me smiling at me curiously "You heard that I take it?" he asked still grinning at me. I nodded unable to speak I was too busy laughing. I rarely got the chance to hear the other members of Edward's family be domestic with their partners, it seemed surreal to hear all these perfect creatures fighting and bickering over such human things. I smiled over at Edward my own perfect husband who was still smiling but concentrating on his CD's again, a little pucker mark forming on his forehead I wondered if we would be like them soon, for once just bickering over silly small things no major worries. I knew that the Volturi were expecting to see me converted but that didn't seem to be something worth worrying about now, the date of my conversion having been set. I hoped that it would always be as simple as it was now, no major worries just each other and our family living happily together.

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Charlie had been less emotional than Rene but it was clear that he was upset from the way he was so reluctant for us to leave. We had called by before we were supposed to leave, planning on having breakfast with him before leaving, but even though we had finished Charlie kept trying to delay us both. Bringing up different things that he had seen in the news or weather that might have made us wait a day or so before leaving, apparently it was supposed to be raining a little heavier than usual in Forks that day making driving unsuitable, according to Charlie. But eventually we had convinced Charlie that it wasn't exactly as treacherous as he had imagined, and had walked out into the hall preparing to leave. Edward had said goodbye to Charlie and was opening the door when Charlie pulled me back into the kitchen.

"Bells...good luck with everything...and remember that your always welcome here no matter what happens.." he added his gaze drifting to Edward quickly before reverting back to me; I knew that he was upset so I choose to ignore this action I couldn't expect him to have completely forgiven Edward. "I know that you'll make us all proud...and I want to give you a little something.." Charlie finished taking a manilla envelope from his back pocket and stuffing it unceremoniously into my hand. I could feel a small wad of notes inside the envelope and frowned at Charlie, "Dad I can't take this please.." Charlie interrupted me shaking his head and waving his hand stepping back from me, "Bells this is the least that I could do...your my daughter and I want to give you something towards your education...and even if you don't really need me any more I would still like to do something or you.." Charlie finished with a sad smile. I bit my lip to stop myself from crying, and lumbered forward instead hugging Charlie tightly, "Dad I love you...of course I need you...don't ever think that I won't...you only get one Dad.." I finished, surprised by my own declaration, as was seemingly Charlie, who hugged me a little tighter. "Thanks Bell... I love you too"