So I finally met this 'Father' guy.

He was the SPITTING IMAGE of Hohenheim. I thought it actually WAS him for a second.

And his eyes were...they were...

Dead.

Empty.

Cruel.

Merciless.

Condescending.

I think Ling was onto something when he said this...creature looked down on humans and called us fools.

Fools.

Fools he says?

And he wasn't done. He asked us...and I still can't believe how EVIL his reasoning is...if we saw an insect on the ground do we stop to consider it a fool? He said an insect's life is so far beneath you it's not worth judging.

Oh my God.

Is this bastard for real?

I've NEVER seen or heard ANYTHING so ruthless and cold-blooded in my ENTIRE LIFE.

Then I felt rage.

He's the one who took advatage of Hohenheim's ignorance and slithered his way into power.

He seduced him into gaining knowledge and thereby tricked the King into digging the giant transmutation circle around Xerxes.

He's the dick responsible for activating it and destroying the country in a single night. The Sage of the West. I thought it was just a legend in our history book.

But it isn't. He's real.

He's the reason Hohenheim left us behind. Why he stayed away for 10 years. And the only reason he came back was to warn Pinako to flee the country.

I should've went out there to see him off. But I didn't. Too much wounded pride and bitterness got in the way.

Besides, I think this is gonna be his last fight. With Mom dead and me and Al capable of taking care of ourselves I don't think he's gonna pick up and become our dad again. He's been on the road too long and like I said, his sun's gone down.

Anyway when we tried to attack him with alchemy he blocked it.

With his bare hand. Then he tapped the ground with his foot and some crazy red light and energy wave rushed through the lair.

Okay energy blast. No biggie. We got this covered.

Or so we thought.

But when Al and I clapped there was no ringing. And when we pressed our palms on the ground nothing happened. Not a single flash of light.

Uh...

What?

I'm sorry but...WHAT THE HELL DID HE JUST DO?!

He transmuted without a circle and he didn't budge an inch!

He ignored Equivalent Exchange. That...that shouldn't even HAPPEN. How? What?

Okay. Let me see if my eyes weren't playing tricks on me.

He tapped the floor.

With his FOOT.

And unleashed an energy wave.

That was serious levels of scary power.

I...don't know if we can do this. I dunno if we're strong enough, I mean SERIOUSLY?! His alchemy's RIDICULOUS. INSANE.

How?! This can't be happening. It can't be! Someone...anyone...tell me how we're supposed to defeat something like THAT?

Um...this is bad.

This is really, really, BAD.

I'm gonna stop here for now. My free time isn't as free as I thought. Who knows when I'll find the time to write in here again?

I'll try to squeeze in as many entries as I can, cause after what I experienced today?

These next few entries...might be my last words on earth.

It's cold in here...no that's not right.

I'm cold.

No matter how many times I wrap my coat around me, I can't get warm. The shivers won't go away. It's as if that energy wave sucked the warmth right outta my soul. When I couldn't use my alchemy, me and Al panicked. I'd never felt so helpless.

So human.

So powerless.

So normal.

So frail.

So...useless.

I didn't realize till that moment how much I relied on alchemy. Needed it like oxygen. And it was gone. Just like that.

What does this mean? I don't know what I'd do without it.

Besides Al and Winry and the Colonel and everyone else, it's all I've got left.

My gift.

My passion.

Could I really give it up?

Walk away for good?

I don't know.

But being useless is a scary feeling and I don't ever wanna feel that again.

Cause then, I'd stop thinking.

And when an alchemist does THAT, it's never good.

Alright enough rambling. It's gettin' late, so I'm gonna try to get some sleep. I'm gonna try to jot stuff down as I go but free time's getting scarce. I'll do my best.

Good night.