When we got back to the hotel after the concert Edward and I put the kids to bed and when we were both in the living room area it was silent. "Did you enjoy the concert?" Edward asked me and I just stared at him in disbelief. "What?"

"I was having a great time until you sang that song."

"What song?"

"What do you mean what song? That Not Meant To be Song! What the hell was that about Edward? What kind of thing was that?"

"It was a song Bella."

"A song that you sang at me, why do you keep singing these songs when I'm around or when you know I'm going to see them?"

"What do you mean?"

"What the fuck do you think I mean Edward? You sing 'The Hard Way', 'You'll Think Of Me', and I don't even know what the hell else. Then you sing songs about forgiveness and then you go and sing some song like that?"

"Bella"

"No Edward, I'm so sick of you singing all these damn songs but never talking to me! Why won't you talk to me instead of singing all these songs that make no sense because your sending so many damn different messages that I can't figure out anything!"

"What do you want me to do?"

"I want you to make an effort, your singing these songs about giving up and how we're not meant to be but your not even making an effort!"

"I'm on tour! What the hell am I supposed to do?"

"You could call me up and say oh I don't know, I'm sorry for fucking my ex-girlfriend? I mean I figured you'd at least have enough decency to at least TELL me what happened, but NO. I had to figure it out all by myself."

"We're really still fighting about this?"

I looked at Edward in disbelief again, "Still fighting about this? Yes Edward, we're still fighting about this because you're an ass. I've gotten one apology from you, ONE. You got endless from me."

"I'm sorry alright? But shouldn't YOU be the sorry one?"

"Sorry for what?"

"Because your made out with a guy and you still hang out with him on a daily basis?"

"We're friends and nothing has happened. I would tell you and you know that."

"How can I be so sure?"

"I flew across the country to tell you before, why would I not tell you now?"

"I don't know, I just. You know I have trust issues."

"Yeah and you know damn as well that I have my own issues with trust and everything. Do we need to review how long it took me to finally even allow you to get close to me again?"

"No but can I talk to you about something now?" I looked at Edward and saw that his demeanor had changed and so I nodded my head. "Alright, you want me to talk about something, so here I'm talking about something."

"Ok, go on." I urged.

"Clearly you and I are having a lot of issues because we can hardly even have a conversation without yelling at each other," I nodded my head in agreement, "And I think the kids are catching on."

"Oh really? I never guessed."

"Stop acting bitchy for a second please?" I nodded my head, "Maybe it'd be best if we take a break." I looked at Edward for a second to see if he was being serious. A break?

"Edward, what do you call this that we've been doing? As far as I'm concerned we've been on a five month break and things aren't getting any better."

"So what? You want a separation? A divorce?"

"No, I do not want a separation or a divorce. I want things to be better, I want things to be the way they used to. You changed me Edward, you made me a better person. I'm the way I am today because you loved me. If it weren't for you, I don't even know where I'd be. You taught me how to love again after I thought I couldn't love anyone else."

"But"

"But things can not get better until you apologize and act like a man and grow some balls and talk to me. We can't keep doing this not calling each other, ignoring one another when we are together and acting like we're happy for your image because that is just twisted."

"Twisted? How is that twisted?"

"Because we're lying to the media, the public, your fans but most importantly we're lying to ourselves and our family. How can you not see that that is twisted?"

"Then why did you do it?"

"I did it for your brothers."

"For my brothers but not for me?"

"Your brothers shouldn't be brought down with the drama of our marriage if people found out what was really happening. If it would "ruin" your career. Why should they have to suffer because you can't keep it in your pants?"

"Why do you always say stuff like that Bella?"

"Stuff like what?"

"Because I can't keep it in my pants. Did you ever hear the term forgive and forget?"

"You expect me to forgive and forget that you had sex with another girl when you can't even forgive and forget me for kissing someone? How is that even fair? Why is the blame placed on me for all of this?"

"Because you started it, you kissed James first and if you never did then I never would have slept with Tanya. It's that simple."

"It's that simple huh?" Edward nodded his head, "How do I know you didn't have some thing going on with her behind my back? You just happened to call up your random ex-girlfriend from like eight years ago and had her fly half way across the country so you could sleep with her to get back at me? Just your random ex-girlfriend. You really expect me to believe that?"

"I chose the one that would get the most rise out of you. I never expected to sleep with her, at the most I figured we'd make out but things got carried away because we were drinking."

"If you wanted to get the most rise out of me you would have called up Irina because you know you even being near her would have set me off. I could have cared less about Tanya, you guys dated so long ago. Why would I even care? And the fact that you figured you'd make out at the most is just sick. Your obviously the one that needs help in this relationship and not me."

"I apologized, I can only do so much."

"If your really sorry then why don't you write a damn song about how your sorry? Not about how you think we're not meant to be and shit."

"We wrote that song when I was upset."

"And you just had to sing it now? And by the way, singing a song about being sorry won't make-up for what you've done."

Edward rubbed his head in his hands, "So what are you saying you want to do? You want to take a break? You want to work things out and get back together? What?"

I thought about things for a second. Edward and I were finally talking in a relatively mature manner , I've wanted this for months but now it just feels weird. "There are two things I'm positive about. I love the kids and want to do anything possible for them and I love you and I want to try to make things work" I wiped some stray tears from my cheeks, "Eventually" I looked into Edward's eyes, "But I don't think anything is going to get better until you get back from tour."

"But I won't be back till January."

I nodded my head, "I know but I can't keep doing this long distance thing. This isn't something that we can solve tonight and magically be better. This has been a long battle and we can't just surrender over night. And who knows, maybe between now and January feelings with change, maybe we'll realize your song was right and " I wiped some more tears from my eyes as I spoke quietly enough to not wake the kids. "Maybe we're not meant to be." I looked at Edward who wiped a couple tears from his eyes. This whole night is a mess.

"And then what?"

"What do you mean and then what? If it doesn't work out then it's obviously not meant to. Maybe this is God's way of testing us, testing our relationship. To see if we'll fall or overcome our issues. If we survive it then we could probably survive anything and if we don't. Then it doesn't mean we're weak, it means we're strong enough to let go."

"And then we'd give up just like that?"

I laughed a little, "You know twenty minutes ago you were asking if we should take a break and now your acting like that never happened. Let's not think about that, let's just work on getting past this week. The girls want us to act like we're happy again and you know we may not be happy with each other but like I said, for my kids I will do anything. Even if that means acting like we still want to be together."

Edward nodded his head, "Just one last thing."

"Yeah?"

"Stop hanging out with James."

I looked up at Edward, "James is my best friend Edward. I'm not giving him up, he is one of the only things that keeps me sane during long days at work. If I didn't have him, I don't know if I would have been strong to make it this far." Edward just nodded his head and got up to walk into the bedroom.

Hmmm... You all wanted some kind of interaction with Edward and Bella and so here it finally was. :) Let me know what you think!