Not So Innocent
Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush.
The italicizes are Logan's thoughts in this chapter, but I'm sure you would have caught on.
TakingAllYouDownWithMe: Well, I updated faster than usual lately, but yeah Dak is a total Bitch, and even I feel bad for Logan. Thanks
Karinebigtimegleek: Oh you'll see what happens, and I promise you, there will be a reward on Dak's head soon. Thanks
Aqua786: Oh yeah, that DakxLogan stuff…pretty harsh thing to do on my part, Logan's going to be sooo emotionally scarred after this. Hahaha, I was actually going to have James say something like "I know you're not on your period 'cause you're a guy, so what's your problem?". And remember, you can kill Dak and Logan's mom, but I haven't said that Carlos's mom rejected him, just that he's scared to tell her. OOH and X Factor, I agree that Stacy is definitely the best adult, uh I'll say that Marcus is the best boy, and I don't really care for groups so…and Melanie Amaro for the girls (But you know, of course I would say that). I'm not sure how I will get you mentioned yet, but I'll do it, don't worry. Thanks
Fghjkl: Don't worry, Logan will tell someone, Dak will probably get mugged or something, but I don't know about jail, and Logan will be hesitant on sex for a while. Thanks
Jazckson: Don't you worry, *pat pat* things will get better soon, I promise :'( . But anyways, yeah Dak is going to pay, I promise you. And Logan's smarter than to not tell anyone. Thanks
Lewkis: Yeah, that was a depressing chapter, and kind of nasty, but yeah, here's your more. Thanks
Logan limped down the hallway, not realizing how bad Dak had hurt him. His face was already starting to bruise, and so was his side. Not to mention that his chest hurt too, but his ass hurt more. The small boy knocked on the door of 2J, hoping that Kendall and Carlos were home. He thought about going up to James's apartment, but couldn't bring himself to face that yet.
"Yes?" Kendall answered the door, looking kind of pissed off. "Oh, it's Logan…" Kendall said bitterly. "Look, we don't want you here. Carlos has used like three whole boxes of tissues on James, and you dumped him for a dumb reason." Kendall folded his arms and leaned on the doorway.
"Wait, James is here." Logan felt his heartbeat a little faster, and his breaths became uneven. "Can I talk to him?" Logan looked up at Kendall, and that's when the blonde noticed Logan's condition. His cheeks were indeed already bruising, and he was clenching his side rather eagerly.
"Oh my god Logan, what happened?" Kendall asked, suddenly turning nice.
"I…can't say." Logan looked down at his feet, disappointed in himself. "So, can I talk to him?" Logan looked up at Kendall with his big brown eyes. "I miss him like crazy. I shouldn't have dumped him, it's just…I've been depressed and the last few hours of my life didn't go as planned. I want him back. I love him." Kendall gave a little aw and then remembered he was Kendall, the strongest one.
"I don't know." Kendall sighed. "Carlos…he's here, should we let him in?" Kendall called to Carlos. They waited for a moment of silence, when finally he called back.
"Yeah, James wants to see him." Carlos called back, and instantly Logan's heart sank. This couldn't be good. Kendall slowly stepped aside, and Logan slid in the doorway. The door to their old room opened, and James and Carlos walked out.
"Hey James," Logan barely waved his wrist.
"How could you!" James blew his top off on contact. "You meant everything to me! We were going to get married! After all of that time of saying 'I love you', it was all just a joke to you! You always are the one to break-up with me! I never, ever, broke up with you! And when we did break-up, I always came for you, and you never made an effort to come back! So how come I still love you, huh?" James watched as Logan flinched on every word.
"I'm sorry James…" Logan winced at James's first step towards him, but Carlos stopped James in his tracks.
"He looks like he's been having a hard time." Carlos whispered into James's ear. "Let him come to you." The taller boy nodded as Logan looked like he was just beaten all over again.
"Logan, I can't see you in pain." James suddenly felt bad and tried to walk over to Logan, who flinched again. That was enough to stop James. "If I'm that painful to you, I'll go in the other room." James said, almost disgusted.
"Wait James!" Logan cried as he charged into James's arms. "I love you so much! I'm so so so sorry, and I shouldn't have broken up with you, I was just going through a hard time. Thinking about my dad and all got me worried about being too close to you, but you're the only reason I live! Without you, I have nothing." Logan stuffed his head into James's dark blue button up shirt. "I realized last night when something really bad happened to me that I do want to spend the rest of my life with you. Please forgive me…take me back?" Logan asked, almost pleading.
"Logan," James looked down at him. "You didn't even need to ask." James stated. Logan tried his best to do a smile, but he was still depressed that he couldn't tell anybody about what had happened. Logan thought very hard for a moment.
"Screw it, James I need to tell you something." Logan stated. "But, in private," Logan said, looking around at Kendall and Carlos. He pulled James into their old room, shut the door behind him, and guided James to the bed. "Please, just hold me closely," Logan stated, on the edge of tears. At the sight of him, James noticed all of his bruises and the tears in his eyes; it was like an abused puppy. James clenched onto Logan for the life of him.
"Okay what happened yesterday Logan?" James patted his back.
"So we broke up, and then I rushed back here." Logan swallowed. "But then I realized that I want you back, so I started on my way here. But on my way here I ran into…Dak." Logan shut his eyes tight. "He invited me to come in, so I did, then he told me to talk to him in his room, so I did. Then…he kissed me, but I didn't want to kiss him. One thing led to another and…." Logan stopped as the tears started to come out.
"And what Logie?' James asked with worry in his eyes. The brunet completely fell apart in James's arms.
"He…raped me…" Logan let most of his tears loose; it was hard to talk about. Remembering the events made Logan cringe. "That's why my face is bruised, my side hurts, and worst of all…he ripped my butt open by forcing his cock in."
"Wait, that bitch raped you!" James shouted at the top of his lungs. "I'll kill him! He dared to even put a hand on you, let alone hit you! Once I see him, that pretty face will be-," James got off of the bed.
"No!" Logan shouted in protest. "He told me not to tell anyone, or I would get hurt even worse." Logan looked towards James, and pulled him back down on the bed. The taller boy wrapped Logan up in a very warm embrace.
"I'm so sorry you had to go through that Logan. I promise I'll make it up to you. I'll get you flowers, any of your little science toys, more chocolates, I could even make the stain sheets and rose pedals again, and we could make love until-,"
"No, sex scares me right now!" Logan jumped off of the bed this time.
"Logan, I always go slow and make sure you feel good about it, how come you're all-," James reached for Logan's hand, but it was ripped away and Logan flinched. "Logan…" James stared at him. "I never hit you before, nor will I ever. So why did you just flinch?" James asked, his eyes filled with care.
"I'm sorry James, I'm a little on edge from Dak, and scarred from sex." Logan turned his head away. "I love you don't doubt that for a second, but let's just take it slow right now." Logan slowly walked over to James and hugged him.
"Okay," James picked Logan up and lied him down on the bed. "We're staying here tonight, so I can protect you from anything that tried to get to you." James waked around and lied down next to Logan. Soon, they were wrapped up in each other's arms.
"James, if you don't mind me asking, can I have my ring back?" Logan asked timidly.
"Yeah," James smiled very warmly at Logan, and reached in his left pectoral pocket and gave it to Logan.
"Why that pocket?" Logan asked, gladly taking it from him.
"No, don't make me tell you, it's cheesy and stupid." James smiled, giggled, and rolled his eyes.
"No, I want to know." Logan smiled at James, who took a deep breath.
"I put it in that pocket because…" James trailed off and looked around the room, not wanting to see Logan's face when he said it. "Just because…I wanted it close to my heart…" James closed his eyes, waiting for Logan's laughter, but instead Logan seemed to fall into his lips. James was caught by surprise, but absolutely kissed him back.
"That's one of the sweetest things you've ever said." Logan cupped James's cheek with his hand. "You're not going to make this 'no sex for a while' easy on me, are you?" Logan asked, to which James giggled.
"If you want to wait, honestly. I'll wait with you. I need to let you know that I can wait, and that I'm worth it." James stated.
"You're definitely worth it. The best thing I ever did, as pathetic as this sounds, is getting with you at that dance party." Logan kissed James's cheek and slid onto his chest. "I would never be as happy as I am without you. I've made many mistakes in my life, but breaking your heart was the worst thing I've ever done. You've gone to the ends of the earth for me. You've completely ditched Kendall, and you sang me a song in front of an audience and outed us at the same time. You got our jobs back, and most importantly, you made me feel like I belong again. No not just that…you've made me feel special." Logan snuck his head into James's neck. "I love you." Then Carlos and Kendall entered the room.
"Oh I like the sound of that!" Carlos squeaked. "You two are so freaking adorable!" Carlos shouted.
"But we're cuter," Kendall grabbed onto Carlos and pulled him into a hug. Logan and James just rolled their eyes and laughed. Soon, they became caught up in each other's gaze and put their foreheads together.
"I love you more." James stated.
"No I love you more." Logan grinned. James basked in Logan's eyes, relaxed to see him smile again.
"Trust me, I love you more." James whispered very romantically to Logan.
"I love you most." Logan nuzzled their noses together.
"I love you infinity." James slid closer in Logan's face and grabbed onto the back of his hair.
"I love you infinity plus one." Logan bit his bottom lip from excitement, and the two slid into each other's lips, kissing over and over again, which set Logan's worries to rest for the moment.
"Aww," Carlos smiled a little bit. "Precious!" Carlos leaned onto Kendall's arm.
"Carlos I love you more." Kendall stated, trying to one-up Logan and James.
"I LOVE YOU MORE!" Carlos shouted suddenly dead serious, which scared Kendall a little bit.
"Yes you do, sorry I brought it up." Kendall apologized and cowered into the kitchen. Carlos stayed, just to enjoy the two lovebirds, being all flirty and kissy with each other. Soon, James's foot started to move on top of Logan's and started to caress it. Carlos couldn't help but noticed how awkward this was getting for him. Their kisses slowed down and intensified with passion, and Logan started to rub James's foot back.
"Imma go now, sorry." Carlos took one last look at them, awed, and then went to join Kendall in the kitchen. James's hand slowly slid down onto Logan's ribs, which made him wince a little, and ruined the moment.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to push there." James apologized.
"It's okay." Logan smiled and curled up into James's arms. "I know you didn't mean to." Logan smiled to himself. He knew, no matter what, that his dad would have been proud, and would have accepted Logan for who he is.
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