A/N: So Sorry I haven't updated. I had the musical, and it was so crazy. I don't own Twilight, and enjoy the chapter.

Chapter 26: Can you forgive me

Bella POV

I couldn't actually leave without visiting one place first. The only place I had been happy and happier days spent there. I went to the meadow. I drove the familiar route, thinking about so many memories we had made there, being Edward and Bella not human and vampire. I love him, but I suppose he doesn't love me anymore. I sighed, cranking up the music to put on some trashy rap song, escaping my old self to try to make it in the future.

Edward POV

I was falling apart every minute I had been away from her. She was my light, but now darkness had engulfed me once more. I wasn't ready to try to face anyone, and I knew that there was a possibility of never finding her. That made matters worse. Tick tock tick tock. Another minute passed, and I'm still sitting in my room, while my family is out looking. I curled up, and let the misery continue to eat at me. Vampires never get sick, but guilt can slowly kill us.

Alice POV

My brother was being no help. He was sitting in his room miserable, while we were trying to find his love. I mean, Bella is our sister, but Edward not helping makes things worse. It was his fault in the first place that Bella had left. He made us drive a wedge between our ties. So now, I'm driving in my car thinking of where she would be, and then it hit me. I slammed the pedal, and sped to the meadow.

Bella POV

I sat in the meadow dreaming. The flowers around me were beautiful shades of blues, violets, and yellows, but the way I saw them were black, white, and gray. They held no meaning for me, if I couldn't share them with Edward. I pondered a moment about killing myself. No, I can't because; I would be doing it because I'm too miserable to try to live over something stupid like a guy. I shut my eyes, when I felt a presence, and heard a rustling of leaves. I opened them, and sat up quickly, trying to scan the forest. I head the rustle again. I yelled out "Friend or foe?" nervously. The sun wasn't shining, and it looked ready to rain, a mirror to my mood. A person sighed, and walked out. I looked closely and saw Alice here, an expression of relief, sadness, joy, and anger on her face. My face however, was panic.

"How did you-?" I asked confused. I had made split second decisions, for the reason I didn't want to be found.

"I did it blindly. Bella you had us worried. Why did you leave?" she asked me angrily. For the first time in a while she talked to me, and it was angrily.

"YOU HAVE NERVE ALICE CULLEN! YOU ABANDONED ME, THE WHOLE FAMILY DID! I LEFT BECAUSE I HAD TO. I HAD ENOUGH TROUBLE WITH CHARLIE AND NOW YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. I MADE SPLIT SECOND DECISIONS TO ESCAPE YOU, SO JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!" I yelled. I was panting heavily, my weak human lungs to weak for that kind of anger. Alice stared sadly.

"Bella, Edward does love you. He's been a mess since you left, and it's only been a half of a day. You had us scared half to death, we love you and that's why we avoided you. You have no idea what we've been going trough since Edward made us leave you alone. He's been curled in a ball on the ground not leaving." She said. I was not surprised she had said this.

"Alice I won't come home. It's an excuse to get me back, for whatever reason, but I know it is not that Edward loves me. I'm sure th—"but I was cut off, because a whack to the head gave me a throbbing pain, and I was out like a light.

Mary POV

It was 3:23 when I got the call. That time I had been happy. I was with Drew, and we had been lying on the lawn just talking and making out. When I got the call, I thought it was Bella. When I realized it was Rosalie, I was worried. I answered quickly.

"Rose what's wrong?" I asked her panicking.

"Bella up and left. She ran away Mary. We don't know where she is. We think she may come to Cedar Mills. Can you look for her?" she said quickly. I freaked out. Bella, the girl I practically called my sister, was missing. I dropped my phone in shock and horror. Drew picked it up quickly.

"yes?" "Oh no." "Okay we'll be on it." "Bye Rose." Drew hung up the phone quickly.

"We have to look for Bella." He said. His face was the epitome of a suffering man. He knew it hurt me to know Bella wasn't with them.

"I hope she's okay. Oh no what if she's hurt? What if—"I said, but Drew silenced me with a kiss, telling me everything was alright.

Alice POV
I didn't mean to, but I had to. Bella wouldn't come willingly, so I had to force her. I whacked her over the head lightly, putting her to rest. I picked up her light fragile body in my arms, staring at the face of my sister. She was almost serene, in the state of mind she was in. Her rosy lips were slightly parted, and her hair fell in her face. I ran quickly to the car, praying she would be out a little while, yet willing her to wake up. I only hoped that she could forgive all of us. We were selfish, wanting her to come back after she left, but we needed her. I laid her in the back seat, ready to face my family at home.

Bella POV

Mom…Charlie…Max...Edward...Alice...Rosalie...Emmett...Esme...Carlisle...Jasper...Mary...Drew...Red eyes in the mist...Debussy…chocolate………….these were all the images I was receiving. Was this what the end was truly like? Would I only remember my favorite things? I didn't want to forget. Every memory, every tear, I wanted to keep that. I looked around at the white room I was in. it was like back with my birthday, but different. I knew I was conscious somewhere. Before I was dead. I hated death. Death parts our paths, takes someone from us and kills a bit of us in the process. "Bella." Someone whispered. It was a soft caress, like a mother's touch. "Bella." The person (or creature, whatever it was) whispered a bit harsher, rough a cracked, strained in pain. I sighed. In this room I felt no pain; I was happy, no more fear or anything. But….I just said I wanted my memories. I needed to choose. "BELLA!" a voice yelled. That voice I recognized. Edward was here, but I didn't know where. I made my choice. I focused on the voice, and found my head was clearing. I became more aware, a pain throbbing in my head, little whispers around me, and someone holding onto my hand for dear life. My eyes flickered for a moment, not really registering what was happening, but I finally forced them open. I was blinded momentarily, even though only a single overhead light was on. I blinked a couple times, adjusting, and looked around me. All the Cullens were in a circle around me, and Edward was the one holding my hand. I flinched slightly, but knew he could feel my rejection. He frowned, but let go of my hand.

"Are you okay Bella? Alice whacked you kind of hard." He said casually, with a hint of roughness in his voice. I was mad.

"What do you think? I'm ignored by my family, get shut out by the love of my life, run away, and get dragged back here against my will. How do you think I feel?" I asked. I hadn't meant for it to come out that way. As soon as I said the words, I regretted it. I wanted to feel more anger.

"I'm sorry Bella. The family ignored you because I told them to." He said the frown still on his face. The family nodded their heads in agreement. I smiled. My rage was about to go through the roof.

"Do….you…..mind….leaving….Edward……and I…….alone?" I asked between teeth. Esme and Carlisle shuffled out of the room quietly holding hands, with Alice, Jasper and Rose followed after them. Emmett was still there.

"Why are you here?" I asked a bit more calm.

"I want to see Edward get yelled at." He said, a smile playing on his lips.

"Fine. Go ahead." I said. I turned back to Edward.

"EDWARD ANTHONY MASEN CULLEN!!!!! HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME! YOU LEFT ME ALONE IN THIS WORLD! I AM SO MAD AT YOU RIGHT NOW I COULD PROBABLY ATTEMPT TO KILL YOU!" I yelled. He just looked at me, waiting for me to continue, while Emmett was laughing. I glared at him.

"EMMETT DON'T EVEN LAUGH! YOU TOOK ORDERS FROM HIM! YOU'RE A MAN AREN'T YOU! OR DID YOU BECOME A PANSY? DOES ROSE LEND YOU HER UNDERWEAR NOW?" I yelled. He shrank back a little bit. Mentally I laughed at my teddy bear brother being frightened by a human. he looked at me.

"Wow Bells I didn't know you had it in you. I'm just gonna go……oh and I don't borrow Rosie's underwear. I steal it." He said with a grin, and ran off. I sat there stunned. Edward was smirking in the corner.

"DON'T LAUGH!" I yelled. He sighed.

"Bella I do love you really." He said, taking my hand once again. I pulled away.

"You have a funny way of showing it. You abandoned me Edward……..I loved you. Why do you hurt me so? I thought we were in love. I guess……all dreams come to an end. I'm sorry. For everything. I'll leave." I sighed. I moved to get up, but I'd only gotten as far as sitting up before I was pulled into the stony embrace.

"Don't go Bella. When you left, I was a complete wreck. I truly love you and that's why I distanced myself. I need you safe always Bella so that I can carry on in this dark world. You're my light and I need that." he said. his voice was filled with so much agony; I couldn't help but want to forgive him. So, since I was so torn I started crying. "Shh Bella don't cry now. Just know I love you." He said quietly in my ear. I sat there, still crying. I have no idea how long we sat like that, a distraught mortal, and a godlike immortal, but as we sat there, we were no longer mortal and immortal. We were Bella and Edward, and I wanted it to stay that way.

"Do you still want to leave?" Edward asked after some time. I shook my head.

"I only left because I thought you wanted me gone." I told him. He leaned in to kiss me, to assure me everything was fine, but…..I turned away. I couldn't face this yet. He frowned.

"Bella you know I love you now, just kiss me." He said, exasperated, yet adoringly and laced with love. I shook my head. I needed to focus.

"Edward." I said. I had missed saying his name in the short time I left. "I can never be accepted for who I am. I just have to accept that and move on." I said. Then, deliberately, he pulled me in and kissed me softly. I was about to pull away, but the feel of his lips on mine was incredible. Hot and cold was clashing again, and my world was back to the way it used to be. I was Bella again; the shy girl who has self-confidence issues and loves more antique stuff than modern. I was free to be me, and I realized I didn't want to go anywhere. After a few minutes, Edward pulled away.

"You just said you felt like you couldn't be accepted here right?" he asked me. I nodded slowly.

"Well I guess I never gave you your birthday present." He said, pulling a box wrapped with a gold bow out of his pocket. I stared incredulously at it. He smirked. "Go on. Open it. I want to see your expression." He said. I glared.

"It better not have cost too much." I warned, pulling the bow off in the process. I opened the black velvet box, enjoying the texture of it against my skin, and looked inside. Nestled in the box was a necklace that was oval shaped. It had a lion carved on it, with an open hand over top, and three little 3 leaf clovers on the bottom. The hand had a sapphire stone in it, giving off a shine, and the bottom clovers had a topaz gem in one, garnet in the other, and on the other end onyx. I looked at it in wonder. Edward smiled at me.

"I told them you'd like it. Alice didn't get the vision, but I knew." He said. I smiled up at him.

"You remembered the garnet? I was sure you would forget." I said laughing.

"I never forget anything Bella. And now you can officially be a Cullen, because the carving on the necklace is our crest, so it belongs to us alone." He said pulling me in for another kiss. I smiled in it, not caring that the rest of the family had walked back in, because I knew when Edward and I finished they would want to apologize, although I didn't want to hear it. I knew we couldn't go back to exactly the way things were, but I knew that Emmett would tease me again, Alice would try to make me look pretty, Esme would mother me, Carlisle would check to make sure I was okay, Jasper would talk to me about books, Rose and I would exchange life stories, and Edward would never stop loving me. Even if he had to be reserved, I'll say I love you for the two of us.

Mary POV
Well, we got a call from Alice. Bella was safe again, so you know what that means. If you guessed introduce Drew to my dad, then ding ding ding we have a winner! Yes I get to introduce my gorgeous, funny, beautiful, caring, intelligent, dreamy, perfect guy to my father who has only one child that so happens to be a girl. I was in my room getting ready, by putting on a blood red tank top, black skinny jeans, and red ballet flats. It would have been nice to wear this out of the house, but my dad insisted that we eat at home. Not like he even eats. He would just drink blood. For the record, my father's eyes are red, but he just gets the blood from the blood bank. He would never kill a human. if he had no choice he would kill the animals. The door bell rang, and I was racing to get the door before my father, but that didn't work out so hot. Dad answered, and sure enough my boyfriend was there, holding a single red tulip in his hands. He was wearing a red shirt, perfectly matching mine, and his grin on his face. My dad looked him over for a minute.

"Sweetheart, what was his power again?" he asked me.

"He can read minds, like Edward dad. You like Edward remember?" I said. my dad smiled and looked at my boyfriend again. Drew paled a bit.

"You know I always wondered why you and Edward never hit it off." He said casually. Drew frowned.

"Too strong for him. Besides he loves Bella dad. Remember?" I was mentally laughing because that was a bunch of bull. We never hit it off, because Edward was such a pansy, and I was convinced he was gay. I mean how do you live with many women in your hundred years on earth, and not feel attracted to any of them? Drew smirked at my thoughts.

"Won't you come in Drew?" my father asked. He moved aside so my lover could get in. He handed me the red tulip. I took it gently from his hands, his soft touch irresistible. My dad sighed.

"Are you guys going to eat dinner at all, or are you going to stand there like you're clueless." He asked. I took Drew's hand in mine as we walked through the hallway to the dining room. Dad took his seat at the head of the table, while I sat next to him, and Drew sat beside me. My father had his usual glass of A positive blood, while Drew and I had medium rare steaks, fried potatoes, and a glass of blood to finish it off. The whole meal was silent, except for the occasional question or two. After diner was another story. We had gone to the living room to relax, when dad dropped the most embarrassing question.

"Are you two being safe?" he asked. My face resembled a tomato as soon as he asked. Drew, who had known it was coming, was unfazed.

"We aren't doing it if that's what you mean." He said. "I want to wait until marriage." He said. my dad smiled approvingly.

"What's your life goals? Will you be able to support your future wife?" he asked. Drew fidgeted a bit.

"Well I'd like to be a nuclear engineer, but if I really wanted to I could use my parent's trust fund for the rest of my life." He said.

"Alright you can go." Dad said. "Nice meeting you, come again, bye." He said, ushering my boyfriend out the door. I didn't even get a goodnight kiss!

"Dad." I whined. He just smiled.

"Mary, I love ya sweetheart, but that boy is trouble. He loves you, but I fear it isn't enough." He said. I sighed.

"Dad, trust my judgment. He loves me, I love him. Leave it at that." I said.

"Alright sweetheart. Now if you don't mind there's a football game on. I'd like to watch it." He said. I groaned and ran upstairs. I put some music on and laid on my bed thinking. I loved Drew, but he doesn't speak of his past, so how can we move on in a relationship? Oh well maybe I just……….but before I could finish that thought I was out like a light.

A/N: so this would have been up Easter, but mum took my laptop, and the chapter got deleted. It took me 12 crosswords, 34 word searches, and 86 tripeaks games to think of this. Also I had the play which was funny cause the one guy fell of the ramp lol. Anyway please review even though I don't deserve it, and this chapter sucks. PEACE!