Chapter 26
Jace POV
Dear Diary,
This is stupid. I don't even know what to write but Alec told me I was being depressive and maybe writing it down might help; he really is a girl sometimes, maybe he's spending too much time around Magnus.
It has been a couple of weeks since the incident at Taki's. I can't believe I kissed her. I promised myself I was done with her; she had hurt me more times than I could actually count. So why did I keep going back to her? The way she was looking at me in Taki's and the way our bodies were pressed together, I just couldn't handle it and I kissed her. I kissed her with all the love I could manage and all the anger I felt towards her that she ran away from me... but what did I do after I kissed her? I ran. I fucking ran. If I hadn't of run I would have stayed there kissing her for hours and hours and I can't let myself do that. Homecoming was coming up soon and I was dateless. Me, Jace Lightwood, single for homecoming. I was hoping Aline would go with me but she had finally plucked up the courage to ask Helen who had gladly accepted. With that plan out the window I was left with no one. Well that's a lie, I've had loads of girls come up to me, trying to be flirty and trying to subtly bring up homecoming in the hopes that I would ask them but I didn't want to take any of them. I just wanted to take one girl and one girl only but guess what, just like in every terrible high school movie, the girl was taken. It was my own fault really. After I ran out of Taki's her and Sebastian had become close even though he's a jerk. Clary said to Izzy that he may be a jerk but he is sweet sometimes and she didn't want to go to homecoming on her own. My heart broke for her, I had done that and now I would never have my chance.
Speaking of Homecoming, guess who's eligible for Homecoming King? Only my handsome self. Also Sebastian but no one cares about him. Clary was also eligible for Homecoming Queen and she was most definitely a queen. Izzy dragged me and Alec along with her, Magnus and Clary to get our suits and their dresses. When Clary came out in the sparkling gold dress I swear I nearly fainted from the beauty radiating off her. The long dress gave her elegance and curves, the gold heels giving her height. She was beautiful and I couldn't wait to see her on Homecoming night, wishing she was my date but that ship had sailed and I only had myself to blame. After everything we had been through I finally thought we could have been getting somewhere. So I could finally have the girl.
I can't take it anymore. At homecoming I'm going to make her choose. Me or Him and if she chooses him, she's lost me. Not just romantically but as a friend to. I couldn't live seeing her all the time be happy with someone else. That's unfair on me.
I guess we'll see what happens at Homecoming.
Jace Lightwood.
Hey Guys! I'm sorry this took so long and it's so short, it's sort of a filler. I've already written the next chapter (which will hopefully be up tomorrow if I'm not busy, if not it will be up on Thursday!) however after I wrote chapter 27(which was 26) I felt like the chapters didn't flow very well so I added this little Jace insight just to give a little bit more information. I'm sorry if it sucks, I'm swamped with work at the moment. Thank you for reading; if you've made it this far write 'I love Collapse' in your review;)
Be sure to check out my new Clace one-shot if you haven't already it's called 'You Let Her Go' and it was so fun to write.
I love you all.
Chey xxx